Makeshift Soldiers.We sat naked on the floor,Makeshift Soldiers.6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Shedding more than tears at the thought of trying again.
Maybe we were amidst the grown up ideals too long
Because when we thought we had problems,
Solutions were far from what came to mind.
I chewed on the story Id feed my friends
And you sucked at the teat that was your resolve.
Both of them fed us well in their own way
But I cant say Im sure of what became of us.
We turned our backs to each another
And marched like soldiers towards our own little wars,
Unsure of the consequences of our actions.
Maybe I came down too hard on you.
I beg to question your opinions from time to time.
Maybe I was too young for you.
I tend to be immature when given the chance.
I shot myself in the face with the wording I chose,
Biting my proverbial thumb at you while pissing on
What could soon be your shallow grave.
You had been digging that hole for weeks,
So it was just the right depth for me to throw flowers in,
Along with whatever else I could reach at the t
Sand Of My HeartYour words were etched into the sands of my heartSand Of My Heart7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But the water from my eyes, the salty tears
Washed them away and your words mean nothing to me now.
just listenDo you see what you do to me?just listen6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Do you understand
the pain and the sorrow
you put me through?
Listen to what I am trying to tell you.
Do you still not understand?
Do you not see that I am
trying to tell you something?
Just pay attention to me for once.
Stop Stop everything.
I wish I could make you understand.
I wish I could speak the words
that run daily through my mind,
but I cant.
I fear too much.
You should know this.
You should know me.
Weve been here on this ledge for so long.
You can never decide if you want to
jump off or take a step back.
misunderstanding to understandMy nosemisunderstanding to understand7 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
pressed against the wall
but you don't hear my voice
on the back of the door
I cover the walls with my love for you
but you don't read my words
You do not see
You see it is not
To take action
Where there is no action
in my life
even though I have dedicated my life
you don't even know
No you don't even acknowledge
Your resistance is legendary
left aloneTrembling hands cover my crying eyesleft alone6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
with my elbows propped on my knees
and my back firmly pressed against the wall.
This is where you left me when you walked away,
here out in the open where anyone could see me.
We argued over inane things
that meant nothing to no one,
but seemed to mean the world to you.
Then you stormed away, fuming
from something insignificant I said,
never once looking back
as tears fell down my cheeks.
Now I am truly alone,
with only the pity
of those that pass by
to keep me company.
So I gently rock back and forth,
trying to stop the endless flow
through cold fingers and will alone,
but failing as I wail into the darkness,
screaming a primal scream
that no one pays attention to.
I am just one more crazy person
left to wallow in my confusion
alone, tired, and cold without you.
anxietyshakinganxiety6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
never the chance to breathe in and
out the door
hit the floor
to a destination unknown
known to be out of reach
but still reaching for greatness
when greatness only slips
fingers that tap the table
sending my body
into an uncontrolled dance
never time to stop
my mind racing
leaving my mouth chasing
words never spoken
am I broken
on a level unknown
or is it known
but not shown
to the world
inside my head
making me seem brain dead
my brain is more alive
it just cant thrive
on normal levels
of non interaction
when you run away from me
I am shaking
and never relaxing
PerchanceThe melody floated soft as a whisperPerchance7 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
she sighed as if it had tenderly kissed her
Swaying as her eyes drifted closed
slight tilt of her head, as if a question were posed
Scent of jasmine perfumed the velvet night
though the floor was bustling, he kept her in sight
One after the other potential partners approached
but her blissfully aloof reverie was not to be encroached
While it made his heart skip a beat
that each was refused utterly and complete
It also convinced him he stood no chance
should he go over and ask her to dance
So he watched and studied her every feature
and concluded she was the most lovely creature
Ah, to hold her close and spin across the floor
quietly, he desired ever so much more
Galled by being so timid
he found himself growing livid
He muttered "I dont even know her!"
then determined he was going to go over
His attempt at a sexy, swaggering stroll
was a pathetically short lived goal
However, undeterred he navigated the throng
silently hoping the next to play was a
Huh?So its not every day that I come across something so thought provoking that I actually stop everything that I am doing and concentrate solely on a given subject although I so have to say that for once in a very long time many things are starting to fit together. The last part of the sentence may sound a bit odd but imagine yourself at a table with a puzzle in front of you, a puzzle which has more pieces than you can count and a puzzle that of which you have never seen before. But this is no ordinary puzzle for it has no edges, and there is no ending.Huh?6 years ago in General Non-Fiction More Like This
Are you scratching your head wondering what the hell I am talking about? I am too.
As you begin to connect one piece to another you will undoubtedly begin to draw conclusions as your mind is racing for an answer to the countless questions that arise throughout this process of your construction of the puzzle. With each answer comes an array of questions, questions that you unconsciousl
the lostsitting in the corner,the lost6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
hidden by the gloom,
that's where i find a young boy
spinning his own doom.
"young boy," i call with no reply,
but the lift of his steady gaze with swollen, bloodshot eyes.
he's trying to be marble.
beyond that stone, though, i see an orb
surrounding that frail boy,
the outter defenses so much like crystal,
clearly hiding what he thinks i can destroy.
i cant even touch him, so i just touch his world.
this is what i see:
this is his castle,
this wall so flawed
believes he's a monster,
something to be appalled.
i can see the difference though.
i can gaze upon the past.
i see the ancient love & pain,
the good beneath disease.
i see the ugly thing he thinks he is,
it's brought him to his knees.
i sit there watching helplessly, muttering such small words.
he can hear me,
but he cannot understand.
i know so little of him,
but i wish i could cure this pain.
his haunting eyes follow me,
as i hope and plead and strain.
he seems so hallow..but he can't b
Is it trueI dont like theIs it true6 years ago in Other More Like This
way you befuddle
my brain and
I cant contain
the desire to cuddle
are the one
I want to hold
in my arms and
out of harms way,
but I am told
you don't love me.
drawing you inAs you walk past me,drawing you in6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I draw you in
and wrap my arms
around your waist,
pulling you close
to feel your body
pressed against mine.
I encompass you
with both arms,
holding you tightly,
breathing you in,
never letting you go.
nothingOut of my mouth and into your ear,nothing6 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
flow the words you never wanted to hear.
I am the reason for all your pain.
I am the reason youre not sane.
Out of my hands and into the air,
I toss your heart without a care.
You gave it to me for safe-keeping,
now away from me you are creeping.
Do my words burn and singe?
Do my actions make you cringe?
You withdraw from me in fear,
taking away all I held dear.
Until I am left with nothing at all;
no one to catch me when I fall.
I scared you away with my fears
and now I cry pointless tears.
Open mouth, Insert FootGrasping at your dress as you leave,Open mouth, Insert Foot6 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
never knowing the words to say,
you turn to me with that look
and I have to force myself to turn away.
I can not seem to hold you,
not in my arms or in my mind.
When youre here youre unforgettable,
but when youre gone youre hard to find.
With you lying next to me
I can say your name a thousand ways,
but when you take a step out that door
your name is no longer a word but a phrase.
That girl, the one I was just with
you know the one I am talking about
and if you knew this nasty little truth
youd kick me in the teeth, no doubt.
But then I would just mumble
and maybe thats for the best,
because when I open my mouth
I shove in my foot and swallow the rest.
fearYou rip into my headfear6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
destroying my mind
nothing but you
all I can think about
is how badly
I want to touch you
how I shake
when you are near
and how I quiver
with extreme fear
when you leave.
hearts don't breakhead in the treehearts don't break6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
oh woe is me
but hearts dont break you see
they are strong
and love to party
they would never break on me
not even if my dog got hit
by an ice cream truck
or my cat drowned in all the muck
or my hamster stopped
running on his wheel
none of it would change how I feel
with a smile
on my face,
with a frown
I am perfect
in a box
safe and sound.
If you only knewIf you only knewIf you only knew6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
that I wanted to run
my hands all over your body,
if you only knew
that I wanted to run
my fingers through your hair,
if you only knew
that I wanted to strip
you down to your skin
and kiss you from head to toe,
would you still be standing there?
to abuse and hinderdissect the truthto abuse and hinder6 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
digest the lies
I try to listen
but the contradictions
just dont make sense
they say theyre here
to protect and serve
but protect and serve who?
and sure as hell, not you.
maybe if we made six figures a year
but damn, each week I fear
I wont have enough to just get by
Im left holding my head
between my knees
in a communal cell
release me from this hell
smoking a joint
and they had
to make a point
by punishing me
when murderers and rapists walk free
because they had the money
to pay for their get out of jail free card
who was I hurting
standing in the yard
smoking a weed,
I ask, can you see
the justice here?
Late Summer EveningLate Summer Evening7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and cools her heels in courtyard corners -
ducking behind sand dunes,
counting scarlet leaves
and harvest moons
in warm breaths off the gulf.
Ochre glints in the grass
where monarchs hold court
and dapple the air
with new wings.
And in the distance,
the hurdy gurdy ice cream man
kilters, truck careening,
chasing down the dusk
as children play tag
through sprinklers in the dying light.
Mothers unpin ghosts from clothes lines
and gather on porch swings
to sip Scuppernog and trade secrets
while street lamps spark to attention
their soft halos melting
into mottled green and black
where fireflies vie for attention
and pale white moths laze across spun gold....