It's To Late To Say GoodbyeIt's to late to say goodbye.It's To Late To Say Goodbye5 years ago in Open More Like This
It was to late when you said hello.
To just walk away now.
I never want to see you go.
But that's not a choice
Not a hello
But a goodbye instead.
I though there was a chance
You've left me forever
And now I'm alone
With nothing to live for
Of that I am shown
But what of myself
To know you are gone
No chance of this endeavor
Of being with you
Of being together forever
So this is my goodbye
Goodbye my friend
Goodbye my brother
Goodbye my strength
I shall never find another
Forever shall you rest
My memory is wavy
I knew you for years
And all I can do
Is shed those last tears
The world holds no sympathy
I know you would to.
Do what I'm doing.
For there's no time for mourning
and that I am rue-ing
Goodbye and I love you... RIP.
DepressionSomething that holds and wont let goDepression7 years ago in Open More Like This
You wriggle and writhe and still it holds fast
Merging in with the soul
Devouring the brightness of light
The sorrow and solitude overwhelm
And even good friends dont help when at odds
The grip suffocates
The tear well up but refuse to fall
Stuck frozen on the rims of the eyes
The heart itches and aches
Pulsating each unintentional beat
Stop thumping so loud inside the chest.
Dislike for self, Dislike for other
General disgust with the world
Ready for a change
Knowing that the time will pass in strangeness
Relief far from sight
Cold fingers closing in on thin air
Tear and burn before the eyes
Delicate and fragile
Non-withstanding these deep emotions
Scared and alone
Standing naked waiting for acceptance
Dread another day in pain
Sleep elusive, almost vain
Plain acceptance of desolation
Banking on the future to expand
Fumbling forward failing further
Farfetched fantasy fulfilled
Frantic findings frail and fragile.
whywish, love, hate, pain, growing inside, of me all at once. lost in a sea of sameness, surrounded by an ocean of loneliness. spinning, stopping, standing, moving. at what cost for what purpose. deserted betrayed. loved then lost. why.why6 years ago in General Non-Fiction More Like This
Walk a MileMy shoes have walked a mile,Walk a Mile6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
a mile of opportunity and ability...
I have something to look forward to.
His shoes have walked a mile,
a mile of depression and sadness...
That part of town is full of the homeless.
Her shoes have walked a mile,
a mile of success and fulfillment...
Preparation is her life.
They will walk a mile,
a mile of moving forward or back...
They have control and may do whatever,
but they don't know how.
If they could only join together
they could make life better now.
My SongThe speakers boom in rhythm as the beat of my heart.My Song6 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I find myself listening intently to each meaningful lyric.
Each verse tells a story of my past, as if Im ingrained in the song.
Each of my scars is ripped open and made fresh.
My tears flow down my face in set paths, for they have traveled them before.
Pain is not something new to me, yet I still cannot handle its lack of remorse.
My life has been unforgiving to say the least.
As I reflect back upon my past, I see nothing worthwhile lingers.
Full of lies and deception, in my story I am the villain.
You Can't FixYour hands press against mine like thorns of a rose (they used to fit perfectly into mine like two corresponding pieces to a puzzle) and your words pierce right through me like a shard of glass, stiffening up my lungs and stealing the breath right out of me.You Can't Fix5 years ago in Teen More Like This
Your tears fall like the first snow of winter, making me freeze in place; unable to do anything but sit by idly and watch you break into a million pieces (the beauty of winter's first snow) happen right before my guilt-ridden eyes.
Sometimes I'll stare into your eyes and watch them fill up with hurt, just so I will have someone to relate with. (You broke my heart just as much I ended up breaking yours) You're the one who taught me I could never be perfect, no matter how hard I tried. You showed me just how imperfect and unwanted I really am.
Thanks for taking what little sliver of happiness I had and locking it away in a place I can never reach again. (Your heart is forever out of my gra
SorrowSorrow fills my empty soul,Sorrow9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Nothing matters anymore.
No tear falls from these eyes of mine.
My hands are scarred and caloused,
Bad memories revealed.
Behind this mask of perfectness,
Pain is seen,
Sorrow so clearly vivid.
Pain 2I lay here thinking about the pain in my life,Pain 210 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
you left me alone,
gave me no one to turn to,
so insted of trying to find someone new i turn to my razor blade,
the only thing thats has always been there,
I slide the blade across my finger,
Blood trickles down almost as fast as the tears flow down my face,
I put on some music so my mom doesnt here,
I dont want to hurt her like this,
but i have no other choice,
i start to write her a letter,
i tell her i love her,
and i hope ill see her again one day,
i sign my name, and fold the letter,
I begin to cry harder as i put the pain pills in my mouth,
there no turning back now,
I i move the blade to my wrist and push it harder,
blood starts gushing out,
things start to go dim,
the last thing i think of is that there is no way you were worth this.
100 THINGS LIGHT WOULD NEVR DO100 THINGS LIGHT WOULD NEVR DO6 years ago in General Non-Fiction More Like This
100 things Light Yagami wouldnt do:
1. pose for a naked picture
2. say I love you
3. have a real relationship for that matter
4. where jeans
5. not sit in a girly position
6. dye his hair blond
7. Kiss L for the sake of fangirls
8. Kiss ANYONE for the sake of fangirls EVER
9. Admit that he was beaten
10. become the girlfriend in the relationship
11. become part of the pretty boy backstreet boys
12. sing the gay Barbie song (aloud)
13. stop talking to himself
14. become a male hooker just to get someones name
15. not cower on the ground in his last minutes
16. stop telling lies
17. Admitting that it was in fact pleasant and sexy to be chained to the number 1 detective in the series
18. wear makeup
19. dress up like a goth so misa and him can match
20. tell Ryuk hes handsome
21. Ask L if those pants make his ass too big
22. admit hes a psychotic bastard (heh, sorry)
23. become a pimp and all of the task force are his
the real meI can't tell you who I am.the real me5 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Afraid who want like me.
I'm afraid you'll be disappointed in me.
And runaway like you never knew me.
And to tell you this isn't really me,
Would be like diving into my personal
Cause right now I'm the perfect girl.
Who you brag about.
But only I know how I really feel.
Empty, un-emotional, feeling so unreal.
Like no one even knows me.
I'm just afraid to show you the real me.
Burn OnWe're backing down to stand up,Burn On6 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
We're fading out just to erupt,
We're slowing down so we can speed.
We're forsaking to be redeemed,
We're still faking, real as it seemed,
We're actually trying to succeed.
We'll fight to fly,
We'll hurt and cry.
We're numb inside,
To live tonight.
We shouldn't be breathing anymore,
We should've closed that door so long before,
But we're holding on with our scars teaching,
We're holding on,
Forever reaching to
Find a place where we belong,
Where we'll be singing a song where we won't be wrong,
Expression without discretion in our hearts,
There's nothing left to be fighting for,
There's nothing left, down to the core,
But we're here, making something from nothing.
We're using our hearts, created by reason,
We're using our minds, to put thinking into season,
With rationality, we can numb the suffering.
We'll fight to fly,
We'll hurt and cry.
We're numb inside,
To live tonight.
We shouldn't be breathing anymore,
We should've closed that door so lon
I Don't ThinkAnd I don't think that we're through,I Don't Think6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Because I'm still bleeding from these aching thoughts of you,
And I don't think that we're still fine,
'Cause after all this time I still thought you were mine,
And I don't think that we could be again,
Other than the broken, lonely, torn-up friend but,
You still seem gone,
I still feel wrong,
But I don't know,
If I should show,
I miss you.
NovelsNo one ever taught youNovels6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To speak in languages other than crying,
In your book of who speaks what,
I speak nothing,
With a few missed words or a moment of silence,
We're thrown to eerie quiet.
Maybe it's the past
Of whatever didn't happen,
I really don't like history,
So why must you?
I was proud to get over it,
But your manual of conduct said
I would revert to the way I was,
I think the makers made a typo
When they said you could cry
But others weren't allowed.
Where it's all your fault
And you have to do something about it.
I wish I could find
The editor of your book
That says I can change,
Just like the rules.
Or maybe I would rewrite it
Just so you would realize
What you have and
What you can gain.
I always wanted to be a novelist,
But I never had the determination
Or endurance to finish.
I guess that's the way we were shaped.
A schematic of society,
Left alone to make our own twists,
Breaking InPassing one another,Breaking In6 years ago in Open More Like This
A sister and brother,
A friend or a lover,
A crowd, feelings smother.
A mass of emotion,
Faking or fucking it, never the difference,
Because either way,
We'll be broken inside.
Bumping on the street,
Four eyes meet,
And no one ever knew,
What either had been through.
We'll just keep judging,
With thoughts of souls smudging.
Every soul deserves to be loved,
Every soul deserves a second chance,
Don't think that we're all loved,
Some souls need justice,
You're good enough for them,
Break into their hearts,
In order to fix them.
Too Far InsideMy eyes are red,Too Far Inside5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
They've been this way
For a couple hours,
Just like me,
I need someone to talk to
About this stress
How to impress
And when to back off,
When to forget.
My broken complaints
My hollow worries
My unneeded hurt
My paranoia is getting too high
Regret is too far inside,
I'll never get it out.
Leave Me Go, Let Me GrowKill me by protecting me,Leave Me Go, Let Me Grow6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Wasting me by hearing me,
Silencing me by standing there,
Leave me, let me scream.
I put my suffering into poems,
Rather than songs because you're hearing,
I can't experiment when I have the pressure,
Leave me, let me try.
My inspiration is dying off,
My trying can't seem to thrive,
I want a sound-proof room and a real microphone,
Leave me, let me advance.
It's some teenage trend to get into music,
The cool thing to do, and although it's true,
I've got more creativity waiting to spawn,
Leave me, let me create.
I might sound full of myself, but I have an open mind,
I find entertainment in creating,
I suck at art, and writing gets old,
Leave me, let me sing.
There's a new chance for me to have,
If I have just a few more tries,
A few more hours in silence alone,
Get away and stay silent,
So I can fill the air with sound.
ClosureClosure,Closure6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Is it finally over?
I won't bend over backwards,
While you stand up, watching me,
Pretending to be sorry,
Drowning in your own misery,
Swelling from pains you could never express,
Pains that could never be diagnosed,
If you don't want them to be.
I won't be bending over backwards anymore,
It'll never be over.
It'll go on forever.