HatedLife was so much simpler
When I hadnt got a clue
Hidden meanings; covered words
Did not make me so blue
My heart it told a story
With an ending far too soon
A fairytale it couldnt be
It was a tale of doom
Those words came running at me
Those lips that spoke were kind
But those same lips that told me
Gave me pieces of their mind
They were not those of enemies
I couldnt fight them back
The words of friends I thought I had
They were all charred and black
I thought it would blow over
That time would heal the wounds
But days had passed and gone away
And still I was alone
My mind I could not speak of
My heart could not be free
The only thing I thought of
Was that somethings wrong with me
My friends I missed so badly
Id do anything to change
To make myself the perfect friend
To talk to them again
But time carelessly passes by
And they are strangers now
You cannot change a lifetime
When forgiveness is not allowed
EscapeI'm trying to escape,Escape10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
trying to get away,
trying to ignore what they do,
forget about what they say.
No move I ever make,
can ever be one right,
every simple thing I say,
always starts a fight.
I'm sorry I'm not perfect,
the way I'm supposed to be,
the thing is your slowly killing me,
why can't you see?
I'd really like to run away,
where someone would understand,
to someone who could see my pain,
and gently take my hand.
'Best Friend'You left me here,'Best Friend'9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
alone in the cold.
I can almost see the wind blow.
It brings back memories,
memories of you.
The way you used to smile,
you know, back we were two.
three musketeers minus one, "best friends".
The warth of your hug,
and those silly jokes you told,
while trying to cheer me up, force one smile out of me.
I opened up to you, telling you everything.
& now thinking back I realize...
you told me nothing.
Nothing worth knowing, anyway.
Whatever happened? Did you just get bored?
I'm not always cheery, not always interesting,
but I thought best friends was more than that.
Maybe I was too eager,
eager to believe I finally had someone,
some to call my best friend.
you were the closest to it,
almost the closest I'd ever had.
now you're just every other "friend" in the hallway.
-she seeks solace-1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
from the crevices of her mind
because it's the only place
where innocence still remains;
and it is the only place
where she can think
without the corruption of the world plaguing her mind.
Let Me DieLet me dieLet Me Die15 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Let me die,
It hurts to live,
Let me die,
My soul to give.
I want to die,
Give me rest,
I don't want to try,
Just a bullet in the chest.
Every acrid breath makes sweet death,
Like the gentle touch of a lovers caress.
Let me die,
I beg you please,
Pain and disease
Are only a tease.
Give me a place,
Where I can be free,
Where demons wont chase,
And torture me
FlawedInsecurities.Flawed6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Screaming at me,
clawing at every inch
of my body.
That little voice inside my head
sounding strangely like my own,
tearing me down,
from the inside.
Each hate-filled blow,
hits harder than the last.
Each self-inflicted cut,
hidden in shame,
nonexistent to the piercing eyes of others,
visible only in that lonely mirror reflection.
little dotted lines drawn
over every flawed bit of me.
Not pretty enough,
There is not a perfect inch
within my being.
Why can't I be beautiful?
-you sometimes f o r g e t-1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
who you really are
beneath the facade
— — because it is too painful
to acknowledge your sins.
-i. the world would be a better place if-1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
no longer existed
there is far too little time
to hold such bitterness in our hearts.
ii. the world would be a better place if
we found homes
in each other
home is where the heart is,
and my heart lies with you.
iii. the world would be a better place if
to believe in ourselves
it’s okay to fall
when you will rise once more.
iv. the world would be a better place if
the scars that adorn our bodies
in our flaws.
v. the world is a better place
because of your kindness
and everything you do.
Just YesterdayJust Yesterday15 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Just yesterday you were holding my hand,
Just yesterday you gave me a wedding band,
Just yesterday you said I do and,
Just yesterday you said you loved me too.
Just yesterday you told me you cared,
Just yesterday you told me about the love we shared,
Just yesterday you said you'd never leave and,
Just yesterday that was all I needed to believe.
Just yesterday you were near,
Just yesterday they told me something I did'nt want to hear,
Just yesterday they buried you deep and,
Just yesterday thoughts of you kept me from sleep.
Just yesterday I finally came to see you,
Just yesterday I missed you more than I usually do and,
Just yesterday I remembered again how much I need you.
Just yesterday has come and gone and,
Just yesterday is just a memory of all that went wrong.
Broken GlassWords that once belonged to meBroken Glass5 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Escape my icy grasp
Feelings that once guided me
Are now to far to clasp
And I can no longer remember
The sweet taste of your kiss
And the havoc wrecks my soul
That once was filled with bliss
And now my filthy hands cradle the broken glass
that was my perfect existence....
If only I had known that I
Would throw it all away
Would I have hemmed the edges
That now have started to fray
It was just one night of passion
That seemed so right at the time
It was the most vile wrong
How could I be so blind
And now my wet hands dig through the broken glass
that was my angel's breath....
I would give everything
To hold her once again
But I stained her perfection
With all my wretched sin
I would give her anything
To feel her warmth once more
Instead I carry the label
Of a dark and dirty whore
And now my bloodied hands clench the broken glass
That was her love....
Secret LoverSecret LoverSecret Lover6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Sing with me a silent song
Only the deaf can hear
Paint with me a blank picture
Only the blind can see
Speak with me empty words
Only the mute can say
Share with me this forbidden place that holds no bounds
Where ignorance is innocent bliss
We are the toxins in our veins starting form our hearts
As we share our deepest desires
But forget these poisonous moments
For we must return to reality
Where we can be no more than a dream
Lullaby of a RazorI've been here beforeLullaby of a Razor7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
So many times
Can't seem to get it right
You never die.
Really how much intelligence does this take?
Not much but then your lacking it in the first place
I know where to cut
But not which veins to drain
I'm such a looser my own life I can't take
Just start slashing, pretty soon in your blood you'll be basking
I've tried too many times to count
-she hides skeletons-1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
in her closet;
she hears the monsters
that lurk under her bed
and the demons
trapped in her head.
I ChangedTrying to cover the tears, trying not to show my fears.I Changed10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Why do I keep it all inside? My pain getting harder to hide.
I used to be cheery, it used to be real.
But now it's different, and they're making some big deal.
Saying "Why are you so sad?" and "You look depressed."
Can't you just leave me alone, let it rest?
So maybe I've changed...what's that got to do with you?
Just because I've changed? Well maybe you have too.
No EscapeTaking small pieces from me,No Escape5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
As I lay fragmented and broken
He destroyed what was left of my heart
Casting me into eternal darkness,
For so long I've searched for a way to escape,
Only to be surrounded by this inky blackness
Everything was dismal, nothing made sense
Everywhere I turned, I was surrounded by pain
And all of it came from making a deal with him,
The beautiful devil with the cold, wicked eyes
Same dark smile that haunts me still
Out of nowhere, you appeared to me,
Sent from beyond the realm of dreams
And I was the one who cast you away.
But you hunted me, tracked me down
Using our hearts as a guide
To find your way back to me
It is indescribable, but I will try.
Your scent sends chills through me,
With a voice that breathes life into
My abused, broken soul;
Your touch amazes me with every breath
And when you look at me with those eyes,
My entire world stops
Only for you.
I want to share this feeling with the world,
Yet I do not know how to name
The ballad of a cutterDream of marks being dug into my chest, Cutting into my flesh once again.The ballad of a cutter7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In places where not many lately save one could testify to have been.
It's rather gruesome, this recurring dream.
I want to watch my body bleed., The pain, it sooths me as nothing
Ever has. Tried being good, too caught up In being bad.
I want to see and feel the flesh being peeled From my skin.
I want it so bad, cause pain takes away every feeling.
Leaves me devoid of devotion to anything but
The simple act of drowning out my very emotions.
My tale has been told many times before, In the eyes of those forever unsure,
The young and the old, and the somewhere in between.
Some of us yes, we crave to bleed free. It's scary to hear, if you've never felt it,
But most of us, we prefer to be dealt it. Try it once and you'll see why we like it.
Adrenalines a rush, but pain's got a bite to it. Bloody and raw is when my skin looks best,
Covered in blood, from the slashes on my breast.
The wrists are too easy, and some do goo
-you do not know of the burden-1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
that lies upon my shoulders
nor the pain
that i carry in my heart.
Keeping Me A SecretBe here with me.Keeping Me A Secret10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
If only for a moment.
Just to touch my hand.
in the real world
we don't really even
know each other.
A touch of the hand
can't be construed
as anything more than an
I know that
we can't really be together.
That would be too much
good fortune for me.
We're kept in shadows
of back alleys and
Our love hidden beneath
and passenger seats.
But if this is the only way,
then so be it.
I try to be strong.
Strong like you tell me to be.
Strong like you are.
I fail miserably.
All day long,
I just want to collapse into tears.
I want to tell everyone around me
how you hold me,
how you love me behind closed doors.
It's a secret, I know,
I could ruin everything for you.
You have an entire life without me.
An entire life that would never accept me.
An entire life that would turn you away
in a heartbeat.
Life for you and me would be so lonely.
I'm not sure you could handle that.
I don't want you to have to.
I love you too