Thanks for coming back, here is another piece, happy reading, I don't own anything but the story. Please enjoy it is pretty long...
Wearing the past is more like skin than a coat
Grell looked at you softly and lifted his head to your lips and gave in to the firmness of your lips. He gasped as you ceased his lips in a passionate kiss, "Mmmm..." Grell moaned softly as you brought your tongue into his mouth. You pulled his waist closer to you and he gasped looking down pushing you away as you were seconds from tasting his sweet neck again. "S-Stop," he said low, you quickly back away and look shocked, you catch your breath and fix your hair. "I-I'm sorry, but I need more... You tell me he killed her, you tell me William never remembers her? How am I to believe this? What happened?" Grell said low and rubbing his neck with his arms crossed over his chest. You sigh and look down, you walk close to him and he moves from you slowly and you scuff a bit upset at the retreat for you were only getting your glass. You shake your head having grabbed the drink and walked to the black short sofa to sit, "I-I'm sorry for that," Grell said realizing he had no reason to shy away.
You smile and sarcastically say, "It's perfectly fine, you flee when you are afraid... I expect nothing less of a person in fear of me..." You take a sip of your drink and sigh, you motion your hand for him to take one of the two chairs surrounding the table on opposite ends across from where you were sitting with fireplace directly in front of you. He gasped a bit and walked to the sofa with you and sat with a straight back looking forward with his hands in his lap. You smile a bit at his posture, "You play a woman very well," you said sitting correctly on the sofa smiling down at your drink on the table. Grell smiled and blushed then came a bit closer as you did, you held your hand out and he gasped a bit before taking it and smiling at you.
"I don't fear you, I just fear what you are capable of doing to me..." Grell said shying down from your sincere smile and eyes.
You nod your head yes, "I understand, my past is all what people see when they look at me," you said smirking looking down, you use your other hand and take another sip of your drink. "Well do not fret my love, I will tell you of my misguided deeds and hope you come to not judge me for my past actions," you said smiling at him kissing his cheek then sitting back on the sofa. Grell smiled at you and leaned back and laid more on your arm. You smiled and chuckled a bit, "Now where should I start?... I guess the morning of would be best..." you said looking at the ceiling that held a black steel chandelier. "I had just left the reaper academy for the weekend to be with my family, in those day you had to stay on campus where as now you have a choice," you said sighing. "I was so happy to go home for a visit and be with William and Emily, it was there birthday week... *chuckle* they were born exactly 3 years and a day apart... William's birthday was the day before but I couldn't go for the teachers weren't understanding *scuff* .... Anyway, I was so happy to celebrate their birthday's I had planned making homemade ice cream, camping outside, reading them books... *sigh* ... but nothing I ever planned just happened like I wanted... On my way home, I stayed a good 10 miles from school, and I walked everywhere anyway, my cousin Elliot Spears... *smirk*... Yes, my father has a brother... but we will get to that later... *kiss*..." you said taking deep breaths and smiling at him then kissing his shocked forehead.
"My cousin only lived a few from our massive estate, for our father was very respected and well known, he was described outside the home as the model reaper... everyone who didn't know him, admired the bastard... My uncle, not so much, people would speak ill of him often talking of the evil he did to his only eldest daughter... t-those people were idiots... they didn't know anything b-but so much evil that his only son began to hate him... *chuckle* it's wired who my cousin actually had the ideal father and everyone hated him, and I had the worst father that was loved by everyone... *you stare off a bit* *pause* ... Elliot was really upset with his father that day, he told me how his father wrote him a goodbye letter... I was shocked for Elliot's mother had passed at birth... he was to be alone in that house... He spoke of the note saying his father could take no more of his brother and of the shame... I cared for my cousin and I stayed with him until the late afternoon before I took that long walk home... the sun was barely shown when I arrived, I was shocked to find only William and father home. I didn't even get to see the birthday girl u-until later... *pauses* *You drink all the rest of drink* (You stand up quickly and go to pour yourself more) (Grell was shocked and you just took deep breaths walking the room softly and slow to the giant glass wall)... Oh... s-sorry...," you said looking back at him, you go and sit at the chair to the right of the sofa.
You took one more sip and sighed looking up leaning back in the chair, "I was happy to see William...*smirk* w-we ran around the house and played games until finally our mother and Emily returned in the carriage. Emily was sleep and tried, I was told to take her to her room and I did... those little arms wrapping around my neck... *smiles softly at the table*... I set her to sleep and William sat in my lap as I read a story... *shrugs and sighs* even though she was sleep, I-I felt like doing it, and William liked the story so I thought two birds and one stone...*Smiles*... As I finished the short story William asked me to play hide N seek... (You smile at Grell) Honestly, I was a little old for the game but it was in fact my favorite game," you said to Grell smiling at him, "Still is," you add before looking at you drink again. "I was about to rebut it for some strange reason, I usually don't hear that much quiet from my parents, they would always argue, or my father would... But he begged me with those adorable little eyes, I take it you are a bit fond of his eyes as well," you said smiling at Grell.
Grell blushed looking down, "I have noticed they are very nice, but I will say yours hold a bit more mystery that keeps my attention more," Grell said smiling at you.
You smile and lift your eyebrows and chuckle with a bit of blush, "I do aim to keep it as well," you said smirking drinking a bit more. "Yes, those little eyes.. *sigh* I couldn't say no, I counted and he ran, I smiled looking for him everywhere upstairs, which was our usual zone. I never wanted him around our parents and their only area was downstairs, our mother was nice when our father was gone, she was happier, she hugged us and loved us strongly... She would die down and be reduced to a hateful mass for then our faces looked only of our father's when he angered her... *pause*... It wasn't until I heard that glass break... our father would throw his glass upon drinking too much," you said looking down at your drink before pushing it away from you. You take a deep breath, "It wasn't the same... no that glass break was different," you said looking up shaking your head no, "No... I ran to my father's study's and th-the sight... I wanted to kill him right then... That evil Evil! Spiteful Bastard!," you said loud standing up angered you walked to the fireplace to your right, it was really low, you stared a moment. "He- *Sniff* He had bashed his glass into William's head... I guess it was from William hiding in there... W-what type of man would do something like that?.... *shaking your head in disbelief* ... You would think a man would hold his hand better against a woman and especially against his own child... No, no, the things I saw of my so called father would have made me a true monster had I used any of that bullsh*t... excuse my language my dear... ... I still feared my father... so I did nor said anything and I ran to William... *stares blankly at the ground with your back on the side of the fireplace* ... That gash... I could see William's skull as he bleed on the floor... lifeless... I thought for sure I had lost my brother but I could see him still breathing... his eyes wide open and mouth parted but alive... without any hesitation to even stare at that bastard, I took William to his room, I passed my mother on the stairs... She was horrified at the sight of me trying to carry William to his room... I asked her for help and she got some things for us to wrap his head... My mother told me to watch over him as she went to speak with my father... I feared for her safety but I didn't want to leave his side... she left and I laid in the bed with my little brother and cried hoping he would wake up, that he would be ok... *wipes tear away* ... It felt like forever before he blinked his eyes open and closed then breathing regularly... he cried from the pain in his head and I told him to rest, and he snuggled in my chest crying as he fell back to sleep in my arms with tears... *cries a bit* m-my little brother's hug... that always touched my heart... I so desperately wished to take him away, him and Emily, take them away from that evil house and I'd raised them, but I was in my last year of the academy... I had no money nor job... I was skinnier than a stick *chuckle* *sniff*... I had noway to provide for them... I wanted so terribly for them to survive one more year so I could take them with me... A small home outside the area of idiot reapers who had my father lead them... I don't know if they were intimidated by him or just was so blinded by his bullsh*t to see him as the beast he was! (You swing your fist hitting it sideways on the door to your left) (Grell jumped at your sudden out burst)... S-sorry... He feel back to sleep and I soon followed suit... I was awaking to footsteps coming up the stairs, I went to check and I saw my mother and father arguing outside of Emily's room... He slapped her hard... *grits teeth*... I stepped out of the room snaring in the disgust at the filth of a man that which was my father... He snared back at me, drunk as usual, sweating breathing hard, he threw my mother to the wall and walked after me as I had backed from him and slid from William's room down the hall... He grabbed my cheeks with one big rough hand and squeezed them hard... I winced in pain as he was able to lift me from my feet with that hold... (You snare and hit the door once more)... I was so weak... I was so little I was his first son close to being a man, and he made me feel lower than dirt when he did that... *Frowns horribly at the ground* What made it worse was my little hands trying to pry his hand off, h-he smiled at me try... 'You should not make an attempt when you are sure to fail,' he tells me as if words of wisdom...*scuff* I called him a bastard and he grew more upset and was in route to hit me when my mother clung to him... S-She shrilled so loud, I feared it would wake them, my father threw me to the wall and I fell to the floor... *grits teeth*... I-I could take the abuse... I was use to it... My mother knew it... b-but when she said those words *stares confused then looked at Grell shaking your head in disbelief* She covered over me crying screaming, 'GO! Go to Emily!' she yells to him... W-Who says something like that?... I am her son, their son, their oldest son! I can take that abuse!! But a 3 year old!! A CHILD! YOUR CHILD!" you shouted laying your forehead hard on the door then punching it repeatedly.
You sigh as you heard a knuckle pop, you stood up straight and looked at your pink and red hand as it twitched in pain, Grell was in shock and watched you walk to your drink at the end of the table instead of going to get ice. You got your drink and sat back down at the other chair at the other end facing the glass wall and rest of the room. "That b*tch... She offered up her only daughter to protect me?... Who am I?... I was beaten nearly everyday of my fucking life by the man and- and now she chooses to sacrifice my only sister?!" you crying softly wiping your eyes with your hand with the last of your drink still in that hand, Grell say your red and bruised hand.
He walked and got ice and a towel, he sat on the floor beside you and softly put the ice on your hand, you smiled softly at his niceness and stood up. You stood him up and despite the pain you held his cheek and kissed him softly with your own tears. Grell held your chin softly with both hands as you kissed him. You stopped and rolled your forehead on his and sighed softly with your eyes closed, Grell slowly reached low to your hand and removed your drink. You were shocked but he kept those beautiful eyes on you and you smile softly and nod your head and kiss his forehead with a hand on his cheek before walking away.
You walked to the glass wall and looked out as your hand slowly healed, "Little did I know he was to do something far more sinister than beat her as he did I," you said low looking out of the people dancing and laughing on the ground below you. Grell gasped and nearly dropped the glass, you looked at him and shook your head, "No, Worse..." you said to him then turning back. "He took my mother's offer and walked past her angered... I was not going to let that happen... I stood up quickly but my mother was stronger than I, and she held around my waist causing me to drag her as I tried my best to get to her room... The bastard wanted me to see... He left her door open and I made it to the threshold and yelled for him to stop but my mother covered my mouth... M-My father... My Bloody Fucking Father the Coward!! (Punch)" you yelled loudly and punched the thick glass breaking your hand, you fell to your knee feeling that overpowering pain shoot through your body. You hold your breath and let out a sigh as you stumble to stand, Grell tried to help you stand but your shook your head no and he backed away. "He had the thorns... Thorns of Death..." you said low looking at him as you held your hand leaning your back on the un-phased black glass wall. Grell's eyes widened and you nod your head nonchalantly, "He was a coward and found away to get rid of them," you said receiving more ice Grell gave you.
"T-The only way is to collect 1000 souls," Grell said to you shocked and holding your hand as he iced it.
You smile at him and rub his cheek, "Smile for me and I'll tell you a secret," you said smiling sitting on the sofa with him close to you, your broken hand in his lap being iced. He blushed and nod his head, he gave you a soft smile and you kissed him softly, "Alright love, well, there is another way, it is a terrible vile thing to do but sure enough that didn't stop my father," you said smiling talking sarcastically about it. You pause a moment and drop your smile, "You can transfer your thorns into that of a weaker being... someone who can't fight it..." you said flatly looking into the fire then at Grell while straight faced.
Grell was so shocked his eyes began to run tears in shock, your eyes tear and you looked away and cry some. Grell cried softly and hugged you and placed his head on your shoulder, you hold his arm across your chest and wipe your eyes. You clear your throat some and Grell pulled back enough to see you look at him with sad eyes. "I watched him place his diseased pesterous hands on her tiny chest and recite some words... next thing I saw shocked and terrified me... *stares shocked at the fire again with many tears running* ... A beam of light shot out from my father's mouth and he shouted before gagging as I could see the disgusting hideous black tar covered thorny vines protrude out from his mouth and twist and spiral into hers.... T-That scream... Her innocent little voice should never know a scream like that... *cries softly*... S-She called for me..." you said breaking down and crying, you tried to stand to have a moment but Grell held you back and held you tightly and you cried into his open arms.
"S-She called my name as the nasty vines entered into her small body... there was so much.... it was so long.... My father had carried those thorns for years... waiting for someone who could not carry his name... *you wipe your eyes and kiss Grell's cheek lovingly wiping his*... My father's long shouted ended and he stumbled back once the last of the thorns left him taking with it a piece of his heart... S-She died before the last of the vines could make it fully into here b-body... ... ... My mother stood behind me as I shouted no in disbelief, she finally let me run to her, and I tried so hard to get her back... I started to pull the vine out.... I pulled as much as I could until I could not tell if it was my hands that were bleeding from the hard thorns or if I was cutting her on the inside... I looked into her eyes.... they were no longer lively they no longer held life... ... ... I cried harder seeing her hair drain.... making the edge of her hair white and the red seemed to drip away on the bed, her eyes turned white and she became pale as snow... *stares shocked at the ceiling as you leaned back with Grell in the hug* ... M-My father told me to pick her up, before I could curse him he smacked me, his hand stronger, his body different, more enhanced... he looked at me with somber and told me to just do it... I was in shock for I never really seen that side of my father... he was different... a-almost better in figure... 'Met me in the backyard with her,' he tells me sternly but with a gently tone... I was shocked for that was my father and it was not him... I began to think that the thorns was his downfall... the thorns were his demons... I still feared him, a-and I lifted her lifeless body a weaker person... I made it to the hall crying over her kissing her freezing forehead and I pressed my back hard to the wall making a thud sound... and I slid down the wall for support as I carried her down, I saw William's door open and our mother rushed blocking him as I carried her away... *You cry harder*... I cried harder... I-I then knew that no matter what, I was going to take William away with me that night! We would have been poor and I would have to work as a less status person but it was worth it! I couldn't lose him... No more would he be hurt or the chance of him being hurt was I going to let happen... The weekend before we learned about how demons have killed reapers and that was destroying the heart... That was my last resort... I thought about just getting away late that night, I was determined to leave and take with William with me as I made it to the backyard... b-but it hurt me more seeing that man stand there with this Skinner then him but just as old reaper with a shovel... He had round glasses and a huge scythe seated near his black overcoat... He looked sad, he looked as if he knew my pain... I remember my father smiling?... Smiling... Smiling as I carried his dead daughter in my arms to a coffin and freshly dug grave beside my mother garden... T-The Garden!!! *Grits teeth and takes deep breath*... 'You really should become an undertaker, you made that in a day, you are very talented,' my father told the man as I placed her softly in the coffin... I fell to my knees and cry seeing her lay like that... my father snares down at me and walks away after calling me and throwing a shovel to me... I shook violently with it in my hand, I wanted nothing more than to bash him in the head with it and bury him alive... 'Oye! This is my last time helping you, do you understand!' the man said stern to my father as my father walked nonchalantly up the stairs to our estate, the bastard even stopped a moment and looked to the sky happily. 'Yes... My dear friend, it is just a shame you are to became one and killing our friendship. You might would have made great business with me,' the bastard said with a smile walking into our home... I grit my teeth and turning back to the peacefully sleeping sister of mine in her eternal bed and I fix her hair and cross her arms... I had cried my last tear for her... The question in the back of my head began to scream louder as I buried her with the strange sliver haired youngish man... As we finished quickly I looked at him and asked him the burning question... *pause*.." you said ending in a pause stuck in a stare at the fire mantel.
"I asked him was this my father's first time having down this?... *you shake your head no softly as Grell looks at you having cleared his face of tears* No.." you say in a near whisper in your daze. "No... my father had a daughter before me, b-but he did the same to here when I was two... M-My uncle took the blame for him... He thought my father... his young brother... he thought to protect him... he acted suddenly and announced that he had did it to his own daughter... his wife was sickened by the lie but loved her husband too much to leave, even after the women would bad mouth her and she would take the abuse rightfully belonged to my mother for allowing my father to do that to her own child!... MY UNCLE'S FAMILY PAID THE PRICE FOR HIM!!" you yelled kicking the table nearly kicking it over.
Grell turned your angered face to him quickly and looked at you stern until you calmed down and sighed.
You sighed and laid your head back, "My father was killing everyone in our family and showed no remorse and pride that he would do it again... I ran to William after finding out that the garden is where my older sister lay buried... As I ran I knew I was going to have to kill him, I knew I was to face hate and shame and I was more than willing to take it for the sake that William could live, and possible bring good to the Spears name! He holds our grandfather's name whom was an excellent father and Reaper... I made it to William's room and our mother slapped me after telling I was leaving and that what I was about to do was to protect him, she didn't want me to go, and she whispered that it will get better, and that our father would get better now, and idiotic things to defend him... *scuff*... I told her he could never be trusted and she yelled to me disowning me... Me as if I killed the family... and she slapped me with all her might... I held my pride and tried to say goodbye to William but she wouldn't let me... No the stupid woman blocked him from me and yelled to me that I was pure evil and th-that I was a D-Demon... That hurt bad.... to be called something as vile as a demon?... and she stared at me with unsure eyes as she lied about me and called me a d-demon... I walked away fast then ran to my father... for he was the true demon and he was the one infecting the family... he was the weak one... he was the man who got the sickness twice and even more so cunning killing his own children to keep it hidden... I made it to his office and there he was happily drinking... I snared at him and he smiled saying things like you think you are man... I told him I was more of one than him... and he snared he called me ungrateful and that he did that to protect me and keep me for his own naming benefit as I would become a great reaper and work under him... I was disgusted for I didn't want to share his name anymore let alone work under him... I told him I would rather die than do that, nor let him live past that night... *Grell gasped looking at you*... Yes, I told him I was going to kill him, and if I didn't succeed he might as well kill me... He was upset by words and threw his glass at the wall beside me... I stood my ground ready to die for my family, and we fought... we fought hard and long, I did my best but I was so young and weak... He stood on my neck and yelling at me taunting me... *grits teeth*... he started hit a bit of realty saying I had no family and he was disowning me completely... the bastard even took my name from my chest (you sighed rubbing your necklace on Grell's neck)... my identity was taking from me and he threw it in the fire and had William watch as he taunted me more and the grabbing me in that horrid manner with one hand squeezing my cheeks crushing my jaws some... and he yelled to me what sacrifice is... the bastard never sacrificed a thing in his life, he never went a night without food to feed his brother nor fellow man... He was a horrible person that the world need not anymore, and even through his tears he knew it... I looked into his sad eyes that begged to be freed as he let his drunken mouth ramble I read his eyes all to clear, 'I've sacrificed more for you all then you can ever know,' he said to me with tears, he nodded his head softly and I let all my anger out and called him a liar... I-I freed his soul while I kept his demons in that body... I grabbed his heart and held it as he screams rang in the air... I only was filled with more pride hearing his soul being touched being separated from the demons within him... I stared straight into the eyes of my father and said, 'A real man would sacrifice his own life if it be for his family,'.... and with that I pulled my father's heart out... The realty set back in a bit hearing William throw up... my father was dead... right there in front of me... forever looking up at me, while I was staring down at him... he took his last breath with a cold dead snare looking straight into my eyes... I scuffed at the true demon in our father that could never leave... I stared at it as it was nothing... he was nothing... if there was any good, it was in his heart or had gone along time ago... I stared over him a while as I held his heart, and with one glace at the deep red warm heart, I grinned... I could see where a new piece of his heart had grown back from when the thorny vine took from his heart recently... I saw three different shades or red... My father's true heart was long gone... I just removed the infected replacement rom his body... I knew there was no need to turn back and I threw it into the fire... and I watched it burn... just enough to see it become unusable... I saw on the mantel of the fireplace a picture I had never seen... *tear falls*... it was of me and my older sister... she was about 4... the bastard... *scuff with tears*... I punched the picture's glass and took the picture... I went to William, thinking he would love to come with me... he never need to fear again... but he spit in my face and snared at me... *you stare down with tears running*... he hated me... I knew I was to be hated... b-but him?.... S-so quickly?... I quickly thought it was from the head injury... I was hoping it was from that... *pause*... I still hope it is... I thought it best I leave him... *sniff*... I-If he hated me, he could become greater than me... I didn't mind sacrificing my name that was taking from me anyway and be the bad so William could be the good... I was so proud having been transferred back to this distract and become a division leader... Head Reaper of the 5th Division ___ ____ *Smirks and Chuckles* ... A great fit eh?" you said smiling at Grell who was listening to your story quietly even drink from your glass a bit. He smiled and nodded yes, "*sigh* Yeah, I came a long way," you said smiling up at the big picture of you and your brothers and son over the fireplace.
You smile and rub your now healed hand on Grell's leg softly, "Y-You weren't lying, were you?" Grell asked rubbing your hand and putting the wet towel with little ice left, on the table. You shook your head no with a smile as he came closer to you, he smiled softly leaning over to you more, "Real men speak, remember," he said smiling getting closer.
You smirk and lean closer, "No Ma'am I wasn't... Mmm... lying..." you said smiling leaning closer to his lips and kissing him as you spoke. He smiled as you two bobbed some in your kissing, you let his hair down by removing the clip and putting it on the table. You bite your lip seeing Grell shake his bouncy-like hair, for the way it was pinned curled it a tad. He smiled and kissed you again, you smile and lean him to his back on the sofa then laying over him some. You two got more heated and your hand drifted under the dress, he gasped and pushed you off. He quickly stood and walked away holding his lips, "W-What's wrong?" you ask a bit frustrated and sad confused looking at him.
Grell shook his head, "I-I'm sorry, but I don't think I can," he said blushing, remembering something.
You sigh frustrated and place your head in your hand and breath out, you nod your head, "Very well, you may leave," you said low looking down then standing tall walking to the 3rd chair that sat facing the black glass wall over the people. You sigh a bit in the chair and lift your head staring at the ceiling then closing your eyes to relax a bit.
Grell gasped and looked down, he took a deep breath and reached behind his back and slowly unzipped his dress, it fell to the floor and he walked behind you and lowered down to the short chair rubbing his hands down your chest making you gasp and groan from the deep massaged. He began to kiss your neck and lick your ear causing you to gasp and moan for more, you grabbed the seat of your pants and pulled down, loving his tongue. Grell moaned in your ear as he grabbed your length and pulled down, you moaned at the amazing feeling and as he softly bite your ear and nicking it. He began to suck your neck and you moaned softly with gasp, you opened your eyes and softly grab his chin and walk him to the front of you. You smirk looking over his body, you scoot down in the seat some and have him sit on your lap. He smiled on your lap and held your head backwards as he slid his tongue down in your mouth to keep from getting cut. You rub up his slim pale body and softly rub a hand on his arse causing him to gasp on your lips, you gasp feeling his heated center on yours. You lick his bottom lip before softly biting it bringing his mouth back to yours in a kiss, "Ah..." Grell moaned as you gripped his arse tightly, he rocked on you making you love it and want more. You licked the center of his neck as he stared up, you soon found the taste to be addictive and licked and sucked all around his neck. "Ah! Mmm... yes..." Grell said rocking on your lap as you lick and bite his ever so warm neck. Those moans only fueled you for you picked him up and took him to the sofa, he gave no refusal as you laid over him and got aggressive in your kissing and grinding of his body. "P-Please be gentle," he winced as you began unbulking your pants smiling kissing his neck bit rough. You stopped and look at him shocked, Grell looked a bit emotionless as he laid looking away at the fire, just laying there. He sat up looking down, "D-Don't you want to fuck me?" he asked you sad with his head tilted to you.
You gasp and hold his cheeks looking lovingly and serious in his eyes, "No, no of course not," you said a bit hurt he would say something with no emotion or feelings at all. He looked down as if you didn't want his body, you looked confused and gave a soft smile lifting his chin to peer in his eyes, "No my dear, I wish to make love to you...
To be continued...
Sorry, next one should be lemon, takes a lot to explain these type things... I hope you like it...