Reaching out for anything
to make me happy.
A general smile to fight the pain
A kind amount of laughter to bring sunshine to my rain

Artificial ecstasy to fill the void inside
Words with instant smiles to hide behind
Green smoke curling in my lungs to feel the high
A depression I couldn't even begin to explain
A fire to burn the itching novacaine

What keeps me here in this place
is the hopes of tomorrow
and the sliver of faith
in finding what other's feel
the beautiful touch, only the one thats real

The hand laid upon me
spreading on my skin like a wanted disease
into my heart making it beat
faster to match the gasping air I breathe
Another face to stare into other than my own
Arms to envelope me a comfort to call home

A heart that beats and swells like the tide in a sea
with a mind colored with intense beauty
Eyes of any color as long as they hold my own
a voice that wraps words around my soul

They're complicated yet beautifully defined
knowing every depth and corner of my mind
Understanding, gentle, with an endless amount of patience
With my good side and my bad understanding the difference

And the strength to endure the fight
but the softness to open their eyes
Memories and hopes of this
pushes me to find
my core happiness.