Prowling In My HeadThere has been something prowling around in my head,
Preying down on my thoughts.
I try to hide it away from your face,
Hoping that for once from your care I can escape
Yet there is a torturing feeling inside of me,
Feeding on my pain and laughing straight at me
Im stuck on my tracks and unable to move,
I cant think and I can hardly breathe too.
I want it to get out of my head,
Its controlling every part of me Im its slave
Im damned thats how it was meant to be Ill never be saved
I hope for you not to see me this way,
For it gets even harder every passing day.
I hold it in though, and so far Im still holding on,
But fearfully I believe after a few days I might be gone
Abused...Grab meAbused...6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Throw me away
Did it make you happy,
That you got it your way?
Laugh at me
Grab me by the hair
Why did I ever think,
That life would be fair?..
Hold me in place,
Youre a bastard as you spit at my face.
Do you like to hear my cries?..
Let go of me please,
Im tired of all these lies.
Hold me by the neck.
Do you feel like a man
As I feel like a wreck?
Beautiful AngelBlinded by dark clouds,Beautiful Angel4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I let my angel go.
My savior in the hardest of times,
The one to save me from falling.
Such a beautiful angel...
And I was wrong to ever go against you.
You were there in my every time of need...
And all I did was cover the love with dust...
I know you still remember,
I know there's no more mercy.
As I look at your weary eyes,
As I'm falling...
I see everything pass by me.
You took my heart and repaired it,
You were there to plant the smiles and laughter.
Dark intentions were never there,
Only the love of caring.
Blinded by dark clouds,
I let my angel go.
My savior in the hardest of times,
The one to save me from falling.
Who You Died For...I dreamt you were still here,Who You Died For...4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Holding me in your arms once again.
I miss you so much,
I hope you're happy that I'm trying to find myself again.
After your death I was completely lost,
Giving my heart out to everyone I didn't know.
I wish you were here for me to hold,
But I know you're flying with the angels.
Hopefully when my time comes I'll see you again,
You put a smile on my face every time.
Even though as you lay in my thoughts,
Tears come to my eyes, but because of such pleasant memories.
You showed me true love from the heart,
You showed me that one should care.
It was a shame we had to part...
In such a way that it wasn't fair.
I bet you've seen all the done I've wrong...
All these years of trying to be strong.
I tried to move on because of you,
Because I remembered who you died for.
You died for the little girl with the cute brown eyes...
You told her before your last breath to keep on.
And that's what I've been doing for you...
I'm sorry for all the wrong I've done.
I have you
Always HurtingI let you in but all you did was lie,Always Hurting5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You left me here torn on the ground to die.
You made me feel guilty,
Im sure deep inside you laughed at me even felt pity.
I gave you my heart,
But all you did was tear it apart.
How could I believe in you?
How could I have fallen in love with you?
Sometimes I question my heart
I question it from the start
Why fall in love with someone who only seems to hurt me?...
Who doesnt understand that I care and I want them to be happy
I dont get it I really dont
Am I that horrible? Am I that bad?
I hate this hes driving me mad
Fallen For YouI try to look away,Fallen For You4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Try to stop myself from giving in.
But I just can't
You're a bit irresistible.
At times I wish I didn't feel this,
This urge to just talk to you.
To tell you how I feel,
To tell you that I can't stop thinking of you.
I don't know why,
But you calm me down.
You bring peace to my soul
You bring a smile to my face every day.
My heart won't stop beating.
When I hear your voice,
My stomach fills up with butterflies.
Why does this happen?
I just can't stop thinking about you
You're on my mind every day.
When I don't hear from you,
My worries are off the walls.
I need you.
I can't deny it
I think, I've simply fallen for you.
His KillerShe couldnt believe what she had done,His Killer5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Her heart couldnt take the pain the monster inside her had won
She hurt him so much how could she?...
She loved him and still does all she wanted was for him to be happy
She didnt want him to create ideas and fairytales in his head,
She inevitably fell in love with two people but I couldnt is all she said
She tried pushing him away
But she couldnt stand not hearing from him she had to talk to him every day.
She had lied to him broken a promise she knew she had to keep
That night she cringed in pain crying hurting she passed out and fell asleep
Time went by fast but when she awoke she had remembered what she had done
The weight in her chest felt like it weighed a ton
The pain just kept on hitting her,
Torturing her slowly killing her
She didnt want to think, she didn
Can't take itWhy do I feel such pain inside?Can't take it6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Tear drops falling, sadness hard to hide.
My eyes close shut,
As Im screamed at as a mutt.
I cant do anything right,
Even if I try with all my might.
I cry in sadness,
I cry in loneliness.
I cry out in so much pain.
So much anger so much strain.
Nothing here nobody worry,
Its just me, didnt mean to waste your time, Im sorry.
Leave me alone like Ive been before
I cant take this horrid life anymore
Dear Friend...Waiting to see if I'll hear from you again,Dear Friend...4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I start pacing back and forth in my head.
I know that you can never again call me a friend...
But not ever speaking to you is what I dread.
Don't do this to me please,
The torture I cannot take.
Please... just answer me,
My sanity is at stake.
I know I've messed up,
I know I'm halfway there...
But don't go away...
Please tell me you still care.
It was a pleasure to have met you,
A pleasure to have shared such deep things with you.
But now it seems like I don't know what to do,
When it's been weeks since I've spoken to you...
Every day I remind myself of what I did,
But I'm reminded because I made a promise.
I would say "Hi" to you everyday... and God forbid...
If I would ever let you down again...
Things may be different...
But I still care here in my heart.
Hurting you wasn't my intention...
I didn't mean to break us apart...
A truthful friend you were to me...
And all I did was pull you down.
I let my hatred take over... my insanity...
You In My LifeI look into your eyes and see the happiness so many crave for,You In My Life5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I've let you in my life, I've smiled and laughed .
I let you come in through the door,
That my heart kept locked up for all these years.
I've let you hold me in your arms,
I've let you whisper in my ear.
Who knew you would be such a charm,
With you all my problems seem to disappear.
You're my guardian,
The angel that watches over me.
With you I'm happy,
Nothing can ever put me down.
I thank you for coming into my life,
For making me smile and stand up.
You've understood me more than all the others,
This world so hard and tied up.
Let GoI laugh at your ignorance,Let Go4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Laugh at your silence.
Babe you think I need you?
What an outrage.
Time keeps on going,
And yes I've been counting.
Not because I miss you,
But because you are nothing.
I blew you there and then,
And ever since you've needed time.
But babe it's all over,
Don't worry things are fine.
It shows that I meant nothing to you,
It shows I was just another.
At first I didn't know what to do,
But now I'm much more stronger.
Stupid heart is no more,
Only laughter lays inside.
I couldn't take the hurt no more,
So I stood up with pride.
Now the time has run out,
To you I will be nothing but a memory.
I bet you never heard me shout,
As I begged for you to forgive me.
I started to cut and bleed because of you,
But not that it bothers a bit of your soul.
I was weak and fragile... lost on what to do,
But now my heart to you is black as coal.
You've had more than enough time...
Leaving me there, lingering on my own.
I believed in your God damn lies,
As you sat happily on your
Addicted to you..I lay myself down on my bedAddicted to you..6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I put my pillow under my head
To stop the tears I close my eyes,
But that doesnt stop the watery cries
I try to think of you and me
Happily as we both would be
I grab another pillow and hold it tight
I know I wont sleep at all tonight
So many things going through my mind
So many thoughts that I cannot find
Your image with her pops into my head..
Now I wish that I was dead
For if I dont have you
I wish to be gone .
Everytime I see your icon
My eyes fill up again
I slowly count up to ten
I know you're with her,
So why do I even bother
I said so many times how you were an angel
Now it sounds like youre the devil .
For your comforting words only hurt me more
I know that you probably just wanna score.
I met you just some time ago
And now I wish that I would go .
But Im addicted and youre my drug..
I want mo
Loving You Besides EverythingI'm trying to hold it in,Loving You Besides Everything5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The pain that I feel inside.
I never knew it would hurt this much,
I just want to run away and hide.
I look at your face and try not to cry,
Holding in the urge as we start to kiss.
I tell you I'm ok but we both know it's a lie,
You say my pretty smile is what you miss.
I hold you in my arms and I hold you tight,
Wanting not to let go of you at all.
For every second I'm thinking of you, day and night,
You're the one to hold me right before I fall.
My heart was hit... it hurt like hell...
It hurt even more knowing it came from you...
But I guess I somewhat understand.. who could tell...
I still love you... no matter what I go through...
Damn...It all begins with a look into each others eyes.Damn...6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It begins with the feelings that we have inside
Its the fire that we cannot hide..
We stand face to face without saying a word.
Our scent mixed into the air that we both deserve.
Is our love that great?
Is it more than we can take?
You slowly stroke your hand on my cheek.
You look into my eyes with a love so deep.
We close the space that is between us as our lips meet.
Such a feelings, such a rush
Yet we are both calm, like if time didnt exist.
Like if only you and me mattered.
Our love grows deeper as we kiss.
The sensations in our bodies like to twist.
Your hands slowly meeting my sides,
Now I know we have nothing to hide.
What we feel for each other we will feel with pride.
We kiss passionately without a fight,
We hold on to each other close and tight.
I slowly part to look at your eyes,
You watch me as I do to you.
You slowly start to kiss me again,
Our love surly has no end.
You start to go down and kis
Don't let go... please don'tI can only wonder whats on your mindDon't let go... please don't5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Just trying to find answers that you cannot find
I havent told you but Ive been having this pain in my heart
That somehow feels like were falling apart
I dont know why I know I dont want to lose you; Ill do anything for that not to happen
Without you we both know my world would darken
Ill try to change if thats the cause
I wont put myself down as much Ill think before it Ill make a pause
Please I need you and I know you need me too
I wont ever let you go you have no idea how much I love you
Im sorry if I mess up Im sorry for being me but theres nothing I can do
Please just please understand how much I love you
Youre my world, youre my light
Without you I wouldnt be able to live my life
I know Im
RealizationI had his face in my hands,Realization5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Kissed him softly on the lips.
Such uncertain and stupid thoughts,
The stupid arguments I wish we never would have had.
But they put a point across,
The point that love was too strong.
I couldn't believe I almost let my heart go.
The world would grow around us,
Rain would fall.
Things were said,
But who knew about them anymore.
They were all forgotten when we were together,
When we were hand in hand.
Something calmed my whole body,
Was is telling me something?
I had no clue.
I only knew what I felt,
What was true in all senses.
That I love him, and that I always would.
I'll Find Her...She told me she wanted us to meet,I'll Find Her...5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Hopes as it might come true made my heart beat.
Ive saved up enough to go find her,
Now all I have to do is get my stuff together.
Yet she tells me its a waste
I just want to see her to hold her by the waist
I want to look into her eyes
Hold her under the night skies
I want her to know how far Ive come to see her
I wish I could stay with her forever
I dont care how long it takes until I find her
Because one way or another I will
I will go knocking at every door
Search for her even until I cant no more
I will find her
Because deep down I love her
Loving YouI never thought that I could feel something like this towards anyone before,Loving You5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You have my heart and I have everything that I could ever ask for.
All I need is to look into your eyes,
Know for sure that our love will pass the skies.
God how I miss you,
How I need you how I love you
I dont want to be away from you a second longer,
I want to hold you kiss you with you I feel stronger.
Ive shed so many tears for you,
But I share much more smiles that show our love is true.
Weve both been hurt and hit with words,
But we both know that at the end our love can go through the worst.
Every time youre in front of me,
My heart goes ahead and skips a beat.
Imagining you isnt enough,
When youre far away I try to hold the tears, try to be tough
Even dreaming about you doesnt work,
In the darkness of my room I slowly lurk.
I need to feel your skin,
Look into your eyes and feel this love from within.
God how youre
Hurting HeartI'm sorry for hurting you,Hurting Heart6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But you're hurting me too....
I'm trying to hold back the tears,
Trying to forget all my worries... all my fears.
I hate knowing that I have hurt you,
But I don't want us to stop talking... do you?
You're an incredible person,
I've said this before.
I adore you so much... but it seems it doesn't matter anymore...
I'm hurting you more than I thought I actually would,
Forgive me please... I care... I give you my word...
I will always try to be there for when you need me,
Don't hold back please...
I'm here just thinking about you...
Wishing you wouldn't go through the things you go through...
You don't deserve it.... but yet I'm part of it...
Part of the pain slowly killing you...
Right inside your heart....
LyricsNights seemed endless,Lyrics4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My heart seemed as if it were breaking,
I had given it to you to keep...
I had learned the hard way...
How it was to lose a dear friend...
Every day my heart shivers,
And I only hurt over and over again.
Wondering how it could of been if I hadn't lost myself,
Wondering if you still believe in me.
Hope dwells in my heart,
But pain still runs through me.
As I sit here quietly,
I wonder how you've been.
If I have passed by your mind at all,
If you ever wonder how I've been...
I can only play back your voice in my head,
The soothing sound that made me smile.
I can remember lying on my bed,
Talking to you for hours...
You would listen to my problems...
You would listen to me and believe me...
How I miss the strength your words would give me...
How I wished I could stop crying.
Even now the tears don't stop falling,
But you can't see them... no one can.
These silent and invisible tears,
Are only for me to see...
Now I sit here,
Writing out the lyrics to the
CondemnedDrenched with innocent blood,Condemned6 years ago in Free Verse
Blamed for the body found.
Rage descending in your eyes,
Ashamed faces looking from the skies.
Unknown thoughts in their mind,
Searching for something you cannot find.
Nervous, wanting, shaking hands,
Everyone looks up, everyone stands.
Guilty or not is what theyll say,
After that itll end our day.
Officers waiting at the door,
You cry out in shame on the floor.
Confused faces look at you,
Wondering what is it that youre going through.
Condemned, Im sorry, time to leave,
Officers! Do your duty and retrieve.
Now youre locked up all alone,
Looking at yourself at the cells mirror.
You hear nothing around you, no tone,
As you freeze up and die in terror.
Past hidden.. not forgottenIve slowly fallen into a deep thought.Past hidden.. not forgotten6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
One that simply.. just got caught.
For so long I have kept it deep inside my soul
Kept it where I thought it wouldnt hurt no more..
But as soon as it hit me
As soon as I remembered every detail it killed me
I fell to my knees in great sorrow..
Cried tears that were cried before
I wanted to get rid of such memory and not have it anymore.
But everywhere I turn I remember my past.
So many people Ive tried to be,
So many things Ive done wrong
Look at me now..
Choosing between my life and others
Should I leave to protect them all?..
Or should I stay here and see everything fall?
The past makes us who we are
Its what makes us stronger.. or weaker..
Depending on what weve been through.. on what we saw..
My past is always behind me,
Never forgotten but always hidden.
If my past will hurt others
I rather stay away and not risk anyone..
For if something happened to any
I See Her...I see her for who she is,I See Her...4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I can see the truth in her heart.
A strong deep feeling burns from within,
And somehow... that has kept us from ripping apart.
All the voices around us,
All the misunderstood things...
Just slowly disappear,
As we passionately start to kiss.
Every time I look into her eyes,
I can see myself... I can see her heart.
I hate it when I see her cry,
It breaks my heart apart.
I know deep down she loves me...
I know deep down she can't let me go...
This young woman drives me crazy,
And that she already knows...
Fake GrinShe threw away her heart,Fake Grin4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Put a fake grin on her face,
And just let him rip her apart.
She didn't believe in it anymore...
In a list of horrors she would describe all of the above.
He had broken her,
Scraped down to the bottom of her soul,
He was her torture.
She'd grin to please him,
She'd scream to urge him...
She'd force herself to give in.
She had loved him with no remorse,
But now she threw that away...
She just let the pain take its course.
He wanted to have "fun"
So she let him want more...
Because she couldn't just escape and run.
She had given him her heart...
He returned it all beaten and bruised...
I guess it was a game from the start.
Her tears she wiped away,
It wasn't a time to cry...
It was a time to play.
So she threw away her heart,
Put a fake grin on her face
And waited for the game to start.
True liesI cry out in tears,True lies6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Yet there are no more fears.
Fuck all the yelling and the screaming.
Im tired of your curses without meaning.
I want to just leave, disappear into nothing.
So close yet so far,
Im tempted into making another scar.
One that will go deep,
As I will slowly start to weep.
For I know afterwards I wont open my eyes.
My mind lost between so many lies.
The anger.. the hatred boiled inside me..
Why do you keep fucking up my life.. Cant you see??
Youve done enough already..
Killing me by the inside,
Telling me secrets that I should hide.
Why do I go through all this??
I know I can hold on, I just know it.
Or am I too weak?
What are the answers to my life that I must seek?
Im nothing.. Im meaningless...
Im destructive and useless
Thats what you scream at me..
I believe every word you say
For every day..
Im put down as nothing.
I do my best in what I can but not even a fu