SuddenlyGoodbyes said in too much haste,
with regrets in shades of grey.
Repressed anger and frayed emotion
with promises broken, for reasons only seen
through rose-coloured glasses,
on the faces of nameless people.
Days in monotone, clouded with desire and
the hope of disquise, given by the marionette
with no strings.
Screaming the answers we need to hear, but
still the lonliness is felt, in a room filled with
bodies with no souls.
The acrid smell of desperation is so potent, as
to take away our breath, and leave us gasping
for the very air we breathe.
Saturated in the belief that torment is all encompassing,
and our free will is locked in a Pandora's box,
struggling with ego and self pity.
Too much to deal with, and set aside in rows
of matchbox cars, and only played with when
Life is as sudden as a tempest on the horizon,
or as drawn out as a mindgame of chess, with
too many pieces in all the wrong places.
Suddenly, is what I feel and suddenly, is
Forever is a Long TimeForever is a Long Time6 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Forever is a long time,
So much longer than a day
Forever is filled with memories,
Many more than I can say
Days of boundless beauty, stretching farther than I can see
Nights of purest solitude, that set my spirits free
My mind, it gets to thinking, of all that matters most
Pertaining to what is seen as real, or fleeting as a ghost
To live can have no boundaries, and give us all our fill
To live life to the fullest, and share with others still
For you see...
Forever is a long time,
So much longer than a day
Forever is filled with memories,
Many more than I can say
In the darkIt was the complete and utter silence that I noticed first.In the dark6 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
So quiet that it was unnerving to the point of the hairs standing up on the nape of my neck.
It is impossible to be this quiet.
There has to be a sound of some kind.
The wind in the trees.
Insects at their nightly rituals.
But there was nothing.
It was making me uneasy to the point that I hadn't realized I had been holding my breath.
Then came the darkness.
So encompassing that it overwhelmed my senses.
I was blind in the dark.
Deaf in the silence that my sense of smell was going into overdrive.
There was a scent, but it was impossible to recall where I had smelt it before.
It was not an aromatic scent but more of a instinctly pungent odour that had me wrinkling my nose.
Hard to describe.
It was actually similar to rotting garbage but sweeter and warmer.
Sounds weird I know but in this icy cold darkness the smell made me feel warm.
Putting one foot in front of the other I started to take small, steal
There will be no TearsThere will be no Tears6 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Here I stand before you,
My words aimless and unsaid
Such depths of tortured emotion,
Still spinning in my head
I see, I want, yet cannot have
What makes me feel alive
So pliantly my heart is yours
Your love of which I strive
I will not cry these tears,
For one who will not see
Imprisoned in this soul of mine,
To become a memory
Yesterday is gone forever
Today an ashen pyre
Tomorrows dreams are far away
My future seems so dire
I say unto myself
My life is filled with much
To give to those who treasure me
And long my gentle touch
You see me here before you
A woman who says Goodbye
No more to hunger in senseless want
To breathe more than a sigh
I walk away and hold my heart
Clasped firmly to my chest
A smile upon my ruby lips
As I put your love to rest
ChildsplayWoven daisy chainsChildsplay6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
on warm sunny days
basking in the heat
Soapy coloured bubbles
floating on a breeze
tempered with angels breath
A devil's dream of
cool waters deep in
shades of fathomless blue
Just Me..I am really struggling here.Just Me..6 years ago in Philosophy & Perspectives More Like This
Not seeing the light in day and being swallowed by the darkness of the night.
Voices pound my head incessantly and shriek shrill messages until my hands cover my ears to block out what I do not want to hear.
But it doesn't help they still find their way into my mindspace.
Oh how I hate what they do to me.
How can I be alive and still breathing when I am in so much pain.
This is not me all the time, in fact I am just like you.
I walk, talk, see and breathe the same air.
But inside I am a twisted, broken mess of emotion.
Looking for help but afraid to ask. I cannot ask. Was always told to deal with my problems by myself.
I laugh nervously as I recollect snippets from my past. Never praised but always made aware of my mistakes, and they were many. Not because I was inept but because I was afr
Life Is A PuzzleLife is a Puzzle.Life Is A Puzzle6 years ago in Philosophical More Like This
Each piece is scattered throughout our time here on Earth and it is up to us to find the pieces and place them exactly where they belong.
It will not be easy.
In fact we will not know what the pieces are or where they may be hidden.
It could be as simple as a revelation.
Or a random act of kindness.
Maybe in the shape of another human being who may teach us the meaning of something profound.
Perhaps a journey through a tumultuous time that will give us an insight to courage and hope.
It could be as simple as feeling the heat of the sun on our skin and at that precise moment revel in how warm and pleasing it feels.
As confusing as the wetness of a tear as it slides down your cheek to make you realize that you can cry when you are happy as well as sad.
Or an aroma so inviting that it can stir your senses to overload and enable you to feel an abundance of emotions ranging from ecstasy to fear.
Maybe it will be a moment in a memory that was placed in one's mind and then f
FootstepsHearing my footsteps clicking on the cobbled stonesFootsteps6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and yet I am not moving.
Standing as still as the ageless oak tree in my backyard
covered in bark as wrinkled with time and wise beyond
It could be as simple or as difficult as I make it.
No comprehension in what I am feeling or to be precise,
what I am not feeling at all.
We have outer body experiences that leave us with so
many questions and no way to have them answered.
Life is cruel and will have us debating whether we will
live it or not.
To you I may sound confused but really I am the sanest
that I have ever been, skirting my immortality and
deciding if I will venture into tomorrow or just stay in today.
A moment can be a lifetime to some and a lifetime may
have just been a moment to others.
We all cry for reasons that seem relevant at the time and our
laughter will carry in monosymbols through the air, which
in fact helps all humanity to survive and yet it can be tainted
with a sour taste of retr
Dream LoverSpeak to me silentlyDream Lover6 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Sweet words in my head
As I lay here alone
In my vast dreamy bed
Thoughts of you racing
Like the beat of my heart
Knowing I loved you
right from the start
Compassion and promise
are gifts shared with you
Given with honesty
and friendship that's true
Though miles can separate
The ache is still real
I long to hold you
To see and to feel
My dream to be reality
Place me by your side
No need for pretence
Nothing to hide
Love can be found
so pure and so sweet
Pressed in our hearts
Not destined to meet
Just close your eyes
And feel I am there
Know of my love
and that I do care
Cry not for mePieces of my heart, scattered on the floorCry not for me5 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
To be entwined with yours, never more
My tears, they drown my very soul
Each droplet spent, as they do roll
across the moments, that we once knew
now sadness reigns, where love once grew
I place a piece within my hand
and all I see is shifting sand
Of what we had, but is no more
mere yearning is all for me to store
Within my trinket box of dreams
Life is always, not as it seems
A blink in time can change it all
From euphoric to pity's call
A sound we do not want to hear
In most it brings the gravest fear
Of lovers found and then to part
Leaving scattered pieces, of the heart
Cry not for me, for I once had
What others may never see
This time and place, in love
Forever, a treasured memory..
To RememberMy breath, is caught, within a sighTo Remember6 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Remembering moments of days gone by
My Lovers found and passion spent
Of no regrets and friendships meant
Our souls entwined for evermore
The rhyme and reason, my heart to store
I see myself so fancy-free
Each day was filled with what was me
A woman in a world of hope
Of seeds to sow and ways to cope
With promise and the need to know
Adventures fresh with eyes aglow
I see, I saw, my eyes I close
my precious moments, in time I froze
I hear, I heard, now silence reigns
Of sounds and words, the fear that feigns
the truest part of who I am
Of caring more, to give a damn
I have spiralled headlong within the mist
No consequence in love's first kiss
To feel complete and find my place
Amongst the twisted in this space
Oh please I pray, please grant me more
Of whats behind life's hidden door
Each day my body succumbs to age
As true as writings on this page
My heart and soul remain the same
My mind i
Keeper of my SoulWho is the Guardian of my soul?Keeper of my Soul6 years ago in Philosophy & Perspectives More Like This
I lay trembling.
My knees under my chin, in a fetal position, trying to feel the security of the womb.
We all revert back to when we have felt our safest, be it with clear mind or unconsciously.
My skin takes on the pallor of the dead, tinged with regret and the unmistakable feeling of loneliness.
So many moments have passed in my life and I still feel that they could of been played so much better.
My red-rimmed eyes hold such sadness and the evidence of dark nights of no sleep, too many tears and a longing look of where I should be.
A breath so deep it catches my heart.
I can feel it beat so fast and yet I do not feel alive.
I am cold.
Outside the sun is shining but inside my soul it is dark and holds no warmth.
Yet I burn.
Every fibre of my being has the heat of a thousand embers but I am still cold.
This time I forget to exhale and pray for the unconscious to take me to a place of peace and lay me down
I Dream, You DreamI Dream, You Dream7 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Come pray with me for eternal bliss
Of laughter in dreams, and love's first kiss
To hope for days of everlasting sun
Of a bright new world that has just begun
Back in time when all was clear
A world without ego, judgment or fear
Unlocked doors and pleasures of purest simplicity
Of love between Them and Us and You and Me
I laugh, a nervous laugh, a dream I know
Of hidden complexities too scared to show
I guess somewhere, somehow, it once was
Shed with tears of memories, all but lost
Resurrect me not when I am gone, to keep me with you still
Hold me now, to your heart, until you've had your fill
For tomorrow comes but way too fast
For souls bound together, in life's eternal clasp
We leave behind what we have made
Of flesh and true emotions, so tenderly laid
I feel within my very soul, so much for us to share
Play a bitter-sweet tune, that will surely strip us bare
They wish, You Hope, I Pray, but still it is not heard
My Secret GardenMy Secret Garden6 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Come with me to my Secret Garden, and do not be afraid
For here you will be surprised, by sights and scenes being laid
Faeries dancing beneath the moon, whilst elves sit tapping their feet
To songs and Tunes of fantasy, in this magical place we meet
And Yes it may be a Fantasy, but to me it is surely real
For what is there inside our hearts, enables us to feel
With hands outstretched I grasp the dream, and make it all my own
Remembering of such happiness, from whence all seeds are sown
Pixie Dust flowing along the wind, with beauty for all to seize
Catching glitter and dragonwings, such symmentry upon the breeze
Forest creatures both big and small, share space and harmony
No need for fear in this special place, just peace and company
The brightest stars fill up the sky, spreading light from up above
A stage below for one and all, to dance and share the love
To be as one and just believe, that peace will rule our Land
To live together in Tranquil
Simple AsWhat would you really wish for,Simple As6 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
If wishes were real?
To shed hope amongst the people,
and this world of ours to heal
Give dreams to all believers
and light in every day
Guide us, who have forgotten,
and show them all the way..
Forget about possessions,
As they can implant greed
Could be something just as simple,
As a tree, a plant or seed
To give hope, to nourish and to show
That with a tender love
A garden will surely grow..
It is the same with humans,
we really need to see
That beauty from within
is purest in majesty
The outside will age and fade
and forever be no more
Our heart it gathers love
and inside it will store..
The meaning of life
and how we need to live
To share and to teach,
to love and always give
The trappings of existence
can often bring us pain
Too much in the wanting
with nothing to be gained..
Will leave us feeling empty
and ultimately all alone
If we are left misguided
and never really shown
That what we seek
is in our heart
And all we need to do,
And yetTorment felt like searing barbsAnd yet6 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
through the heart of existence
praying for mercy and finding naught
Shadows so all encompassing to send you
on a mindless rage through darkened doorways
with no beginning and no end
Scream, scream if you must but see pain
as the savior in finding your sanity on
the yellowed pages of your mind
My tears they fall as slivers of angst
piercing the uncertainity that is felt
as our footsteps leave their mark
Mists of tomorrow parted with the strength
of a thousand armies marching to the
beat of the same drum
Tell me I am not wrong in dreaming the
splendor of a world united with the same
goals and not means to an end
When calm is found be resplendent
as dew found on tendrils of grass
in the early morning light
Then place me in abundant fields of lavender
engulfing my senses to the sweet scent of
a new start
See the dawn breaking amongst burning
bridges and fallen heroes holding fast
to the key of humanity
Distant DreamDays so timeless and of nature's beauty sereneDistant Dream7 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Of companionship with no judgement found
Seeing strength in an outstretched hand
Quiet purity in a newborns gentle sound
Hope in a bright new day and of the rising sun
Faith in our ability to heal and mend
Serenity in sleep and a new beginning
Tranqility in the message that life will send
Simplicity in what is here and now
A dream so real but still a fabrication
Of wants and needs and which comes first
With longivity in its duration
But open our eyes and it is clear
A better world marked step by step
For generations to nurture and learn
Disillusionment be not, a memory kept
Of constant turmoil and a tragic past
Hands on our hearts and steps held fast
Never doubt what humanity will achieve
Courage of a better world, in which we do believe..
Life's RoadWe all seem lost, but at any cost, we must open our eyes to seeLife's Road6 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The Beauty within, will shadow the sin, and set our demons free
We scream it seems, within our dreams, and yet we do not wake
So hush dont cry, for its goodbye, our love a barbed mistake
Ragged breaths we breathe, just to believe, another day will come
Our hearts to heal, to pray and kneel, so Heaven can be done
So often heard, on fallen word, that those who cry no tears
Sing praises strong, of where we belong, and cast away our fears
To be aware, of those who care, and push them not away
For a day will come, to bring undone, those who choose to stray
Hold hope so fast, within your grasp, and place it to your heart
To sigh a sigh, before we die, and to finish what we start
Our lives it seems, are only dreams, that have no where to go
To be as true, and to endure, an eddy in streams that flow
We all must learn, and not to yearn, of which we cannot have
To share the load, on life's long road, with steps
Maybe One DayYour glance..Maybe One Day6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Has me stumbling blindly through scenarios,
inventing trysts within my imagination
Covetously spoken in desirous tones, sending
shivers to rankle up and down my spine
Hot as burning embers, searing a path
of ultimate submission, culminating in ecstasy
Lost in tangled aromas of sandalwood and
passions musk, with the promise of always
Warm as summer sunshine, with a hint of
yearning hunger, and unadulterated lust
I have not met you yet; but I will know you when I do..
Never ForgetSuch beauty that we can createNever Forget6 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
To heal our wounds and soul to sate
Never ending wonderment in this world we see
Of colour and enchantment and timeless clarity
A touch of paint or words of hope
We see so clear the means to cope
Never doubt your spirit from within
That gives to us the courage to begin
The path that leads us to our sanity
Woven amongst all of humanity
Can you See me?My tears, they fall so silentlyCan you See me?5 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
No one to care or comfort me
To walk alone and wonder why
I always feel the need to cry
Confusion is heavy in my heart
I sigh out loud, and play my part
Within this game, that dulls my soul
and breaks my spirit, which once was whole
I see no joy in every day
What once was there, has gone away
I seek, but never do I find
What brings to me, my peace of mind
The shadows darken all my light
I seek my refuge in the night
To hide myself amongst my fears
To shed again my lonely tears..
So This is ChristmasOh Christmas-time, you bring to me,So This is Christmas5 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Joy and love placed in a memory
Much sadness also finds its place
Someone lost, an empty space
Where once was family, now is few
and silence reigns its subtle hue
Adornments create a festive feel
Plying gently for the heart to heal
I sing along to "Oh Christmas Tree"
A song you always sang to me
The tears I shed are lost once more
Amongst the now and what I'm thankful for
I take a breath and laugh out loud
To guide my heart within this crowd
Of family and friends whom I hold so dear
This very sentimental time of year
We give a gift and share our love
And pray our thanks to God above
For granting us this special day
With memories and the come what may
I have wrapped my prayers in every gift
A little extra to give a lift
To burdened souls who need to smile
Even for a little while
SilenceThis silence is ever mocking meSilence6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Giving me nowhere to run and hide
The reasons for this solitude
Are reasons why you lied
Jagged edges of dreams, gone in a foray of cruel words
lost between the pages of torn letters and the stories
Fingers trailed bloodied lines through the matted hair
of restless nights and the nightmares of secluded lust,
alone and abused with only the shallow recesses of days
This silence is ever mocking me
Screaming out my name
But fools are we to have believed
That love was not a game
You saw in me my fraility, shredding my innocence till
my heart lay unprotected in a pool of confusion and
the beating stifled in a sigh
I am dead but for the pulse that races but cannot call my name,
no more to see or speak or feel within this shell that slips over
the bones encasing a sullen soul fighting to breathe
This silence is ever mocking me
Giving creedence to all the pain
No longer will my love shed tears
A tryst with n
Hope Eternal..Look in the mirror, what do I seeHope Eternal..5 years ago in Spoken Word More Like This
Staring right in front of me
A body with no where to go
Pain so raw, a need to know
Time is fleeting, gone so fast
Wanting more, it will not last
A second, a minute or just a day
A month, a year or come what may
Joy is found and then is gone
A memory made within a song
We see, we saw and then is spent
A glimpse in life is all that's meant
Place the sun, the wind and rain
Within your senses to play again
To feel and touch and be as one
No day complete unless it's done
Feel the love there is to give
Without of which we cannot live
Needed like a breath of air
It's truest form, so very rare
Find your place and hold on fast
Today a gift, the rest is past
To wallow will not set you free
Give yourself to who you'll be
Look in the mirror, who do you see?
Staring right in front of me
A body with a place to go
Lessons to learn and seeds to sow..
Come walk with meCome walk with me6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I walk this path with tenuous baby steps
my only thought right before me
Here I am in another today with a heavy
heart that needs to find some rest
How blue the sky with its fairy floss clouds
and the sense of going on forever
With a solitary fledgling coursing its way
to who knows where
My nostrils flare with an intake of oxygen
in the form of a gentle spring breeze
Encased with scents of the living and dead
of my today and perhaps tomorrow
A rustle beneath my feet stirring grasses to
take on shapes of my footprints left behind
To tell tales of where I have been to
where I wish to go
Distance so far that eyes cannot comprehend
where it will end or from whence it began
Pure majesty of another day jostled with
yesterdays tinged with sadness and regret
To lay in fields of softest green drawing a
blanket of colored blooms around me
Against my skin their petals kiss my pain
and scent me with eternal hope
A day so perfect fil