EscapeWhen I stay up at night thinking
When I daydream in the middle of the day
When I sit and write my poetry
When I look into the digital sea that is the internet
When I smile or laugh at a joke with no meaning
When I zone out
When I lie down for the night
When I stare into the complete darkness before I depart to the land of dreams
I try to climb a wall to the rope that will allow me to escape
But the walls are to smooth
Patted down with the solid and smooth surface of pain
This thing I call life
Am I any good at it?
Am I going to fail as predetermined by the world?
Am I going to end and be represented as the nothingness that I see?
I try to escape these harsh questions
But low and behold they follow me as if I packed them
Maybe I did
Between the socks and shirts . No
With the toothbrush . No
I think I packed it in the deep subconscious of the maze I call my mind
Unfortunately for me there is no escape
This is meI am no saintThis is me5 years ago in Spoken Word More Like This
I am no angel
I am no demon
I am no ordinary human
I am not the strongest being alive
I am not who or what you think I am
on the other hand I am
I am a combination of good and evil
I am a vigilante that wields a blade and moves through the night
I am one with the dark and one with the light I stand between the 2 as the middle man
The gray line that stands on the edge
I am the hired blade that strikes down the enemy with no remorse
I harm no innocents and take no prisoners
My philosophy stands as simple as this stand in my way with intent to do harm, be struck down.
Mistreat those who haven't the means to defend themselves or mistreat my friends and family, be struck down
threaten the lives of others and show intent to carry out that threat, be struck down
Threaten me, Be destroyed
I am Known as Middle Man Mike to some and known as Silph to others
I give no sympathy to the weak, closed minded.
This is me.
Deadly NumberTell me what was the deadly number?Deadly Number5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I never even saw you come.
Was it your screen or my bones that cracked?
Just another hit and run.
A prisonerYour gaze went straight into my heartA prisoner5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Holding me prisoner
Squeezing the life out of me
A beautiful death I would die over and over for eternity...
sit and smileI look into your eyes and smile because I know yousit and smile3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I smile when you laugh
I smile when you hug me
I smile as a I die inside
Because this is hopeless
This.... me.... you..... hopeless
Yet for some reason I hang onto every moment
Knowing that it will never go beyond where it is now
I hold on with all my might
Just waiting for you to betaken away from me
I as close as possible to you
Because for those few hours your mine and I don't have to worry
I can sit and smile with you.
I can laugh and feel your warm skin press against mine.
I can just be content that for these few hours..... your mine.
Do you remember..?Do you remember all those years ago when everything seemed so much simpler? When the hardest thing in life was writing your name, and the only people you trusted were your parents. Do you remember when you played with Lego bricks instead of heart strings, and mud pies instead of mud masks?Do you remember..?4 years ago in Biography & Memoir More Like This
When did we swap cookies and milk for vodka and Pimms? When did play dates become first dates and playing 'dress-up' become a daily routine?
I want to go back to when daddy was the only man you kissed and when boys had diseases, because before you know it, you're not breaking toys, your breaking hearts, and they'll never be a plaster big enough to mend it, and running to mummy won't make it disappear in the morning.
I wish mistakes could be erased as easily as spelling errors, and you had more than one chance to get it right.
Do you remember when friendship was a fact, not a negotiation, and the only thing fake were the crocodile tears?
But one flash of a disposable camera and it's gone.
Untouched by TimeYou said, Come meet me in our place.Untouched by Time4 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
The one we had both known so well,
For years had passed, and
We both had changed,
But those old stones would be standing much the same.
The river would stand barely past my knee,
The waters never did seem to rise,
Crystal clear and rapid flowing
Like time that had passed since last we met.
It seemed befitting then that day
That we meet in a place so untouched by time,
For the years may have stretched our bones,
Too many cigarettes gruffed your voice
But my mind could only see
The boy you once were to me.
Id descend those wooden steps,
An action oh so well rehearsed,
To meet you, perched imp-like, upon those stones.
We used to have to leap
From one stone to reach another,
The cool water around us not water at all
But molten lava that we must cross
Upon the safety of those stepping-stones.
A game, it had always been a game
And that place a thousand different settings.
But as I crossed the stones that day,
No jumping but in eve
Not forgotten.I need you more than Elvis needed a guitar,Not forgotten.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
more than Zambia needs a rainy day,
more than Ben needed Jerry.
I will love you till Titanic rises,
until the sun forgets to set,
until the world loves Marmite.
I miss you like a third arm,
like a childhood fish,
like a London bus in rush hour.
In plain and simple,
black and white,
you're not forgotten.
My journeySurrounded by trees sunlight peeks through the branches subtly lighting a single spot on the ground before me. I walk towards that spot and notice a beast much larger than myself, lying on the ground still, it's breathing labored and it's eyes growing lifeless by the second. As I watch this beautiful, white coat, wolf die before me, I hear itMy journey3 years ago in Emotional More Like This
and a content whisper in the soothing voice of a woman says "I Found it..... paradise." I wonder... Is there such a place?
I wonder... Is there such a place? A place that can only be described as the place where troubles are forgotten. A place where life doesn't seem so crowded by meaningless examples of what can only be described as monetary happiness?
I wish I knew of what she spoke but I am at a loss for words because that which is an testimony to the truth that is nature.
This majestic powerful beast that stands alone and tall above the rest.
I am at a loss for words as I realize the journey that I am meant for is the journey that this White w
Perfect Strangers.I stand alone on our street,Perfect Strangers.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Where perfect strangers used to meet.
Memories fall amidst the rain,
With hope I'll see your face again.
The mere sound of raindrop steps,
Plays soundtrack to my late regrets.
I pace our street, I pace the years,
While raindrops mix with salty tears.
And I wonder,
Why couldn't I love you?
And I wonder,
What you might say if you knew.
If it's true
that only perfect strangers meet,
I vow to stand forever
in the rain upon our street.
25 to deuce.Suicidal because I'm lonely.25 to deuce.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Drunken until it owns me,
Poverty's hands hold me.
Anxiety notions mold me.
I'm a tiger locked in a zoo.
Seems that you are too.
Their telling us go to school,
Considering us all fools.
The pupil learns from the teacher,
The teacher mimics the preacher,
The preachers working for money,
Some but not all, its funny.
It appears that I'm going crazy.
Crazier more than lately.
Visions of having babies.
She's twisting my arm to make me.
Provoking me till it hurts,
I knocked his dick in the dirt.
He really shouldn't have pushed me.
I guess he thought I was pussy.
Pride is what makes us stand,
But pride will kill any man.
Pride will form many plans,
Then give you a back hand!
Somebody said their your friend.
The'll stick it out till the end.
Their swearing they got your back.
As long as you making Scratch.
Ohh what a web we weave,
When people plot & deceive.
Manipulation does pay,
And then came that day.
That day he showed his true colors
I was robbed left bleeding
Hey Sunshine.Hey sunshineHey Sunshine.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Why so blue?
Does it take a lot
Of strength to shine
As bright as you?
Hang on dreamer
cos theres so much
More to see if only
You might trust
Yourself to fly free.
So hows it going
All dressed up,
No place to go.
Maybe join a cabaret,
Call me reckless
For a day,
Become exactly what
You never w a n t e d..
It seems a shame to
Wants to shield
Your eyes, so you
Better take another look.
Dont be scared,
Let go, everybody
Loves your show,
Sparkle baby, sparkle.
Velvet lips and Silken WordsI remember the night when we stood at my houses door.Velvet lips and Silken Words5 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
We told each other we had never felt this way before.
I hugged him, nuzzling my face into the jacket he wore.
He kissed me and I kissed him, secretly wanting more.
I thought we had a life ahead of us to explore.
After that, he ignored me, and I felt rotten to the core.
I tried to talk to him and he acted like he didn't know me, like he never met me, and walked away, calling me a bore.
I knew I could talk to him nevermore.
He consumed my mind, like he was the ocean, and I could never get to shore.
The boy I loved, that I had thought loved me broke my heart, and left me alone to die on the floor.
The DuskThe Dusk6 years ago in Open More Like This
In the skies - day and night,
As the sun goes down; they unite.
Dashes of blue and the orange hue,
Paint heaven's canvas on time's cue.
Not quite day but not yet night,
Into the darkness fades the light.
The Earth weeps; treaded bare,
The flowers wilt; their sad frames stare.
The heavens tremble in our nonchalant wake,
Whatever has happened is our mistake.
Empty shells that once, life, held,
Now, prophetic messages of doom they spelled.
Falling, falling- the sun is drowned,
No light in the darkness all around.
Oh foolish mortals! Be aware,
This is your bane, your nightmare!
The dusk is upon us.
GoodbyeThere comes a time in our livesGoodbye4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
when we have to say goodbye.
Friendships come and go
even if we wish it could be otherwise.
My double standards got in the way
just like your uncaring demeanor.
I see that clearly now.
You saw it all along.
In many ways, I was wrong.
But that doesnt mean you were always right.
We both won and lost battles.
We were both partially right
and mostly wrong
in some instances.
And we were both too set in our ways to change.
Youre able to accept the fact
that friendships end.
Its time I learn from your example.
Maybe we just forgot how to be friends.
More likely, we never knew how to begin with.
We dont understand each other anymore.
we stopped trying to understand.
This is our time.
Do I exist?I've been called crazyDo I exist?4 years ago in Open More Like This
and so many names that I can't even recall
all these labels and names help to shape the person before you
The person who is all these labels and none of them at the same time
one of unequivical sadness and lonesomeness
I can't ever fit in one label snugly because I am of the other labels
I can never be one with myself because there are so many of me
singing in the darkness to find the spot where the echo dies because of no space to echo
trying to find that place I belong in the dark without guide or light
Am I alone with the lone title of no purpose?
Do I sound to needy?
Is it stupid that I want to fit somewhere and belong to something?
Am i forever going to be stuck in this state of purgatory and purposeless drifting?
nothing makes more sense then finding a label to fit in....
the funny thing is my mind is saying that I don't need it
I don't need the validation of my peers to prove my existance
I don't need a name to be a someone
FearLooking up and downFear5 years ago in Spoken Word More Like This
Trying to figure out my purpose in the world as if it was on a list
I seek love .
But instead I get nothing
But questions and confusion
As I try to rattle my mind to answer these questions that have become such a problem
My mind shuts down and I feel nothing
No need for answers .
No need for happiness .
As I fear I like feeling nothing
I feel no pain
Yet I still feel one thing as I gaze upon the happy couples in the street
For not having that happiness however shallow and momentary it may be
I yearn to be able to feel another set of lips pressed against my own
To hold a person's hand and live in a momentary bliss and happiness that is called love
Though my mind tells me that I do not need such a trivial subject as love in my life
My body and heart breaks as I watch what I do not possess walk in front of me
As if nothing could destroy that happiness
O how I wish that
I wishI wish I could tell you I love you...I wish3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Maybe for once You'd feel real love in your presence
I wish I could lay beside you
So that for once your dreams are filled with happiness instead of screams
I wish I could kiss you
Maybe you'll feel the love I have for you
I wish I could hold you
so that you can feel my heart beat fast as you hold me tightly like you do
I wish that I wasn't afraid
Maybe some of your bravery will inspire me yo tell you the truth
I wish that you were here
So I could give this to you in person
I wish you loved me
Like I love you.
tis a woman's story.....I can feel her Paintis a woman's story.....3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Without a healing light
I need to fight for her life
To weed out the despair
and pair her with her destiny
For she needs to and is destined to be happy.
When she questioned her existence
The resistance to live drove her to an ending that she personally planned
But fate took her hand and lead the way
to someone who would say "I love you"
replying she ends her sentence with "too"
she wondered who sat her with him.
she sang a hymn to summon, that which is known as fate
Fate mentioned only a Date for her life to change around
and she was bound to live on.
I, as a pawn of fate, follow the pain that ran through my veins
and made it to another plane known as her heart
Flown through her memories, and tossed in her tragedies
I finally see the reason for the affliction that she hides so deep in those beautiful eyes
that scan the skies for a possible plan, to make it all better
But her eyes get wetter as she tries to fair the beautiful weather.
Because it reminds her of that d
OrangeIt's the pleasure the first rays of sunlightOrange3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Those early mornings of happy spring days
When the world is looking fresh and new
And there is so much to look forward to
It's the feel of anxious happy pleasure
Of driving down the freeway, parkway
Forty-five miles above the speed limit
A smile on your face the size of Cancun
It's the flavor of jittery almost love
When you see him and he sees you
Your heart beats just a little faster
Enough to beat in time with his
It's the moment as you reach for a kiss
His eyes as they feast upon your face
The color of the shirt he's wearing
And the way it clashes with his blush
It's holding so tight and not letting go
A laugh on your tongue, his hand on your neck
Dancing slowly to feel the way the other breathes
Of wanting the moment to go none faster
It's whispered words
Against the cheek of a friend gone lover
It's Orange if I ever saw it
Release.I need releaseRelease.3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I need a pencil in my hand
Wings on my back
Petal on my foot
I need reincarnation
I need to let these colors out
Black, blue, red orange
They wish to scream out loud
In your eyes
They want to be alive
I need new skin
Let go of the scum,
The dirt beneath my fingernails
Between the fabrics of my emotions
I have become old, and sallow
Give me spring in my soul
I need new taste
Rain on my tongue
Ink on my chest
Blood on my sky
I need to see things differently
I need you to shut up
Let me speak freely
Let my words
Crystal clear and oh so naked
Exit my imaginary world
And enter this one
Let them rise
Take master of your heart
Let them wisp you up
Let them show you what I see
For I am new
I was born again
As something fresh and downy
I want to show you
What I have been
And what I have become
So you too, may be born again
I need Release.
Create this worldspin spin spin, my mind says as I turn in circles to complete this motion, my hips sway left to right as my hands reach to the sky slowly grasping at the air. Down my arms go in a flash while turning my head to the left; my short autumn colored hair spreads and turns with my head, like a spinning flame. I lean back, and bend my knees as I keel to the ground and extend my chest to the sky, heart open for everyone to see. Rolling over I peer into the mirror seeing my reflection. pushing up off my stomach using my arms, and kneel with my left leg extended. I stand using my right leg my gown of white, slides up with me off the ground. I step forward with my left foot finally letting my toes touch the ground. I trace my shape with my foot and lift my leg for a lunge forward and I leap. this leap, showing the full extent and flow of my gown, seems to last forever as I slowly land on my right foot. Before letting my left foot touch the floor of silver marble, I spin once again. I contiCreate this world3 years ago in Emotional More Like This