Empty Lines staring;
Expecting to be filled.
At this late night hour,
My minds blood;
Calling to be spilled.

Frustration kicks in.
Another sleepless night.
The 3am clock light halted.
My perfect slumber faulted.

Rain from the window.
The quietness of the night.
A frank realisation;
Where am I in life?

A moment of weakness
Caught in this time and place
It drags me down;
Trying to disgrace;

My emotions set ablaze
I still have so much left to say.
I defied it all.
Got what I aimed for
Relying solely on myself.

It all resurfaces;
Those I thought would support;
Come crashing down.
The truth becomes contort;
As the night begins to drown;

Amidst the morning dim of light.
I continue to ask:
Was my idea of before ever right?  

Now an unexpected feeling
Despite aspirations to begin
Inner devil dealings
Craving that heavenly skin.

I now just need to sleep.
When tomorrow comes;
A new future will be mine to seek.