A Bipolar Mind and HeartI have a tired weak mind thats lostA Bipolar Mind and Heart3 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
Would do anything to know the truth at any cost
I have a troubled mind that is in the dark
Would do anything to find a spark
I have a terrified heart that cries
Of tears invisible to any eyes
I have a heart that caries a love that would never die
A love so strong that lifts me up to fly
A love so beautiful that brings tears from my eyes
I have a heart that aches yet melts at the sound of your name
A heart that no matter what amount of pain it holds it's love will stay the same
My heart isn't lost It knows the truth
While my mind struggles to escape the painful claws of the lies
I might have lost my insanity
I might have forgotten my identity
But I swear to you
My love for you still and will always remain
Empty shellEvery momentEmpty shell5 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
In my heart
In the coffin
Where my soul
Is being buried
An empty shell
I won't surrenderI shake off the arms of the demons that are pulling me downI won't surrender17 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
No I won't surrender and drown
I struggle to stand while their nails are digging deep in to my skin
Screaming loud just to block their poisonous whispers that hunt my mind
Looking around for the sunshine
Anything that can pull me out and help me escape those monsters that want to feed off my pain
As I wait my energy and strength begins to fade
I scream even louder but this time not to block the whispers but to cry for help
No I won't surrender and drown
Someone will come to hold me while I regain my strength back to fight and slay the evil demons
Minutes turn to months , time has weakened the hope I hold inside
There was no sunshine that killed away the darkness
There was no hands to pull me away from the dark hole
There was nothing but my echo screaming back at me
I don't want to surrender and drown
But no strength is left in me
And no one that cares enough to save me
Silhouetting Silence (005)You scrapedSilhouetting Silence (005)3 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
unbreakable vows to the dead
into red bricks and tile floors
with jagged fingernails,
huffing snarls at the moon
to hide the noise
of your grief.
When the sun peaked
outside time-dusted windows,
you locked yourself away
and left me surrounded
Loss was heavy
on my shoulders,
a corset tight around my ribs,
closest to noon;
I spent my days
silhouetting your words
with numb fingers
and a tongue tied with screams,
if at all--
I was buried.
You Don't Need Her"You don't need her."You Don't Need Her6 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
"I love her."
"You don't need her."
"I want her."
"You don't need her."
"I need her."
I sigh and let it rest, knowing I won't get anywhere tonight.
It hurts, I know, oh dear friend of mine.
It hurts, it sucks, you want to cry.
But it just fuels my anger every time.
You make me laugh.
Yet you still cry.
You don't need her,
Though you think you do.
"You love her,"
"But does she love you?"
Tough love, I know, that's what I do.
But does it help you see the truth?
On the outside you smile and joke with me,
But the inside is what I really see.
Pain, depression, all the tears too.
I hate you're in pain, it hurts me too.
Because I love you,
Yet you're still sad,
And there's nothing I can do.
But I will always be there for you.
"I need her."
No, that's not fucking true.
You need me, just like I need you.
Just a dreamPlease,Just a dream1 week ago in Free Verse More Like This
stay with me.
Sing me to sleep.
Lay with me here under the stars.
I want to drift away to the beating of your heart.
Because I don't want to be all alone,
Please, not another night with just myself and the cold,
That surround my bed.
That keep me company,
As I silently go crazy inside my head.
For one night I would like to be held in someone's arms,
To be told that I'll be okay,
And let all my fears just wash away.
Into a dream that we could both share,
Where everything for a moment could be sweet bliss.
As my troubles disappear with just one kiss.
But that could never happen,
Because just like my dreams,
That is basically all you and I will ever be...
Just a dream.....
The mirror is sharp (so is the image).Some things in life just can't be forgotten,The mirror is sharp (so is the image).1 week ago in Free Verse More Like This
like the tears that craved attention
and pushed her into their shadow.
Indeed, those dark rings under her eyes are the cracks appearing from beneath her disguise,
if only sunshine would overtake the darkness that seeps through.
Playing hide-and-seek with herself
is proving to be pointless.
Unfortunately, knifes never are,
and it will take her time to realise
that scars can only fade.
It's a shame to think that such beauty goes unnoticed,
but that's what happens
when you give up on yourself:
you stop searching for improvement.
And now, she spends most of her time staring out of her window;
waiting for freedom that really,
is just locked away inside her heart -
no one is there to tell her that she has the key.
pillar of mothssooner or later, the stench of the streets ramspillar of moths18 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
your knuckles into the wall.
you will feel its nose cold and moist on your shoulder
like a rifle barrel.
sooner or later, it will get you;
it will drag hairballs and garbage into your room,
it will be-paw scratched in blood in public urinals.
with the loyalty of a husky, a hybrid, a wolf,
it gets you.
i wanted to be your house of unbreakable light;
i was a pillar of moths emitting a cracking
Stitched up heartYou ask me why,Stitched up heart1 day ago in Free Verse More Like This
I still don't trust you,
Why I've built these walls to keep you away.
It's because I'm shy,
I am afraid of what you'll do.
If I let you stay.
Stay and be with me for too long.
Cause you see...
After years of being tossed out,
And being forgotten by everybody.
I've been filled with doubt.
The doubt that any one could ever accept me,
And this stitched up heart of mine.
I don't want to be forgotten again,
I am scared of having to lie and say I am fine.
Even though I am dying to let you know,
That you're killing me inside.
If you won't stay and keep me company,
If you just want to break me.
Please leave me be.
Because these walls were built for a reason.
They were built around my heart,
So I don't have to worry about it becoming broken.
Because one day it won't restart.
And you will be my end.
If You Will Take It All AwayWe have different thoughts,If You Will Take It All Away16 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
We have different feelings,
We have different opinions,
We have different appearance,
We have different personality.
But what will happen,
If these things
Will be taken away?
If you'll make humans
Similar to each other?
There won't be
The world will
Life will become
No Going BackThere's no going backNo Going Back4 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
No more hope
We can't find our tracks anymore
We just keep walking
I want to go back
Back to the place
I have loved
When the only thing
To worry about
Was school or racoons
We're running out of time
To save ourselves
We can't let go
What has been
Let's forget about all this
For one more time
And talk about the people
We miss so much
He taught me how to shoot
He taught me how to survive
Now he's gone
Because all the dead lie down
PTSD and SchoolI wake up to go to school, I walk to my class.PTSD and School5 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
So many people in this hall, that I have to pass.
Suddenly the air gets much colder,
As someone brushed against my shoulder:
Daddy touched my shoulder one time,
It escalated quickly to a horrible crime.
I screamed and cried to break free,
As daddy started using me.
I blink my eyes, im back in the hall;
It was just a flashback after all.
I make it to class, teacher says to me,
"Take any seat that you may see."
Suddenly I feel so very stressed,
My head is pressed against his chest.
Our embrace breaks, he says to me,
"Take any seat that you may see."
I can only sit within his bed,
Wishing, hoping, I'll be dead.
The teacher asks, "Are you okay?"
I knod my head and w
Remember to smileI am saying goodbye now,Remember to smile3 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
I don't want to go,
But I love you more than you'll ever know.
And as this day ends,
And another one begins.
And as the calling of a new life beckons me,
This one will have to die.
But I hope when I leave you,
That there is one thing you'll promise me you will do.
That you can keep yourself alive,
That you can laugh and be happy,
With or without me.
And that whatever you do,
Even when all hope is lost,
That you'll never ever,
Forget to smile.
part-time lesbiani'm really tired of my love not being as important as yourspart-time lesbian6 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
or his or hers, that my love is fake, unreal
that i can't love properly because my eyes will always wander
you set me up to fail because my love doesn't start
with an 'h,' that it can't be seen as constant thing that will
always flow from me, bound towards a he or a she, never both
i am tired of being ashamed of how i identify
of laughing and using a different title that has comic relief behind it
and an awkward smile, because it is untrue and it is not who i am
stop telling me that it will all go away one day and that i'll choose a side
do not assume that you can even begin to understand my love
i am not in a phase
i am not more likely to cheat
i am not 'really just a lesbian'
i'm bisexual and if you can't handle that then look at the person you love
and tell me what the fuck is different about what you feel for them from what i do for her
tell me about their eyelashes and their cheeks and their smile
tell me about sunrises a
Cowering from the Moon (007)In the sweep of the monthsCowering from the Moon (007)1 day ago in Free Verse More Like This
following our truce on the stoop,
I learned to be a ballerina
tiptoeing around your darkest nights
like I knew how it felt
to depend on the moods of the moon.
A fickle, angry mistress,
she tore your bones apart
beneath empty-canvas skies
before gluing you back together,
a fragile paper doll
with fur and fangs
instead of string.
In the weeks
the curse turned you loose,
we found eternity
hidden between the verses
of musty poetry books
and the stories
we had to strain to remember--
but leading up
to the dark of a new moon,
the skin on your arms bristled
and I hid myself away
to listen to your tortured howls
with my hands covering bruises
that never healed.
Obsession Shifting (006)A study in obsessionObsession Shifting (006)2 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
with things we couldn't touch,
we lurked just inside the shadows
the school awning lent us
and watched the sun rise.
after a full moon
were always easiest for you;
you told me stories
with almost-relaxed hands
as your tongue
curled around words
like I could respond,
like you didn't leave me mute
when you left me bleeding.
One small dandelion bloomed
just past the edge of the stoop
with a grin
that was mostly human,
plucked it before the sun peaked
and tucked it
into the tangles of my hair.
I learned that morning,
with your palm cold
against my cheek,
that you weren't only
made up of nightmares--
that I wasn't only
made up of numb skin.
Waistline Oppression (Skinny Jeans)Last week I was shopping round for skinny jeans,Waistline Oppression (Skinny Jeans)3 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
And these girls I don't know started gettin' real mean,
Callin' me names like twig and stick,
Getting in my face and acting like pricks,
Cuddlin' a stack of fashion magazine's,
They must be gettin' sick of the modelling scene,
Cause girl's their size aren't always represented,
They see women like me and take out their resentment,
My thin waist is all that they see,
When will they realize it doesn't represent me,
When you call me tiny, You make me feel small,
An' you shouldn't be talkin' bout my weight at all,
Maybe I'm not skinny by choice, maybe I'm ill,
And If my health can't destroy me then I guess that you will,
Cause if you're a big girl, then baby you're beautiful,
But if you were born small then you're just pitiful,
And the media is all people talk about,
Saying thin waists are all their fault,
And they give the impression,
Of big women in oppression,
You would never get away with calling a girl fat,
But declaring her a skinny bit
all you wantyou never told meall you want5 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
that your hands have carved songs
into the trees
or that your eyes darken a bit
every time a star dies
you never told me that
you have galaxies running in your veins
and that when you scream into the night
it's because they explode
you only told me that
even though you have
all you want is
my black holes
GuillotineThe guillotine chopsGuillotine5 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
Rusted blood and
Before my voice
Even had a chance
Why be popular?be loudWhy be popular?1 week ago in Free Verse More Like This
argue for what’s right
fight for what you believe
cry when it hurts
frown when you can’t smile
do what you can
go wherever whenever
say what you want
don’t be someone you’re not
listen to your heart
follow your own path
it’s your life
don’t let them control you
and turn into someone you hate
for the most important thing
is to be true; is to be you
l e a v estop lying to mel e a v e9 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
stop lying to yourself
you want to leave
and put me back on the shelf
like a ball
and a mitt
you know you can't wait
just fucking go
you're taking too long
too damn slow
that intense temptation
some slight hesitation
take one last leap
there's nothing left to keep
throw me away
i have nothing left to say
there's not a single thing here
that you wouldn't get there
do what you wanted,
it will only
prove to me
that i should never believe
lostLost in a labyrinth called sorrow,lost2 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
dark clouds of despair float in the sky
and rain down torrents of tears.
Leaves turning slowly brown,
wither and die,
rotting in sadness.
Here I am wandering aimlessly
in this godforsaken place,
the walls too high to ever hope
of seeing over them,
the way too complicated to ever
find my way out.
The light that used to guide me,
love and protect me