I'm Not a CutterJust because I'm not a Cutter,I'm Not a Cutter5 days ago in Emotional More Like This
Doesn't mean I can't feel pain.
It just means I’m strong enough,
to fight the battle, without giving up,
or succumbing to my own agony.
It just means, that I'm strong enough to go on.
I Dream About HerI dream about her, quite often, actually. It's been nearly two and a half years since I've seen her face to face, and it truly does break my heart when I remember the good times. She was one of my best friends, one of the greatest influences in my life, and someone who could make me smile. However, all good things must come to an end eventually.I Dream About Her2 days ago in Emotional More Like This
Drugs don't just affect you, they affect your friends. When you've been roped into the bad crowd and refuse to turn to the people who love you most, you're going to lose everything you care about. Well, I cared for her, alright. We were nearly as inseparable as Sempai and I, hanging out nearly 24/7. Sure, there were fights, but every friend has a fight. It's when the line is drawn that things get messy.
In my dreams, I remember how she used to be, how fun she was, how silly she acted, and how she was just pleasant to have around. What happened? Why did she decide to go the way she went? To turn to lying, drug abusing, and overall not caring for
We're Waiting.To be a good writer is to be you. To be a good artist is to be you. To be anything is to be you. Dream. Live. Wonder. Create. And be yourself.We're Waiting.1 week ago in Emotional More Like This
Because you are the one who can make the change that everyone's been waiting for. You can do what others were too afraid to do. You just need a little push, and a lot of hope.
But most of all, you need you. Your individuality. Your uniqueness. Your creativity. Your imagination. And if you tie that all together, you can create something absolutely beautiful. Something new. Something amazing. Something we've all been waiting for.
The world is waiting for the next J.K Rowling. The world is waiting for the next Van Gogh. The world is waiting for the next Beethoven. The next Einstein. The next John F. Kennedy. The world is waiting for you. We're waiting for a change. And who's the say you can't make a change? Who's to say you can't make a difference?
You can. You most certainly can. All you need is a dream, hope, and a little bit of imagination. And
One last time. KristaXReaderFor music please listenOne last time. KristaXReader1 day ago in Emotional More Like This
Highly recommended after the game scene though
"Two Kings!” Krista piped laying the cards on in the pot laying on my lap. She sat cross legged on the hospital bed with me. Sitting up straight and laid her cards face down in her lap leaning forward, now were both now down to one card. you looked up from my last card and glared at her. For such an innocent girl she had one hell of a poker face. you swallowed the lump in my throat and laid down my last card.
“One Ace.” you stated and crossed my arms challenging her to say it.
‘that’s it! the cat’s in the-’
“Bullshit!” She called out and flipped over the card that had just laid down….a queen,.
“Damn it Krista!” you shouted smacking the pile off my lap then pouted indignantly.
"Can't you just let me win for once." I asked. Krista giggled an
Just Venting"Are you alright?"Just Venting5 days ago in Emotional More Like This
"Wow, you're good. Why aren't you in honors?"
Because I know I'll fail.
"Hello? ...You okay?"
"Wow, I didn't mean it. It was a fucking joke...Hello? Hey, I said I'm sorry."
"You don't appreciate anything."
"You're so lazy."
"Wow, what's got you in such a pissy mood?"
"Nothing. I'm fine."
"When was the last time you saw him?"
"...Over a month."
"When was the last time you talked to him?"
"And that boy you talked about, you're still with him?"
"He cheated on me."
"You don't trust many people, do you?"
"I trust far more than I should."
"For someone with all these problems, you sure do smile a lot."
CycleI reserve the option to be emotionally born, play, grow old, and die at last once every decade--perhaps every year, month, week, or day.Cycle5 days ago in Emotional More Like This
--J. Shidler 2014-04-06
Have you ever had the feeling...Have you ever had the feeling like you just don't know what to do? Where you just can't even think of what to say or who to talk to? Like you're being torn between two sides and you just don't know who to pick? Like if you make one wrong move, you'll be sent down a slippery slope with no return?Have you ever had the feeling...6 days ago in Emotional More Like This
I feel like this every day. I don't know what to say, and I don't know what not to say. I don't know who I should and shouldn't be talking to. I don't know what questions are safe to ask, and what ones are better left unsaid.
I can't simply hide away from it all. And I can't simply do something too drastic. I feel like I'm being forced to feel some way when I feel another. Like I'm the bad guy for staying true to myself.
I'll get in big trouble if I make a mistake, and I don't know how to keep going without making one. I'm terrified of the inevitable fates that I see...I can't find a path to a good outcome no matter how much I think it over...
No one tells me straight up what's wrong, I have to
For JustinJustin,For Justin1 week ago in Emotional More Like This
You don’t know me and I don’t fully know you- I only know your story. Sometimes a story is all you need to really know someone, and I’m sorry you may never know me, but I feel blessed to know you.
I... well, vocabulary is very limited and I don’t really think there are words to describe it but, well, I can try. In a way I kind of look up to you. It’s amazing how strong you are; if what is happening to you were to happen to me I wouldn’t be half as strong as you are. That’s how I also feel about Jeth. We often don’t know what we have, and I sometimes think that it’s amazing how people can live without things I take for granted. Like Jeth told me you aren’t able to look at a computer screen; that would seriously kill me. All I ever do is go on my phone and laptop, and if I didn’t have those things, I would I hate every second without them. You and Jeth both are similar in your own ways because you both have more po
You and I are just the same...You and I are just the same...4 days ago in Emotional More Like This
Through glazed plastic eyes I stare, a soft smile sewn onto my lips.
"You're my best friend!" the girl across from me smiles, giggling gleefully as she does.
"You're mine too..." I respond with warmth in my unspoken words.
She brings me close, hugging me to her chest, as she spins in a circle. Then after she holds my hand and brings me wherever she goes.It always starts like that, so gentle and innocent. Slowly, it grows as she starts to reveal her secrets to you. Crushes she has, wishes for things that she wants. You'd think this was an unbreakable bond. But then, they begin to grow distant. Their warmth leaves and you're left in a cold corner, forgotten.
They may come to visit you every now and then, but it's never for very long and soon enough it's they simply don't return. In years they may find you and look you over. They find you dusty, your eyes are scratched and the paint is faded.
"I remember y
The worst decision I made...I'm sorry...The worst decision I made...1 week ago in Emotional More Like This
I'm never here for you...
I feel like an absolute arsehole...I...I neglected you...and...
Look...I know I can't make up for what I've done, but...
I want to be here for you.
I'm not just saying that, I mean it. If there was a way I could prove that to you..trust me, I'd do it...
I just...I miss you so much...this...might sound cheesy as hell but...for a while, you were the only one that helped me stay happy...
I owe you so much...and I...think it's time I give back...
...D'you remember the first time we properly met?
I couldn't keep my eyes off you...to this day you're still one of, if not, the most gorgeous lady I've met...
Not only that, you're one of the most lovely ladies I've ever met...I...I can't believe I just...never said goodbye
Look...I want to promise you something...
I promise never to hurt you again...
To just disappear...
To leave without a simple goodbye...
I care about you. So much. I want to show you that.
So...please...let me at least comfort you...
I Met This Guy and He Was DifferentI'm an outcast. I don't even own any skirts that I can still fit and I only own 2 dresses both of which haven't been worn in 2 years. However, at the same time I don't play sports. I'm more of a nerd if you want to give me a label. Anyway, for the longest time I was extremely honest, ambitious, and seemed to be made of stone. I didn't get sad, or angry, or heartbroken or anxious over things. That angry part changed very quickly, but I'm not even talking about that. When I was younger, if I had a crush on a guy I seriously just told him and everyone else. Considering I've never had a boyfriend, you'er best to assume they've always rejected me. Then came this one year, which I'm not telling you what year, just to sound less pathetic. I met this guy and of course at first it was just physical attraction, we didn't talk. Then one day despite the fact we didn't talk, he knew I liked to write. We had this huge project , we had to write a Choose Your Own Adventure book. He and his bestI Met This Guy and He Was Different1 week ago in Emotional More Like This
What does it mean to Love?"Immature love says: 'I love you because I need you.' Mature love says 'I need you because I love you.'" - Erich FrommWhat does it mean to Love?1 day ago in Emotional More Like This
Love is a word commonly used in relationships today. Does it really have meaning to it anymore? All the time I hear I love you from people who may have only been together for a few days to people who have been together over sixty-five years. The difference between that is the people who have been together sixty-five years probably truly understand and love each other while those who have been together a few days are probably saying it because it is the norm now. In today's society I love you is just as common as saying hi to someone. While it is great to tell the people you care for (especially the one who is truly the love of your life) I love you, it should have meaning and not said just to be said. Some people may say "I love you" all the time and actually mean it, but there are the people who just throw it out without thinking why they love that person. If you say
Million Dollar QuestionWhere is your home? God knows.Million Dollar Question1 day ago in Emotional More Like This
Dialogue: ThickerHe looks the same as always.Dialogue: Thicker2 days ago in Emotional More Like This
"I'm in love with you." He sees the look on my face and talks faster. "I'm in love with you, and-"
"Stop. Just please stop."
"Because you're not in love with me."
"Are you saying that I'm lying? I know this feeling. It's the same feeling I had for you two years ago, but stronger."
"I don't doubt that you're in love. But you're not in love with me."
"I know who you are. And I-"
"No, no, no. That's where you're wrong. You don't know anything about me."
"Your favorite color is blue-"
"Your favorite singer is Taylor Swift-"
"Your favorite subject is biology-"
"Also wrong. My favorite color is purple, I'm not into Taylor Swift anymore, and I hate biology. But that's not important."
"Then what is?"
"I am not the girl you fell in love with two years ago. She's who you love, but she's dead."
"Just because you don't like Taylor Swift anymore doesn't mean you're different. And I get that you've changed, but-"
"So you can't love me, bec
Blanket fortSometimes I just want to disappearBlanket fort2 days ago in Emotional More Like This
To start again, all over, re-invent myself
I have the urge to hide, not to talk, I fucking hate my voice
I have such little confidence in it, I can barely get a sentence out sometimes
And yet, that's what I've chosen to do for a living
What the fuck was I ever thinking
You must know, every word I utter is an effort
Every sentence I put together an absolute miracle
I wish sometimes I could go back to where photography spoke for me
Where my ideas and struggles were carefully thought out
Flying from the seat of my pants is taking all my energy
I'm going to buy bunk beds with my ill gotten funds and build a blanket fort
Carta a quien no sabe leerAy, ay, ay ay… *Negando con la cabeza* Esta gente que no sabe usar el DeviantArt, se cree que es una red social y uno sube “estados” en vez de poemas o “fotos” en vez de dibujos describiendo lo que hizo y/o le pasa con la impetuosa necesidad de que todo el mundo se entere de ello.Carta a quien no sabe leer3 days ago in Emotional More Like This
Es verdad que los artistas crean muchas obras explayando sus más profundos sentimientos, pero también hay obras que brotan del aburrimiento, de la mera inspiración sin fundamento alguno en su vida, o incluso a raíz del pedidos ajenos ¿Acaso un escritor escribe un crimen porque desea acecinar a alguien? ¿O un guionista es capaz de expresar maravillosamente un drama porque lo vivió? No, no es una rareza poder expresar sentimientos que a uno no lo invaden, es una habilidad que todos tenemos, sobre todo quienes disfrutamos y estamos acostumbrados a escribir.
Ciertamente me encanta escribir historias con sangre y drama, y a la vez expr
.things i've learned in.3 days ago in Emotional More Like This
the last few months:
-friends are expendable.
-so is sanity.
-you can like girls and boys
and neither and either.
-it is possible to
exist while half your soul
is jutting out of your body.
-change does not help
-you can't bring back the dead.
-but you can hold the dead in your
arms when their eyes won't close.
-and when you make pacts with god,
remember that you're still upholding
so many promises with him in the first place.
-you're not suicidal, just human.
-maybe just a little less human than
-devaluing people doesn't
help your social anxiety.
-you can't run away from job
opportunities just because
you think a colleague is whispering about you.
-but you do get a choice on which job to take.
-and no, you're not so worthless that you have
to settle for a job you know you'll hate.
-and you do have a right to be paranoid.
-you don't have to write your sister.
wind_2I play my music loud.wind_24 days ago in Emotional More Like This
As to distract myself from the real issues.
People tell us "be honest." Such a simple, but fragile thing.
Do you know it kills us, to reveal?
Speak the truth. Reveal your broken soul.
Shattered, and left.
We had to find the sun to set, upon us.
And maybe amidst all the screaming, we had it right.
Maybe. We share then our lost memories.
Words become statues. Walls that bind our fates.
I wished I could have saved you..
May you fly along the soft winds
Sayonara Ani For DariusSayonara Ani4 days ago in Emotional More Like This
The path has disappeared from sight. You've led me so far and now you sit on the hard ground. I tower over you, trying my hardest to pull you up from the ground and to travel some more. But you don't budge. Why? why do you have your head so low? Why do you breath so heavily?
You've been there for me. For so, so long. You're the one who took my hand and led me into this damn forest. You promised me to take me to the shore. To see the fish, the dolphins. The clear water, remember? I sit down next to you in defeat. It rea
My pain for markiplier. updateSo i'm getting better my insomnia is gone i think ? i still get depression here and there.My pain for markiplier. update5 days ago in Emotional More Like This
Uhhhhh i still watch some of his video's but not as much as i did before.
don't hate me but i unsubscribe and unfollowed him on youtube, twitter and tumblr sorry.
please don't kill me for that.
what else im sleepy it's 1:55 A.M my god.
i still have my lovely heartache.
wow i just looked up how to cure a heartache that's not going to help
shit man this sucks so much.
we should all start a google hangout and talk about mark
and his sexy face.
ok getting off topic anyway's getting better little by little
i have not done my homework in 2 weeks because of this fucking shit
but yeah we should all google or skype chat maybe i can help you and you're markiplier
problem but no one can help me i got this before but this.
this is new so fucking new it gave me depression.
so i'll gave another update when i'm not trying to cut my heart out. bye bye .