Scene of an AccidentScene After An Accident
Lost my car in some wild
Speeding and craziness.
What do I do if the brakes fail?
Survive. I think. I forget.
Now I'm walking on the road's soft shoulders.
Springtime and weeds talk country matters in the gravel,
Under the melted butter sun.
A snake, only as long as a pencil, green
As cooked spinach, glides over my bare left foot.
So gentle, but I am waiting for the panic
Frozen hard as solid silver
And waiting for the lethal flinch.
My nerves aren't steel, they're silver.
I wish someone was there to witness my luck, for I have
Often pointed out the X's on my palms
To friends and said, "See, I'm always protected."
They laughed. But luck comes from the gods;
If there were proof of it anywhere, it would be in my
Improbably, while sleeping,
I see the snake again-or is it a different spinach-coloured snake?
It's the same road.
It's the same me, walking along with a crab-apple bush
to lean on as a staff
(My brain is bad at props)
My spinach snake is
ReflectionReflection13 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I tiptoe out as the snow silently falls
Forgetting troubles, I quietly leave the residence halls
Periwinkle toque on my head, snowflakes on my nose
The cold paints my face a warm coloured rose
A dance and twirl in the middle of the night
Wrapped in a jacket to ward off frostbite
Scruffed up jeans and warm comfy fleece
The cold bothers me not in the least
In the icy arms and frigid fingers of nature
Numbness sets in and in pain-free bliss I linger.
A frozen teardrop runs down my face
Brushed away but it leaves a trace
In life I may hold to dreams ideal
But ironic truth makes it all surreal
Upon my black mittens drift the snow
Each flake unique, that I know
Like persons, feelings, thoughts and emotion
Of spirit and dreams we have slight notion
When times are rough and in despair
Remember: no one ever said that life was fair.
But to living, in its uniqueness I give praise
All the hurt and joy in my arms I embrace
Recall the little moments which make you smile
for those are that which make
almost lose touch[almost lose touch]almost lose touch13 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
i had almost forgotten
the flavour of your lips
after speaking through a telephone
for over a month
i was almost un-used-to
your knocking at my heart's door
after being deprived of you
for over a month
now that you have returned
come here and hold me
the same pea"the same pea"the same pea14 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
the words, ehmmm...the words, where are the words?
(yeah, yeah, the words. don't tell her this. I really like her, after all, we are the same pea in this pod, but she worries about 'stuff' at the most inopportune moments, like when we should be sleeping)
where are the words which flowed from me this morning?
(she probably wrote an intense 'comment' and used them up, but she doesn't believe that's possible)
they were here last night, I woke up at 6 a.m. and they were here.
(one hour of sleep last night, it was pretty much downhill from there, bet she won't tell you)
I want them bAAAAAck!
(yikes, I hate it when she screams like that)
(well, gee, I just dropped them on her head real gentle, besides it 'was' an accident!)
Ahhhh...We danced together, feeling intensely the other's movements, and in the touch of the dance, we blended as one, under that heaven of glorious stars. This was our destiny, we, an explosion of two stars, the birth of a nebula in
without heat I will freezewithout heat I will freeze13 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
help me melt these tears
help me feel the comfort
and the love
of having a mother.
can you please love me
I really do need you
in dark tides
in my life.
can you kiss me goodnight
I want to sleep now
in your warm embrace
without fear for one moment.
can you hold me
and stay with me
make me feel secure
make me feel alive?
can you give me strength
lift my small body from the ground
make me feel the power
of having a father.
can you talk to me
like you know it all
make me smile
make me feel human.
can you be with me
tell me you care
secure my soul
save my body.
can you please stay with me
I don't want to be alone
can you please don't leave me
alone in this cold world?
you can't leave me here
please take me back with you
please love me
I can be a pretty child
I can smile..
please don't leave me
stay with me
take care of me
just don't leave me
I'm so young
I can just see your feet
I will grow..
you can learn to love me..
violet midnightsilken gold blushes,violet midnight13 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
unfading but changing.
warmth shines downward,
(bouncing on clouds,
pale white tinted gold.)
rosy hue blooming,
born of golden tears.
brilliant grains scatter,
shower the heavens.
(smiling in awe,
beauty in placidity.)
moon glossing the ground.
streak carving the sky.
(dangling feet off the moon,
and singing to stars.)
perpetual flames burning.
impenetrable or vitreous,
(dancing across the sky,
- StarDustNIGHT -- StarDustNIGHT -13 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
on wings of unseen glass birds
a taste of stardust forced upon their delicate brow
eyes tired of the journey to
gossamer crystal entrails
taut with overtasking
we drift slowly along this stream
in endless night
and the colours!
from somewhere far above
the stars sing praises and
align with the planets in tribute to their Creator
as their reflections dance in the aether all around,
throughout we course towards the grey of dawn
or the alternative, if such a thing does not exist
and sing songs of quiet wonderment
for a way back home
:// © 2001 J. Michael Renaud
Breathe In MeBreathe In Me13 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I can feel you breathe through me
I can feel your breath on my skin
I can feel me wanting you
I can hear your voice being carried by the wind
Love, it whispers on a breathless tinge
Your voice lingering on a mid-summer sky
Mingling with the stars that we share in our eyes
The world begins to rain as the gods cry for me
The four winds hold me in their arms as they attempt to comfort me
But all I can feel is your breath on my skin
All I can hear is your voice carried by the wind
Love, it whispers with a breathless tinge
A kiss on my cheek from the warm drops of rain
A kiss on my ears from the bluebirds in Spain
But all I can feel is your breath on my skin
All I can hear is your voice carried by the wind
Love, it whispers in a breathless tinge
...and the world falls apart with the silence of my broken heart.
Losing MyselfI had all but thrown away my faith in everythingLosing Myself13 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
drained my hope to the palest shade of white
wanted everything to end, yearning for peace again and again
i had given up
and then i saw my golden light
in the most angelic form of you
you are my faith in everything
and my hope I've sought so long
you became my saviour with your touch
the breath of life hidden inside your kiss
you are my everything in a world where everything i use to have
was as solid as soft mist
you are the pieces i need to make me whole again
Now i only yearn for the days
when i get to wake up to the safety of your arms
and the brush of your hair against my face
and the days when we can hold each other
the breeze carressing our skin
and i gaze deeply into your eyes
and drown myself into your soul
and lose myself in you
Interrupt*Interupt*Interrupt13 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
keep it coming
it's all i need
fill my head
stop my thoughts
drop it all
just for you
over and over
it comes back again
the neverending story
who gave you the authority?
my heart still bleeds
whether you notice
or just walk away
it's all the same
light comes with the day
same old cycle
all in confusion
are you real?
or is it just me?
all on my back
i hear the music
i can't feel the mood
that's the way it is
but so far off
so far off.
Sea of LossSea of Loss13 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Did I really think my climactic events would end in melancholy?
Fallen into the blue depths and ends of unfathomable loss
I know not what kept me here
Submerged in that sea of agony...
I had only my face above the surface
The waves then became adamant
I was suspended
I felt its cold stillness on my face
I felt the pieces of the hardened sea around my eyes and mouth
The fright that occurred throughout this cannot be told in words
But I held on...
As said before...
All in due time...
All in due time it was that my cage was fragmented
Just like I had been before
And I was released
Whispers Upon TruthDown on earth's over crowded surfaceWhispers Upon Truth13 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
many rushing waters cut into an empty sea
The stars are beholding the sky's intensity
and the winds are carrying its precision
The limbs among the trees grab the wind's
whispers and then gently lets them go
The whispers take with them the gentleness
and gives it to others who are willing to grasp
And from all this becomes truth and security
The stars are not the sky's delicious decorations
Look to them with deep intensity
Handle their books with care
If the rushing waters that cut into
the empty sea overflow,
then is it not true that the sea
will also become larger
regardless what it covers or destroys?
Is it not true that no matter
how much the earth is over crowded
and no matter how much the
rushing waters flow, the stars will
always look down upon this?
The gentle whispers of the wind behold
Although, not all trees will grasp all whispers
the stars will always look down upon them
A MuseA Muse14 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
said she: a black ball will fall out of the sky, and hit you in the eye. you know what you must do. you take it, you make it your own. cause you know it's yours. it will gleam in your hands. a crystal glass blown by sunlit morns. and tart your eyes must feel, from nights gilded by words of steel. don't kneel. fly.
said he: someday in someway I am going to make love to you.
said she: you already have.
july 17 2001
Scattered thoughtsScattered thoughts13 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I watch you breathing
slowly in and out
you always looked good sleeping
your lips curled in a little pout.
My side grows numb
from watching you forever and a day
I turn and now face my dresser
with the clock that ticks without delay.
This clock is my enemy
counting my hours like a knife
watching the hands through the iridescent glow
as circles are played on my life.
Less time to mess up
all my thoughts seem scattered
fewer seconds to cry
but did it ever matter?
Each movement slices my soul
every click makes me twitch
never ending, never stopping
this clock plays on without a hitch
Less time to love
but did I ever really care?
fewer minutes to feel
then why am I scared?
I turn away
I don't want to be afraid
I'd rather see your sweet face
then a clock that likes to betray.
Your mouth purses in your sleep
and I feel a smile dance on my lips
this clock is one that I
My shadowThere goes my shadowMy shadow13 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
no longer taking me
pull me down
you can't feel anything
There goes my life
take me away
please feel me
There goes my sunshine
it's leaving me
I've got my soul
and I can see
Here comes my love
it's holding me
I've got my heart
here you can see
Without You 2Without You 213 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
"Without You v2.0"
Darkness surrounds me
enveloping, caressing, smothering.
I turn on the lightswitch of my mind
sending thoughts scattering like
insects at the radiant brilliance.
I find myself thinking, pondering
what my life would be life without you.
Never feeling your soft caress
as you lay beside me in bed.
Never seeing the candlelight
dance in your emerald eyes.
Never hearing your cascading laughter
refreshing as a waterfall in the desert
to my soul...
Without you I would be a ignorant zombie
walking around. Never whole, always yearning.
Just as dead, just not realizing it.
Because I had never met that one thing
that makes my life truly worth living and
And in that moment I rediscover
for the first time what I have in you.
I reach across the table
and take your hand in mine.
Gently brush it against my lips
as I make a sad attempt to tell you
how much you mean to me.
"What was that for?" you ask.
Again I smile "Because you're wo
Pain by JSennPainPain by JSenn13 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
of the willow tree
brush slowly the ground where she lay
bound by the weeping agony
of pain circumventing joy.
Encompassed by the suffering
she sought comfort in imaginations mist
she softly whispered for the kiss.
The hand of her pain released its grip
embraced by love
and his soothing touch
gently, she is set free.
pathospathos14 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
look at me
yeah and I don't think I showed her a very good time that night
she shows me her back so often these days
all is love
is this how you taste
a cloying purple
show me how it works
or just walk away
I should be dead
this rotor should be smooth
she said she burned it
we can't fucking fix it
under such heat
under such extreme conditions
wear and tear is inevitable
parts break after overuse
it's already smashed
piles of dust
piles of paper
and why should I hoard these?
don't draw the line too close
please don't go
it hurts to kill a beautiful thing
you're not smiling
I want very much for that girl to ask me to dance
black electrical tape confided in me broke contracts for me
told me I had no right
I'm sorry this sounds so mean and weird and blunt and rude
but yeah I'm all right
yeah I think I did lose a friend
at least I understand the dynamic
but you're still not smiling
I want very much for that girl to dance with me
she won't look at me anymore
plethora- out the windowa momentary glance/gazeplethora- out the window13 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
out the window,
and i am taken/transported
out (of my eyes),
in (to the sky),
over (the clouds),
under (the stars)
to the core of
the milky way-
universes and galaxies-
in my mind...
... i celebrate
in a single glance/gaze
out the window,
i flew one/full circle
back to myself/earth
and i smiled.
The Red Rose TreeThe Red Rose Tree13 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
We taped it back on the red rose tree
Yesterday or maybe it was in 1941
right before Pearl Harbor was bombed
tears mixed with laughter, anger within
peace, water from the sea poured over me
A snow ball was thrown. Daddy and me
riding the snowsled, downhill with glee.
I picked a rose. We taped it back
on the red rose tree.
The sound of gravel road sparkled
blinding in the sun, wind and sand
and angel wings grew fireflys at
day's done. Big city lights, in neon
thrilled my sight. I read the sisters.
Metallic skates flew sparks on concrete.
Walking. Large black cars. City streets.
Eyes fixed on the ground.
(I wore my coat one summer)
you don't see me, you can't see me
and you can't hear my silent sound...
I dreamed I saw a rose taped to the red
rose tree, and in my stomach grew a thorn
to be the death of me.
He walked up to the door. This boy had come
for me. Protection, loved more than any
innocense of two made 3, then 4 and 5 and
finally 6 there was no time, no time
Tearing Down In Elevensif i everTearing Down In Elevens13 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
wanted you to know this
id tell you
if i ever
the world was too small
id make her big
if ever i grew up
in these tears
of a thousand angry men
the voices of a million shouting children
buzzing in my head
calling out to me
begging me for help
and the smell is
dropping me ill
until i can no longer feel.
the clouds of smoke
that linger for miles
when all we care about
is the payroll
here is how we fall
in unison out of our skin;
calling out to the twin we never had
yelling out to our birth places
that we always forgot about
tearing down the sky;
one cloud at a time.
Tearing Down in Elevens.
The Last UnicornThe Last Unicorn13 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
As shimmering light touches the ground
Reflected in the stars and moon, no sound
but quiet tiptoes and laughter fine
Like music it flows and weep moonshine
Try to look, maybe try to see
The elfin folk, under the Great Oak Tree
As a streaming breeze blows gently by
Hear tinkling chatter and the leaves' quiet sigh
Pixie skips, fluttering fairy wings and happy cheer
Wood sprites and river nymphs approach with no fear
'tis the full moon, and as magic settles through the night
A glimmer and twinkle of stars as dreams take flight
The fairy folk cheer as each wish of a child floats free
But even as they smile, they wait to see
The Last Unicorn, an appearance she makes
Once every full moon, a risk she takes
Ruler of the woods and forests all around
Sworn fealty to her are the fairy folk bound
Proudly she reveals herself, a magical beast
Hunted by many but she fears not in the least
Often thought of only as a myth or legend by all
Seasons pass, but she's seen every rise and fall
of man; knowled
The Midnight SnackThe Midnight SnackThe Midnight Snack14 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Smoke wafting up
The burning cigarette
so much like the
passing of time, slow, methodical
like fake granite, multi-colred cotton
focusing, the burning in the back of my throat
the burning, taste of blood, the annoying voices
pounding, piercing, somehow soothing
and somehow unnoticed
sitting here alone, yet surrounded
and yet we ponder, our next move
this strange taste
like melted plastic
or perhaps the taste of death
tingling on my tongue
refreshing yet revolting
cleasing yet dirty
the slow suicide, yet we don't notice
or perhaps we notice and we just don't care
but arent we all slowly dying
slowly burning out
fading out like fashion
the night calls
Copyright _ 2000 Sycophant/Tim Merrill
Transparent DreamsTransparent Dreams13 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A sea of faces surrounds me
stretching to some unseen horizon
in every direction imaginable.
Each gazing, taunting
staring at me (or through me).
I feel very transparent.
Secrets lay flayed open
by an unseen assassin's knife.
Goals on display behind cases
of glass forged from crystal tears.
Dreams paraded around for all
to see. No secrecy, no privacy.
Put myself between the crowds
and my transparent soul.
Begging, pleading to leave me be
but nobody hears my pleas
(or they don't care).
After poking and prodding all my
most secret ponderings
the crowd has had their fun and move on
laughing until there is no air left.
And I have cried until the oceans ran dry
for I have used up all the tears.
Fall to my knees and caress
the shattered pieces of
my broken aspirations.
I put them in a pouch and tie
the cord tightly around my heart.
Never to be opened, but always hidden.
Go ahead and mock me.
Tell me how you despise my goals.
Deny my dreams.
Block my passions.
I will not be restrained,