Edward, My Immortal unabridged(E POV)Edward, My Immortal unabridged8 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
Goodbye, Bella, I managed to choke out in a relatively calm voice. Cmon, you can do better than that, I lied to myself. I mustnt let her know how much this is hurting me. There was absolutely no way I could get through this. I looked at her face, her beautiful face. The soft heart shape that I had caressed so many times, the large brown eyes that had held me captive. A willing captive, but a captive nonetheless. They were larger than I was normal right now, and were brimming with tears. I fought back the urge to rush to her, to take her in my freezing, hard arms and hold her. To tell her that it was okay, that I was just being an idiot. That I would never, ever hurt her.
I wanted to so badly. But I wanted her to be happy. I would not ruin her happiness by my selfishness. She couldnt be happy with me, a monster; a creature that had brought an end to the lives of so many of her kind. Soon she would open her eyes, and see me for what I was, and she wo
A Twilight HalloweenI believe that there is no definite line between right and wrong; wrong can always be countered with what is right. If that which is right overpowers that which is wrong, that wrong no longer matters quite as much. Perhaps depending upon the circumstances, of course, perhaps wrong is not always quite so wrong as it is made out to be. I stepped down from the podium, still trembling with nerves, but altogether pleased with my performance.A Twilight Halloween8 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
I was in fifth hour debate. This was the last semester of my senior year AKA last semester as a human.
Edward grinned at me as I walked to the back of the room where he sat. He seemed smug. I gulped. I hadnt thought I did THAT badly.
He pulled out my chair for me, and I sat down. There was a long silence.
Although, when I had received the topic for todays debate, I was quite relieved, I was still worried for Edwards reaction. The topic: Right or Wrong.
I had thought quite a bit about those two words in the past ye
Undying Love, Part 1Chapter 1Undying Love, Part 18 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
Are You Serious?
Bella....my little Bella
I gazed at her sleeping angels form, twitching every so often in the blankets covering her. How I loved her it was rather pathetic how quickly my affection for her grew to obsession. She claimed to love me, but all it can ever be for her is a crush. She said so herself, though she says that the words were merely to deter her mother.
But in the off chance that she really did love me, I wished that I could give her more than I currently was. But if I tried, it might endanger her life something I was, under no circumstances, willing to risk.
I longed to be normal for her, to give her things a human could give her.
A hug that wasnt cold.
A kiss that wasnt deadly.
A life that wasnt damned.
She seemed so willing to accept these things. Maybe...no. I could not let myself hope that that maybe she could love me. That would explain all that is absurd about her. Why she stayed with me,
Undying Love 5Chapter 5Undying Love 58 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
A Little Extra Help
Carlisle guided me (along with my shaking legs) down the hallway to the room where Edward had lain, his cool arm wrapped around my shoulders, calming me.
Of course, I didnt stop to thank him as we reached the room. I forgot all else but Edward.
Carlisle pushed open the door. He removed his arm from around my shoulders; at the absence of reassurance, my trembling hands flew back to the doctor, forming a death grip around his arm.
Chuckling half-heartedly, he said softly, Edward? Its Bella and I.
The room behind us had gone silent. I was sure that both species behind me could hear my frantically pounding heart.
The open doorway was right there all I had to do was walk forward and to the right, and I would see him again. Edward Edward I wanted to see him so badly. But my body wouldnt move couldnt move.
Edward. It was Edwards voice. My Edwards vo
Undying Love 6Its what were here for. Its what were made of.Undying Love 68 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
What we fight for, and hope for, and live for is love.
Excerpt from the poem Love, written by Anonymous.
What do you want for dinner? I called out from the Cullens spacious kitchen area. Chicken or pork chops? Silence followed this question, save for the car tires screeching in Emmetts X-Box, accompanied by groans of misery or whoops of triumphs (those were rare) in the appropriate stages of the game.
After Edward had been transformed back into a human, the Cullens (namely Emmett) had gone on a shopping spree. Emmett had run all around the grocery store, buying everything he deemed necessary for Edward and I. Esme followed him, collecting instead of things such as a gallon bucket of lima beans or several packages of kitty litter, items that we might actually use. However, neither Emmett nor Esme had thought to get meat. Whatever
Undying Love, part 3Chapter 3Undying Love, part 38 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
Dont Let Them Take Me
The noise continued.
Thump thump. Thump thump.
It was unmistakable definitely a heartbeat. But that was impossible, wasnt it? No matter what Paul did, where he bit, clawed, or scratched, there was no way that a heart so long dormant could beat again. Was there?
Edward? I whispered. Edward?
No response. But he was alive, I was sure of it. More alive than he had been in a hundred years. His heart was beating.
Then I noticed movement. His muscular chest began to rise and fall, slowly but steadily. His lips were still slightly parted, and as I passed my trembling fingers over his face, I felt warm breath. He was alive.
I hadnt thought it possible, but more tears streamed down my cheeks in rapid succession. He was alive my Edward was alive. We could be together, we could hold each other, kiss each other. Life would have a meaning.
But would it? Would he still love me? Would he still care for m
Edward, My Immortal Section 3For days I lay on the hotel bed, still, useless. Suddenly, I sat up. I looked around myself wildly. "BELLA!" I screamed, clawing at the darkness of the hotel room. "ISABELLA MARIE SWAN, DAMN ME TO HELL, I LOVE YOU!"Edward, My Immortal Section 38 years ago in Scraps More Like This
I slid off of the bed. The floor was cold even on my back, my legs halfway on the bed. I looked at my hands. Only a few days ago, these hands had touched her face, her hair…I pressed my lips to the palm of my hand, in a futile attempt to be closer to her.
"So Romeo and Juliet was the greatest love story of all time, was it?" I whispered to nobody in particular. "What do you call this? An impossible love between two people…two species." I looked at my hands again. The same hands that had comforted her, that had wiped the salty tears off of her warm cheek. The hands that had protected her from the darkness, the cold, and the nightmares. The hands that had held her. These hands no longer had a point.
Life didn't have a point.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
Edward, My Immortal Section 2 "Mom!" I screamed through the front door. "Esme!" I crashed through the doorway, stumbling down the hallway's red carpet. Jasper, surprised, turned around in time to catch me before I fell to the floor. He grasped the entirety of the situation quickly.Edward, My Immortal Section 28 years ago in Scraps More Like This
"Oh…oh, Edward…" he whispered. "Oh, jeez, Edward…you really did it…Edward…you know…you know you did it…for her."
"Jasper…" I growled. "I can't do this! It'll kill me. Already, I feel as if I've died. I can't do this!" I eyed the room frantically, then grabbed a nearby dining room chair; it looked fairly sturdy. I gripped it tightly, then pulled it over my head and cracked it down on my skull. The impact caused me to collapse, shaking the floor. Jasper took the chair legs and pulled it away from my pathetic form, shaking on the ground.
"Ah, Edward. C'mon, bro! I mean, I know she's important to you..."
"More important than anything," I emphasized. Jas
Edward, My Immortal Section 4Bella,Edward, My Immortal Section 48 years ago in Scraps More Like This
I love you.
I know it's impossible to believe. I know I don't deserve you anymore. As if I ever did deserve you, you being the wonderful, talented, beautiful young girl that you are. I've loved you. I always will love you. But no longer can I live with myself. I left you, love, because of my love for you. I wasn't safe for you, and I knew you couldn't love me. Bella, I'm a monster. Bella, I've killed people. Bella, Bella, Bella, Bella…I can't live anymore. Not when I know that I'll never see you again…oh, Bella…you don't know the pain it's caused me.
This isn't a letter for you to feel guilty, Bella. It is the truth. I love you, and I loved the time I had with you. I am nothing without you, Bella. You are the one thing that I care about.
But you're so much better off without me. You won't have to be careful every second of your life just to make sure you don't die. You don't have to pretend to care more than you do. You can have normal friends, a normal boyfriend. You can get ma
Undying Love, EpilogueEpilogue: HeavenUndying Love, Epilogue7 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
Heaven. Its amazing. Its indescribable. Its like nothing Ive ever known, nothing I could ever have imagined.
Edward and I are in a pond of stars, splashing in its waterless depths. I fall into his arms, sighing happily. It is so perfect here. For the first few moments I was here I do not know how long it was; time doesnt seem to exist, somehow I remember the pain, the shock, the horror of arriving without Edward. I wanted to die, before I realized I was. The pain of the moment, the utter pain and sense of loss.
The idea that I would live, or remain dead, for eternity without him was the most unbearable feeling I could ever imagine. And I had screamed, screamed to God, because I knew He was listening. Knew that He could fix this, end my pain.
And then he came. Edward. With angels wings flowing gracefully from his chiseled back, his crooked grin spread wide on his face. I was so grateful at that moment. Later,
Beautiful is a Subjective TermYesterday,Beautiful is a Subjective Term6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
he called her beautiful.
She wished it had gone like this:
"You're so beautiful, so pure, so angelic.
I love you."
It really went like this:
"Hey, beautiful. Wanna go to the movies?
Call me back."
Why are these two comments so different?
He did call her beautiful, after all.
But not the way she wanted.
She called him beautiful, too,
She said his face was smooth and his hair was soft.
She said she always wanted to kiss his lips.
She said he was beautiful.
Now, she's not so sure.
Because, after all,
'beautiful' is a subjective term,
and although he may have nice hair and soft lips,
perfect for kissing,
he is no longer beautiful to her.
Because, to him,
she was no more beautiful than
any other girl.
"Beautiful" isn't just a name.
It's a state of complete being.
And he wasn't, but she was.
When he hurt her, she cried
and wished she could find someone else
who was just as beautiful as she was
Bella's 19th : part 4Bella's 19th : part 49 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
The second he announced the kiss Edward had already pulled me against him. "We have to move before Jacob wakes up." Edward urged. We headed for the front door. The Moment we were outside Edward threw me onto his back. We raced through the airport towards the ticket booth. I took a seat as I watched Edward's expressions change as he argued calmly for tickets. Finally I watched Edward take the tickets and motion for me to hurry over. He led me through the crowd as he handed our tickets over and then he hurried me onto the plane. I could see how tense Edward was as we settled into our seats, so my guess was that Jacob was probably waking up about now. Not to long after out take off I heard Edward mention that Jacob was fully recovered and heading back to Forks. "So he's finally given up on me then?" I asked. "Not....exactly. He'll be waiting for us and he's prepared to try and kill me, you too if i've bitten you." he said in a monotone voice. "Can't we avoid him? I don't want him to hurt
Jacob Finds the TruthMorning, Dad! I called to Charlie, whose was watching TV in the next room.Jacob Finds the Truth8 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
Morning, Bells, he replied. Then he said suspiciously, Where are you off to in such a hurry?
I laughed, a tinge of annoyance in my tone. Im going down to La Push.
Charlie looked up in surprise. But Bella, honey, you havent been down there in such a long time! About two weeks, right? And I thought youd be with-
I cut him off. Dad, Im not always with Edward. I have friends, too, you know.
Well he said, still sounding suspicious. I had thought that Edward didnt particularly like Jacob and the other way around, too, I guess. I had kind of thought that, well He was blushing now. That they were both a little jealous of each other.
I snorted. A little didnt even begin to cover it. Naw, Dad, they just have to get used to each other. And J
All That Matters, Chapter 1Chapter 1All That Matters, Chapter 17 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
Why? Why me? Why did Fate choose me to plague with death, with torture? Why did Fate choose me to tease with constant, unyielding hatred, so undeserving, so unneeded?
Why? The reason has no meaning, no true substance.
All that matters is the pain.
With heavy lids, I opened my eyes. I instantly shut them, the sun having entered through the cracked and dirtied window pane, greeting me with the burning brightness of Phoenix, Arizona.
I fell out of my makeshift bed, my clumsiness doing its darndest to rid the world of me forever. Still in my pajamas, grey plaid cotton pants and a sports bra from the corner store down the road, I tiptoed into my mothers room.
It was located directly next to mine, and was the only bedroom of the house. Mine was actually the living room, rearranged with a once-elegant, now-moth-eaten old couch in the corner, a small nightstand with a cheap, yard-sale type lamp, its shade crooked and dented, and a shelf tacked to the wall a litt
All That Matters, Chapter 3Chapter 3All That Matters, Chapter 37 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
One thought ran through my head over and over as Carlisle slammed the drivers door behind him. The resounding noise made my head spin. Thoughts whirled throughout it, but only one stuck from the rapidly changing torrent. What am I doing? I would have contemplated the matter further, but Carlisle opened the passenger door for me with a flourish. I smiled at him, tentatively, nervously, and he gave me a reassuring smile back. Youll be all right, Bella, he consoled me. Just be yourself.
Ah. Yes. Myself. And who exactly is that? The shy, quiet girl at school? The poor girl who works extra jobs? The tough girl working night shifts at the corner store? The bookworm? The romance lover? The potential A + student (if I came to class rather than stay at home worrying myself to death over my mother)? Who am I?
I took Carlisles hand and slid off the smooth leather seat and out the door. The door slammed shut behind me. Oh, Go
Bella's 19th: part 8Bella's 19th: part 88 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
As I stood outside of Edward's room of one thing I was sure, I needed to see Jacob. I peeked in the room to see Edward sitting on his sofa, head in hands. I walked over and sat next to him. "I'm sorry." I started. "It's not like I was trying to eavesdrop, but it involves my family now... both of them." I reached out to touch his shoulder but he rose from the sofa suddenly. "It's not you I'm mad at Bella. I'm mad at those...those dogs for hurting you like this." He turned to me and for the first time in a couple of days I noticed his eyes were almost black. My brain was already forming the plan for me, I just hoped my voice wouldn't give me away. Edward, I think you should go hunt. I'd prefer to have you prepared if you're going to fight Jake and his pack." I tried to keep my face composed, and I know he noticed. "Anyway, I don't like it when you're grumpy." It came out naturally and I laughed a little. He scowled at me for a long minute then joined in with my laughter. "I gu
Bella's 19th : part 1Bella's 19th : part 19 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
I awoke to a slight chill, that surprisingly wasn't caused by the arm that was wound around me, although Edward was contributing to it. "Bad dream?" he asked in a quiet voice. "No, it was nothing." I replied, though the dazed look gave me away. Edward raised his marbled hand to my cheek and stared at me with his deep topaz eyes. "Like I said before, you're a terrible liar. Bella, i've never seen you so startled from a dream." he said with a bit of concern, as he turned on my lamp. I looked down. "But you'll be upset." I said sadly. He just stared at me patiently waiting for an explanation. I sighed knowing he wouldn't give up
Bella's 19th : part 2Bella's 19th : part 29 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
I watched as the speedometer hit eighty. Edward knew I still didn't like fast speeds, so he etried to distract me. "So, what made you change your mind?" he asked. I couldn't tell him the main reason, that i'd do anything to spend forever with him...even give up my life, so I opted for the second reason. "Because I figure it's better then ever having to be appart from you again.." I smiled hoping not to give myself away. "Plus, I was the one that started the whole marriage subject a year and a half ago." I gave him a smug look. His eyes looked intruiged. "You did?" He thought for a while. "Ah yes, when you asked about Emmett and Rosalie, I had nearly forgotten." He smiled his crooksmile that I loved. Something dawned on me just then "Does the rest of your family know about this?" I asked. "Well, if Alice has had any visions i'm sure they all know by now." he said. "So what's the plan after the wedding?" I asked trying not to sound to eager. " Iwas thinking about doing it at t
Bella's 19th : part 6Bella's 19th : part 68 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Out of everything I was feeling the burning pain was the strongest. My vision was black, but I was sure I was still conscious because I could still make out Edward fussing over me. I reached out calling for Edward. "Stay with me." I begged him. I felt him pull me closer as I heard footseps approach, Esme's voice, then two pairs of footsteps depart. I felt drained of energy from the constant pain and I drifted to sleep to the sound of an angel humming my lullaby. That night I dreamed of Charlie and he seemed lifeless without me around. I suddenly felt a pang of regret putting Edward before my family. As I watched Charlie discard the dishes into the sink and take the stairs to bed I started to cry paniced tears. I struggled to get to Charlie but I felt an invisible resistance and the angel telling me I was fine.
I fought my heavy lids and was finally able to open them, the darkness was finally gone. "Edward, where are you?" I paniced, my voice raspy. He grabbed my a
All That Matters, Chapter 2Chapter 2All That Matters, Chapter 27 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
Cold, gentle hands shook me from my stupor.
Isabella Swan, a soft, soothing voice whispered.
Bella, I corrected automatically, staring at the textured linoleum flooring beneath my feet. Its Bella, thats what Mom always called me, thats what Im going by, even though I used to hate it and Isabella probably sounds more elegant and I trailed off, realization dawning on me like the strike of lightning. Oh, God. No. No. No.
I tried to scream, I tried to yell, I tried to curse. But all that would come out was a frightened, distressed whimper. Mom.
And, just like that, I fainted.
Do you think shell be okay?
I think so, but she sure has been out for a while.
Maybe cold water
Dont want to put her in more of a shock. She might even go comatose.
I hope not
Oh, God. The voices. The noise. Overwhelming, embr
Edward, My Immortal Section 7"Hi, Carlisle? Yes, it's Edward." I was curled up into a ball again on the floor of my hotel room.Edward, My Immortal Section 78 years ago in Scraps More Like This
"Edward! Edward, I got your letter…" he said, sounding troubled. "Please, Ed, don't hurt yourself. Please…we all love you so much."
"Father…I have already born the greatest pain possible. I still am. So don't tell me to not hurt myself. Anything would be a relief from this. Even death." Especially death, I thought to myself. Unless I could see her again…unless she took me back. No! I have interfered with her life enough. She doesn't need me…or want me.
"No!" came a hysterical yelp, strange sounding coming from Carlisle, from the phone. "No! Edward, I…please. We all…I…love you so much…please don't…"
I interrupted, "Father, that's why I'm calling. I don't want you to send that letter."
A tone of relief entered Carlisle's voice when he next spoke. "Really? But Alice said…"
"I know what Alice said, but I changed my mind. I will live until she dies. Bella…" I gulped at the memory that was cons
Edward and Bella After Part 5IF YOU HAVEN'T READ ECLIPSE OR ANY OF THE TWILIGHT SERIES DO NOT READ AHEAD FOR SPOILERS ARE UP AHEAD!!!!!Edward and Bella After Part 58 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
When we got to Alaska I had been thinking Id be surrounded by nothing but snow and tundra. Then I saw green. Green, blue, brown, white, pink, yellow, and so on and so forth. Of course we went somewhere green. I was reminded of when I first got to Forks. I thought it was too green. I figured in a way that Edward had done this on purpose. Most likely so I felt more at home but also just because it was simply green. Thanks.
We reached a house that was, of course, out farther away from the other homes. I had to gasp when I saw the house It looked almost identical to my sanctuary in Forks. The Cullen house. My house. It was about the same str
The Toast Attack"No, Edward, I'm fine." I protested as he tried to coax me into sleeping. I was sitting on my bed, cross-legged with my arms folded. I hadn't slept soundly for some time, always worrying about the future.The Toast Attack9 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Edward had grown tired of not hearing me talk in my sleep and my lame excuses for not taking a ticket to dream world. I didn't want to tell him my increasing fear of what would happen at the end of senior year. The vampires and the werewolves had made a treaty many years before I was born, the vampires could stay as long as they didn't bite a human.
And at the end of this school year (which was fast approaching) that treaty would be broken, because of me. I had no doubts about becoming a vampire though (Edward thought I did). I wanted to be 'damned to eternal darkness' more than anything, just so I would be with Edward forever.
So here I sat, racking my mind for another excuse not to sleep with Edward sitting in front of me, staring at me, trying to 'dazzle' me into sleeping.
Bella's 19th: part 9Bella's 19th: part 98 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
Jacob's eyes, the ones that once longed for me now held nothing but an indescribable amount of confusion and hatred. Jacob wrapped his arm around covering his face.
"Crap Bella, you reek. It's sickening!" he yelled with a laugh, trying to lighten the mood. "Listen I'm sorry I said..." he choked on the last part because I was suddenly on top of him. My hands pressed against his shoulders and as soon as I started to hear them snapping I gave him a smug smile and bared my teeth.
"I'm going to kill you. Filthy dog! I growled at him. His expression changed when he realized that I was actually doing some damage to his body. He kicked me off of him and in the process of being flung a few feet away I snapped my teeth at his arm. I only managed to graze the skin. I cringed at the taste of his blood. It was bitter, disgusting even and although I knew I would always hate Jacob's blood all my body wanted to do was drain it from him.. We danced around the small clearing as I tried to ide