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Are highly intelligent or very talented people better able to hide their misery from loved ones, thus making it all the harder to “read” them and help them?

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Journal Entry: Wed Sep 17, 2014, 12:48 PM

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  • Watching: too many series at the same time
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Did you know that I know how to spot a fake apology? It's actually kind of like a super power of mine. But more to the point, a lot of people who get blocked on any of my various social media sites want to get around their blocking just to do whatever the hell they did to get them blocked, but some of them are genuinely repentant. How do you spot the difference, because to tell you the truth, it's not always easy. I'm going to go more into detail about this in Brian's a Bad Father because it has some of the worst, most half-assed non apologies that I've ever seen. Well mostly. Reality is stranger than fiction. But I'm going to use that episode as some of these examples, along with things that people have actually tried to say to me to pretty much do the same shit again.

How many first person pronouns do they use?

This is the rule of thumb. If there's a first person pronoun that doesn't involve "I'm sorry" or "I messed up pretty bad" or something along those lines, it's generally a bad apology. The apology is about the person who had been hurt, not about the person who hurt them. "I want to be your friend again." "I couldn't control myself" "I had a bad day" "Are you still my friend?" "I just miss you so much." A lot of these are just excuses, and we'll talk about that in a bit. But the more first person pronouns a person uses, the less genuine their apology is likely to be. The apology should be focusing on your feelings, not theirs. When an apology focuses on the person who did the hurting, what they're really saying is "I'm not sorry that you're hurt; I'm sorry that you're mad at me" or alternatively "accept my apology so I can scratch this off of my to-do list."


Believe it or not; if you're sorry, you actually don't need an excuse. Those people who say their only assholes because they have Asperger's Syndrome are definitely not sorry. Now, what if their excuse is true? Then they'll truly have regret for what they did and won't hide behind it unless they're lazy. There's actually one more excuse that I hate more than the "I have Asperger's so I can be a douche" excuse. It's the "You know that I didn't mean it." Apology will be denied on the spot because I really don't know if that's true, now do I? You didn't mean it. Right... except you did. Most "excuses" don't do much more than remove inhibitions, meaning that the original thoughts or feelings were still there. Bottom line, a genuine apology will NEVER (I cannot stress this enough) give you an excuse. Think about it. If there is a genuine excuse, then they're just going to do the same thing again and you're going to get hurt in the same way again.


On those same lines. "I'm sorry, but..." But will negate the sorry and will ramble into an excuse. Also in this, "I'm sorry if this sounds racist, but <insert fucked up conversation." No you're not because you're a racist.

They don't acknowledge what they actually did

This sounds obvious on the surface. But, "I'm sorry that I hurt you" sounds vastly different then "I'm sorry I forgot to feed your dog an caused him to run away." Maybe give them the benefit of the doubt in that they might actually not know what they did, so don't be vague about it. If you're willing to talk to this person again, tell them exactly what they did wrong, and give them time to process it.

The habit isn't broken

If the person your dealing with has alcoholism, drug addiction, or what have you, then you can't really forgive them until they've gone through getting themselves clean. Trust me on this one. If they're truly repentant then getting forgiveness should be incentive enough. That brings us to...

The Peter Griffin Scenario

In Brian's a Bad Father both the A-plot and the B-plot deals with forgiveness in an extremely half-assed way. At the start of the episode, Peter Griffin shoots Quagmire and that puts him in the wrong. Quagmire no longer wants nothing to do with him. Now, relating back to the real world (it's complicated. People in Family Guy get shot all the fucking time), let's just say that Peter hurt Quagmire through some continuous habit of his own. Quagmire's had enough, and he's actually in the right do so. Skipping to the end of the episode, Peter tells Quagmire to shoot him in order to make things even, to which Quagmire obliges. Who's the bad guy? Well... everyone. An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind Quagmire, and even if you did shoot him it wouldn't stop Peter's carelessness from shooting you again. This solution would not solve the overall problem. Before an apology can be accepted, the problem that caused the pain must be removed or you're back to square one.

Here's the other thing. Peter wasn't truly repentant. He wanted Quagmire to say no. I'm not saying that he should have been shot; obviously, I just said the opposite. But it's an example of "I want your forgiveness because everyone thinks I'm a jerk" (because I hurt you). What I'm saying is that the apology-giver should be willing to make it up to the person who's been hurt. Here's how this should have gone down. When Quagmire took the gun, he should have had no intention to shoot, but to see how Peter reacted. Due to how Peter reacted, Quagmire would have refused the apology and the story could have ended with them making it up, instead of Peter suffering from severe brain damage.

The Brian Griffin Scenario

If Herpe, The Love Sore wasn't hanging over my shoulder, this would be Brian Griffin's worst appearance due to how he deals with apologizes. He didn't want to make up to his son until he had something to gain, you know, after skipping all of the hard parts of being a father. He pushes his limits too far without even thinking of his son, and when he gets booted he only thinks of himself. He doesn't think of how Dylan might have been embarrassed, how his credibility was tarnished (Brian got a job based on his word). Brian only thinks of himself. But actually, Stewie's line what pisses me off the most. "Isn't taking that risk (that you'll be hurt badly again) better than not having a dad?" No. Just no. Let me be clear. You don't forgive someone just after they say they're sorry, but that they regret what they did, specifically because it harmed that other person. Brian never does that. Ever, and Dylan probably won't appear again.

But back to the bottom line. This episode does piss me off in a very personal way, but it really has allowed to figure out who is being truthful and who just wants to mess with me again. It's not in the emotions either. There are some damn good actors in the world, but through the crocodile tears you've got to see the words and intentions. One final note, if someone says that they need a few days to think it over, you probably should listen, because not respecting their wishes shows off your apology as fake.

I think that I know what the next Growing Around episode is going to be about.
ok so a lot of people have asked me for Flash, vegas, and sai etc so I'm making a guide on how to get them from me for free!

(All the downloadable files listed besides the official Flash Cs6  and Painttool SAI download are files that I uploaded myself, and should contain no viruses.)

edit: all download links have been added!

note: Flash Cs6 only works on windows so far

Flash Cs6:

  • Install the trial version of Flash Cs6. Make sure you activate the TRIAL. If it asks for a code, just ignore that and click "start trial" or something. You can find it here:… under the "Adobe Flash Professional" tab
  • Once it's installed, download this file:
  • Locate C:\Program Files (x86)\Adobe\Adobe Flash CS6
  • Drag and drop amtlib.dll into that file and replace the one that's there
  • Reopen Flash, and it should be the full version.
Sony Vegas 12:

  • Run this installer to install sony vegas 12:
  • Download this patch:
  • After you successfully install Sony Vegas 12, run the Patch. If your computer is 32 bit, run the patch in the folder 32x, and if your computer is 64 bit, run the patch in the folder 64x.
  • Volume warning when you begin the patch there will be some loud and annoying music.
  • After the patch is ran, Sony Vegas 12 will be full version.
  • (Note: You need Winrar to open the patch folder)

PaintTool SAI:

  • Download the PaintTool SAI trial from
  • Simply note me your email, and I'll forward you the instructions and the license.
  • If you are reading this from Tumblr, use my ask box to note me your email: (If you're using anon I won't reply but I'll send it)

(BY the way nothing in here is legal except for PaintTool SAI but nobody really cares)


Wed Sep 17, 2014, 3:13 PM
i will carry
a small hope, a grain
of it
in my pocket

(it will do whatever it can)

100 Points Giveaway!!

Thu Sep 18, 2014, 11:20 PM
Hello guys :wave:

How you are are? I am here hosting a small 100 points giveaway for you all!

To enter the contest just :+fav: Fav this journal
That's it!

Watches are also appreciated!

Its easy to do isn't it?

After faving the journal please answer these two questions.

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leave a comment answering these questions in this,its just I want to know cause I m crazy :la:

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[Giveaway] 400 WATCHERS / 14 500 PAGEVIEWS

Journal Entry: Thu Sep 18, 2014, 9:29 AM

Guys, you're the best.

I can't believe this; 400 watchers? AND 14 500 PAGEVIEWS?

...That's a lot of attention for a simple 14-years-old school girl like me.

So I decided to make my first Giveaway! 

Animated Color Bullets Animated Color Bullets Animated Color Bullets GIVEAWAYAnimated Color Bullets Animated Color Bullets Animated Color Bullets 

This is the 400th watcher milestone. 

The 1st place will win 700 :points:

The 2nd place will win 300 :points:

The 3nd place will win 150 :points:

The winners will be chosen via random. The deadline is the  28th of September 2014, Midnight GMT.

How to enter?

+fav Fave this Journal.

+favlove Tag at least 3 friends in a comment and invite them to take part, too.


I want deviants to watch me for my art, not for giveaway-stuff. So for entering, you don't need to watch me. Please only do that if you like my art and want to see more of it, because that's the true purpose of Added to my devWatch! .(I still appreciate every watcher, but I won't make you watch me for this!)

I will reply to your comment with a number, and this will be your entry number. If you tag more than 10 friends, you get the chance to receive a bonus entry!

Thanks for your great support! I Heart  you!

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RD 5th Chapter and Seeking for Trainer Cameos!

Journal Entry: Wed Sep 17, 2014, 9:12 AM
Hello little deerlings! I think it is time to talk about fifth chapter of Random Doom!

Random Doom - 5th Chapter -  Random Doom in Veilstone City

Elisa finally arrives to the Veilstone city. She leaves all her (RD) pokemon to pokecenter for an annual check up while she goes for shopping (and receives a make-over). Everything should be fine and dandy but unfortunately everything goes wrong when a certain purple imp and electric light bulb also come to the city. This causes some restlessness among the pokemon and  suddenly all Elisa's pokemon are running around the city. Can Veilstone handle them?

And that is the synopsis of the fifth chapter. It will mostly focus around the same characters as in the third chapter but ALL characters have a part in this chapter. ;)

I am very excited for this chapter! Unlike DD, this is pure action/comedy which is a lot easier to write and I am already happy with the original storyboard version which means very little changes are needed. It should be a lot easier to work with than DD. :)

BUT! It will take some time before you'll actually see any pages. I personally REALLY liked the way I did last 10 pages of DD. Meaning I'd like to actually sketch this whole comic before I actually start drawing anything digitally. But like I said, this comic is a lot easier to write than DD so I don't think it will take too long for me to fully sketch. ;) But definitely a month at least.

And yes... I am sure you all have been VERY excited thanks to the title of this journal. Mhhhihih! YES! Since this chapter happens in Veilstone city, one of biggest cities in Sinnoh, lots of people are going to appear in the background. And instead of drawing random stick figures, why not use actual characters? So yes...

I'm looking for trainer and their pokemon cameos!

Please follow the rules below or your request will be ignored.


• Only humans. No aliens or human/animal mixes etc.
• You can choose ONE pokemon companion for your trainer.

• No legendaries. A person with essentially this world's deity would catch way too much attention.
• Pokemon design has to be close to its original design. Small changes are ok (and encouraged). Accessories (as long as they make sense) are ok too.
• Colors have to be canon.  (aka, no sparklemons) Small hue changes in normal and shiny versions are ok. Special markings are ok too but not if it goes overboard.

And that's it! Please feel free to put links to your pokemon trainer characters and their pokemon on comment section of this journal. PREFERABLY picture references. Please state what pokemon you want them to have (if any) Do not send me notes or comment anywhere else. They will be ignored.

I don't know how many cameos I need but I hope to include as many as I can. THIS IS NOT FIRST COME - FIRST CHOOSE. So keep em coming! I plan to start sketching this chapter this weekend but feel free to post references even after that.

Phew! I am very excited for this! Thank you all again for the support! I really hope you'll enjoy this chapter! :D As for what I'll do while I sketch this comic? I have some plans.. Interesting plans. ;) let's see if I actually get anywhere with hem

Edit: I've received a couple of same questions and I thought it would be good to include them here.

• There is plenty of time. I won't do any serious decisions until I start drawing the pages digitally. So if you don't have reference yet, no worries. You can post it later.

• Any pokemon from any region is fine. Unova and Kalos pokemon are welcome. ;)

• They don't have to be trainers either. Nurses, breeders etc are ok too! :D

• Since I am looking mostly BG cameos, in depth character descriptions are not needed.

  • Mood: Excited
  • Watching: Random LPs from markiplier
  • Eating: sandwiches
  • Drinking: cola
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Closes on 21st of September.
Good luck to you all! :squee: 
  • Mood: Optimism
  • Listening to: The Dreamer - Kung Fu Vampire
  • Playing: Dramatical Murder Re:Connect
  • Drinking: Mountain Dew

Ibee's Shitty Horror Contest - OPEN

Journal Entry: Wed Sep 17, 2014, 12:18 AM

I'm going to use this journal skin because it's easier to read for this.

Another Contest from your neighborhood Ibee
I'm going to do what I did last year and do a Horror Contest (because those are way too fun)

Starts: NOW
Ends: November 1st, 11:59pm PST
Who can enter?: ANYONE! you don't have to ask me to join
Amount of Entries: 1
(I am going to keep it fair, if you want to change your entry you can!
Everything is final on november 2nd)


1st Place
A Full detailed drawing
21. Breath Play. by KingNerocheCommish:: Holymacintosh II. by KingNerocheCommish:: Hyenagutts. by KingNeroche

2nd Place
A shaded Transparent
Commish:: Frostbitten-Kitten II. by KingNerocheCommish:: Boaties. by KingNerocheCommish:: Naelii. by KingNeroche

Third Place

A flatcolour!
Commish:: Zokia. by KingNerocheDo me Asian boy. by KingNerocheCommish:: Birchwing. by KingNeroche

Okay you are probably wondering "IBEE! what the hell do i gotta do to get some of this in my hands"
EASY. You are free to follow my theme of horror.

What I'm looking for is something that's filled with a Dark story. You can use words but if you can tell it through the picture, you will achieve greater chances. The idea is to be either creepy, haunting, or gorey, follow your heart on any of the genres of horror.

This is a contest for ARTWORK, not written work. I sadly do not have the time.
It can be still, pixels, animated, detailed or not. so long as you achieve the Quality and Emotional aspect of the theme.

Again it doesn't matter if it's GOREY or not.

Here is what you are able to choose from in terms of characters!
If you are wanting to add your characters that is okay too, but keep in mind they are not the focus

Jesse. by KingNerocheIbee Reference. by KingNeroche

Joel Nel Sanchez. by KingNerocheConner 'Nero' Everley. by KingNerocheNikki Stardust. by KingNeroche
Kenneth Stacey Campbell. by KingNerocheVincent. by KingNeroche

An AU For the AU where they are furries. by KingNerocheThat one ref you didn't want but you got anyway. by KingNeroche


Hei. by KingNeroche

GOOD LUCK! Take your time, you don't have to rush


Cold by lightninq
Dead End by KeoranoIbee Contest Entry by KarkatthewVantas

Timcanpy by shadowkitsunekirby
:bulletred: - Closed
:bulletgreen: - Open
:bulletblue: - Certain people
:bulletyellow: - On Hold

Requests - :bulletred:
Art trades :bulletred:
Collaborations - :bulletred:
Commission - :bulletyellow:


Fri Sep 19, 2014, 10:30 AM
guess who's got +1k watchers?!?!?!?

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omg me. :iconlazepoolplz:

i'm so happy that so many of you want to support me ;___;
i know that i've got a long road to be good artist and i know that i still make a lot of mistakes.
but drawing is very important to me that's why i'm super happy that someone appreciates my work >///<
anyway omg why i'm talking so much? let's get to the point :iconweepplz:


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