Hello Lonely...It's lonely nights like theseHello Lonely...6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
That I'm in my bed
Wrapped up in my blankets
Cuddling with my teddy bear
And I wish that it was you.
That sweet love song
We like to sing
Playing in my headphones
And I try to keep
The tears from falling.
I know you wouldn't want me to be sad...
But I'm so lonely tonight...
And maybe, just maybe
If I imagine hard enough I can feel...
Your arms wrapped about me
Your warm breath on my skin
And your heartbeat next to mine.
from yesterdayevery face is a map of the worldfrom yesterday6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
that we've lived
intersections of lives
and crossing of lines
can't escape the fate
for its what you've made
and everything calls you back
passion and painPassion is now but strife just around the cornerpassion and pain6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Slinking closer, the tendrils of its presence precede it
The building tension peaks and I have to wonder
If the cataclysm of pain isn't the same as passion.
Tears, tears of anger dripping down my face
The rain of sweet love that's become twisted
Blood, the blue blood that flows red
That bleeds heavy and hot for you
Sweetest touches, slowly, lingering
Whispers of softness
Tearing through me, ripping me apart
Breaking my heart.
sad clownYou say you only hear the sounds of madnesssad clown6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
With a rare, soft, quietly spoken word of love
Agony, pain, depression, death and sadness
Are the voices of your world
You spin your webs and crooked lies
That I don't believe and can see behind
What they really are and pretend to be
Nothing more than a mask...a facade
To keep you safe from the hurt and pain
Duck around the walls to glimpse your soul
That part of it that you can't help but let me see
Don't push me away, loving you is where I want to be.
frontlinesee it draw closer, straight up aheadfrontline6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
this is the plain of the shadow of death
catch your breath, hold the sight
keep it close, here in your mind's eye
push on ahead, never looking back
you fight to live and live for the fight
pick this up and run, you're the only ones
keep driving on, fight this thing until you've won
standing together, never backing down
this is the end and here we go now
Alexithymia...Have you never tasted tears?Alexithymia...6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The bitter taste of sadness,
Anger, defeat, and heartbreak?
Or are you so closed off
Your walls so very high
That you have never experienced
The joys and trials and pains of life?
Have you never opened up your heart
To let another in?
Have you pushed them all away
Never believing them
When they say
"I love you"?
How lonely are you
How very closed off
How very empty
When you say that you
Have never tasted the bitter taste of tears.
With My Headphones On...With my headphones onWith My Headphones On...6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I don't have to hear this
I don't have to see this
I don't have to taste the
Bitter tears that run down my face
Leaving black tracks in their wake...
And I really don't
Have to do anything about it
But I know that I will
Because I can't seem
To close myself off
I can't keep my heart
So far away from you...
I want so desperately
For you to stay
We can work this out
Maybe make a difference
Even if all we do is scream and shout.
wasting time...they all tell me i'm just wasting my timewasting time...6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
throwing my pearls before the swine
tell me i'm gonna be pushed away
you'll break me down and turn around
tell me not to even try lest i fall and break
that you're just waiting for your chance
to reach inside, take all of me, leaving nothing behind.
i say they're blind, i'll never push you away
they'll never see what i find in you that makes me want to stay
graviora manentsearching blindly for something i know is theregraviora manent6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
but i just can't seem to be able to find it
no matter how hard i look, it always escapes
its not as black and white, not so clear cut
as everyone wants me to believe
i thought i might have had found the light
then you came, now i'm confused again
i don't know what to think, don't know what to feel
all i know is that i want to feel real
but this is the bitter taste of failure
and just another hollow hallelujah
stop timesand in glassstop time6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
take a breath
blink an eye
make a pause
fall in love
Tangled Webs Within...The rain pours downTangled Webs Within...6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Washing all this away
Cleansing my soul
Of sorrow and pain
The heaviness finally dispelling
I think I can breathe
Your presence still lingers
But no longer oppressive
Your warmth surrounds me
Even though you are gone.
So many pages have stains
Black streaks of running ink
From all the tears I've hidden.
As the seasons change so slowly
So life runs the same
I wish time would stop
So I could stay here forever
Lost in this happiness, this peace
That I have finally caught a glimpse of.
I still miss you, wish you were here
But you're not and life still spins
Weaving it's tangled webs around me
But at least now I can see.
Never Coming Back Her hair whipped around her face as she stood at the edge of the precipice, the gulls screaming above and the waves crashing below. There would be no turning back. This she knew.Never Coming Back6 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
She turned slowly and made her way back to the path that wound down to the beach. Her past was gone, the present was fading, the future...well, the future held nothing but the gray haziness of pain. There had been passion. Once upon time; but no longer.
He left her in her pain and her misery. When she needed him the most, he left, never coming back. She knew from the beginning that it wasn't going to last, but she tricked herself, deceived herself into believing that it would. She always told him that she wasn't hurting, that she was fine, that she would be okay. All he ever did was look into her blue eyes and tell her that she was lying.
She stopped reminiscing and looked over the beach. It was empty. Cold. Gray. Bitter. She stooped
Blue Burns OrangeMy phone finally rings, it's almost ten-thirty. I jump to answer it, a smile on my face, I can't wait to talk to you again.Blue Burns Orange6 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Hey I answer it
Who is this?
Um, well, I was told to call you. He's been hurt. He wanted me to call so you would know. The words pound in my brain, flash across my eyes. Hurt. It has to be bad. You never bothered before when you got hurt. I sink to the cold tile floor.
Its bad. He got in a fight, stopped these guys from beating up a girl.
How bad? Tell me.
He's in ICU. If he makes it the night, he'll be fine. But he has to make it through tonight. Tears slide down my cheeks, shock starts to sink in, the phone shakes.
Can I come visit him? Please?
Yeah. Call his cell when you get here. I'll come pick you up.
Okay. I'll leave now. Bye I hang up the phone and just sit on the kitchen floor of my apartment. Tear
the art of breakinglet me close, i'll pick you upthe art of breaking6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
i promise i won't let you fall
building up your trust once again
believe me, it won't hurt at all.
i won't let you become what i've been before
if i have to watch you go through this one more time
i think i might just lose my mind
no one said it would be easy, this re-constructing,
but i'll be here to pull you out of the cold, stop the bleeding...
are you gonna run away, leave me alone?
stay here, let me heal the scars that cut so deep?
can i heal the wounds that i haven't created?
now listen close to what you will hear
for this is the sound of the art of breaking...
lost souls - prolougeIt was on my eleventh birthday that I first started hearing the voices. It was three days after my thirteenth birthday that I started seeing them. It was then that I knew I wasn't normal.lost souls - prolouge6 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
I could see things, hear things, sense things, feel things that no one else could. Things that no one else even knew existed. It was also then that my nightmares changed. Instead of drowning in pools of water, I was now drowning in oceans of blood. Instead of being chased by dinosaurs I was now being attacked by rotting corpses. It seemed inconspicuous enough, I doubt that anyone else suspected. The sirens I heard, the dogs barking, the people, the evil presences I felt, I chalked them up to my overactive imagination. This went on for seven years; then, three weeks after my twentieth birthday, I found out the truth...