I AmI am single,I Am3 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
but I am loved.
I am not a genius,
but I am intelligent.
I am not breathtaking,
but I have beauty.
I am not a saint,
but I am kind.
To the world,
I am not perfect.
But for someone,
Don't pick a fight with an ArtistDon't pick a fight with an Artist2 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
Don't pick a fight with an artist
Wanna fight pussy?
Give me yar best shot
Or will you throw a paintbrush at me?
I'm so scared- not
Excuse me? What did you say?
What is a punch you ask?
Of course let me tell you:
A blow with the fist- it's quite a simple task
Are y' gonna cwyyy?
I dunno what you just said
Why don't you let me show you?
I'll f****** punch you and then- boom- you're dead!?
Pardon? What did you ask?
You need a clearer definition?
Of course, let me show you
I'll demonstrate- with out your permission
Ouch! Hey no fair
Dude you are so gay
You write poetry
I'll make you f****** pay!
Discúlpeme? What did you mutter?
I'm gay? Is that what you said?
Perhaps you need some assistance, let me help
I'll be gentle I promise- I did need new ink! In the colour red<
All Her Little ThingsStop hating her for the littlest things.All Her Little Things2 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
The things she can't prevent,
The things she can't save herself from..
Stop demanding her to do things,
Things she can't accomplish,
Things she can't imagine being done...
Stop lying to her,
Telling her you love her,
Want her, need her...
When all you've ever done is make her want to
Stop hating her for the littlest things.
The things she can't prevent,
The things she can't save herself from...
When those little things you've done
Take her down...
The little things won't matter anymore.
lung canceri will die with your name on my lipslung cancer4 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
because there is nothing else i'll need to say.
you are my coffin, my funeral pyre.
as my bones disintegrate, popping and snapping,
you will greedily swallow my ashes
until nothing is left of me but secondhand smoke.
i've danced with you, love, across hospital tile,
the scent of antiseptic cloying as valentine's chocolate.
you dipped me into unconsciousness,
and i willingly closed my eyes.
the intrusion of your scalpel teeth no longer scares me.
you, my rigor mortis soul mate, always take me under.
your tent of frostbitten shelter pulls me down, an anchor,
while i gag on pills too abstract to save me.
forgive me, lungs, of my cigarette abuse,
but i've found happiness in a reaper's cloak.
i find comfort in these carcinogens.
i've made my nest in a swaying tree,
my body destroyed by the nauseous rocking.
they smile at me with pity in their eyes,
scribbling nonsense on those jaw-like clipboards.
their crisp, stark white world still has faith in me,
you've been dead for a year, my deari met you on december 21st,you've been dead for a year, my dear5 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
the longest night of the year.
you had solstice eyes: cold, dark, alluring.
i knew you were not meant to last,
powerful as a gale but fragile as
the tulip stems you snapped,
a sickening cycle of you,
an overwhelming tidal wave.
they say two wrongs will never make a right,
but i made so many bad choices that
i wound up back where I began.
it was too easy to love you,
but getting you to love me back was impossible.
i clawed at your chest until I struck blood,
until my nails split into shards.
you were born a phantom,
and i, your corpse.
holding onto you felt like drowning in quicksand;
i fought but always sank into your arms.
i breathed in dirt, breathed in dust, and
found my organs choked with you,
smothered by your existence.
you sucked out my breath
every time i kissed you.
i died every day with your hand
knotted in my hair.
You left on june 21st,
the longest day of the year.
i bit down sorrow and deconstructed
the labyrinth within me,
the one you hadn't th
Mirror, MirrorMirror, mirror, on the wall,Mirror, Mirror2 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
Watch it crumble, break and fall.
Look at all the bloody glass,
How it reminds them of a severed past.
Watch a reflection slowly disappear,
Looking at all the shattered, crushed mirrors.
A breathless state of mind goes by,
Am I just alive or did I die?
Confused and in an awe,
Careless people unknown to what one saw.
Throat slit so one can't be unlocked,
Too bad the thoughts have become blocked.
Crimson splatters, dripping, breaking away,
Thou shall not know the feeling of all the pain.
Oh, Mirror, mirror on the wall,
Why did you crumble, break and fall?
Eye of the StormI believed I could make the wind blow,Eye of the Storm3 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
and force the moon to shine at night,
create rainbows just by thinking,
and hold tea parties for fairies in July,
I was the queen of my own graceful lands.
Yet, I grew old and realized,
I am the kind of girl who'd trip and fall,
often for stepping on her own feet.
My crown of diamond and gold
now a rusted piece of bronze,
I lost my throne to treason, my kingdom to hate,
I became the eye of a hurricane,
loaded with mishaps I need to atone.
I felt the soft touches of angels,
and lost my own wings to demons who could crush stone.
Felt the scorching tears run so often,
I knew I must have hit bottom low.
I had nothing holy, no one to call dear,
but here I am, the starting point of my own storm.
I felt fear, clung to shadows,
encased my heart within marble walls,
and threw the keys that can unlock my soul.
So many chances I've lost with no love to seek,
and so many people I turned my back to.
I let the darkness gnaw through my bones.
A stranger walked up to me today...A man walked up to me and asked me for a cigarette… I told him I didn't smoke anymore, and he asked me why? ––I answered "because the person I used to smoke with, isn't around anymore", and he replied…"that's why I smoke."A stranger walked up to me today...5 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
A woman walked up to me and asked me for drugs, I replied "I have several in store…his eyes, his smile, his hands"…she whispered, "that's not a drug"…and I laughed as I said.. "if only you knew."
A child walked up to me today and asked me to play a game, I told them I was too tired to play games, i'd been playing for years, they replied…"then you must be a pro!", to which I said "yes…a pro at losing."
An old woman stared at me today, and I asked her…"is something wrong?" she answered "I was about to ask you the same question."
© Rocio Belinda Mendez
Wander to nowhereA ghostly walk on the autumnal pavementWander to nowhere5 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
Even my own shadow is gleaming more
Than the empty shell of my body.
As I keep wandering, on this endless pit
Picky starving crows are looking down on me
The leftovers of my thoughts order me to die out.
This path of glory I've kept away from, it might be gone.
My dignity and pride, where have you fled?
I'm searching for the graveyard of redemption
Where my promises are all buried
Shot down by my deceit's gun.
Will you ever forgive me?
As I'm standing there, the icy silence blows ;
As time goes by, the ruthless mutism of yours
Reckons that time for forgiveness hasn't come yet.
Forgotten girl.I was the forgotten girl.Forgotten girl.1 day ago in Free Verse More Like This
I've been used and discarded, I've got nothing left.
I'm exhausted and emotional.
I'm numb from the pain, although it still stings a bit.
Then you came into my life..
You took away all the hurt
You made me happy again
Even made me feel better about my self
You protected me from what i've been hiding from my entire life.
What I Gave YouI gave you my timeWhat I Gave You5 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
And you wasted it
I gave you my love
And you ignored it
I gave you my heart
And you broke it
I gave you my soul
And you lost it
I gave you my life
And you sent me to Hell
Dreams of changeA strange sensationDreams of change1 week ago in Free Verse More Like This
An unknown feeling
I'm not invisible
People notice me
I'm not alone
I have someone who cares
Then I wake up
Was it a dream?
Or a nightmare?
Never again!The drops of blood on my pillowNever again!4 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
The silence of my mother
The nauseating smell under my bed
shame and pain
two feelings rotting my life
soon everything will change
the gun from my brother is loaded
the evil will disappear from my life
Tonight my torturer will burn in hell
.how to comfort someone.1 day ago in Free Verse More Like This
with an anxiety disorder:
tell them to
that they only panic
because they're just not
to handle themselves.
say that it's not
since it's not bad for you,
it can't be for
that's just how it works,
is my personal favorite.
because the one thing
that i want to hear
when i'm choking on my own sweat
is that i need to calm down.
i'm not a liar.i was told to stopi'm not a liar.4 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
just the same;
i'd rather drive off
Work of art.Don't wince at my scars, instead use them to find where I am broken, and put your body against the cracks.Work of art.5 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
Don't let me fall out of myself again, the parts might fit together, but the breaks are never clean.
Sometimes I feel like glass in the middle of a war zone, just the sound of goodbye may destroy me.
I've picked up the pieces before, cut myself with shards of who I was, carefully pasted them together with who I am, hoping no one would notice.
The trouble is the masking tape I used, doesn't seem to mask anymore.
The trouble is I leave tiny bits of myself behind me, just so I can be found.
The trouble is my heart is made of clay and it might just break with one more fall.
Maybe that's the wonder of me, even once I've broken…I can break again.
© Rocio Belinda Mendez
Strangled StarsSomehow, I thought you'd changed;Strangled Stars5 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
I slid cloud veils over my eyes,
I let the mists of forgiveness take over.
I cared too much, I guess.
I slid cloud veils over my eyes,
pretending I didn't notice the cruelty of your hands.
I cared too much, I guess--
I couldn't admit you strangled my stars.
Pretending I didn't notice the cruelty of your hands,
I let the mists of forgiveness take over;
I couldn't admit you strangled my stars.
Somehow, I thought you'd changed.
The Beast Will Kill MeAll these emotions, feelingsThe Beast Will Kill Me13 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Are trying to break free
I try to keep the beast at bay
But it's getting hard for me
I can feel a fire burning
Deep inside my heart
And slowly, every second
It is tearing me apart
The pain is getting greater
To much to sustain
I feel like screaming, crying
This is driving me insane
These feelings, they are winning
They are eating me alive
And it is getting oh so hard
For me to just survive
These secrets, and these stories
That I have deep inside my head
Is going to be the death of me
Is going to make me dead
I tried to cut the pain away
I cut so very deep
I tried to take so many pills
But I woke up from my sleep
I tried everything, I did
But my life, it just wont end
I am forced to live each day
With no family, not one friend!
I hate being all alone
I hate holding in these tears
I hate living my life
For all painful years
It will not get better
You all lied to me!
And the beast is growing stronger
And soon, it will break free
And when that day arrives
Gentle rainfallTonight the rain softly kisses your eyelids.Gentle rainfall2 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
The wind lightly caresses your hair.
Dazed eyes are looking into distant lights, called "home".
Your skin is gently touched by falling leaves,
as weary eyes blink slowly.
Scrawny branches are cradeling you into trance.
Numbed by emptiness all desires will be gone.
No more longing. No more craving.
Haze will allay your fears and pain.
You are floating into peaceful, hollow dreams.
The darkness will sing for you a silent lullaby.
The shadows come closer
to hold you
in a cold, but loving embrace.
And you can´t help but admire
trece.your lashes are tepidtrece.4 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
against the tablecloth of my
your lips touch my trembling
saliva like poison, you
leave a trail of
rotting irises and burning
and sometimes i wish i
a sense of touch as to
my way out of the holes the
broken boys find
i can't save everyone from
chlorine in their lungs,
but i surely can save
MasterI'm like a dogMaster2 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
Waiting at home for her master
Hours tick by.
No sign of master.
And closed them tightly
Trying not to think about master too much.
Suddenly the door swung open,
And I was ecstatic to see master!
Master wasn't that excited to see me.
He just patted my head,
Grabbed his coffee,
And walked out the door.
Leaving me behind once more.
Mirrorthe mirror shows an imageMirror5 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
that i do not want
i do not remember when
i first looked
into it and didn't like
what i saw
but i do know that i've
never stopped feeling
this way ever
UnbreakableI would like to say I'm unbreakable,Unbreakable1 day ago in Free Verse More Like This
But the truth is I'm not,
My body doesn't show it,
But in truth I'm just one big scar.
I pretend that nothing hurts me,
Not your words, not your actions.
But one by one they break me,
Just that centimetre more.
I would like to say I'm free,
But I'm not.
Just haunted by those memories,
I try so hard to repress.
But there is a little light,
Far at the end of the road.
Not too sure what yet,
I will tell you when I know.