Feelings Of A Broken HeartDo you know what a broken heart feels like?
You can't catch your breath,
And tears are always poised to fall.
It's like a hollowing feeling in your heart
...Like someone is carving away a hole in you.
There is a constant cold burning there that pains,
And radiates down to your fingertips and toes.
If the blow to the heart is strong enough you can feel it ,
Physically cracking and shatter and fall to pieces ,
Landing in the pit of your stomach where it churns ,
And fools you into thinking you're never hungry.
The weight of the tears and the pieces makes your head heavy ,
And your mind dizzy with frosted nostalgic scenes that replay and plunge the knife ,
Further and further into what is left of your lonely hollowed heart.
Thoughts of blame and self hatred wrap around and suffocate your consciousness.
There is a sharp stabbing and twisting in your chest, like a knife wound, always.
It is lonely and inconsolable, no words or hugs or kisses or band aids ,
Or pleas and cries and urges for y
Father...?How can you call yourself a fatherFather...?9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
How can you call yourself anything?
All you do is sit there
Sit there and watch me scream.
Scream because I am too scared,
Scream because I know you don't really care.
All you do is make me cry
And then sit back and wonder why?
Why I hate you, Cant stand you.
But still all I do is sit and cry
Not knowing what to do, nor why.
But please I'll stop, please I swear
Just don't hurt me again and I will stay right here.
Only If I Could Forget.I wish that I could forget,Only If I Could Forget.9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Forget the time I spent with you,
Forget why I fell for you,
Forget the things I've done for you,
I wish I could forget everything,
Would it make things better,
I can't say,
What I know is if I forget you,
Maybe then I can forget the pain.
I know it is not you fault,
I mean what could you have done?
I just wish that if I forget you,
You could forget me too.
As I told you this was writen on the top of my head with no changes. So....
StarsI drew your face in the stars,Stars9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
So I could see it when I sleep.
I wish I could tell you I love you,
And give you my heart to keep.
Everynight that I dream of you,
I'll know something that's forever true.
No matter what happens or what I do,
I will forever and always love you.
I Only Wish You Could See...My heart is pounding, I can barely breathe.I Only Wish You Could See...9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
All of these thoughts that are deep inside of me.
I only wish you could see, just what he means to me.
He is my knight that came to save me, from my misery.
He says that he cares, and he want to wipe away all my tears.
You say he isn't what he claims, And that I should be ashamed.
But I say he is everything and more, he makes me feel like I can sore.
I only wish you could see, that he is everything to me.
And even though he may, be over 2000 miles away.
He is still in my heart, and that is far enough apart.
So please just trust me, And be happy for me.
I would do the same for you, If you ever needed me too.
RunRun.Run3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
She stumbles blindly through the forest,
the tears racing down her cheeks.
The trees loom above and around her,
Dominating the space.
Gone are the days
The picnics and warm summer nights.
She seeks a place to hide
to escape her mind
A nothingness where existence
Is wholly subjective
And does not include
the anxieties and troubles
of human life
Oh how free, how liberating
For a mind not to constantly
The leaves in front of her blind her,
the thorns catch her skin,
Desperate for something to cling on to.
The poisonous berries hang in front of her face
Tempting her to take the final plunge
And endless freedom.
Untitled Poems*Untitled*Untitled Poems8 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Erase this pain
Erase his face
Erase this love my heart intakes.
Please I scream I can't let go.
His face after 2 years is all I know.
I want to let go yet my heart yearns.
A certain song can make me cry,
A time on the clock can make me cry.
These little things remind me of you,
And what we often used to do.
I know you'll never care,
but without you its not fair.
I love you and care about you everyday.
But still there's not point of loveing you anyway.
I'm telling you this and I'm telling you now,
I'm trying not to love you but I don't know how.
So many tears that i have cried
-- they got me nowhere fast
so many cuts upon my wrist
-- you didn't get a scratch
these self-inflicted horrors
they make what once had been a dream
into a nightmare starring me
you'll never care i hurt myself
(i can't redeal the cards i'm dealt)
and as i'm trying to move on
this pain makes me fall farther down
this razor does not help a bit
Never AgainYou promised you wouldn't hurt me.Never Again9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You said you would always care.
And I believed you for no better reason,
Then the fact that you were there.
You lied to me but that okay,
I desevred it, I guess, Anyway
But I just want to let you know.
This is it, no further can I go.
The pain you cause me,
Everytime we get close.
It is too much for me to handle.
It is too much of a dose.
So please understand
The reason I can no longer hold your hand
Or say I love you or that I forgive you
Because I don't and no longer can.
SecretI have a secret.Secret3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A pretty little secret.
One stained with r
And hidden so well upon my body.
I have a secret, secret.
One so few know.
One only two know.
One I will carry f o r e v e r.
I have an enslaving secret,
Written on my skin with blood.
I have a secret that proves insanity,
Is as addicting as drugs.
I have a pretty little secret,
Good Byegood byeGood Bye7 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
my heart was filled with love for you
but you crushed it in your hand and let the broken pieces drift away
ive cried so many tears for you and now there dry
there are no butterflies now just moths
they once had beauty but now are gray
i cant belive i let my guard down
and i just wanted to say good bye...
emoemo12 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
There will always be a little touch of emo in this smile
I will always think of how they shouldn't care
There will always be the sweetest reccollection of a sorrow
of softness and of shaded eyes and wild brown hair
and even if I'm not quite at the perfect hue of happiness
I'll rest assured, learning to survive as long as I can stand
Cause we'd damn the rest and write them off and make something to talk about
Except we live in brilliant silence, denying their demand
A Different PerspectiveI ask you how a knife feels as it digs into a man's heart.A Different Perspective3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Does it shy away from the pain it inflicts,
is it sickened by the sight of the blood?
Or does it long to sink deep into his chest,
down to the bone handled grip?
(You reply that it doesn't feel either way,
whether a knife wants it or not a man dies today.)
I ask you if your shoe is tired, for its growing old.
Does the pain of being crushed by your feet
take rest and resonate deep in its sole?
Or does it love the honor of being used by you,
and willing to keep making your footprints.
(You say it's meant to be stepped on, it's a shoe
it doesn't have feelings like me or you)
I ask you how your pillow feels this morning.
Is it tired because you kept it up with your nightmares,
your endless tossing and turning.
Or does it feel loved as you grip it tight
and hug it deep into the middle of the night.
(You tell me your pillow is doing okay
but it's only a pillow so it doesn't matter anyway.)
I ask you if a judge's hammer regrets what i
.Love. ...Love....Love.8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Some crave it
Some love it
Some hate it
Some need it
Others abuse it
Others use it
Others are obsessive to a point
It's a word that can mean so much
It's a word that can mean so little
It's a word some don't understand
It's a word that some simply dismiss
It's just a four letter word
But some people fear it so much
It's nothing to be scared of
But others aren't sure
HomosexualityI felt it was close to the end before I could measure the distance.Homosexuality5 years ago in Emotional More Like This
My heart felt like sand sweating out my body from the nervousness, the atmosphere of my world shifting from lovely, to a nightmare. I was staring at the wall blankly, pretending like I had strength, for I had nothing else. No one I knew would understand, or accept.
It took days to tell one person.
It took months to tell another.
And in three whole years I had only told four people.
What was I? I was weak, and scared. My life was being torn when I had so proudly strung it together - why couldn't I keep myself as one? Why did this world want to tear me apart so bad?
My voice was as scared as my heart. It shivered when I spoke and fell cold when I wanted to tell people who would accept. I knew they would. But that wouldn't change their reaction, long-term and short, our friendships would never be the same. How could I be so oblivious to the truth?
I myself was as content with death as the man lying in a coffin, six feet u