Secret ThoughtI'm depressed,Secret Thought5 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
And I don't know why.
I take that back.
That's a lie.
I want to cry,
But my eyes won't let me.
You'd probably think
My reason is silly.
I think about my
Old way of coping.
I regret it everyday
So don't think I'm moping
If I hadn't stopped
I could be dead by now
I'm glad most people
Never found out
"A Virgo's secret desire:
To love and be loved."
I don't want to be judged
Seven years passed.
I never had a chance.
No use in taking
A fighting stance.
"I know God wouldn't put me through anything He knows I can't handle...
I just wish He didn't trust me so much."
We meant to let it dieHold me tight against your chestWe meant to let it die5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Lest the wind of hurt, pain me again.
Whisper in my ear, words of love and passion,
I need the security of your voice in this time of uncertainty.
But my heart is heavy, and your arms are cold.
You're not here, it's just the ghostly lingers
Of your touch, your soul.
How could you have left me so alone?
fear doesn't hide from any season
i decided it would be best to run away,
i turned my back on your reasons,
this winter, i'm afraid i could not stay,
i used to think i meant something,
you made me feel like i was assurance,
but your words and my things left a sting,
i'm sure this looks like it doesn't make any sense,
You know they say that bliss is ignorance
I could have done without your poison's kiss.
And for every lie you told, I told three more
I guess neither of us shall ever see heaven's door.
You used to mean the world to me
But then I found my world had changed.
No longer were you able to restrain me
Without that strength I crave, you and I
What My Nightmare Sings To MeWhen my heart broke, was it audible?What My Nightmare Sings To Me4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Was the pain made evident by the tears on my face?
Was it perceptible when the soul left my body?
Can you tell that I'm truly in a separate place?
I remain on this earth, but I'm in another world
I'm trapped, condemned to my own heartache
Who knew life could be as cruel as you?
You're the cause of every single heart-break
Leave me to bleed here, all alone
Leave me here in solitude to cry
You've lost my trust, I have lost it all
All that is left to do is die.
I'm the corpse, you're the murderer
You're the nightmare, I'm the dreamer
I'm the prey, you're the predator
You're the pain, I'm the screamer
The stars are closing in
The bullets are coming my way
My world will soon end
Three cheers for the final day
Love's LabelsHold me tight in your embraceLove's Labels5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Loosen ties of envy and hate,
Fill the holes with love so strong.
Every time I sing
It'll be your song.
Kiss my tears
Taste the saltiness of my fears.
My yin released, rising up
To meet your yang.
It's sensual, seductive,
Forehead to forehead,
So intimately divine.
Our souls touch for a brief minute
One pure as fresh fallen snow,
The other black,
Dark as the devil's own.
Angels and demons,
Woman and man.
We're all the same,
We feel the same,
Bleed the same,
We're all the same,
It's only labels that brand.
CutThe fear in her eyes.Cut5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The pain in her heart.
She picked up the blade
And all she wondered was:
"Where do I start?"
Tears mixed with blood;
Metal with skin.
As she cut deeper
her soul was numb within.
Smiling at the escaping pain,
She cut deeper
Again and again.
What was once just a way to cope with life's friction
Became an overcoming addiction.
The Jazz KingI met Mikah on a cold rainy day, walking down the streets of Broadway.The Jazz King5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
He had a paper bag and it was soaked right through,
And in the tone of the desperate I asked "Mister, can I help you?"
He looked at me and said "There's no hope to be had,
These fingers are too old to have any play left". And he raised his bag and said
"This is the only way I can carry a tune, ain't got the voice no more to sing,
So no thank you." As he walked away I called out
"Are you sure there's nothing I can do?"He said "I was born to be a musician
Now those dreams are through. Tell me hun what good's a body I can't use?"
I stared at him, my mind told me to go, my feet just wouldn't move.
"I used to play guitar in a jazz bar on fifth avenue, my fingers would fly like magic,
And in the strings I found heaven."
"How long has it been since you lived your dream?" I asked
"It's been a year, maybe two." I look at him confused
"You lose track of time when you live as I do."
"What happened?" I was thinking of some grea
Shadows fadeTime is measured in barely noticed ticksShadows fade5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Most watch the clock counting down to
A specific time, wasting all those precious minutes
That can never be returned. I am one of those.
My earliest memory as a child of four or maybe three
Covered in bruises and blood, praying for release.
Time hasn't been and never was kind to me
I've spent my whole life trying to escape it's fate,
My destiny. I've been beaten, I've been battered,
I've been misunderstood, I've never mattered.
I was taught I wasn't worth the air I breathed,
This damn lesson I relearn when will I believe?
The things I've done, the things I've seen,
I could crush so many lives with the secrets I keep.
Everyone walks on by, no one really sees,
Swallowed up in hate and pain,
I lied, I still crave deaths release.
I'll never be the axis to someone's existence
I've never played the leading role in someone's life,
I live in the outskirts of everyone's world,
So I seep back in the shade, searching for
Something always out of reach,
Don't wanna LoveIn time all the lies I swallowed will be digested,Don't wanna Love5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And all the erosion it caused be subjected,
To the warm, soothing rays of healing light.
With my other half of heart,
The one I took back from you.
I'll sew up stitches straight to form one,
Where there once was two.
Because with his love my heart can beat anew,
Strong and steady as it was meant to, pure and true.
Patterned thoughts of happier times blanket my mind,
feelings long ago lost wash over me in waves of pain.
I count breaths taken til released from my welcome prison,
until your memory no longer carries a sentence.
I don't want to be granted pardon
For I would rather die again and again,
thoughts of how it used to be vivid in my mind,
than to forget for one second all you are to me,
to have no memory of what you made me feel.
Our so called love was never real.
Illusions weaved through contentment meals.
My heart you never battered, My soul you never healed.
I've lost all desire to be your warden
Just as I
Waiting For JanuaryWho knew that March could be so very cold?Waiting For January4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The wounds never seem to cease aching
Only a quarter through, and this year is getting old
And so is this trend of each day my heart breaking
Yesterday you met one of my countless gazes
And I held it for as long as I possibly could
So now I fill these papers with countless phrases
That go frequently misunderstood
Your radiant light glows like that of the moon
And you guide me through the darkest night
But even as I stand here mutely at high noon
I'm left in the dark, without one ray of light
For you left me cold when your eyes left mine
And that left my soul frenzied, undone
I'll wait patiently as my lifeline declines
Because I know if I died for you, you'd tell no one
Anthrax cloud number9My words are not intended to slander,Anthrax cloud number95 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
to pain or wound in anyway,
It's amazing that when I want them to matter
They get swept under the carpet
As if they weren't worth the breath to say.
I really wish you could see
I'm more simple than you make me
Out to be.
My karma fairy came back
To deliver destiny it seems.
I will not do yoga or gymnastics
Nor crawl upon streets of nails
To prove myself to you,
I am me and I'm sorry
But that's all I will be.
I'm only the icing on your cake anyway
Insignificant in the scheme of things
I try to believe but your actions
Provoke actions of my own
That terrify me.
So I take the blame,
Funny I can't make it work,
With the one guy
I haven't played.
Maybe that's the crux of it
I didn't treat you like you were the same.
How many times must I speak
Before my words are understood?
How many more times
Until you believe, your faith restored?
What is it you want?
I haven't a clue.
I'm only human
I hurt and bleed the
Same as you.
But when you hurt me I
New Identity Due To HeartacheYour back is turned,New Identity Due To Heartache5 years ago in Other More Like This
Hand resting on the doorknob
My heart is lying on the ground between us,
Tears pooling at my feet
My lips mouth words with no sound
I love you.
But you cant hear what my soul cries out
Perhaps if my body had been functioning properly
And my heart left unbroken
You may have heard
Maybe you would have seen through the veil
Maybe would have seen how much I truly need you
Perhaps you wouldnt have walked through the threshold
And out of my life
Youre out of sight, out of sound
However, most definitely not out of mind
How am I able to hurt so much when Im left without my soul?
You took it when you left, you know
You took all of me, but left me here as well
Im a stranger now.
34. StarsAs the stars go out each night34. Stars5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I wish upon each one.
For there is something that I know:
Every day is a gift.
Living day to day we risk
This precious present.
But each time I see the stars
I know one more day was well spent.
Alive and in your arms;
A wonderful gift indeed.
In slumber we dreamSomething seemed differentIn slumber we dream5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Something felt changed,
Your lips said hello,
But your eyes were miles away.
You played your role so well
Didn't miss a single line.
If I hadn't already
I'd have fell at your feet,
After the night you gave me,
For the first time I felt complete.
I lay there long after you fell asleep
With my head on your chest,
Just listening to you breathe.
I was going to wake you for
An early morning treat,
But every time I moved,
You wrapped your arms around me,
And said "Easy baby, I got you"
And I swear you said
"your safe with me".
I didn't want to fall asleep
I feared I'd wake to find you'd,
Gone home instead.
But your body felt so right
So natural to lay in my bed,
With you skin to skin.
Wasn't long till slumbers decent.
The morning brought the daylight
And with it the news you had to go.
It's so hard to watch you leave
I never know when you'll be back again.
I always wonder where you are
And who your with,
Silly as I have no rights to you,
So no right to
Things Gone Are Gone For GoodMe without youThings Gone Are Gone For Good5 years ago in Other More Like This
Is like a hearth with no fire
Like a heart with no beat
Like a dance with no feet
Where did all the time go?
Where did all the feelings go?
You left me with nothing at all
And by the time spring came around
You were gone
And I was thanking the gods
That you weren't there to see my tears
Where'd everything go?
Sand AngelsThe tides are turningSand Angels5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Who we were
Swept off with waves.
Like forgotten lingers
Just teasing us
Of what used to be.
And the sand angel imprints
Is where together
We'll always be.
Plummeting IntellectMemories with no definite form haunt mePlummeting Intellect5 years ago in Other More Like This
Ones I'm on the verge of remembering but cannot quite perceive
Tears fall like my common sense to the floor
And I'm left alone with only the silhouettes of reminiscences
Little LoganI didn't want him when I found outLittle Logan5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I thought my family complete.
But I'm pro-life so I didn't abort
And too selfish to give up a part of me.
Now that he's here I can't imagine
Him never being.
He is my jewel, my light,
Everything wonderful with a pixie face.
His eyes are full of mischief,
His smile brighter than an atomic blast,
He stole my heart from the first and
I don't want it back.
In the wee hours of the morn
He climbs into my bed
Lays his sun kissed head on my pillow,
His little hand upon my cheek.
Still caught in the sands of slumber
He whispers 'I love you mommy'
And falls back asleep.
My heart melts every morning
I cuddle his little body close
Inhaling the fragrance of baby
I too drift off to sleep again.
He runs up to me for a hug
And a kiss while an
I love you falls from his sweet little lips.
Is the most special one yet.
ThiefYou stole my heart the moment our eyes metThief5 years ago in Other More Like This
But had no idea of your newest possession
You took my soul from its incarceration
And, yet, you're still oblivious
And each time you come around
You take my breath away
You thieved the agony
So that I'm in a permanent state of ecstasy
So long as I'm with you.
X-RayYou see straight through meX-Ray5 years ago in Other More Like This
You expose my inner self
Your gaze is so penetrating
And I have no place to hide.
Tears And StarsTears fall like rainTears And Stars5 years ago in Other More Like This
Eyes sparkle like stars
A heart filled with this much pain
Will definitely end up with scars
Whyd it have to be you?
You seemed so stable
I cant believe its true
Im simply unable
I never got to say goodbye
I never expected your last breath
I almost wish this was all a lie
But no one can cheat death
Leaked Frozen BladesWicked verses, double edged blades,Leaked Frozen Blades5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Rhyming words squeezing heart cords, frozen.
Direct hit, aimed to weakness, Tears not blood are leaked.
Horror depicted upon her face, as she stands holding the blade.
lashing out in anger, she never meant for him to freeze.
He clutches his chest in agony while the tears leak.
She tries to explain but all he see's are the blades,
She steps forward, he steps back and her heart is frozen,
He turns to go, she cries no, down her face water leaks.
With mere words in guise of blades, she froze his love now tears all she leaks.
UnspokenI want to tell you how I feelUnspoken5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But fear has the words poised on my silent tongue.
If I should let them escape
Just what would that make you do?
What would that make you feel?
You once said we don't have to live inside
That song, though it describes us oh so well.
It was in that moment that my heart squeezed
For I was thinking about how much I care
And at that point I felt you were walking away,
I felt the love we made was your good-bye.
I couldn't look at you or the tears I hide
I would have released, In front of you I'd have cried.
Sometimes I get so jumbled inside
The fear that there's someone else sharing your life
Eats me alive, I want so much to speak of things
I shouldn't know. There's questions
That are burned behind my lids
So every time I close my eyes I see them.
I gave you the most important thing I had to give
I did it secretly so you'd never know it.
For I couldn't handle if you didn't want it
I think I'd die If you gave it back.
I know its not much and your worth more than
Damned PerfectionEvery word you say is poetryDamned Perfection4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Every breath you take is another breath in me
Every move you make is another toward checkmate
And it seems that I can't win this game
But I'll still adore you just the same
Call it damnation, call it fate
And yet it's just another day
In this fantasy world called Hell.
Tears in the windAll I wanted was someone to seeTears in the wind5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm not as strong as I pretend to be.
Someone who could part the veil
Unravel my illusions to see my "real".
Am I that great a deceiver?
Or does no one care enough to try?
It feels as if my whole life all I've done is
Live a lie. But how to separate truth from fiction?
What is merely suspicion?
Crimson stains upon dull hearts
My vices have succeeded in tearing me apart.
So where the hell do I start?
Is there none out there in the vast abyss
Capable or willing to jigsaw this,
Puzzle that be my heart?
Can you sew me back together but keep a single part?
I know it's possible to exist without a full working heart
As long as it still beats, well thats a start.
I really don't demand much, attention don't cost a cent,
But is that still too much for you to part with?
Materialistic I'm not,
But my razor bladed tongue slashes everyone.
I'm rather kind of stubborn
I like to get my way.
But If you attempt to take a chance on me
I'm sure I can change my ways.