to what was
what might have been
and now I see
what was once unseen
left to dwell in emotions deep
what was reality
a lost fantasy
Sleep, Only to be woken
Run, Only to be caught
Scream, Only to be unheard
Escape to the darkness
Into the unknown
What was to be
No longer will
All is lost
In spite of me
To what was
What might have been
But now I see
What once was unseen
Sleep to be woken
Run to be caught
Scream to be unheard
Escape to the darkness
Into the unknown
Only to emerge in the light
To start again
A small tearA small tear14 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I saw it in your eyes
a small tear forming
I saw it in you cheek
the small tear falling
I tasted in my lips
the small tear from eyes
Letter to a MuseDear Inspiration,Letter to a Muse14 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I need a favour. What I want is for you to go down to a beach where the sand is bone white and rain water flows down
from the mountains into the ocean and for you to lay in the sand and make angels while the sun sets and the sky
turns orange then red then purple then black and then to walk barefoot through the stream back up to the beach
where the car is parked and freestyle a rhyme while thinking about love, and then I want you to find a bottle
or something with a secure top and find a way to seal up that entire moment and send it to me...
- Writer's Block
True LoveI didn't know love until I met you.True Love13 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Nothing in my life had ever felt so true.
You were the reason I went day to day,
Washing all of my depression away.
I wish I could make everything all right,
Every second I think of that night.
The way you broke my heart with only few words.
Did more to me than being stabbed by a thousand swords.
I didn't know pain until I met you.
Even know, nothing has ever felt so true.
You used to be the reason I went day to day,
But now your make me wish I could fade away.
The Dark of DayDark as the dayThe Dark of Day14 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Black as the light
these are the things
we cannot fight
These are those
the light we cast
with our shadows
things we feel
but cannot see
things we wish
would not be
Blinded by the touch
Numbed by the sound
Defeaned by the sight
of that which does not exist
We cannot fight
those hidden in light
that, which is inside
that we try to hide
The ever present cloud
the silence is loud
all we gain
something has lost
this vicious cycle
comes at a cost
The black of light
The dark of day
to show the way.
The Agony of AgeThe world is cloudy now,The Agony of Age14 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
As I slowly slip away.
More and more people repeat themselves,
as if I'm some bumbling fool
Oftentimes I feign foolishness,
to see what they will do...
They tote me around with them
when their pity strengthens
It's really all that I've become
the agony of their pitying gaze
Gives a slow but still-beating heart
High pitched voices and large-eyed perceptions
remind me of when I was opposite the end of the spectrum
still, but waiting to become...
I can only take joy that inevitably
they will become like me, inevitably
they will see through my eyes , and inevitably
they will hate it, as I do now.
Life is not meant to be remembered
it is to be experienced.
Let Me DieLet me dieLet Me Die14 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Let me die,
It hurts to live,
Let me die,
My soul to give.
I want to die,
Give me rest,
I don't want to try,
Just a bullet in the chest.
Every acrid breath makes sweet death,
Like the gentle touch of a lovers caress.
Let me die,
I beg you please,
Pain and disease
Are only a tease.
Give me a place,
Where I can be free,
Where demons wont chase,
And torture me
Just YesterdayJust Yesterday14 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Just yesterday you were holding my hand,
Just yesterday you gave me a wedding band,
Just yesterday you said I do and,
Just yesterday you said you loved me too.
Just yesterday you told me you cared,
Just yesterday you told me about the love we shared,
Just yesterday you said you'd never leave and,
Just yesterday that was all I needed to believe.
Just yesterday you were near,
Just yesterday they told me something I did'nt want to hear,
Just yesterday they buried you deep and,
Just yesterday thoughts of you kept me from sleep.
Just yesterday I finally came to see you,
Just yesterday I missed you more than I usually do and,
Just yesterday I remembered again how much I need you.
Just yesterday has come and gone and,
Just yesterday is just a memory of all that went wrong.
stained glass raini want you to kissstained glass rain5 years ago in Other More Like This
the stained glass
raindrops off my
face and save me
from the confines
of this room full
of kids worse than
(i will never stop
loving you as long
as i live; even though
they told me not to.)
i can't read, for the words
become as empty and
meaningless as braille to
my young eyes.
nothing takes my mind
of the compliments you
gave me, the dreams i
had of you under pale
skies; my bliss lost to
a black hole.
(why can't i be
everything you live
i dreamt i traced
your collarbones with
a hesitant finger and they
my fingertips like ash.
you were always so
delicate, more fragile
than you wanted
people to believe.
the trains running
along the train tracks
near the playground
are waiting for us; let's
escape authority and
make love under
night skies where
no one will find us.
(instead i'm in the
rain without you,
stained glass on
refusing to let go.)
UnbelievableUnbelievable you are.Unbelievable5 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Daring to cross over my heart?
I guess I should have foreseen it
Frankly Im not surprised I have to admit it.
Sometimes I cry I think of you and I just cry.
My heart is aching, she is slowly breaking,
But she cant hate you .
No not you.
Of all people, its ironic that you where the one who killed her.
She loved you so much, even tried to mute everything.
Logic, friends, family just for you.
And yet You
Drowned her to death from the tears
Suffocated her to death from all the fears
You even blinded her and took her into the darkness.
I lost her I know.
But Im trying to bring her back, I was that close to saver her.
You just couldnt let that happen.
You had to come and hurt her again
Just hearing your voice, her beat was racing
She even glowed.
I dont think I can forgive you. Not like her .
But in tim
.A heartbeat.A heartbeat, nothing more.A heartbeat.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A love gone wrong
A hope lost forever
A light darkened from all
A life for a death
A heartbeat thumping away
A love destroyed in an instant
A hope shattered
A light hidden from the world
A life taken so easily
A heartbeat falling away
A love crushed
A hope stolen
A light overshadowed by darkness
A life pushed aside
Nothing more than a simple heartbeat
Nothing stronger than a simple love
Nothing better than a simple hope
Nothing brighter than a simple light
Nothing more valuable than a simple life
A heartbeat, nothing more
Stolen from the world
MemoryI tripped over your memory todayMemory5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It haunts the ground I walk on
I found myself falling into open arms
Remembered your voice as it called my name
I walked into a wall today
Pressed my nose against the glass
I remember revolving doors
And how you stopped one in its tracks
I fell down the stairs today
And nearly twisted my left knee
And I remember how all the times you loved me
You never saw me hurt
I paced around my room today
Remembering our first phone call
My voice still shaking, I couldnt sleep
Small things like that may never change
I found myself a gift today
Remembering how little you gave me
And how so little meant so much
I slid it on my pinkie, one finger from where its meant to be
A memory well never have
A birthstone ring of mine and yours
Little diamonds, little stones
I turn it to the side, read the small engraving
In Loving Memory,
A place youll always be.
i loveI love the oceani love5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I love whales
I love jelly fish, dolphins and sea shells
I love things that move
In slow motion
I love butterflies, bumble bees, fireflies
Humming birds and baby lotion.
I love the moon
And the stars,
Now more than ever
Because I couldnt see them
When I was behind bars.
Im like a dog thats been set free
From his tether, loving freedom
I love mars, Jupiter and Saturn
If I could I would eat them.
Im a lost cause but I love it
Because I can look back and say
Ive lived a good life and die with dignity.
Fuck sitting in front of the T.V
Letting everyday go bye
Trying to do the right thing
So everyone can think Im a nice guy,
Im the wrong guy.
I love liquor and anything that can fuck you up quicker
I love drugs, sex, lady bugs
And my pit bull rex.
I love rebels without a cause,
And those with one.
I love the sound a gun
Makes when someone who deserves it
Is shot to death
And I dont care if you think its wrong
fooled.becausefooled.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I smile when
Broken GlassI almost allowed myself to love youBroken Glass5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But I'm glad I didn't fall
Because instead of pretty roses
I got thorns and broken glass.
You Really Do Love MeI want to help youYou Really Do Love Me5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Tell you everything will be okay
But than I'd be lieing to you
I wish I could tell you this doesn't bother me in the slightest bit
That I could just hide my feelings
But I'm getting worse at hiding things
Bottling them up until it's all just too much
I'm at my limits
I want to put the mask back on
But it's too heavy
It'll just sleep back off
In a lot of ways this kills me
But I know you're the only one who I can be saved by
And I'm the only one who can save you
To tell you the truth I'm scared
Whenever I asked for help before I was ignored
No one cared
You actually want to help
And for some reason that scares me
I cant hide from you
I'm out in the open
No where to hide
I know you said you wouldn't hurt me
But I've never bee like this before
Never been so unprotected
I've never put myself out like this before
There's always been a tangled lie to hide behind
My was was on most of the time
I hid most of myself from everyone
But with you...
I have to come out
Hope EternalI am in a moment of my lifeHope Eternal5 years ago in Spoken Word More Like This
Feeling indecision and causing strife
Not knowing when or where to turn
all my thoughts begin to churn
Of my wrongs and all the rights
In useless days and sleepless nights
A tortured soul with angst to shed
Mixed emotions fill my head
I cannot grasp where I belong
In moments short or much too long
I need some strength to find a cure
To rid this blackness to make me pure
The beauty is there but I see it not
A page in time is not forgot
All rests within my heart that beats
Simple days of torturous feats
I step ahead but cannot move
Struck with fear in this endless groove
A hand I need to grasp in mine
with eyes of love that help to shine
A light within this darkest day
Enables me a better way
This poem, I know, sounds very sad
Cry not for me of moments had
For I am blessed in every way
And in this world I want to stay
Tis just that blackness creeps within
And turns my good into a sin
Of thinking less instead of more
Eating deep within my core
I fight and stand
To RememberMy breath, is caught, within a sighTo Remember5 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Remembering moments of days gone by
My Lovers found and passion spent
Of no regrets and friendships meant
Our souls entwined for evermore
The rhyme and reason, my heart to store
I see myself so fancy-free
Each day was filled with what was me
A woman in a world of hope
Of seeds to sow and ways to cope
With promise and the need to know
Adventures fresh with eyes aglow
I see, I saw, my eyes I close
my precious moments, in time I froze
I hear, I heard, now silence reigns
Of sounds and words, the fear that feigns
the truest part of who I am
Of caring more, to give a damn
I have spiralled headlong within the mist
No consequence in love's first kiss
To feel complete and find my place
Amongst the twisted in this space
Oh please I pray, please grant me more
Of whats behind life's hidden door
Each day my body succumbs to age
As true as writings on this page
My heart and soul remain the same
My mind i
Angel EyesAngel eyes covered withAngel Eyes5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Bleeding facades of the past.
Whisper not into my heart
But onto my lips
Reaching down into my soul.
AfraidYou belittled me with harsh realitiesAfraid5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
That you fed to me through straws.
I won't be afraid of your hands anymore
Because I walk tall with head held high.
Sore painterI've been livingSore painter5 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
in a fantasy world
painting crazy pictures
on my black walls
I painted you
but couldn't do it right
others told me
I have no right
to even try
and I cried and cried
but at least
it's my world
and inside it
I won't get hurt
and from the outside
I now cover the walls
Truths And LiesI entertwined the lies and the truthsTruths And Lies5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Until I was blinded by them.
It became so hazy that I
Believed the lies and disbelieved the truths.
Never Let Him GoThe tears no longer come to the surfaceNever Let Him Go5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The fall inside my broken heart
'Sure I smile
Of course I laugh
But on the inside I'm dieing
Don't be sorry
Don't be sad
Just go on with your life
I'll be fine...
I'm always fine
But let me ask you this...
Did I really make it so easy to break me?
Easy enough to walk right in and out of my life?
You've broken me
But you'll never know
So why do I still care?!
I still love you...
Even though I know you're not the same person
You're not the person I remember
Not the person I fell in love with
Yet you still have my heart
And I hate it
This new you...
He's going to tear me apart
I've tried to bring you back
But I'm so tired of tryin
I've given up on you
You once told me when I had a broken heart...
I could either try to re-light the flame
Getting burned over and over again
Or I could just let go
I never thought you'd be the person I'd have to let go of
I'm so sorry it had to be this way
That this is where we end
But the old you...
YouIn my hearts desireYou5 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
You are there.
While my dreams wake up
Time stops for you and me
In my minds insomnia
Your cherished eyes are close enough to kiss.
But in my arms there is nothing.
Im waiting for you to come to me.
In my beating heart... there is you.
Everything is you. </em>
tread quiet, tread deepnight is the stale scenttread quiet, tread deep6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
of collected breaths
leaving the light on
in spite of despising it
the almost never silent
and the body
hope is a half-truth
hope lies in hiding it
the days rest their weight
in the lines of your face
and they ache
skin's a scribbled-on postcard
sincere and unsent
and a memory's
where you left it