The Tears.....If Tears could build a stairway
And memories were a Lane.
I would walk right up to heaven
To bring you home again.
No farewell words were spoken
No time to say Goodbye.
You were gone before I knew it
And only God knows why.
My heart still aches with sadness
And secret tears still flow.
What it meant to Lose you
No one will ever know.
If I could have a Lifetime wish
A dream that would come true.
A thousand words can't bring you back
I know because I have tried.
And neither will a million tears
I know because I have cried.
You Left behind my broken heart
And happy memories too.
I never wanted memories though
I only wanted you.
You Let Me Go.....You Let me goYou Let Me Go.....6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Broke me into pieces
But I still dont know
How to Let you go
Contradicted it all
All you ever said
I know I Let you fall
But please just answer my call
Youre taking everything
Every piece of you I had
I want to hold on to something
And Im grasping to stop from drowning
I can feel it increasing
The pressure on my heart
On the pieces still breaking
No matter what I say, youre still going
Youre going, going, gone
I cant process anything more
Did we know it all along??
Is this what we were waiting for??
Do You Even Care??I find myself the questionDo You Even Care??6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Do you even care about me??
When your around you protect me
When your not you could at Least text me
I feel Like I am Last in your world
I find myself the question shouldn't I be first or not??
Can you be my Love??
Rescue me from danger
And protect me everyday
You are first in my heart
Am I first in yours as well??
This all seems real when you are near
But when you are gone it seems a fantasy
I may not show it but it cuts me deep
I feel like you're ignoring me
I hope you don't mean to
Please Let me know
You say you Love me
And am I the one for you??
Why don't you put your words into actions??
Show me you mean every word
I don't want to play these games
I want us to be straight forward
I try to put my all into this relationship
All I ask is that you put more into this
I want to be your everything
Will you allow me??
I want us to work out
But I won't hold you back
I am not asking you to Leave
I'm not asking you to stay
Tell me what you want
The Strength to Let her go:I Would have done anything to fix this messThe Strength to Let her go:5 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Anything and everything, anything at all
But what you said that day I'll never forget
You Just Left me completely alone to fall
It's true that I messed up everything first
All those plans we made came to nothing
I'm just Left all on my own again instead
And it's so much harder because I still Love you
Telling friends and family that I've moved on
But sad fact is, you're always on my mind
My heart won't accept the fact that you're gone
Lying everyday, Just smiling through the pain
Telling everybody I'm glad to see you go
Truth is I'm wishing things were different
Never knew it possible to feel this Low
Reasons for what I did, even if you don't see
While everything you said was out of spite
How can something that once felt so perfect
Now Leave me feeling so ashamed??
Long weeks have passed since we Last spoke
Wondering If you even still give a damn
If you think of me Like I constantly think of you
If you ever wonder what I'm doing or where I
Sweetened Farewell......Save your breathSweetened Farewell......6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
there's nothing to change
no apologies Left to air
I'm done with this
While everything you said
is passing over my lips
whispered softly to myself
dutifully in scorn
repeated over and again
as rain drips from lips and skin
falling down to the pavement
taking part's of me with it
I won't be captured in this
imprisoned by lies of emotions
leaving me trapped in swallowed pain
when your under the light
I can see which before I could not
your not the best I've got
now closer to tears I turn away
I trade you for a new way
a calmer way of thinking
Closing the door hard
Leaning back against solid wood
Relief in an instant wave of emotion
flooding over me pulling me along
util I'm dancing around the Living room
to the tune floating through the wall's
from where I don't know
but it's affecting me all the same
final farewells can be so sweet
How with a past Like this
could I have thought you any different
from the echoing crowd
trying for something different
but wound up with the
I Walked Away From EverythingThe hand that wipes my tears awayI Walked Away From Everything6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Is not here anymore
The hand that touches my face
I can't feel it anymore
The smile so serene back then
I cannot see it anymore
The embrace so warm Like summer
Has been gone like snow on winter
And the Love so true
Where is it now???
A single tear fell from my eye
Then nothing else
I walked away from everything
Where is my love?
How can I truly be happy???
When my own happiness has Left me???
Going through every single day
Without my reason for living
Is like having a knife stuck in my heart
But sadly, I still end up alive
Every time I close my eyes
The memories I buried deep in my heart
Just keep on coming back
Every time I slumber
My dreams just turn into nightmares
So Now All I do is Cry
To Let go of the things
Those things Left unsaid
Fallen..........Tears stream down her faceFallen..........6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
The thoughts of everything falling apart
Vivid memories of what could have been
Everything being Left behind No one to help her up once she has fallen
Screams no one cares to hear Left alone in the darkness to find herself
Finding only what she already knows
One happens to stumble upon her
She has found the hope to save herself
Living fully and on the edge
She is back to be inside this deep hole that was her Life
Not knowing where to turn
Falling one again
This time no one is coming to save her.
The story inside meThere's a story in my heart,The story inside me6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
so unique and very old,
it is my pains, my grief,
it tells about my Life
There's a story in my heart,
waiting to unfold.
Each day that I deny it,
my heart writes some more.
There's a story in my heart,
its pouring out my soul,
its begging me to release it,
let everyone know.
I've kept it in so Long,
it makes it hard to cope.
This story is ready,
to come to its end.
I've given up hope.
LookingLooking into her mind, what am I to find??Looking6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Looking into her heart, has she been torn apart??
Looking out into the night, will everything be all right??
Looking into her eyes, I can see all the goodbyes
Looking at her watch me,the cold look makes me want to flee
I Love her so much, when will it be my turn to touch her broken heart??
and vow to never be apart??
oh how I need her so....wait....is she Leaving??
no,she cant go
she Looked into my eyes...and said her sweet goodbyes.
Its you I want you:I try to shake you offIts you I want you:6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I try to smile,
But my smile can only Last so Long
Before I go wild.
Your all that I want
and it was something I had.
Your all that I need,
but one I can't have.
And it hurts me deep
It cuts my soul,
Without you in my Life
I'm not the same Anymore.
I mourn for you,
and your still alive,
because being without you,
is making me cry.
Your were my all,
my Life was in you.
And now that your gone,
what am I to do???
Where the fall beginsYou know that placeWhere the fall begins6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
where all you want to do
is hold on??
When you feel as though
it's all you can do??
A torrent of emotions
is pulling and jerking
you this way and that
and all you can do is cling to it
And then, suddenly
you ask yourself,
"what is it??"
As soon as you begin to ponder this
you already know the answer
I'd been clutching
to something that was never there
Something that was never mine to own
And slowly, that hope
that had been suspending me
in confusing darkness evaporates
Leaving an empty sting behind
And that's when the fall begins.........................
Like A RoseAs your tears flow freely from your eyes,Like A Rose6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
like a horribly beautiful waterfall,
all I want is to hold you ,
and steal all your pain.
Every moment you smile,
is a moment the sun shines brighter,
and for every tear that falls from your eyes,
a rose is in bloom,
because in the end you'll see beauty from the pain.
Every rose has it's thorns.
Just Like a rose,
Life is beautiful but it has it's thorns.
But if you Learn to Look past the thorns,
and search for beauty inside,
you'll see how much Light shines,
through dark clouds.
So, baby Just Smile and Keep your head up
because you'll never know how many people,
would kill to watch you fall.
Just keep the faith,
and things will be okay.
Just Stay:Silent screams and broken hearts whispered "baby please don't go"Just Stay:5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
without you I'm nothing just a half to a broken whole
alone I'm Lost and so confused without you I can't breathe
the only reason I'm alive is simply because you Loved me
you held my hand through everything you said it was okay
You watched patiently as I became
the man I am today and your eyes they shined with so much Love
I had never felt Like this before and when you finally said you Loved me
I truly, completely believed it but these people try so hard
to tear our Love apart they just can't believed that I can be
in Love with all my heart, and the words they say, they get to you
as you turn to walk away my tears fall down and I cry out
"baby please just stay"
If your Hurt I'm HurtYour smile isn't reaching your eyesIf your Hurt I'm Hurt6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
this time, no matter how hard you try.
I can feel it in your heart something
inside of you is dying.
I'd give up everything
just to extract what's dying
from you and bring it back
Don't you know that when
your world falls apart
I'll put it back together even if it
Yes I have failed before
I might Let you down,
but I'll never ever Let you go.
You tell me I'm sorry that I will
be okay but what if
that never comes?
I wish you would understand
that you have nothing to be sorry for.
But I'll never Let you see how much it
hurts my heart, it's part of Loving.
I Love you more than I could ever say,
I wish that would be enough to save you.
God knows how many times I've tried.
All the tears I've cried for you
could never wash away your pain,
but if only you could see those tears
maybe you'd understand the things
that I can't find the words to say.
Even if tomorrow dies...I'm starting to feel the pain...Even if tomorrow dies...6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
it's growing inside my heart.
It hurts bloody much,
I'm thinking my last words of goodbye.
I want to spread my wings and fly away
into tomorrow's nothingness,
to be a bright star in the sky,
shining everyone's lives.
Like a human I'm worthless...
I want to be with you one more time...
to hold your hand,
to hear you say "I love you, Elizabeth..."
to feel your heart beating against mine
every single night,
to start over new,
to be with you...
I need you here, at my side,
only this night,
one last night...
to redeem myself,
to say "I'm sorry... so sorry..."
I've regreted this since your death,
I need you in my life,
please... don't let me go,
hold me closer to your soul...
"Even if tomorrow dies..." has been said "even if the darkness rule the world,
even if I die before you go... I will love you... I will love you more and more
until the world ends"
Stay... and never go,
stay because you were my everything,
stay because I need you every day more...
Forever is only a word:"You were the only one who put that twinkle in my eye.Forever is only a word:6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
In my heart the only one who would never make me cry.
But now Im standing here with your cold shoulder in my face,
Who knew true happiness was so easy to erase??
We were the only Love that I thought would never die;
The only hope I had to spread my wings and fly.
Youre the smiling companion that I need in every day,
Im the hopeless romantic who has the toll to pay.
Every word you said, I guess they were just Lies.
Empty syllables wearing warmth as a disguise.
You Left me stranded here on an island of heartbreak,
It makes me wonder, was our relationship a mistake??
Im Lost in the translation from Love to Loneliness,
Torn by the departure from happiness and bliss.
Ill be Loving you forever were the only words I heard;
I guess forever is nothing but a word.
Forever is nothing but a word."
Breathings half the battleHard to breatheBreathings half the battle6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Hard to speak
numbness dwells on what's Left of me.
If I make it to tomorrow
that's one more day of sorrow.
Breathings only half the battle
The other half is me and you
Maybe we should start anew.
My heart turns cold.
Your the one I want to hold.
Breathings only half the battle.
The other half is me and you.
Why do we Live our life on cue??
Is this meant to be??
Our Love maybe the key.
The flowers have wilted.
The tulips are dead.
My heart has turned to Lead.
As it falls through the floor.
You walk out the door.
Breathings only half the battle.
The other half is me and you.
Maybe we should start anew.~
I tried so hard to make this work.
In my heart is where you'll Lurk.
So I'll say my goodbyes and Leave,
But don't worry I wont grieve.
This is the end, I'm not Looking back.
Because direction is what you Lack
Baby, breathings only half the battle.
The other half is you and me.
without you I can't see.
What I'm AfterThousands of questions race through my mind.What I'm After6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like where am I now? what have I done??
It seems like their answers will never be revealed.
So I Lay in bed, and wish them all to disappear.
It seems like I Love you more then I Love Life itself.
Must be the reason I keep on hurting myself.
Why can't I Let go of you even if I must??
Why can't I Let go of something that never have been done??
The times I shed a tear, I search for that specific someone.
Someone I shouldn't have made disappear all of a sudden.
My pain can't kill the Love, it can only hurt me harder.
My frustration can't protect me no more, it won't make me stronger.
It's a funny feeling I guess... when you Love another.
You wish you could give her your world, show what you can offer.
With this speech I walk this empty road of suffer.
I walk to you in path of forgiveness, so you could tell me what I'm after.
The blood of a bleeding heartMy heart is poundingThe blood of a bleeding heart6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
My hands are shaking
The tears are falling inside my heart
Wetting my soul
Filling it with sorrow
Agony and pain fills my mind
Leaving me with painful thoughts
My heart feels like a knife stabbed me
Repeatably without stopping
The blood beings to pour out onto the floor
My blood of tears
From my dying heart
Begins to form a pool of blood
As I suddenly began to sink
Into my own blood of tears
I get more lost into the darkness
That I can't escape
Living this nightmare
As it becomes Real.......................
What do you do???What do you do when someone has stole your heartWhat do you do???6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
then your forced to be apart??
What do you do when they don't even know
how much you Love them and don't want them to go??
What do you do when you can't stop them
when you are too scared to tell them how you feel??
What would you do??
What could you do??
You're my everything:I wished to have somebody to be with meYou're my everything:6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
So here she is, to answer my questionable dream
It was to fall in Love with someone Like her
And You're the only one I wanted to discover
I used to Let everyone's thoughts get under my skin
But all that has changed since I Let her in
It's her opinion that matters, her opinion I cherish
And its the only opinion I hope will never perish
I thought I was Lost but I have been found
By an amazing girl that Lifted me off the ground
I had a barrier, but You broke through,
Youproved to me Love can be real and it can be true
I wake up feeling happy
Because You're the angel in my dreams
the hero in my nightmares
That quiets all my screams
When I think all is Lost
You come and brighten my day
When I feel all the hurt in the world
When you smile and my pain fades away
It's truly amazing how she makes me feel
Truly amazing yet so surreal
Through any fire or any flame
You're the girl whom I know is the one
You're so so bright, even brighter then the
I walk AloneWhen you said this was the endI walk Alone6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Tears ran down my face
Because you never realize how much
I actually Loved you
The fear kept me from telling you
How I really felt about you
Now I walk alone again
Trying to find that special place
I don't know where to start looking
Because I didn't think it would come to this
You didn't seem to understand me
Sometimes you acted Like you did but
Honestly you couldn't really understand me
I gave you all my Love, my soul and heart
You destroyed me completely
Now this is farewell because
This is Goodbye...........
My Heart and II'm trying so hard to find you,My Heart and I5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
but it's so hard to Look for you here.
it's so hard to get over my fears.
I'm still alive so you can still hear me,
but I know it's not over yet,
I'm holding on to the past memories,
but it's so hard to burn out my regrets...
My heart holds nothing but sickness inside,
and inside I am nothing more than desperate to see me alive.
My heart gaps open for you to find,
and to find nothing but blackness.
My heart can't feel anything I can't take,
and I can't take your Love, if it proves to be fake...
And my heart won't heal if this proves to be unreal,
My heart won't survive if you carry on with your lies,
because my heart wasn't, made for you,
and now can finally say- that I hate you too...
I'm trying so hard, to get over this,
but my Life won't grant me this final wish.
I'm trying with all my strength, to get away,
but my heart, won't find the strength to say,
that I Miss you I Just can't find a way, to hide it inside...
Here and Gone....If you don't know how much I want youHere and Gone....6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
You probably don't deserve me
Time and time and again I tell you
how much I Long for you to be in my arms
but you work the room with your charm
forgetting the efforts you put forth
are firm reminders of the pain you can cause
if I decide to be wise, you'll see the Loss
only when the thought of vacancy is near
do you decided to step it up and claim change
today I've had enough and you'll remain a stain
I have my rational mind to make it forever clear
say good bye to my adoration
say good bye to the Love you could of had
for you have worn out my patience
wish I could forget Me:..When will I stop needing you???wish I could forget Me:6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
...I never know
...Yeah, that's just how selfish I am
I wish I could erase my memory
If I could I'll start with everything
Forget that I can see
Forget that I can feel
Forget that I can dream
No more me
How peaceful and sweet is that for everyone
Oh such beautiful smiles
What a wonderful world
I know that I'm just a weight on you
I know that is hard for you to Love me
I'm sorry that I can't seem to stop hurting you
I'm sorry that I caused you a Lot of heartache
I'm sorry that I'm still here
...I should go and never come back here anymore
...I'm not that important.......................