PorcelainIvory skin, gray with cold.
Painted smile, glass eyes staring back.
Stitched clothes and icy hands.
Never meant to speak, only meant to be told.
Pick her up, put her down.
Hug her, love her, drop her.
Never to stir, she sits like stone.
Can't breathe the breath of life, like she drown.
The toy takes its abuse,
Her smile never fades,
Perfect in her imperfection.
Long hair, with its fake paragon hues.
Her feet dangle the edge,
Waiting to be picked up again,
Our little breakable baby,
A porcelain doll, caught in an unbreakable pledge.
UselessYou are never here,Useless7 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
You are always over there.
So far out of reach,
All I am is a useless breach.
Take my hand and see my eyes,
You will realize all the lies.
I wish to fly away from here,
But like I said its never near.
Strangled breath and tears that sting,
It's as if I had lost my right wing.
Can't you see I've always craved,
Every time I see you, I cave.
I wish you'd realize the meaning,
Of all the shared nights, every evening.
I won't touch you, so I sit,
And cry for everything that hurts, the every bit.
I taste the bitterness on my lips,
And I know the only thing I can do is give useless tips.
All I've done is mess up my life,
And now all I want to do is end it with a knife.
I wish you could see,
What all you mean to me,
I wish I could tell you,
I wish I didn't have too, I wish you already knew.
When I sit around at night I get confused,
All I feel is blank feelings, I'm afraid of being used.
Can't you see what all you mean to me,
I wish I could be...everything you want me
100 Things To Smile About100 Things To Smile About100 Things To Smile About8 years ago in Philosophical More Like This
2. Moments in scary movies that make you jump then laugh at yourself for screaming like a girl
3. hot cookies while the center is still gooey
4. catching that perfect shot with the camera
5. laughing until your cheeks hurt
6. the person or thing that makes you laugh like that
7. catching green lights
8. laying with a friend on the hood of your car
9. blasting loud music while beating your friend in a car race while never going over the speed limit
10. warm long showers in the morning
11. seeing somone you love after a long time apart
12. curly hair
13. a book that you still love no matter how many times you read it
14. having your ipod turned low so you can still hear even when people think you can't
15. frozen coffee with chocolate in it
16. being in love
17. knowing the person you love loves you
18. rolling your windows down and driving fast
19. cereal for dinner
20. singing to a baby and having it smile up and stare at you
Do you love meDo you love me8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Do you love me,
please say you do.
For if you didnt love me i dont know what i would do.
I need your Strength.
Your words of encourgement.
For you'er truely all i have in this world and without you i might die.
your prescience ,
keeps me alive.
so just say it.
I dont even care if you truely mean it.
just tell me you love me and i'll be fine.
Tell me you love me and i will chime,
those same words back to you,
so that way you know i love you too.
CaffineCaffine: A Tale of How Much Coffee One Should Not Drink in a SittingCaffine9 years ago in Humor More Like This
(meant to be read at high speeds)
My God, I've got to pee. Not that you wanted to know. Well maybe you did so you would have the chance to get out of the way before I let loose, and you know. Peed. Not that I'm going to. I'll wait. Until the bus comes. I only drank four. One, two three, four, no wait. Five. Five cups of coffee. Large ones. That would probably explain why I've got to piss so bad right about now wouldn't it. Oh well, never mind. I needed them.
I got two hours of sleep last night. Two the night before. In fact I think I've averaged about two, three hours for the week. Its probably the coffee that's done it. Ever since the little bakery on the corner started giving free refills all
100 things--Shino100 THINGS SHINO WOULD NEVER DO!!!100 things--Shino8 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
2. try to get Kiba's attention with the cone things they direct planes with
3. ask TenTen why she has doughnuts on her head
4. take Akamaru to an audition for a dog food commericial
5. sing a good charlotte song at the top of his lungs
6. say "ZOMG KIBAA JOO R SOO HAWT! WILL JOO MRRY MEEEE!??"
7. ask Kiba if he likes it doggy style
8. dress as Neo for halloween
9. ask Gai to be his seme
10. scream like a fangirl cause he saw Danny Phantom
11. become the next eva pilot for Nerv
12. sing the Canadian National Anthem at the Super Bowl
13. give Kiba a collar and tell him it would be sexy if he wore it
14. own a Hello Kitty cellphone cover
15. inform people that Ronald McDonald is his real father
16. lick Kiba
17. have one of those 'awkward almost-a-kiss-but-pull-away-at-the-last-second
moments with Kabuto
18. ask Naraku how he gets his bugs so big
19. tell Neji that his manskirt is gay
20. ask Sasuke about his childhood
21. flip the Hokage the bir
The Hardest WordTo say goodbye,The Hardest Word3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's not the hardest word.
My honesty is all but broken,
And I look away with eyes so blue,
I cannot say with these tears I cry.
To say sorry,
It's not the hardest word.
My ignorance only leaves you shattered,
And I know in my heart so black,
I should apologise but I'd rather fly.
To say no,
It's not the hardest word.
My addiction drives you insane,
And I feel that my ears bleed so red,
As I struggle to answer your one question: why?
A Forgotten Past RememberedI remember waiting, just sitting in my little chair with both hands pressed against the window. The perfect picture of an excited child eager for what was coming. I remember waiting and waiting for hours watching each car that passed by and praying with all my little heart that they would pull into the parking lot,but they never did. Sometimes I can still feel the horrible disappointment that seemed to consume my heart and drag it further and further down as I walked back to the car with tears in my eyes, wondering why mother never came. Little did either of us know that was our last chance to see one another.A Forgotten Past Remembered4 years ago in Profiles More Like This
Sometimes life takes us down a path we never thought we would have to go down. Just when we think things can't get any worse then they already are, but something I've learned is that it can always get worse only I learned it the hard way.
It was March 20, 2003. I remember it perfectly, as if it were permanently burned into my memory, doomed to haunt me forever. I was 9 years
How I should remember youLet me try and put things between us to rest,How I should remember you4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Even though we both agreed not to start another mess.
Its better for me to remember you by what made you one of the best,
And forgive myself for all the times I made you detest.
I'll remember you as the sweet voice comforting me through the phone,
But don't remember me as a cancer that wouldn't ever leave you alone
I'll remember you as the warmth in my arms as I say hello,
So don't remember me as the child who cried every time you said goodbye.
Everything started off as an accident maybe,
And maybe it ended because we were both a little too crazy;
I'd tell you stupid things and made you ungodly angry,
And I'd get you angrier by saying "I love you and all your personalities",
Time would pass by maybe an hour or two,
You would call me back and say "We love you too".
I'll remember you and I'll remember the times,
So please don't forget me, don't forget the times,
Please don't forget how I'm sorry I couldn't pay you back,
Lets forget the love t
The BucketA teacher once said to me,The Bucket4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
"A life is like a bucket."
I have learned over the years that this is true.
If you give someone a compliment, or say or do anything kind,
You pour an infinitesimal yet meaningful amount of liquid into that person's bucket.
But alas, those who insult
And rip apart hope,
They dip into the bucket, and take out that precious liquid gold.
Once that person runs out, you in turn cause their self-destruction.
You could lead that one innocent person to take their own life away.
Just one little smirk or look of disgust
Could leave them bone dry.
You may think it funny now: to insult and make fun,
But imagine the feeling you'd feel when you see that person's face--
Plastered all over the news.
That nervousness and guilt
Creeping up your spine as you get shivers all over.
It's unbearable, no?
You know you no-handedly helped cause someone's death.
So think before you say something--anything.
If it hurts someone enough,
You could dip into their bucket
And leave it
Surviving YouYour lies became a tidal waveSurviving You4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
that crashed above my head,
no matter how I flailed about
you left me there for dead.
The grey clouds washed the skies
and I reached in desperation,
my breath comes in in shallow gasps
in silent suffocation.
I meant the words that traced my lips
I'd never regret a thing,
and though you think your silence kills
it doesn't even sting.
The thunder roaring in my brain
is what makes me hurt inside,
words or not I need you not
you tried to break my pride.
The rain is overflowing
as it fills up to the brim,
I saw your disposition
and it made our future grim.
The lightning shined inside me
it opened my eyes and made me see,
the hand I held beside me
was never meant for me.
Your cold kisses me like you did
my veins run blue with ice,
that crooked way you smile
made clear your evident vice.
Hail pelts my soul
you act like I've already died,
I'm too deep in to pull me out
so covet the tears that I've cried.
My lungs feel your asphyxiation
and my eyes bulge in disbeli
Seeds.Holding onto memories of those terrible nights within your grasp is beginning engrave words in your skin and in your thoughts. You can let it all follow around you in the clouds you inhale and the stomach acid you release after those long secluded nights because after all everything is a memory someday.Seeds.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Holding onto your deteriorating past denies it the chance to decay and bloom from the remnants that are leftover.
Your hands don't seem quite so soft and your fears not so subtle. They're rising to the surface along with all the other baggage you deny holding because you're terrified to let it out. Its scratching at your skin from the inside, tearing apart your soul and dancing through your veins. It's tearing up your heart with the claws you just let grow and its holding onto your lungs tightly until there isn't enough room for a last breath.
This could have meant something special and delicate. Like the feeling of skin on skin and when you can hear their heartbeat as your h
The Willow TreeWe found her swingingThe Willow Tree3 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
with the willow's vines,
the bird's singing,
the dog's whines.
We found her dancing
underneath the stars,
nursing fresh scars.
We found her beating,
on a muted drum,
the tune so fleeting,
so quiet and dumb.
We found her crying,
with her head hung low,
and we found her dying,
under the willow.
Hall of MirrorsNo matter where I run or hide, I cannot escape my face.Hall of Mirrors6 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Whether laughing, leering, or sobbing is not important;
It remains to haunt me, reminding me I have no strength or grace.
No matter how hard I run, there is always the upward slant;
A bitter slope forged by angry words and shameful pause.
I often wonder at the mighty barriers I build,
Devoid of proper pain or just cause.
No matter how noble or goodwilled
My intentions are at first, they warp and shift,
Becoming the whims of a heartless wretch.
Between all and me lies a bottomless rift;
No matter where I trek to fetch
Some sturdy wood for a brand-new bridge,
My integrity plummets off the lofty ridge.
New York BabyShe lost faith in the northern skies,New York Baby4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
That faded from blue to grey,
And whispered tales of misty mountains
Covered in silence and snow,
She lost faith in the empty faces,
She met along the concrete streets,
That welcomed her home, to the world,
She wished she'd left behind,
She lost faith in the pixie smiles
That were filled with malicious dreams
Lies that spoke in half rhymes, and half truths,
And never thought to question.
She lost faith in the grass,
That died beneath her feet,
And the flowers that frosted over,
as they broke under her touch.
She lost faith in the human race.
Until she sat on the tower block top,
And watched the golden penny drop,
Painting the world a glowing orange,
And casting a ruby shadow over the grey
She had wished to leave behind,
Illuminating the world she was drawn too,
And painting a smile upon her lips.
Faceless FriendsFaceless FriendsFaceless Friends4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Those who are closest may be the farthest away
And the ones right there with you ever distant.
The people whom one cares for are never truly consistent
Yet sometimes the faceless friends are who stay.
The people who you don't know, but talk to every day;
The ones who you'd do anything for, to any extent.
The ones who, when they're gone, you wonder where they went
The ones who you never truly see face-to-face.
Our advanced world is a funny place, where opposite ends may become closest
And a person nations distant can be the greatest friend,
And the people right by you are sometimes unnoticed.
But the faceless friends, the ones for whom a young man wrote this,
The ones upon he can constantly and truly depend;
The people who, thought farthest away, are truly friends of the best.
I cant tell youI cant tell you why poeple die alone,I cant tell you11 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I cant tell you why everyone hates.
I can tell you to have strength,
to have courage,
To ignore the world around you,
Go your own way,
make your own friends,
find your own true love,
never hate,never die alone,
let others help cure your tragedies.
Create your style, create your life,
Mold yourself from the clay of being,
and make yourself your own,
I cant tell you why others wont help,
I cant tell you why people kill.
I can tell you to believe in yourself,
to make your dreams come true,
When others refuse, accept.
Learn from mistakes,dont give up,
Hold your head up high.
Fashion your mind,
dont let them push you around.
stand tall and proud.
dont be afraid to be laughed at.
I cant tell you why people go insane,
I cant tell you why people go hungry,
I can tell you to nourish your body,
to enrich your mind and soul,
to learn, to acknowledge the science of life.
and know that you can belong
eat healthy, drink plenty,
do not fast if there is no need.
RebuttleStupid girl, youre just a stupid girl.Rebuttle6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Look at you crying over those boys.
Theyre not even worth it.
Why do you try so hard?
To see through life, this veil upon,
Your eyes the world has cast it on.
To show you what they want to be,
Whilst rather that you know should be.
The difference is, the veil did work,
Unto its end, its purpose served,
To blind you wet with burning tears,
And hide from you the one that yearns,
Across from you, amidst that crowd,
You see all day and wish away,
He stands for you, and looks at you,
With pleading love inside his heart.
His life like yours a halting start.
He cries for you and bleeds for you
Just to be more close to you
But through your eyes, your tear-stained eyes
You cant see past the worlds dark ties
Darkened FruitThe sun catches your hair and engulfs strands in it's light.Darkened Fruit4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The various shades of brown, suddenly turned bright.
I stare in admiration from the back, watching from afar.
Something that can never be mine, my dear and shining star.
Someone I have held up so high, for so many long days.
The same person I had loved and adored in oh so many ways.
But I was always so far away from you and your blissful world,
Because I could never be good enough, so here I lie curled.
For once I was allowed to taste a sweet forbidden fruit,
And hold it to my breast proud, I had won my pursuit.
But then it was ripped away, and shining turned to black.
Oh, how much I had begged and wished for it to all come back.
Still, I feel the dark empty hole that you had left behind,
And wish for it to be filled, until the pain I bear in mind.
All the pain at just having a small delicious taste,
I will not have the whole fruit, and fall to my disgrace.
100 things--Iruka100 THINGS YOU WILL NEVER SEE IRUKA DO!!100 things--Iruka8 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
1. french kiss Kakashi in the middle of Konoha
2. say "how you doin'?" in a New Jersey accent
3. smack Kakashi on the butt and say "hey big boy."
4. declare he is tired of his current look and get his hair layered
5. buy a goldfish and tell it every night how much he loves Kakashi
6. Declaire his undieing love for Kakashi, Itachi, Kisame, Orochimaru, Kabuto, Gai, or any other
man in konoha
7. do 200 laps around konoha backwards on his hands
8. start wearing a green jumpsuit and orange leg-warmers
9. declaire Maito Gai as his 'baby-daddy'
10. drop a water balloon on the Hokage's head from the window above
11. start wearing all black saying "my life sucks." all the time
12. put his headband over his eyes and try not to walk into anything
13. attempt the 'sexy-no-jutsu'
14. go on a mass crusade to get Kakashi to show his whole face
15. wear red shiny leather pumps
16. dance in Kakashi's underwear
17. sing 'I'm a barbie girl' in a karioke bar
Boys Being...Boys +SasuNaru+Ow! My baby!Boys Being...Boys +SasuNaru+7 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
Everyone turned their heads to see Naruto holding his stomach after one of the students ran into him.
Oi, whats wrong with you? Sasuke mumbled loud enough for the blonde to hear.
He ran into me! I think my baby is hurt!
Sasuke rolled his eyes, much like the rest of the class did. Well, some of the people. Everyone else, mostly the girls, just continued staring.
Dobe, knock it off. You cant have a baby.
While still holding his stomach, Naruto brought one hand to cover his mouth with a bit of sadness in his eyes. Sasukes eyes suddenly widened and his mouth was agape.
Naruto... the raven started. ...you dont mean...
The blonde solemnly nodded. The whole room fell deftly silent. Sasuke took a shaky step back, but then lunged forward and grabbed Narutos shoulders.
But how? How long?!
Naruto adverted his gaze, closing his eyes as if to prevent