you won't drag me where I don't want to gowhenever it overwhelms meyou won't drag me where I don't want to go3 hours ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
the white noise and the trash talk and
the blood dripping down peeling walls
close my eyes
count to ten in Spanish
hum a Japanese song and remind myself
I can't be the only one who wants peace
can't be the only one who sees
what's behind the curtain and can't be the only one
with open eyes and open heart and no matter where it's at
seeks opportunity to find community and common ground and
pushes for the world to be turned upside down
uniting in commonality
and not hate-once it fades, who do you accept as your fate-
hate only gets you so far and alliances break and in time you'll wonder where you are
(people are people no matter how far)
I'd rather sleep on a bed I made myself than
drag the world down and never listen to the other side
shoot innocents with poisoned words and watch the world burn
while calling myself savior.
If I..If I sighed,If I..4 hours ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Would you think of me?
If I spoke,
Would you listen?
If I cried,
Would you touch me?
If I joked,
Would you smile at me?
If I lied,
Would you hate me?
If I choked,
Would you pat me?
If I died...
Would you care at all?
Clinically Juvenile"Just teen angst," chuckles the doctorClinically Juvenile5 hours ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
as he writes me off with an unintelligible scrawl.
I guess depression doesn't count for me.
Pain is only valid when you're old enough to feel it.
I forget to remember that I can't know how it feels
to be lost in the black abyss of my own subconscious.
I lose myself in self-absorption,
because how bad could my problems really be?
Shouldn't have popped my last two smiles this morning;
I leave this sterile haven without my manufactured brand
of chemical personality.
Dopamine doesn't come easy without it.
requiem boys.violet-minded,requiem boys.5 hours ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
you lack the need to let go;
but i am enough of a burden for both of us.
my ribs are in debt
and my heart was foreclosed two days ago
i love you so.
and sometimes i wonder why
i am so dumb and numb
because it's you
The way I feelIt starts with a low little whisper deep my head..The way I feel9 hours ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
With an extremely hard feeling inside..
A feeling that takes me through limitless stars ahead..
Oh my lord..
Is it a given priceless grace ...
Or I'm just being thrown out the space..
Oh my gosh..
What are these incomprehensible feelings I sense..
Someone appears and slap my face..
Sounds my soul has been taken into a madness place..
What on our tiny earth is going on..
looks the clouds shadows I chase..
Where in life have I been gone..
Seems the vast sky winds I race..
Asking myself wisely..
Is it just me..
Or every single thing I see,smell,hear and feel is being so madly..
Don't know ! ..
Seems my feelings driving me crazy..
Most of time walking and dreaming lonely..
Cuz no one has ever seen and felt that lunacy inside of me..
I wanna fly away..
I wanna go in higher spaces..
See the moon,the stars..
And fill up the empty places..
Mind blocked,can't find an answer anymore.
The least I know..
Things aren't same w
NamelessThere are some daysNameless13 hours ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I hide my face in a mask of lies
There are some days
My voice slowly dies
Memories of the past
Haunting at every turn
I don't mean to be rash
But I hide much more than my stomach can churn
Some days I'm Emile
Some I'm Calita
And secretly Amelia
But most days of such
Using names is a little much
So on this day of all
I can go nameless without a fall
Because I feel like nothing
Nothing at all
And that isn't bad
Not bad at all
Feels more better without the label
Because carrying the name carries the weight I am unstable
An apologyI'm sorry. For every negative thought towards me.An apology18 hours ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I am sorry. I was afraid.
Because of what happened, because of the pain I put myself through,
I locked my wild, restless heart deep in denial, far away from love -
no, friendship -
no, love -
from the pain that so often walked alongside them.
I couldn't let myself feel those feelings, for I couldn't tell them apart anymore.
I hid my fears beneath a facade of confindence: "I know best."
I wronged you, again and again. No more.
I have finally mustered the courage to tear down the walls I built around me,
and I hope it's not too late.
For what I have now is but myself to blame,
a freer heart, but full of remorse,
and three words.
I am sorry.
My FearDo you ever feel alone?My Fear1 day ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Feel it in the brightest of nights?
I fear being alone in the darkness.
Be this childish or otherwise,
it is happening.
I have never felt worse
than how these nights make me.
It's almost every night.
The sun will go down,
I may be out and about.
That's the worst part.
Driving home in the still of the dark.
I am paranoid.
Though of what I'm not entirely sure.
I know I fear people who want to harm me.
I know I fear people who want to harm those I love.
I don't know why,
nor why I fear them
when I have no valid reason to fear them.
It just started one night...
my best guess would be 2 months ago.
The first time I noticed the paranoia
was a night leaving a trailer park
First step out of the trailer and
fear struck me like a bus.
I quickly walked to my truck,
slammed the door behind me,
locked the doors,
turned the key,
and probably broke a land-speed record backing my way out of the driveway.
Lights on, I drove home.
All the way, my head boun
MeThere is something so tragic about me,Me1 day ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Something so few people will ever see.
Partially because they refuse to view it,
And partly due to the fact I hide it.
Nobody I've asked understands this,
That my love is deep, not shallow,
Seeking to love deeply, not just a kiss.
I love so deeply that it's almost a crime,
Upon rejection, my heart does hard time,
In a jail in which feelings are locked away.
Because it makes me ache with every word I say,
Entirely angry, and just at myself.
Never seeking anything other than love,
Because it feels like my heart is an empty shelf.
A shelf on which I NEED something to hold,
So I could say to it all the thoughts untold.
I'm left now, going completely insane,
And every thought truly is my bane.
Cursing this cruel thing called love,
It only succeeds in making me hate myself more,
And always hurts me, leaving nothing but stress.
A letter to my future selfRemember the day, when the cloudsA letter to my future self1 day ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Lifted the oppressive heat
From the brown earth, beneath your feat,
As you stood, in the field
Soaked through to your bones,
Your world, crashing down
But still holding firm.
Remember the day
You spent, curled tight
Like a bouncy ball
Bouncing, right into heaven
Only to fall, right back down into hell
Remember the day, you vowed
You, would build a wall of stone
Around your fragile heart,
The strongest walls
Are blown appart,
By cannon balls
Remember the day
That you were fired, high
By only a few words, into the sky
Burning like the brightest of stars,
But let me tell you,
Only the brightest of stars
Explode, leaving a black hole
Remember the day
You hit the bottom,
Only to find,
The earth swallowed
Remember the day
When you said, "I can't go on"
But still, you turned away
From the place,
Put a smile on your face
Continued your story
Remember the day,
The strength it takes,
To hold your head up high,
And to yell
Bleak empathyYour emotions cover my will in a sulfurous blanketBleak empathy1 day ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Even my thoughts trail off because I sense
What ache they are causing to you and I remain too weak
To confront the tumult of such feelings
That pinch my cheeks and my stomach
Reversing the bile to my throat and it's not out of friendship
That if I throw you into a pit of despair
Together with you I shall jump
Down in the DumpsWhen you’re down in the dumpsDown in the Dumps1 day ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
You’re sad, so sad.
Why am I here?
Why is anyone, anything here?
You sit there just wondering.
Eventually you tell a friend
Do something that makes you happy,
Do something creative!
But how can you when the things that used to make you happy
Remind you of something painful, hurtful?
How can you?
When all you want to do is
Go to sleep and never wake up?
To dream all those perfect worlds,
All your fantasies.
It hurts just to think you can’t escape,
A poem with kinda a story hope you like it
My Acrostic PoemSome days were filled with joy, others were filled with fights.My Acrostic Poem2 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Here we are, standing and looking at each other like we’re strangers.
A song is played in my head as it drifts and goes through my thoughts now,
Unfaithful by Rihanna.
Never did I imagine that I would relate my life to this song,
I was unsure but you were unfaithful to me.
Many days have gone by since then.
I have moved on but I wonder,
Some things are better meant to be unknown.
Hearts are a fragile thing,
Easily broken by the sharpest words.
Love is unbound and tame but that was not love.
Love shouldn’t be broken by your tainted thoughts.
Of all the things that could have happened, that was the last thing I wanted.
Games are what you played and I was the pawn you used for chess,
So easily thrown away and never appreciated like the pawn.
Don’t take my words so lightly because there is one thing you should know,
Out of all the guys in the world I have trusted,
None of them have compared to your actions.
MyselfCold and dark on the inside yet colourful on the outside she is two halves being mixed together. The coldness almost outweighing the warmth, only saving one part of that warmth for the people special to her. She makes people think her cold-hearted and uncaring, so she can protect the vulnerable girl inside. She wishes she didn’t have to feel anything but at the same time, wishes she could feel a lot more.Myself2 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
And All Because She Just Wanted To Be LovedAnd all because She Just Wanted to be LovedAnd All Because She Just Wanted To Be Loved2 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Do you know that girl; the short blonde one dressed in black; she shy girl with a fake smile across her pale face?
Not many people do, in fact, even the people who think they know her don’t know everything.
Did you know that she wears her hair over her face to hide from the world?
Did you know that she wears so much makeup only to make her feel less ugly?
Do you ever wonder why she wears the color black and long sleeves every day?
Yeah, thats to cover the marks on her arms, and the black, well, she would wear darker if she could.
But don’t you think cutters only hurt themselves for attention?
She does it because she wants to know if someone cares; she does it because she wants to be loved.
She’s been abandoned countless times by people who once said they loved her, and now. . . she can’t trust anyone.
All she needs is someone who will love her; Someone who will accept her with a broken heart and a scarred body; someone
SnK/AoT: Lost Souls in the Snow (Eren)SnK/AoT: Lost Souls in the Snow (Eren)2 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
An icy wind blows violently in the cold air.
The night sky above us is a black canvas.
This is going to be the end of me.
Faster, you filthy dogs!
Is what we hear.
Marching along is now long gone.
We are running; running like automatons.
I hear the sound of gunshots exploding from every direction.
I see and smell the blood of lost lives thrown across the snow.
I taste my own bitter blood that began to trickle in my mouth.
I can't feel my wounded foot anymore, as it was numbed from the frigid ground below.
But I keep hasting on.
It is the only thing my soon-to-be corpse could do; to keep me alive.
The others around me start to disappear.
Numerous lifeless bodies are spread everywhere.
Am I the only person left?
The moon stares into my soul, taunting me, watching me struggle in the darkness.
I am now jogging at a sluggish pace.
At least I'm still moving.
When is this hell going to end?
My form shivers and trembles.
Pain aches within my body.
UntitledI saw you there. A spark of light in all of my night, I found you. An angel's halo in the blackness of my darkness of my demons; I held you close for years that became only a blink of time in this painfully long eternity. And oh, how I look at those memories we wrote on little pieces of paper. So many memories, but nowhere near enough confetti to rebuild a single dead tree. It was then that I realized, you would never return.Untitled2 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
So I tried to call out to you...Praying the echoes of my voice would bounce off enough objects to reverberate into your headspace. I begged the universe to stop you on your axis just long enough to catch a glimpse of me here without you. But it wasn't pretty. It wasn't beautiful. It was ugly, and I was tragic, the way I looked there on my own.
So now I sing loudly and badly...wishing that my sour notes and crackling voice would drown out the sound of you leaving. Instead, the notes pool at the bottom of my heart left empty... unemployed with you not here to love.
To StayThere are reasons to stay.To Stay3 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
There are reasons to go.
There are reasons for everything
jou just have to know,
know why you do them.
Know why you stay, know in every which way
for the things you do have a profound affect,
the affect you have is on the ones you love,
and the ones you love
is why you stay.
You need them.
They need you.
So the reasons to go
and the reasons to stay,
for the ones I love,
I can't just turn away
Easy WayThese are all so depressing.Easy Way3 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
These are all so sad,
why not happy?
it's making me mad.
The things I write, do I really mean them ?
Do I want to die?
Do I really believe it?
yet, what do I believe?
Is there anything at all?
What about the others?
Would others believe it?
The girl with the bright future,
how could she do it ?
Would I though?
its a great deal of confusion
by one crazy act.
Could I do it?
or do I just write
simply because it is easy?
Easy I say, what else could it be?
But the things I do,
and the things I say.
There just is, no easy way.
Which Do I Do ?I'm only human,Which Do I Do ?3 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
what else can I do ?
I try my best to play the part.
To be a friend.
To be a daughter,
but the harder i try the less natural it becomes.
Do I do what's easy and just give up ?
would that fix things?
would it all go away ?
or do I carry on acting this way?
which do I do?
what could I say?
should I go ?
or should I stay?
Bond We ShareI know you hurt,Bond We Share3 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
it's in me too.
The pain you feel,
I feel it too.
Although different ways,
we cope together,
for the bond we share,
it'll last forever
With Out A FriendI wright and stay,With Out A Friend3 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
but with out a friend
for what I write
they don't understand.