Dear AnneDear Anne,Dear Anne17 hours ago in Drama More Like This
I've stopped eating to try and be perfect. I get good grades, I try and stay positive, I have friends that love me, so tell me: why do I feel so empty and numb inside?
Is it my mother who's always yelling at me at any inconvenient time? Is it because she blames me for her unhappiness? She makes me feel like I'm worthless, Anne. And I can't do anything about it. What am I suppose to do? Other then sit here and let myself be punished. I try so hard to become what she wants me to be. But Anne, I have faults, I have flaws and she doesn't like that. I'm not perfect. Her expectations and her explanations don't make sense to me, her and her alternatives...
Anne, I don't know how much more I can take. I want to see a councilor, so I can let it all out. I don't want to talk to my mom, she scares me and I fear her. She treats me like I'm dead weight on her shoulders. I'm tired of feeling so numb. Relief exists, I found it when I started to cut. Anne, I don't want to die. I want to liv