100 Reasons to Stay AliveCute animals that make you go, "Kawaii!"The part of the charger you put your foot on while you're derping on the laptop.Pencils so sharp you can possibly murder an undesirable specimen. (I don't suggest that, but you can.)Clear, blue skies.Putting on the headphones after a long day.Realizing you don't have any homework.The feeling of spring after winter."EMERGENCY MESSAGE: Due to extreme weather conditions, all school activities and administrative offices have been closed for today."Dry towels.Belting out your favorite song in the shower.Cute guys.Maybe cute girls.Or maybe both. I don't know your preferences.The sense of accomplishment.Looking in the mirror and trying out your "sexy" pose.Going on DeviantArt to find your messages chock-full of activity notifications.When you're in a radically good mood so you don't have a care in the world.Hilarious videos.Seeing a picture of something that doesn't usually have a face having a face.When your crush smiles at you.Being weird with your BF100 Reasons to Stay Alive6 days ago in Emotional More Like This
Markiplier - Draw My Life.Markiplier Draw My LifeMarkiplier - Draw My Life.6 days ago in Emotional More Like This
“Hello Everybody! Markiplier here and thank you guys so much for being with me through a 1000 videos! It’s hard to even imagine how we’ve gotten from this point, and I REALLY wanted to do something special for the 1000 subscriber milestone, er, not a 1000 subscriber- 1000 VIDEO milestone, and, I think this video is really gonna explain to you guys how I got from point A to point B, and how YOU guys have helped change my life because, um, these things are really important to me because, they tell how I became the person that I am, and I really do appreciate you guys for sticking with me. So, HERE WE GO!!!”
“I was born on an island in the middle of the Pacific Ocean called O’ahu, which is the third largest island of Hawaii, and home to the city of Honolulu where I was born on a military base. My dad was a career army man, and he had been in the army 23 years before he retired, and appar
Maybe This Is My Last GoodbyeI just have something to say and that is that I can not butMaybe This Is My Last Goodbye5 days ago in Emotional More Like This
I have tried to get ahead for myself
But I can not
Every time I feel most miserable
Whenever I feel like not worth it to go ahead
I've tried everything
But they just look at me as a useless, stupid good for nothing like a monster
So to go ahead if, just they tell me my faults in the face
They say I have to open my wings and fly towards my destination where I belong
I try to fly, but my wings are broken
And without wings I can not fly to my destination, and if I not go to my destination I have nothing
And if I have nothing to go ahead
Maybe my destiny is in heaven, where there is no evil, sadness or mental illness
Today My Hands Reek of Doctor Office SoapBecause I frantically washed my hands in the back roomToday My Hands Reek of Doctor Office Soap3 days ago in Emotional More Like This
Because I’m one anxious little fuck when it comes to needles and
Crying children in the hallways and rooms where the walls are paper thin
Because I nearly pass out when needles are stuck into my arm several times
Because no one can ever find a goddamned vein the first time
Trying to calm myself as the doctor comes back in and the first words out of my mouth are
“So what are some good anxiety medications these days?”
a letter to her My darling sunshine,a letter to her5 days ago in Emotional More Like This
I know that we're about 1000 miles apart, but my heart feels tied to yours and I can't seem to let you go. My heart tells me that you're my soul mate, that you're my other half, that you're supposed to be loved by me and I by you. Age is just a number. I know that. In your Valentine's Day card, you told me to believe in us, to believe that one day we'll be together forever. I can't wait until that day!
Recently, you suggested we take a break because our distance is too big for you... I told you that'd be okay, I told you that I could wait for 4 more years (seeing as that's how many years of school I have left). You still call me your lovely pet names for me: Babe, darling, deary, and my favorite - your shooting star. You still tell me that you love me, and I tell you that I love you more. I do believe in us, I do believe that some day soon, we'll be together forever.
You, my dear, are my best friend... And I'm yours, you told me so yourself. I won't let you g
I'll never be your daughterDad, oh why... Why can't you...I'll never be your daughter16 hours ago in Emotional More Like This
Why can't you accept who I am?
Why can't you accept how I am?
I have never seen this world,
I don't know the things you do.
I know that, and I know youre much wiser.
Wiser than me.
But is that a reason?
A reason for that expression?
The one on your face,
telling me that you think Im dumb.
Dumb and idiotic and worth nothing.
Are you really like that?
Is success the only thing that matters?
Intelligence and smart thinking?
Does someone not perfect not fit into your world?
Do you really think this...
Do you really think I'm not perfect enough?
But why do you do it then?
Why do you say you love me?
The way I am.
You said you loved me,
but to be honest, dad, I can't believe you.
Do you really?
How can you love me?
Why do you look so disappointed?
I can't understand your point.
When we argue you say it's me.
It's all my fault.
Is it really?
Do you really think it's me?
Do you mean it when you say things...
Things like "You should get a psychatrist!"
How can yo
the weight of living pt. cdlxxit's a tangle of voices in the midst of rainy 1.53am breakdownthe weight of living pt. cdlxx1 day ago in Emotional More Like This
right now i want to cut myself
it feels like an ideal solution
i know it is not
maybe i should throw out my blades
i don't know
i don't know
i do know
i don't want to
the key phrase is just in case
you don't understand
you don't care
i wish .he cared
i also wish he wasn't fucking a fourteen year old harry potter freak with nicer eyes than me
i also wish he didn't spend his lunch times locked away in the drama room with a 52 year old paedophile with marriage problems
i wish i'd never cut myself because it's all these scars that will never fade and they remind me every day of how much i fucked everything up and how much i will never be okay what am i even saying
he reminds me of a sadness i never truly covered up and never truly understood
he reminds me of the gir
La Voce Toaif there is a hardness in the heartLa Voce Toa4 days ago in Emotional More Like This
it must be broken
if there are words inside untold
they must be spoken
if there is a candle burning at the shrine
it must burn down,
until the very last drop of wax is spent
this hope will have no ground
wherever i turn
wherever i spin
these are the words
of the dance we're in
if there is sadness welling at the throat
the tears must run
as raindrops fill the ocean
it must be released and sung
if there are voices silenced in the darkness
louder they'll shout
the crowds will take the streets
their anger must be let out
wherever i turn
wherever i spin
and these are the words
of the times we're in
la voce toa nu l'hai timire
la voca toa falla sentire
la voce toa nu l'hai timire
la voca toa famme sentire
My Father's Last Poem The Night Before He DiedMy Father's Last PoemMy Father's Last Poem The Night Before He Died6 days ago in Emotional More Like This
My mother held my sobbing father one night
He begged her not to put him into a nursing home.
He wanted to die in the home he built himself for her.
It's the least she could have done.
He had been taken via ambulance without him even knowing where they were taking him. He must have been so frightened, this kindest man on the face of the earth.
Images burn, I swear they burn starting in the brain,
from there going wild into the deepest darkest part of your soul.
I see my father in the nursing home making a gallant attempt to spoon the liquid broth
they called soup into his mouth.
Off to the side is a mushy bowl of fruit gone soft.
His milk looks curdled, it can't taste good.
But my father never complains, so paints on his face the fake of a smile
He thinks we don't sense his pain so we can't feel it, he was wrong about both.
Life with him has always been that way, I remember no other.
After Daddy passed I found my mother crying.
My son had stayed until the amb
ReflectionsReflections1 week ago in Emotional More Like This
Today is yet another bad day. I feel tired, I feel weak. I feel sad.
I have no reason for my sadness. My whole being aches, tears rim my eyes. Why do I have no reason for my sadness?
I want to cry but I can’t. I want to sleep but I can’t. I want peace of mind, a moment of happiness.
Is it me? Is it the world? Why do I feel so sad? It’s maddening, infuriating. I want to cry but I can’t.
I want help. I want sleep. Fear plagues my dreams. The monsters never sleep.
The haunt me everywhere I go. I see them in the mirror, I hear them with my mind. They reflect in my thoughts. A mirror never lies. I see disappointment, scrap.
Why can’t I have peace of mind?
Teenage Girls“I don’t know what asshole invented the idea that teenage girls are the cause for all evil, but I really hope that person never has to raise one. I don’t want him to see her dissolve in his fingers as society tells her to eat less, be thinner, be the damsel in distress, be something for a man to fix, be different but not too different, be special but never ever a special snowflake - I don’t want him to watch as she realizes that no matter what she loves, she’ll be made fun of for it. She can simply like her coffee from Starbucks and suddenly she’s vapid and thinks herself poetic. She’ll want to play video games but be called a fake nerd, particularly if she poses in any remotely flirtatious way because for some reason despite the entire community playing games with poorly dressed women they still hate it when a real girl wears less clothing, she will be seen as trespassing in a specifically male space - but when she falls in love with a female-Teenage Girls2 days ago in Emotional More Like This
TrappedRip and shred. Tear and slice. Remove this hideous face. End this disgraceful life. Hate and blood. Fury and bone. Let it all become darkness. I want to scream a wailing keen. Something inhuman and chilling. Escape this shell of a body. Start new somewhere else. I want out. Let me out NOW! I won’t stay here. I won’t let you keep me! Screw this reality. It’s all lies. I hate what I am. I should just disappear. Fear is strong, trying to strangle me. I can’t let this world win. I must leave. How do I get out of here?Trapped3 days ago in Emotional More Like This
Leave Her AloneThere is a girl.Leave Her Alone4 days ago in Emotional More Like This
About twelve or thirteen.
She has depression.
And people bully her!
She may say no one can understand her.
But I can.
I can feel my heart slowly crumbling.
I can feel her pain.
Whenever she tries to stand up for herself, people get mad.
Because I know how it feels.
But all I ask...
Don't bully her.
If your bullying her, your bullying me.
Don't get mad at her if she stands up for herself.
Don't hurt her.
Don't insult her.
You don't know it feels.
But I do.
Don't say you hurt worse.
Because you really don't.
And most of all, if your bullying her.
LEAVE HER ALONE
Diary Entry #2March 3, 2014Diary Entry #25 days ago in Emotional More Like This
Notice how I called you “friend”. I was reading “The Perks of Being a Wallflower” and the main character, Charlie also writes diary entries, like me. But anyways, I will call you “friend” from now on. Since you are my friend, I hope.
I am writing you today because it was a hard day for me. I had bipolar emotions today and it was hard to deal with. I felt empty and emotionless at two points in the day. One was in advisory, and then lunch. Lunch was bad today.
During lunch I am with Blake, and I love that. But today was different, when we were walking to the place we hang out at. I lost emotion, and I felt empty and almost. Dead inside. He tried getting close to me at many points, and I just looked away and got more distant. And it really hurt me, and him. It hurt me the most to stay alone when you have the closest thing next to you, trying to comfort you, and care for you. I felt like crying at school. To be honest, I
Unexcused Acts-Unexcused-Unexcused Acts1 week ago in Emotional More Like This
You will never be excused for what you've done.
I was taught how to act the hard way; through the cruelty of others.
Your cruelty and harassment will always be with me. It's who I am now.
My enthusiasm is gone, I'm scared of new people, my confidence is near nonexistent.
Seriously, why do you think I'm so obnoxious around others? I'm hiding how scared I am.
That they may put me down. That they'll see past my lies and gaze upon the weird little girl on the inside. The one who was lactose intolerant, and then she was picked on for not knowing about it... until it was too late. The kid who was completely convinced that dragons and unicorns were real for a whole year. The one who tried to stop you from torturing bugs out in the playground. (I never did let that go)
You never did think twice, did you? About making me think we were friends... letting you in on my secrets... only to have you turn around with your mob of friends, and attack me with the words I trusted you with.
My life so far...I guess.. MehI guess I might have started unconsciously in 6th grade. 6th grade was an okay year. I started to notice the distance between my friends and I. Near the end of that year I lost my friend to an Undiagnosed Leukemia. It was sudden and sad. But I think it all started in 8th grade. Last year of middle school. I think it was a little bit after the first trimester. I had figured out something about myself that would change everything. I figured out my sexuality. Yes I am a lesbian. What does that have to depression you might ask? Well I told my [ex] friend about this feeling I was having. I thought I could trust her and that’s why I told her. Only thing was that I couldn’t. I don’t remember exactly what happened because I’ve suppressed the memory but one thing lead to another and then she blackmailed me. She said if I didn’t post it to Facebook then she’d tell the whole school. So I posted it. On the one hand Facebook wasn’t as popular back then so nMy life so far...I guess.. Meh6 hours ago in Emotional More Like This
LeuchtfeuerMein Herz ist ein Leuchtfeuer, es wird irgendwem den Weg zeigen.Leuchtfeuer10 hours ago in Emotional More Like This
Meine Gedanken sind Notrufsignale, irgendwer wird sie hören.
Aber wie lange dauert das ?
Die sanfte Brise ist zu einem wilden peitschenden Wind geworden.
Wie oft bin ich nun schon in dir ertrunken ?
Ich will nur raus aus diesem Meer das mich so in seinen Bann gezogen hat, dass ich nun nicht einmal mehr an das Festland zurück gespült wurde, sondern mich an eine Insel habe treiben lassen von der ich nun nicht mehr wegkomme.
Immer wieder springe ich zurück ins Wasser, doch es nützt nicht.
Ich schwimme und ich komme nicht voran.
Immer wieder werde ich auf diese Insel zurück gespült.
gewachsen aus Gewohnheit und Naivität.
Lungen voller Wasser, Augen voller Tränen.
Wasser im Wasser.
Ein Dilemma ...
Denn ich wollte ja erst selbst dort bleiben..
doch langsam erkenn` ich, dass das unnatürlich war.
Denn ich bin kein Fisch, keine Möwe.
All the rings of hellThere are different levels of the closeness and understanding of a friendship.All the rings of hell1 day ago in Emotional More Like This
There are those people around whom you are almost as masked as around strangers. You might talk about personal matters, but it's all very superficial. These are the ones that you might assemble to have fun or just generally mess around a bit. They're on the outer fringes of friendship, just a little more than acquaintances.
There are those closer friends, ones who know you better, who you might talk to or meet with relatively frequently. They know more about you, and it's harder to hide the facts from them, but they don't necessarily know the reasons behind those facts. They are the ones you may know from school or work. They're around, they might say a nice thing to you here or there, you and they can comfortably talk one on one sometimes, but still, you only really know the surface of each other.
Then there are the ones that know you well, but that you still wear the mask around. You could expose yourself,
Kido la fourmiDans une fourmilière vivait une fourmi qui s'appelait Kido. Les fourmis, pour communiquer entre elles, utilisent des phéromones, c'est à dire des odeurs qu'elles émettent, ou se frottent les antennes pour permettre un échange semblable à un dialogue. Depuis sa naissance, Kido ne pouvait pas dialoguer avec ses collègues en frottant ses antennes, car les écailles des siennes étaient retournées et cela blessait l'autre fourmi. Kido devait donc communiquer par phéromones, qui était un langage beaucoup moins précis et superficiel.Kido la fourmi1 day ago in Emotional More Like This
Un jour, une colonie voisine vint s'établir avec celle de Kido. Celle-ci observait les autres fourmis qui se liaient d'amitié les unes aux autres. Elle, elle devait se contenter d'assister de loin à ces rencontres. Une de ces fourmis voulut la connaître. Elle produisit la phéromone "communiquer" à son attention. Kido en était t
Male! you x fem! YouMale you x fem youMale! you x fem! You2 days ago in Emotional More Like This
[MY] means male you
[FY] female you
"Dam it why did we have to go to the woods" [MY] said he was very
How could you say this ..........mad." Well father told us to he said we needed to go outside"
[FY] said. You are kinda of let's just say had you mood swings
Shy and soft-Crazy and weird- smart and perfect
[MY] was your oldest brother and [FY] you a were quadruplets the other pairs were
At home doing house work. You guys never had a happy child life.
Your old house got damaged when a bomb was placed under your house, nobody knew
How it got there.
Your parents are rich but you quadruplets and one older brother were like their maids and butlers.
The mother would say how perfect you are and how smart you are, when the
Other four are called how stupid you are,look at your younger sister
She is perfect while all of you are bitches, stupid, and ugly.
You were the youngest one.
The oldest one was named Claire
The second oldest was named James
The third one
Winter Wednesday Quote These are special quote only on certain holidays or season sooo...I hope you enjoyWinter Wednesday Quote3 days ago in Emotional More Like This
16. You can sit by me near warm the fire of our friendship
17. Lets build a snowman together.
18. Oh look, the sky is shining billions of stars around us.
20. Some hearts can be warm to me.
21. A gift a blanket for you to be wrapped around in a ribbon.
22. Ouch, that hurt......but not my heart.
23. If I was a snow person I melt in your arms.
24. It snows and snows I'll see you when it melts from my hands.
25. aww.....winter is over.....HERE COMES SPRING FILLED WITH FLOWERS FOR YOU.
26.Though you can't see me cry all those tears turn into snowflakes.
27. The snow is cold so, I have you.
28. I taste a bitter coldness, OH WELL....I can drink a warm,sweet cup of hot chocolate with you.
29. NONONO,Don't be silly winter is full of imagination that bring us the light of the world.
30. You are a snow person and I am a snow person later on we will melt away and bloom as a flower.
That MomentI want that little moment of recognition,That Moment3 days ago in Emotional More Like This
The moment when you are talking, someone is listening, and you connect, you share the same thought.
You share a small smile, it's just for a second, but for that second, everything, everything makes sense.
ChangedI know that I'm not pretty, I know that I'm not smart, but honestly I thought I was all right in my heart. I know I'll never be the person you wanted me to be, but honestly I wasn't made in your image, but in rather my own. I'm different from the others, because I am headstrong; it's only because I don't want to be looked down upon on because of my gender. I know that when you see other girls, I'm nothing like them, but honestly why should I be like someone I'm not supposed to be ? Why be someone whom isn't me. I'm tired of trying, I'm tired of crying, I don't need to put up with this anymore. I want to give up, but I'm afraid, I'm afraid of what awaits me in the next life. . . .A life of eternal pain and solitude, for my selfish choice. I just don't want to disappoint either of you anymore, I know I'm a bother and an chore, but bear with me just a little longer, and you shall see that I am no longer a chore. For soon enough I shall leave and to perhaps never return, because I must purChanged3 days ago in Emotional More Like This