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Are highly intelligent or very talented people better able to hide their misery from loved ones, thus making it all the harder to “read” them and help them?

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Journal Entry: Wed Sep 17, 2014, 12:48 PM

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Hi \;///v///;/ Thanks again for the support T////T I receive so many comments ;__; all so kind T////T
nnngh you have so wonderful idea for them ;__;
Forgive again for the late Now I have the winner of the raffle \;//v//;/ <3 <3 <3

This is :iconazaikar: waaaah :squee: I'm so happy for you T////v////T <3 <3 <3 \;//v//;/

Now Azaikar can choose her favorite in the batch and the others will be put on sale \;//v//;/ ( I'll make a poll before sell them ;u; <3 <3 )

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[OPEN]FREE ADOPT RAFFLE 09 - Memories by Piffi-adoptables

Waaah such a long time we didn't make a raffle >///v///< :heart:
We really love doing that so this time we try with our new project "Memories" , Little Owl/penguin ( x°D )
We hope you like them \;///v///;/  thanks again for the support :huggle::heart:

What can you win?

  • One adoptables at your choice between those shown , they are a species called "Memories" they are little pet/character like a owl(or penguin x°D at your choice x°D ) , they write people's memories , they never forget about you

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Did you know that I know how to spot a fake apology? It's actually kind of like a super power of mine. But more to the point, a lot of people who get blocked on any of my various social media sites want to get around their blocking just to do whatever the hell they did to get them blocked, but some of them are genuinely repentant. How do you spot the difference, because to tell you the truth, it's not always easy. I'm going to go more into detail about this in Brian's a Bad Father because it has some of the worst, most half-assed non apologies that I've ever seen. Well mostly. Reality is stranger than fiction. But I'm going to use that episode as some of these examples, along with things that people have actually tried to say to me to pretty much do the same shit again.

How many first person pronouns do they use?

This is the rule of thumb. If there's a first person pronoun that doesn't involve "I'm sorry" or "I messed up pretty bad" or something along those lines, it's generally a bad apology. The apology is about the person who had been hurt, not about the person who hurt them. "I want to be your friend again." "I couldn't control myself" "I had a bad day" "Are you still my friend?" "I just miss you so much." A lot of these are just excuses, and we'll talk about that in a bit. But the more first person pronouns a person uses, the less genuine their apology is likely to be. The apology should be focusing on your feelings, not theirs. When an apology focuses on the person who did the hurting, what they're really saying is "I'm not sorry that you're hurt; I'm sorry that you're mad at me" or alternatively "accept my apology so I can scratch this off of my to-do list."


Believe it or not; if you're sorry, you actually don't need an excuse. Those people who say their only assholes because they have Asperger's Syndrome are definitely not sorry. Now, what if their excuse is true? Then they'll truly have regret for what they did and won't hide behind it unless they're lazy. There's actually one more excuse that I hate more than the "I have Asperger's so I can be a douche" excuse. It's the "You know that I didn't mean it." Apology will be denied on the spot because I really don't know if that's true, now do I? You didn't mean it. Right... except you did. Most "excuses" don't do much more than remove inhibitions, meaning that the original thoughts or feelings were still there. Bottom line, a genuine apology will NEVER (I cannot stress this enough) give you an excuse. Think about it. If there is a genuine excuse, then they're just going to do the same thing again and you're going to get hurt in the same way again.


On those same lines. "I'm sorry, but..." But will negate the sorry and will ramble into an excuse. Also in this, "I'm sorry if this sounds racist, but <insert fucked up conversation." No you're not because you're a racist.

They don't acknowledge what they actually did

This sounds obvious on the surface. But, "I'm sorry that I hurt you" sounds vastly different then "I'm sorry I forgot to feed your dog an caused him to run away." Maybe give them the benefit of the doubt in that they might actually not know what they did, so don't be vague about it. If you're willing to talk to this person again, tell them exactly what they did wrong, and give them time to process it.

The habit isn't broken

If the person your dealing with has alcoholism, drug addiction, or what have you, then you can't really forgive them until they've gone through getting themselves clean. Trust me on this one. If they're truly repentant then getting forgiveness should be incentive enough. That brings us to...

The Peter Griffin Scenario

In Brian's a Bad Father both the A-plot and the B-plot deals with forgiveness in an extremely half-assed way. At the start of the episode, Peter Griffin shoots Quagmire and that puts him in the wrong. Quagmire no longer wants nothing to do with him. Now, relating back to the real world (it's complicated. People in Family Guy get shot all the fucking time), let's just say that Peter hurt Quagmire through some continuous habit of his own. Quagmire's had enough, and he's actually in the right do so. Skipping to the end of the episode, Peter tells Quagmire to shoot him in order to make things even, to which Quagmire obliges. Who's the bad guy? Well... everyone. An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind Quagmire, and even if you did shoot him it wouldn't stop Peter's carelessness from shooting you again. This solution would not solve the overall problem. Before an apology can be accepted, the problem that caused the pain must be removed or you're back to square one.

Here's the other thing. Peter wasn't truly repentant. He wanted Quagmire to say no. I'm not saying that he should have been shot; obviously, I just said the opposite. But it's an example of "I want your forgiveness because everyone thinks I'm a jerk" (because I hurt you). What I'm saying is that the apology-giver should be willing to make it up to the person who's been hurt. Here's how this should have gone down. When Quagmire took the gun, he should have had no intention to shoot, but to see how Peter reacted. Due to how Peter reacted, Quagmire would have refused the apology and the story could have ended with them making it up, instead of Peter suffering from severe brain damage.

The Brian Griffin Scenario

If Herpe, The Love Sore wasn't hanging over my shoulder, this would be Brian Griffin's worst appearance due to how he deals with apologizes. He didn't want to make up to his son until he had something to gain, you know, after skipping all of the hard parts of being a father. He pushes his limits too far without even thinking of his son, and when he gets booted he only thinks of himself. He doesn't think of how Dylan might have been embarrassed, how his credibility was tarnished (Brian got a job based on his word). Brian only thinks of himself. But actually, Stewie's line what pisses me off the most. "Isn't taking that risk (that you'll be hurt badly again) better than not having a dad?" No. Just no. Let me be clear. You don't forgive someone just after they say they're sorry, but that they regret what they did, specifically because it harmed that other person. Brian never does that. Ever, and Dylan probably won't appear again.

But back to the bottom line. This episode does piss me off in a very personal way, but it really has allowed to figure out who is being truthful and who just wants to mess with me again. It's not in the emotions either. There are some damn good actors in the world, but through the crocodile tears you've got to see the words and intentions. One final note, if someone says that they need a few days to think it over, you probably should listen, because not respecting their wishes shows off your apology as fake.

I think that I know what the next Growing Around episode is going to be about.
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Closes on 21st of September.
Good luck to you all! :squee:

UPDATE - Winners!!

This is now closed! The lucky numbers were: 240, 57 & 113.

The winners behind these numbers are:
240 Kirashadraws99:iconkirashadraws99: - 500:points:
57 CMoonToon:iconcmoontoon: - 250:points:
113 xMintwi:iconxmintwi: - 250:points:

Congratulations to all of you :heart:
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Regarding Recent Events

Journal Entry: Fri Sep 19, 2014, 10:43 PM

Hey everyone.

Unfortunately, today's journal isn't a cheery one. For those of you who are active on tumblr, I'm sure you're already aware. But I'm also sure that there are still some of you who have not yet been informed. 

Comickit, whom I'm sure you know as the artist of "Pasta Monsters", recently released her statement on the abuse she suffered at the hands of Snuffbomb during their time dating one another.…

This act of bravery sparked countless others to step forward with accounts of unspeakable abuse ranging from emotional to physical and straight up sexual assault. Due to the overwhelming number of people that have stepped forward, an entire page has been made to document them all.


Now, as I'm sure you all clearly remember, I personally went through a rough patch with Snuffbomb myself not too long ago. The result was my removing him from the cast of "The Seer". However, in my public announcement of this, I did not share with you all the details of what all transpired that led up to the action. I will admit that it was because I was afraid. I was terrified that if I called him out for exactly what he was, I would be met by a tidal wave of hate, death threats, and attacks on my character. (Mind you even in the HIGHLY watered down, sugar coated version I gave you, I still got a truck load of these. Which as a result caused me so much distress I ended up taking a rather long hiatus from which I debated returning at all.) It is because of Comickit's courage to make a proper stand that I finally feel brave enough to tell you all EXACTLY why Snuffbomb was removed from the Seer, and effectively, my life as a whole. 

I guess the best way to start this is all the way from the beginning I suppose. Snuff is quite literally the prime example of a "frenemy". When he came to me and asked to play Jeff in my series, MANY people told me it was a bad idea. They said that he had a history of using people, treating them like trash, and just flat out being a bad guy to work with. But I stupidly ignored them, because it's always been in my nature to want to give everyone a chance.

Well let me tell you, the crap started early. I used to do these group chats on places like TinyChat, and he would gather all the people there, and DEMAND I thank him for the success of the Seer. I kid you not. He did this on multiple occasions, and anyone who was there will remember this.

If that wasn't bad enough, during these public chats, he'd also use it as an opportunity to take swipes at my already incredibly low self esteem. In private, thinking he was my friend, I would divulge my fears and concerns to him. Then in these public chats, he would MAKE JOKES ABOUT THEM. In front of HUGE groups of people, he'd make fun of the things I'm most self conscious about, then play it off as "lol JK", like that took the trauma out of it and made it okay.

He obviously couldn't care less about hurting his "friends", as he trivialized my feelings to the point that when I tried to tell him just how much it bothered me, he immediately shifted blame onto me. I was the bad guy because I was obviously being too sensitive, and clearly my great insecurities were objects of immense hilarity, and I was a bitch for calling him out on it. In the end, every time he hurt me then immediately proceeded to guilt me, I ended up feeling even worse and apologizing to HIM.

For example, one of his favorite insecurities to abuse was my relationship status. The last few relationships I've been in have either been very brief, or ended VERY badly. So I've been single for a while now. And sometimes on my down days I tend to get in this mindset of "Well I guess I better get used to being alone, because I don't deserve anyone". --Well he very well knew this because I'd talked to him about it, but he still chose to strike that nerve any chance he got. He'd publicly make fun of it, and during one particular skype coversation between he and I, he felt it appropriate to joke about how he'd be dead before I'd find another boyfriend. This, mind you, RIGHT after telling him about how I had just broken up with the guy I had been seeing. I LITERALLY JUST BROKE UP and he felt the need to say that. Yeah, 'cause that's not going to haunt me for the rest of my damn life.…

I wish I could say it ended there. But nope. I was still too stupid or deluded or whatever to cut him from my life at this point so the abuse continued.  For example, I wrote my first pasta ever "The Crawlspace" and submitted it to When I told Snuff about this, he decided he wanted to submit "Laughing Jack" at the same time. We both excitedly waited to hear of our status, and when the time came, my story was accepted, and "Laughing Jack" was rejected. Obviously he was pissed, and didn't even want to hear it when I said mine was accepted.

Well later on, the incredibly talented Mr.CreepyPasta, whom I didn't yet know at the time, read my pasta. I was ecstatic! I began telling my friends, whom congratulated me. Well, all except Snuff. He immediately demanded I thank him for it. You see, he claimed he was close friends with MCP, and that he only read my story because he pulled some strings and got him to do it.

By this point I had finally grown some backbone, and called him out on it. My story was on the front page and got a rating of 9.3, so I said I believed it got read because it had merit of its own.

Cue the waterworks and theatrics. He called me a tyrant and said that I never gave him credit when it was due for all his hard work and all he wanted "was a little thanks for everything he does for me".

Given the type of person I am, I immediately felt like shit and apologized and thanked him. Fast forward several months. I had gotten onto casual speaking terms MCP, and it was revealed to me that he barely knew Snuff, and he never once brought up my story. So let's clarify: Snuff made me feel like shit, and took the credit for my success over something he had NO RIGHT to, once again.

By this point, it was apparent that he was growing to detest me simply because I was starting to do well in the community. Person after person would come to me and say that he was talking shit about me and my series behind my back. I never brought this up to him, but I damn well knew he was doing it.

Oh! By the way, at this point I had become dearly close friends with MCP, whilst Snuff still hardly knew him and got jealous, so his natural instinct was to try to start rumors that our friendship was "inappropriate".  And that I shouldn't spend so much time talking to MCP because he was in a relationship.

(This rumor was squashed pretty quickly, but it's just another example of him trying to start shit about me. I believe his most recent attempt was trying to tell people I'm homophobic. That one was also squashed, but we have PROOF that he is the source of it, even though he denies it)

If the backstabbing wasn't bad enough, I then found out that he had his fangirls form an "anti-seer" group, which began throwing things at me, like calling me racist, and making fun of my art skills. (I know I'm not great, but you don't have to be an ass) This group itself (for the short time it was around before being disbanded by my friends and readers) was incredibly distressing to me. I'd never had to deal with a group of people hating me for reasons beyond my control before. But that wasn't even the worst of it.

Kill art started popping up. Gruesome, incredibly graphic kill art. It was terrifying. At this point, I was starting to crack, and consider leaving the community. I saw he was online, and told him about all of it, hoping to get some comfort. There he first and foremost, called me "Madame Macrab" because apparently being upset by this stuff makes me a prude with no sense of humor. And then, told me that this just showed me who my real friends were, and that I shouldn't care what the haters say. He comforted me, and told me he was one of my real friends.

Now, this was the breaking point. Three months later (not a year, like he enjoys claiming) one of the artists stepped forward. They said that Snuff had been the one to organize the group and had commissioned the kill art. They apologized to me and said they had nothing against me, but he emotionally blackmailed them into making it, and had threatened them with his following.

This man who had previously been comforting me and telling me to appreciate my real friends had been holding the knife in my back the whole time. He was responsible for that shit that legitimately terrified me and made me consider leaving, and he was lying to my face, pretending to be my friend.

You're damn right I fired him after that.

As distressing as all of this was, it comes nowhere CLOSE to as bad as the things he has been doing to others. Just reading some of the accounts from these girls has had me in tears.

I'm sorry for not speaking up sooner. Perhaps if I had some of his victims could have had a proper heads up to steer clear of him. Please, to all of you. I love and care for my readers so very much. If any of you have suffered any form of abuse, I implore you to speak up. You don't deserve to be treated poorly. NO ONE should mistreat you. You do not have to take it. You are not alone, and you don't have to be afraid.

[Giveaway] 400 WATCHERS / 14 500 PAGEVIEWS

Journal Entry: Thu Sep 18, 2014, 9:29 AM

Guys, you're the best.

I can't believe this; 400 watchers? AND 14 500 PAGEVIEWS?

...That's a lot of attention for a simple 14-years-old school girl like me.

So I decided to make my first Giveaway! 

Animated Color Bullets Animated Color Bullets Animated Color Bullets GIVEAWAYAnimated Color Bullets Animated Color Bullets Animated Color Bullets 

This is the 400th watcher milestone. 

The 1st place will win 700 :points:

The 2nd place will win 300 :points:

The 3nd place will win 150 :points:

The winners will be chosen via random. The deadline is the  28th of September 2014, Midnight GMT.

How to enter?

+fav Fave this Journal.

+favlove Tag at least 3 friends in a comment and invite them to take part, too.


I want deviants to watch me for my art, not for giveaway-stuff. So for entering, you don't need to watch me. Please only do that if you like my art and want to see more of it, because that's the true purpose of Added to my devWatch! .(I still appreciate every watcher, but I won't make you watch me for this!)

I will reply to your comment with a number, and this will be your entry number. If you tag more than 10 friends, you get the chance to receive a bonus entry!

Thanks for your great support! I Heart  you!

Pixel Journal Doll for Konarika by Starrypoke



In August 21, "Your character in Missing Halloween!" mini-contest was announce.
In September 1, a total of 313 character designs were submitted. Judging has begun.

As the judge, there were 313 submissions, and only 32 to choose from. Trust me, it was haaaarrd! It still pains me that so many great designs didn't get in. (It's just that many) But I still did my best to judge them carefully.

So here goes, the results!!!


As mentioned, there will be 5 characters who will be featured as candy givers! (And their owners to be in the credits as "Additional Character Design")

And here they are!!!

:iconandrea4you: Andrea4You's character: Akai
AT Andrea4You / Akai by Happy-Tan

:iconskunkyfly: Skunkyfly's character: Amber
::WJB:: Big Sist Sheet by Skunkyfly

:iconshiroxix: ShiroXIX's character: Pydur
Pydur by ShiroXIX

:iconinkstainkat15: inkstainkat15's character
Missing Halloween Character Submission by inkstainkat15

:iconnaughtykittydv-1992: NaughtyKittyDV-1992's character: Mary (Marion)
Marion and Mary (or Gas Mask Maid) by NaughtyKittyDV-1992

Curious of how they will look like in the animation? Here are some screenshots:
OC-SampleShotA by Mikeinel
OC-SampleShotB by Mikeinel
OC-SampleShotC by Mikeinel
OC-SampleShotD by Mikeinel
OC-SampleShotE by Mikeinel

Thank you and congratulations~!


While there are those top 5 characters to be featured as candy givers, there's also the crowd of kids to be seen in the background~ After checking through the scenes, there will be a total of 27 kids!
(And their owners will be credited under "Character Design Contribution")

And again, here they are!!!

:icon7thpalette:'s character: Dorothy

:iconangelicbeats9:'s character: Lampy

:iconanimecrazy103:'s character: Clown Girl

:iconasgitariuosestis:'s character: Techno Dimno

:iconbirdy98:'s character: Adeline (younger)

:iconchuustar:'s character: Vivi

:iconcolor-gal:'s character: Shadow Master

:icongray-zakuro:'s character: Zombie Cat

:iconjackorjohn:'s character: Chester Freud

:iconkarusuzume:'s character: Ruru Manika

:iconkuron-kuragari:'s character: Amelia (S.H. Nurse)

:iconkwindom:'s character: Pumpkin-chan

:iconlittlecheese:'s character: Aimi

:iconlittletreehugger:'s character: Shiro

:iconmclelun:'s character: Mr. Fragile

:iconmomokoblu:'s character: Komouri

:iconnevertoomuchdotsies:'s character: Dot

:iconomega-valeth-sama:'s character: Gregory

:iconrandon-thing:'s character: Superhero/Villain

:iconreymicx:'s character: Halloween Clown

:iconrezuri-dono:'s character: Trenton

:iconsakura15elric:'s character: Mummy Kid

:iconshortpencil:'s character: RoseFe-Tan

:iconsilvyrose:'s character

:iconsoloazume:'s character: Devil-witch Solo

:iconxxcelestialwolfxx:'s character

:iconzwigie:'s character

Phew, that's A LOT of characters! Congratulations and thank you~!
Curious again of how they'll look like? Especially that they're in the crowd?
These kiddies will be distributed throughout the animation, in the background. Some are small, some are walking, some are partially hidden, but one thing's for sure: they're there!
Here are some screenshots of how they will look like:
OC-SampleShot1 by Mikeinel
OC-SampleShot2 by Mikeinel
OC-SampleShot3 by Mikeinel
OC-SampleShot4 by Mikeinel


That's right, there's still a month and a half to get this animation finished, and there may be a few adjustments to be made during the production.
This includes the submitted characters as well.

Who knows, I might need more kids in the crowd, or relocate some that were already in the sample screenshots, or maybe adjust the designs, or even change the age and role of the characters like kuron-kuragari and Momokoblu's characters.

It's hard to tell the outcome at this point. But rest assured, it's getting worked on!


I already said this so many times already, and I'll say it once again, thank you thank you thank you everyone!
Thank you for participating, and thank you for looking forward to this animation!

Thank you everyone!

There will be Three Winners.

First place will get 100Points 
Second will get 50Points 
Third will get 50Points 

You must Favorite this Journal and Watch me to enter.
The Date the winners are announced is October 1st


I will be using
How does this work? See the thing on the Side that shows a list of who Favorited the Journal? 
Next to the names there are Numbers. randomly picks Numbers, So the Person with that Number it randomly chose will win c:


Random Art time~

Calliope by Angelbreeze1

Adorable Adopt .:Closed:. by Angelbreeze1
Another Human Adopt .:Open:. by Angelbreeze1


  • Mood: Cheerful
  • Listening to: Anime Openings
  • Reading: Subtitles on Animes
  • Watching: Romance Animes
  • Playing: Nothing.
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Gatorade (Even though I'm not supposed to)

100 Points Giveaway!!

Thu Sep 18, 2014, 11:20 PM
Hello guys :wave:

How you are are? I am here hosting a small 100 points giveaway for you all!

To enter the contest just :+fav: Fav this journal
That's it!

Watches are also appreciated!

Its easy to do isn't it?

After faving the journal please answer these two questions.

:bulletred: What's your fav animal?

:bulletred: Who is your idol?

leave a comment answering these questions in this,its just I want to know cause I m crazy :la:

And also you can help me with even 1 :points: so that I continue doing these giveaways! 

Have fun guys...

your buddy Pandaster and yes the deadline is 1 October so hurry!!

Whee, I survived my exams!
And to celebrate that I'm going to do the long overdue art raffle:

Prizes will look like this:

Cosinus-Hater by Dae-Thalin Challenger of the Gods by Dae-Thalin Tsunami-Beast (Krytery Revamp) by Dae-Thalin

Rules will be the same as last time:

 1. You have to comment on this journal (I will give you your number then)
2. You have to fave this journal
3. You have to watch me

You can get one extra number if you promote the Raffle in your own journal and give others the chance to join, too.
Also, please be fair and don't use second accounts to get better chances. I will take a look at each account to be sure of it's activity.

I will use RANDOM.ORG to generate the winners on the 20 September. 

Edit 20.9.14

Raffle is closed, Nr. 123, winchesterscolt is the winner!