The last couple of weeks have been hellish. Everyone on the job but me (I'm PT) goes on vacation, leaving me to pick up the slack. Having both parents as teachers in Wisconsin has had me worrying about that. The people of Libya, for all their stoicism, are getting their asses handed to them. And the Japan crisis has had me constantly checking fellow furs' pages to make sure they're "still there." All in all, it gives me about 5 hours of sleep a night. I guess that's why new MBR pic of Teryx set me off so, it was the straw that broke the camel's back.
The funny thing is, the couple of weeks before I'd actually being going back and forth as to whether I should draw more Teryx art, to scratch an itch so to say, to the point where it completely distracted me from my Refugee art. I've actually been talking with Foxstar as of late about this. He suggested that I should draw her, but refrain from porn. "Make her rise above it," as he said.
And you know what? He's right.
Part of the reason I fell for her in the first place (ever since she caught my eye in the opening credits and melted my heart in the "Fine Feathered Friend" episode) was that she was, as ElKit stated, her assertive personality. She was a strong woman, more than willing to meet any challenge she faced. In that way, she was more than just crush, she seemed like an idol to me, a mother figure (layers of subconscious Oedipus that we'll just ignore for now). She inspired me to try and better myself, kept me exercising and running in Cross Country. (Hell, she's the reason why I don't drink coffee. 'Stunts the growth, and I wanted to be just as tall as her.) Even when my thoughts about her were sexual, they were still respectful, like she was a warm place, or something grand and fantastic.
And then of course, there's the fact of my interactions with "Sarah" from the show:[link]
I guess that's why it hurt so much when I first read "Dino" and "Absolute Zero," where she was under the paw of Genghis, his love slave. She was portrayed as weak, complicit, conquered. And that flew right in the face of my views on her. The more recent stories, while they don't involve Rex, still portray her as sexually unguarded, a cheap slut who still lacks the dignity she was once shown with. And she's not, to me, she's more than that. Much more.
I've become just as guilty in my fantasies, I think mainly because I gave in along the lines of "if you can't beat 'em, join 'em." She's now become something of a drug for me, I need a fix of here whenever I can get it. But no more, I grew up with an imaginary friend (and lover) that inspired me as much as she aroused me, and it's time for me to put back up in that spot.
Hopefully, that's what is conveyed in this drawing, she's sexy, yet still strong and in control of her surroundings. I've read that she's always had a crush on Ichy, so that's who she'll be with. No, it's not me, but it's what would make her happy, and God knows she deserves that much. And you know what? I think Ichy deserves her. At the very least, it's cannon.
Most of you aren't even reading this, are you? You're all probably saying "Somebody get the waahmbulance, we've got another canonfox emofag who can't tell the difference between reality and fiction!" At this point I could care less. Teryx for the most part, has been a positive influence in my life, and I just want to love her and hold her in regard for it. If that makes me an obsessed fanboy, so be it. If I seem like a drama llama or an emo or a Goddamn cannonfox because of this, you know what? I welcome it. I've only got two words for those of you who think that-
Completed over two nights. Six hours total.
Teryx and Ichy Copyright CCT
(Be happy together, you two.)