For as long as I can remember I've always been petrified of the ocean,not one thing could get me to the water. I think it started when I was five or so, Bro thought it would be a good idea to go to the beach, I was really excited at first, but when we got to the water, fear shot through me. I panicked and bro never brought me back there. When ever I look at the ocean I see and feel loneliness flood through me. The idea of being lost at sea alone was more horrifying then the idea of drowning was. When I made it to my freshmen year we had a field tip to the exact same beach, and the same feeling washed over me,but this time I just cried behind my shades and sat on the beach watching everyone swim to their harts content. That was also when I met him. John Egbert. I was dumbfounded, at first because of how blue his eyes were,but also because he came and sat by me. He talked to me and I finally got the courage to tell him my name. He asked me why I wasn't swimming with the others, and I told him "If you'll be my friend I'll tell you." John Egbert was the first friend I had ever had, and he was kind and caring. We became best friends inseparable almost. I continued to make more friends, two girls by the names of Rose and Jade. John and I became best bros, and the girls joined us to make a group of four. I still never told him why I didn't like the ocean, and I never told him I liked him more then I showed. Rose and Jade knew, but never told.
One night when I was at Johns watching a movie, when finally I couldn't take it any more, I leaned over and kissed him. I knew John wasn't gay, or so I thought, I was shocked to feel him kissing back. After confessing my love for him, he said he loved me to, and we continued kissing. It was then I knew I wanted to know everything about John and he wanted to know the same about me. He again asked me why I didn't like the ocean, and I told him " If you be my boyfriend I'll tell you." He smiled and said yes, and we laid there in each others embrace, question forgotten. After high school we were still dating,but one night I proposed to John. I told him how much I loved him and how I wanted to be by my side for the rest of my life. He smiled and said he loved me, tears streaming down his face, he said yes. I then realized I never told John why I feared the ocean, I then decided that we would have our wedding right on the beach. He seemed shocked and scared for my well being, but i shoosed him and told him it would be okay.
Our wedding day, was amazing. Beautiful, shocking, just breathtaking. John looked down right dazzling in his light baby blue tux, and I was once again reminded of why I feared the ocean. That night was even better, we made love when we got back to the hostel room we were staying in, and enjoyed each others love. We stayed in each others arms never pulling away, even in our sleep we embraced and felt our hot breaths mix. The next morning I took John down to the beach and held his hand. I turned to him and hugged him close as of I was going to lose him, and I told him everything I loved and feared about the ocean. I told him how much I loved his beauty and his smile. I told him how much I loved his kiss and his warm embrace, and how much I loved being in love with him. I told him why I feared the ocean and I felt his tears hit my shoulder as he listened to my words. I told him that I was scared that the ocean I had come to love and know would be swept away. I held him and told him how much I loved his sea blue eyes, and how their color reminded me of how pretty the ocean could be, how that he reminded me of natures gifts and that I was no longer scared of being alone like I was when I was younger, but how I didn't want to lose my ocean. He cried and held me close and told me how much he loved me. He kissed me and we left the beach hand in hand, with the memory of how we first met in our minds. The ocean could be unforgiving, but at the same time I came to accept the natural elegance of the ocean and what's more I loved the ocean, because I met the ocean and I fell in love with him. And I'm still in love with him,my ocean, because he still sleeps in my arms today.