SacrificialThe secrets we have shared
the ones you refuse to bear
I will watch you
when you are so quiet
and you turn your head and you get
I will see you when you are so open
and vulnerable and all I want to do
is hold on tight
I will sit and try not to stare
while I see how much you change
and how quickly it comes.
I will have sat and crossed off the hours
at 5 minute intervals
avoided the time goes faster
My breathing will sharpen while I wait alone in the
But you came, quietly and then I realised
it was all going wrong for us.
Today, you asked.When you ask me what is wrongToday, you asked.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I always reply
and argue in defiance
"nothing has to be wrong
to feel this way"
When you ask me what you
can do to help
I always, always reply
get away from me.
When you ask what you've done
I always say nothing, nothing
it's not your fault
Of course it is not your fault
but you haven't done right
you should never have asked
and let me drown in self pity
and wallow in generic cliche
When I say nothing
I think I have no reason
perhaps I'm too scared
to let myself
think of the real reason
I decided one day
to stop saying nothing
and sit down
about what was wrong
and what was right
I came up with no
answers for either
because nothing is ever
right with everything
and maybe, that means
nothing is ever wrong
with everything with
I don't understand why
keep saying nothing
and nothing is wrong
maybe if I spill
enough words and don't check the grammar
I can say that spelling mistake
If I could...Before I knew,If I could...5 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
without a goodbye
I lost my best friend
and the love of my life.
There is no body to cry over,
no where to leave flowers.
I wouldn't call this grieving,
I just can't handle loss.
I don't expect you to understand,
and I don't feel like explaining.
You brought me up from hell,
you held my hand
you made me smile
you gave me the best
and made me the best
and every minute I consider worthwhile.
I don't live in the shadow of regret
but I wish I'd opened my eyes to your
sunshine at the time.
I wish I'd said thankyou every moment
it went through my head
and not yelled at you for all the little things
that made me mad.
I could end this with something sad
maybe mention death
maybe say I will find my love in another life
I've already done that
and it didn't go according to our lack of plans
and most of all
I wish I'd gotten to say goodbye
and have a hug
and thank you for the memories
so brilliantly reminding me
how much I miss you when your standing right beside me.
Breaki.Break5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
in this crowded place
us, my sad face
my heart sinking
realisation working it's
into my mind.
I'm a stranger to you
more than you are to me
to break me down
You don't know who I am
more than I don't know you
and that is enough
to have me screaming
I don't know if I'll get it back
whatever it was we had
I know when I look at you
it's still the same
I can't take my eyes
I can't take my eyes away
from the fact you are looking
straight at me
Lightly like never before
this feels different
like I don't know you
like we have never met before
you look dazed
more than dazed
that I brush my lips with yours
I did, I'm sorry
I forgot you don't know me yet
I'll have to watch you and wait for you
until you remember everything you know
I did, I'm sorry
I forgot the memories I have you don't share
I'll have to keep telling you stories
LimboEvery bad dayLimbo5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
feels like the worst yet
I hope it gets worse before it gets better
Three days coming, three days staying
three days going.
I hope it turns out a little like that, and this time next week
full of smiles and I'll forget
I know I won't
Blissful and naive go hand in hand for you and
I don't believe.
Secrets are secrets
and not kept behind locked doors
and not kept under the quilt covers
and not kept in the house
they aren't kept like a garden
Secrets on my mind
and I don't ache to tell
but I want someone listening
to the silence
"that can't be ok, is she ok,
is everything going to be ok."
I don't know if I want them to say that
I don't know what I want them to say
I just don't know,
but something different would be nice.
I'm not sure if I want to go back
to scheduled appointments
and questions, information sheets
awkward, analysing glances.
Chewed nails, patterns on the couch
Trying to look at the clock, and pretending
she can't see me.
Closed DoorI miss you a little more each dayClosed Door5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
small things keep popping up
and I'm so close to writing to you
putting pen on the paper
and writing it down to hand to you with a smile tomorrow
and then I remember
I missed you a little today,
when I realised there won't be any closure
You came, you were and then you were gone.
I didn't get to say goodbye, all I say is
hello with a deadbeat blank eyed smile.
I've missed you all this week,
when a year ago hell was strong
and you saved me.
I've missed you all this week,
when I found my little green book
and found my three page note
that no one but you ever read.
I think tomorrow I'll just stop missing you
and becoming dependent on daydreams
I guess I can say that as much as I want
it still hits home
hard, brutal, fast.
Wiser YetDim light flickeringWiser Yet5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
sitting in the shadows
turning my whole world
round in my fingers
Just more than sickly sweet
Bringing bile to
hit with impact
the back of my fragile
The lack of bright light
makes me feel like I'm stuck
in a continuing melodic jazz tune
and tell me how I want more
gotta stop the blur
I always seem to get
I call you my world
coz you never stop turning
Can't ever let you stop turning
my whole world around
Just can't let it stop
everything comes rushing back
like being stuck in the middle
of a busy street
I know I won't wake from this
painful hit of relief
I've got to let you win
and let statistics have their say
UnsureYou understand me but you're too busy understanding her.Unsure5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm not quite sure I can do this anymore, not just because of you.
Maybe it is because of you, the sun has dropped from my sky and even the thunderclouds I turned to; that made me happy,
they sneer and they taunt
Not because of you, but because of what you are.
I'm sure it is because of what not who, that gives me the reason to be like this. I'm not sure I can do anything anymore.
I want to write and write, to everybody and explain and then fall asleep in the heavens; if I belong. I want to say goodbye
Sometimes, maybe all the time, I find myself wanting to go but I know I would regret as soon as poison touched my lips and I'm afraid
of my own solutions. I can't live yet and I'm too afraid to die. Is being in between allowed? Am I wasting my time. Is anyone listening. Does anyone
see the shadows and wonder what I think when I stare out the window.
I would like to say simple words to you, just you. Maybe others will
LackI'd like an instant fixLack5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
nothing that will make me wait.
I don't want time to change my mind,
I don't want time to give me a reason
I've wanted for so long.
I want a reason so I don't have to worry about how long it will take and who will care. I want to be gone, and watch from above.
Untitled XSwallowing with guiltUntitled X5 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
and succumbing to the other's pride
Standing lonesome underneath this tree,
the bark so textured
this tree, so.
I read your words, I felt your name.
I looked but did not see.
Standing lonesome underneath this tree,
the wind softly caressing its branches
this tree, so.
I did not understand
this small world
you have created
But I continued on, to see how it ended
You took your time to break the news
and slowly the truth came from its
curled up ball
Graphite PencilYou are a bit of a freak, the good kind though. The kind who keeps track of all the important dates and when you were little you put all your spare change into buckets accordingly and stored them under your bed. You never really did talk much, I recall. But oh could you draw! You sat at your desk pulled right into the corner and away you went. Sometimes you got flustered and pencils went rolling onto the floor, shallow thuds on the budget carpet. Other days I watched you in a frenzy; watercolour, pastel, acrylic, graphite. I wanted to know what you were drawing, but you didn't only keep an emotional barrier. Up went your hands in defence and you made your books stand tall, covering your masterpiece.Graphite Pencil5 years ago in Humor More Like This
Day after day and on you went. You drew this way and that way, sometimes slowly. Sometimes you rushed and I could hear the paper tear and that would only get you more excited. Crazy eyes and your hair unbrushed and oily skin. When you went from grade school to high school. No longer your ol
RoadYou like walking in the middle of the roadRoad5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
without a care in the world
and I keep to the footpath and dedicated to the marked
white lines to keep the world in order
Sometimes when I hear a car I need to stop myself
hugging the curb and trying to bring you with me
I don't know why I'm so ridiculous when it comes
to empty streets late at night
I guess I just don't want to be the odd one out
the one who took a risk thinking it was safe
The thing I want most
I don't want it to get me
You always laugh when I walk closer to you
and make a face at a car going by
you yell at me when I walk into cars
and their path
and you yell when I don't
Sometimes I find myself looking right then left then right
I know it should be left then right then left
I don't know why I guess because my fringe gets in the way
and I have to flick it to the right before I can look left
but I sneak a glance that way
And when the road is behind me by just a few steps
I wonder what life would be like if I got hit
would my m
Tell MeTell Me5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I want to let you in on a secret
it feels like sitting on a swing
spinning 'round and 'round
watching the chain tangle
and letting go
close your eyes
and feel the world
your body moving
like a mind
not of your own
what is happening
I know you'll ask
and I'll tell you
calm the fuck down
and let it take over
lets take high strung notes
that we created
Mother Nature1. I appreciate things the most during the moment, not when they are gone.Mother Nature5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When they are gone, contrary to everyone else I don't ponder what has past, I miss what could have been the future.
2. I'm not scared of expression. Just my fear of letting myself express any logic. With too much logic, feeling can be lost. I'm scared to become an emotionless robot, even though I won't be scared then.
3. Realisation doesn't hit me. It creeps slowly like a dying plant, until one day I look around and see quite blankly what is happening. Usually, just like a dying plant can not always be nurtured to 100% of its normal capacity, I don't take in anything. It is only when new opportunities, new situations open that I succumb to the newly found information and plant the seed of strong doubt.
4. Everytime I make personal promises to never, ever, ever open up to someone (ever) again; I do, more than the last. I let someone become such a big part of me, its like together we are draining all the energy ou
TherapyYou are back. The monster under the bed, lurking until I forget to keep my arms and legs tucked snuggly under the blanket. I forget and let my limbs hang free only to be caught with your tightening hold, feeling the pressure and breathing becomes difficult. I forgot about your visits. I reach for my lamp, my hand rummaging. If it could breathe, it would be gasping for air. I find the switch and soft light makes this sickening corner visible. I reach for the pen and the little book beneath my bed and I begin to write. It is not until my pen hits the paper that I remember the thoughts I have inside.Therapy5 years ago in Philosophy & Perspectives More Like This
You take control. Everything is too hot, too cold. The book lays forgotten and the pen is rolling to the floor. I crawl up distinctively and you whisper sweet nothings in my mind. You take control and I am rushed around like leaves strangled by harsh rain and wind. You whisper and whisper and I whimper slightly as you start to yell. I become restless and the echoes of your laughter
The PhotographerLong, lanky stapled thin sharp boned limbsThe Photographer5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
on the opaque frame
reaching up past her deadbeat eyes
milky cheekbones razorblade jaw
papercut smiles, willow head hair
sunken shoulder, blades that protrude
The shiver of the trees places
a peached glow on your
you exhale an invisible pipe of
smoke, swirling around the air
Can almost see straight through
as you nibble, softly at your
green delicatable apple
watch it go
oesphagus straight into your stomach
I can almost feel the growling
I see your ebony, twigged hands
reach for your pale stomach
defined by your
poking out, trapped under the vein ridden skin
Sometimes you bring your quaint smile
to meet the starry night
folding your feet under your twelve year old knees
I know you're much older
Red wine lips pushed apart slightly by
pearly teeth that protrude only lightly
you can rest your face on the warm
sun kissed bitumen
drinking vodka and lemonade from a used
Dr. SeussI saw you the other day, out and about town. I saw the car come and I saw the car stop. I did not see the car go. That day I saw you leave, without a goodbye.Dr. Seuss5 years ago in Philosophy & Perspectives More Like This
I saw you yesterday, troubles swirling around in your head. I don't think you knew I was watching. I thought you were ready, ready to go. I didn't mean I wanted
you to leave. But the world has a way of deciding when you don't feel ready.
I don't think I will get to use the phrase, 'I saw you the other day,' anymore from now on. That is ok. I don't mind. I never mind. I can manage. I think when I saw you the other day you did not mind either. For the world has a way of deciding whether you mind or not.
And when I won't see you again, I will remember there are troubles of more than one kind, for the world is forever here to make your choices. That is ok though,
sometimes they change for the bad but the good has to come soon. Whatever creates the trouble for me, I know I can ignore. Someday, finally everything won't be so troublesom
Lesson PlanWe've covered some ground today.Lesson Plan5 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Glad to see you've got everyone figured out just right.
When you put your mind to it, everything adds up.
You are completely equal to 90°
Today we can make a note of you need a little square
right up in your corner
to tell everyone who you are.
You are boring and too exact. You are found everywhere
Shut up loud mouth
just under 180°
Perhaps you are just greater
than whatever is right
down the line
no room for change
reminds me of you
to see what you've missed
you are no greater than 360°
Protract your thoughts
take notes class
measured in degrees
no matter how big
always puts us
' 6 degrees of Kevin Bacon'
SuffocateI thought I'd caught a cold but maybe thats justSuffocate5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
caught up in my throat.
I thought today I wouldn't notice you but maybe
thats just the
you seem more and more
(i want you)
(I want you) everyday.
I see you slowly slipping
but I've got both hands held out
You've already been
up in your own little world
and I'm nothing but an
(nothing at all)
I miss you.
I Want The StarsThe small boy looked up to the wide smiling faceI Want The Stars5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
of the moon beaming back to down to earth.
He wondered one day whether he would ever be doing the same
eventually, he sighed the feeling etched into his mind.
Growing older he felt the rush everytime he stared off
into a galaxy of his own, he wanted to go all the places
he'd always dreamed of and let it stain his soul.
Older now and growing faint he remembers all his dreams
everywhere he looks he is reminded of her
everytime he sees that same smile or that sunset the colour of
the dress she wore once in a field growing of tall poppies.
Closing his eyes he remembers you,
but he is just a memory, off and away on his private
rocket into a galaxy unknown.
VoicesI wish I knewVoices5 years ago in Other More Like This
what was wrong
with the world
To understand the hate
Why you don't talk to
my face and tell me
So much about me
Its all giving me a
reason to hate
and lie as much
Like the runner in a marathon
Starting off too strong
I powered in front of the others
It kept up the pace
IT kept the breathing
Down I went
Gone is now
Hollow is the shell
(of a tree)
The bark ripped
Until I saw
your name and
mine as well
Similar to your eyes,
I like the way
play across your face
Your eyes speak
but you cannot
It reminds me of summer
The heat and those
clouds reflecting in
your watering eye
MoveYour eyes are neverMove5 years ago in Other More Like This
Your voice always
in their changing world
Too busy to
DecideIt makes me so nervousDecide5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
to face everything under
I don't want to leave
and I don't want to go
what would you do
When asked the same question
would you stay
or would you go?
I want to stay
and make this work
but I don't think you see
how badly I want this
I promised you everything
and I never heard that
but it doesn't matter
You talk your simple sentence
I talk in paragraphs
and you answer in silence
I think I know everything is past
the use by date
whatever the standard is
for the product we've created