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Do you believe that art can fundamentally change your sense of who you are?

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Wed Jul 23, 2014, 5:03 PM
chloe says
i need an angel
with big white wings and skin
that shines like gold,
do you believe in angels, charlotte?

i say
the plants are all dead in here,
how can a plant
know something i don't?
and i'm not religious but the only time
i ever felt peaceful
was when i sat in church

luke comes in, and chloe says
luke, you believe in angels?

he says what, like them feathery dickheads
with halos and stuff? nah i don't -

then we sit and watch a fly bash it's brains in
on the window

and
i think
how strange
that it can't see what's killing it

and
i think
how strange

neither can we

(the plants are dead, but we are still waiting)

Pixel raffle

Journal Entry: Thu Jul 24, 2014, 7:03 AM
Time for the monthly pixel raffle :iconlazydanceplz:

Bullet; Pink HOW TO JOINBullet; Pink

Just fave this journal:) (Smile)

there will be 2 winners  and winners
get a pixel avatar of there choice

raffle will end in 2 days
goodluck
 :iconhappyhappyplz:


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  • Watching: tokyo ghoul, free!


Copyright 2010 Journal Skin by Airamneleb


-400 POINT GIVEAWAY (EVERYONE WILL GET POINTS)-

*Next one begins 6/15/2014*

            ***Before I begin, I should say this is my fifth giveaway. This is truly a monthly thing. I understand that if you’ve already participated, you might not want to re-read everything. Just a reminder- If you don’t follow the rules you won’t get any points***

Do you want free points? Is entering contest after contest and waiting for weeks to hear about the results too tedious? DO YOU NOT WANT TO LEAVE YOUR LIFE UP TO FATE?!

            Okay, well, that just sounded like an infomercial. But, seriously. I’ve been there and I think it kinda sucks. Now its my turn to be the one offering up free points, and I’m changing it up a bit. No ‘random number chooser’, no ‘100th watcher’. I am offering a chance for everyone participating to earn free points. What I ask in return? An answer. An answer to a monthly riddle (or two). If you can answer correctly, you WILL get points. It doesn’t matter if you are the first to answer, or if you are the 42nd.

            Still not understanding? I’ll break it down- Every month, I will write riddles and hide them throughout my profile. They will be hidden in different ways, for example for Easter last year I hid Easter Eggs, and the time before I had a sort of treasure hunt. Most times I will have a story line, to make this giveaway a bit different from others. This is for those who want entertainment and humor, as opposed to just mindless faving and commenting. And, in return, you WILL get points, no matter what. If you enter, there is no way you cannot win.

How to enter

·         Make sure you are watching me (So you can keep up to date with monthly riddles)

·         Include in your comment below ‘I’m ready to solve the Riddle of the Sphinx’. I need to know that you read the rules.

·         Tag at least three friends who you think might be interested. If everyone who enters gets free points, why not get your friends in on it?

(·        If you fav this, no matter if you make it to the end or not, you enter the draw for 200 extra points!)

Point :points: Distribution

            I have 600 :points: to distribute. Now, this does NOT mean that everyone is going to get 600 :points:. Heck no. I don’t have that many points. 200 :points: will go to one lucky person who favs this, no matter if they made it to the end or not. The other 400 will be divided up amongst everyone else who makes it to the end.


Examples-

40 people enter, each get 10 :points:.

10 people enter, each get 40 :points:

As a one-time deal, I will up it to 800 points if we have more than 50 people. Get your friends involved, and there will be more points to divide up

Rules

·         Don’t comment the answers in the comments, or you will be thrown out of the giveaway and will get no points

·         Don’t comment any hints in the comments, or you will be thrown out of the giveaway

·         You have three chances for hints, but use them wisely. I created these riddles to be fairly easy.

·        If you are confused, feel free to note me! I will try to explain anything you might not understand

·         When you have answered the final riddle, do as the instructions say and then wait. I cannot give everyone their points until I know how many people are in it. Complaining or noting me about it is unnecessary. No matter what, if you get to the end, you will receive points. I promise you this. (Last time everyone got  points, although it was late… How about THEM apples?)

·         Please be respectful

·         Have fun!

 

 Ready, Set… Go?

                Please! Please, mortal, you must help me!

                Oh, I’m sorry. I haven’t introduced myself. I am the Sphinx, and I put on these Giveaways to challenge the minds of you mortals and show that I am the superior creature. That has… Well, it has never worked, but I assure you, I will beat the human race someday! For now, I need your help.

                My arch-nemesis, the Sorceress MoonehDraws, dragged me out to a human entertainment unit to have something she calls ‘fun’. There was music, rides, clowns, food…. All in all, it was terrifying. Anyways, when I originally heard her say ‘fun’, I thought she was talking about creating riddles, so I brought with me my riddles.

                We were up on some sort of wheel of death and I was hanging in a metal death contraption when a wind blew along and took with it all my riddles. DO YOU UNDERSTAND, MORTAL?! MY RIDDLES ARE GONE!

                I need YOU to find them… Please! You must search the galleries of :iconmoonehdraws: and :iconhazelstar67: to find all the riddles. You will know you have found them when you see this picture (Ferris Wheel by Hazelstar67) in the description.

                When you find that picture, look for the blue letters. (Like so) They are a link to another area, where you will find the riddles. You will be able to answer them and, if you answer correctly, you will collect a letter. I will know you have found ALL of my precious riddles if you can note me with the correct word.

                This is almost a scavenger hunt, my kittens. I have faith in you to find all my riddles and return them to my possession. If you do, I will send you a note and you can join the ‘fun’ of this fair-like thing and get your reward.

                In case your mortal brains did not comprehend- This is a type of scavenger hunt. Find the image and your find the riddle. Each time you solve a riddle you get a letter. Collect all 8, and you win!

                Please, mortals. I need my riddles back. I BEG of you, please find them all. I dare not venture out into that fair again. The clowns scared me. I believe in you…. For now.

~The Sphinx~
*8 riddles in all, a few false leads, and an EXTRA chance for 10 harder riddles... Four riddles on my page, four on Moonehs*

(Shoutout this time to :iconflashgiveaways:, a group that gives out FREE points… If you’re fast enough.  That's where I got my PM before it ended (like, today, so no more pretty journal after this DX) Since I’m an admin there, my ‘paycheck’ for helping out is what brings the extra 200 :points: for the random person who favs this!)

(Story and art done by :iconhazelstar67:, with help from :iconmoonehdraws:)



I hate hate hate the whole mindset that came with "trolling"

that's honestly where it started I think?

The mindset that actions don't have consequences and your shitty behavior "just for laughs" won't actually do any harm.

Because it's on the internet. Because that makes it not real.

I'm talking to all you horrible kids spreading shit about eachother on these dramablogs and fucking around with death threats.

This isn't a fucking game. You are hurting real living human beings. It's not fun and games. It's not harmless.

Stop and think for once. Just consider maybe, instead of publicly dragging people through the mud and shitting all over them with your friends, going outside or something? Kissing you dog or watching some damn youtube videos instead of getting your kicks gossiping behind people's backs like a damn middleschool clique.

You're not doing anything productive. You're not "calling out bad behavior" you are hurting people and you do it because it's fun.

Because it makes you feel higher to step the fuck all over other people.
HETALIANS! LOOK! SPARKLEY NEW SEASON FIVE!!!!!!!
I did this for you guys :iconcryingfemamericaplz::iconpoutiefemamericaplz:
NO BASHING

:star: No Ep1 because it is not avaible in some countries :(


:star: Gakuen Hetalia : Go Forth! Newspaper Club!! First Half

:star: Go Forth! Newspaper Club!! Second Half

:star: Russia and Friends

:star:  Though I May Depart, You Shall Remain

:star: Romano's Diary

:star: Things That Often Happen When Rooming With An American

:star: The Gentle FIght Between Russia And I

@ Netherland

:star: Turkey & I

:star: April Fools

:star: Merry Halloween

:star: Finding Santa

:star: Brother, We Are...!!

:star:bientôt! Until We Meet Again!

:star: What Italy Forgot

:star: Hetalia of the Dead part 1

Did America just make a Paranormal Activity Ref? :D
:star: Hetalia of the Dead part 2

:star: Keep On Moving!! March Forward, Sealand!

:star: It’s the First Anniversary! The Tripartite Pact



:star: Buon San Valentino part 1

:star: Buon San Valentino part 2


:star: Liechtenstein and the Hedgehog Country



:star:NEW:star: Centennial Gift



:iconhappyfemamericaplz:I was Overwhelmed by Heroines!

(I sound like Fem!America :'3)
'I'm the heroine! Don't do drugs kids!'

:star: BLOOPERS :star:
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500 Watcher Raffle!

Wed Jul 23, 2014, 10:33 PM






First of all, thank you so much, everyone! ;u; Some of you have stuck with me from the beginning while others have only recently seen my work and I'm just really grateful for all of you watching my art and helping me improve <3

Alright, so let's get to it! There will be one winner for every 20 entries, with a maximum of five winners. Only current, old watchers can win the first three; new watchers (after 7/23) can only win the fourth and fifth prizes, but can still enter at any time. I will assign each person a number and use RNG to pick the winner(s).

Winner 1:
- 500 :points:
- Page doll (digital or pixel)
- 3 Pixel Icons

Winner 2:
- 200 :points:
- Page doll (digital or pixel)
- 3 Pixel Icons


Winner 3:
- 150 :points:
- 3 Pixel Icons

Winner 4:
- 100 :points:
- 2 Pixel Icons

Winner 5:
- 100 :points:
- 1 Pixel Icon


Ways to enter:

- Fav the journal (Required)
- Advertise this raffle on a poll (+1 entry)
- Advertise this raffle on a journal (+1 entry)

Raffle ends August 9th!

ive never done a raffle so i hope i did this right omg ;;
what if no one enters //shot



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OH LOOK. STEPHANO DID ANOTHER FUCKING MMV.

Journal Entry: Wed Jul 23, 2014, 9:17 AM
Hallos.

I wanted to do another MMV just like the Nightmare one, and I had the opportunity to get internet. So here is the video !



Wow I wasn't expecting the video to come up the Journal but okay. Hope you enjoy it.

BYE.

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Rant: Nobody Cares if You've 'Done It' or Not

Journal Entry: Wed Jul 23, 2014, 12:43 PM
The opinions in this rant are my own, and if you don't agree, that's fine. You're not obligated to. If you do agree with me, thank you!
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You know what pisses me off? When people act like if you're a virgin, it's some kind of a sin and you need to have sex like RIGHT NAO or you're going to die alone and be miserable. Similarly, when some virgins act like being a virgin automatically makes them the most saintly thing in the world.

People always tell me "Kyra, you need to get laid! You need to do it with someone! Blah blah blah". Um, what if I'm perfectly happy in this life not screwing everything I set my sights on, huh? I'm happy the way I am and don't need someone telling me to go be a slut or else I'll be sad all the time. I don't have a desire to do that at this point in my life, and there's nothing wrong with that. I'm perfectly fine with my fantasies and interests, but I don't have a mighty need to go out in the world and make them a reality, you know?

And just because you may not be a virgin doesn't mean you're automatically some kind of a whore. There's a huge difference in being the town skank/manwhore and being an everyday person who's had sex. 

Oh well...this is a short rant, because this is not a topic I tend to talk about a lot. Conclusion? Virgin or not, you're no better than anyone else and it's not really that big of a deal... Also, if someone's secure and happy being whatever they happen to be, don't try to make them do something (or someone) they don't want to do. It's not that serious, bro.

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The Fear of Arting?

Wed Jul 23, 2014, 12:41 PM
I do not like to discus some things here, for people see it as drama, but I feel, after listening to many of my watchers and even watchers of my friends, that this should be discussed. It is a decent length, sorry. If you are too lazy to read it, well that's your fault for missing out. Not mine.

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So I guess it is more a fear of a reaction. As a child, one doesn't really have a fear of drawing. One doesn't worry about it. It is just there, you draw because it's super fun and you are proud to show people. However as you grow up you realize people judge you for it, or like my family, aren't initially supportive.

This is where the first round of artists lose to fear, or rather a large majority. You are told you can't be an artist, it isn't possible, so you quit right? Well if you are still hear, you evidently made it past that round! Good for you.

Second round, in school, nobody likes your art, or you just get too busy to draw with homework. We all have been there. Homework has gotta come first, right? Gotta get that GPA because of the lies they feed us how only people with the best GPAs become successful. Others wise your a failure at life, right? NO, not true. My brother... not the best gpa or smartest tool, but is a Military dog now, a few years and a E4 specialist already, up for promotion to E5 very soon. He's very good and very smart at his current job and he's gaining recognition and respect for it. He's successful in what he's good at. For some, it's science, or math... some are good at theater or writing, some at crafting or 2D art.

I imagine a lot of artists have similar feelings here:


Test-exam-fail-pics-0284 by Ahkward



Round Three seems to be graduation and/or college and LIFE as adults. If you go to college, that's a success in itself seeing how bloody expensive it is in the states. My first degree, and AAS in Animation (2yrs) cost me about 6k of debt. Pretty cheap in comparison to my second degree when I'll get next summer, a BFA in Illustration, about 150k for 3 years. However, I might be able to get some grants this coming year if everything works out to nearly halve that. But not everyone is lucky enough to do art in college like I am. Most people have to do it between homework and their jobs, so that makes it even harder. With Art cutting into money-making time, a large portion drop out here too.

However, what causes us to stop drawing? This is why I wanted to make this. It's time or fear or money... Art is expensive, but you don't need fancy things to make art, so I don't really count that one, but it is worth noting. Time, as I mentioned above, it cuts into money-making or homework time and gets shoved aside. However, the real killer is fear. I myself have a horrible time at this on a number of levels. I'm not afraid to admit it. Maybe it's because I'm not very popular, but even if I was, I'd like to think that I would still be able to admit it.


tumblr me70222mBk1rm91pso1 500 by Ahkward
I know I probably got a lot of these just now. e_____e




In my experience with others (and myself), fear is usually the fear of others reaction to the artwork, whatever the format. This goes for sculpting, music, writing, drawing, etc, etc. People worry it will be received badly and then it'll make THEM, the creator look bad. We all know this feeling. We all have works we slave over for hours or days or weeks, some years, and when it finally is put out there, nothing. No reactions and those that do seem little meaningful to give us the energy we lost in creating it. So over time, out motivation and energy just falls to pieces.

Some people have issues with never feeling good enough. they could be getting tons of feedback, and good feedback too. Yet still have that insecurity in their minds. Why is that? How do we beat it.


You can't.


Holyshitty by Ahkward




Sorry to break it to you. It will always be there, however, you can weaken that fear. In recent days, ok years, and my watchers know where I'm going with this, it's humans. Characters in general really. I get people telling me to just not post it. Draw it for myself, but I  still can't. Putting that pencil or pen to the paper is impossible for me, or I really really have to fight myself when I do finally make SOMETHING. That's how bad it is for some people. They KNOW that nobody will see it, it's just for them, but it comes to a certain level of proving yourself according to your OWN standards. We all know in our head what we WANT our artwork to look like. However as years progress, it changes. So there is this vicious cycle of never being good enough for ourselves.

This frustration can get us in bad moods. 


       Fuck-this-and-that by Ahkward





Then we get people who aren't artists just... not understanding. It doesn't help.

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However, that doesn't mean everyone should just screw what they do and stop being creative. Having self doubt is a nature of the beast, and even in more.. industrial careers and trades they have this problem. Self doubt and fear. There will always be people there to be asshats and jerks to you. But, the important thing to remember is to think that you are NOT alone in this. Everyone goes through that and everyone doubts themselves. Even talks with my mentor shows he has had doubt sometimes... my MENTOR. Someone I go to for advice on how to fix things and get better. It's a normal human thing to feel.

So ignore those trolls and people who tell you that you can't stand on your own.
They are liars.
Just get back up again like this little guy and keep going.


tumblr n9363fHPu81t0cscho1 250 by Ahkward


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I wrote this not because I wanted to whine about my own insecurities, but to show people that everyone feels them. I am terrified to put my pencil on paper and draw humans. I will sit and damn CRY about it and fight myself for hours. Even if I know nobody will see it. But you give me a tree or rock or animals to draw, I'll have a million sketches in an hour.

The best thing I have discovered to do is just work through it. There is always a trick. On June 23rd, my Aunt died whom I was very very close to, and on July 7th, my dog. Both were super unexpected. It put me in such a place. During that time I found a very odd thing happened. I drew people. All the time, constantly. I think it was because I simply stopped caring about what others thought about my work. I drew during those days for me because I needed it. So I learned it wasn't about the fact I couldn't do it. I could. I just had to think of it mentally in a certain way. Fear is just a mental game.


Now this is not discrediting people with legitimate phobias. I'm not telling you guys to simply get over it. I know that those cases are entirely different. and I respect that. This isn't aimed at you. 


What I am saying is to those who feel they can't draw or don't want to because they lose the motivation due to fear of the outcome, stop. I've been there for 2 long years, dealing with this fear of drawing people. My teachers and mentor have been fighting with me for 2 years to get me over this. It took losing my aunt and dog to teach me this. I am a SENIOR at Ringling College of Art and Design and I struggle with drawing people. It's kinda sad really, but I'm working towards fixing it.  

So now I can relax a little and draw what I want. I know I can do those things I can't. It might be harder still, but in time it'll happen to get easier. So if you have some sort of fear of art like I do, just remember that you can do what you want and nobody has to see it. It doesn't matter if it is good or bad. You CAN do those things, and if you simply lack the skills at the moment, you WILL do those things. Letting you fear get to you and NOT DRAWING won't help you improve those skills you lack in.

You can't learn a bike if you never try right? You can't get good ad a musical instrument without picking one up or playing one or just reading sheet music. You cannot learn the constellations if you never look at the sky, either reading or the real thing.

I have work to do now. I hope someone finds use of this... at least the last two images might make my point clearer.

- Ahkward 

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Draw what I want loki by Ahkward




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I animate a video of Kitten being cute.

"THIS ISN't KITTEN! WHY IS SHE NOT CRAZY! I WANT THE CRAZY KITTEN!"


I animate a video of Kitten being "Crazy."


"THIS IS OFFENSIVE TO MANY PEOPLE! YOU ARE INFLUENCING BAD THINGS TO YOUNG CHILDREN! STOP DRAWING THIS!"


I animate a video of Kitten being both cute and "crazy."


"I AM CONFUSED, DOES SHE HAS BI-POLAR!? THIS IS OFFENSIVE!"


I animate someone that's not Kitten.

"OH MY GOD, DID YOU REPLACE KITTEN?! IS THIS YOUR NEW FURSONA?! WHY DO YOU NOT DRAW KITTEN ANYMORE?!"



It's like...OKAY XD WHAT DO YOU GUYS WANT ME TO DRAW THEN?! LOL  I seriously just don't know sometimes. ;u; It just makes me worried about planning a video at all cause I always have to think "Will they like this? Will it be worth it?"  So it is difficult planning. TuT;
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