enthusiasm directorsIt's a war!enthusiasm directors5 days ago in Emotional
It's a celebration!
We're all rooting for you!
TornYou sacrifice so much for your friendsTorn3 days ago in Emotional
Even if you have to give up something or someone that you love
And you show no sign of hate, fear, sadness, nothing.
Yet you let yourself know by sitting in your room alone with your thoughts,
Hating yourself for being too kind
And only being selfless
This is the punishment for that
Deflate"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened."Deflate21 hours ago in Emotional
One of my favorite quotes of all time, yet in this situation it's hard to fulfill.
I met someone and we hit it off from the start.
We liked the same things, hated the same feelings, and had the same fears.
I was young, foolish and oblivious. I fell.
It wasn't a headfirst fall, so I had warnings. Many.
I saw the signs. The danger. All of it. I was to stupid to realize that I would crack my head open.
I fell not knowing how to pick myself back up.
He felt different. After all he had liked another girl for quite some time.
It hurt and eventually I moved on. I realized the I didn't want to ruin the relationship with my best friend.
Little did I know...
He fell for me... after I-I...felt that we were incompatible.
Suicide Prevention - Who Helps and What You Can DoToday, September 1, is the first day of National Suicide Prevention Month. Suicide is often a delicate subject, and it's even more worrisome that of the number of deaths caused by suicide in America, 90% is of those undiagnosed with a treatable psychiatric disorder and 22.2% is of our veterans.Suicide Prevention - Who Helps and What You Can Do4 days ago in Emotional
Being September, I wanted to get a couple of things out there for everyone. There are several organizations who work for and towards suicide prevention and awareness, including the famous To Write Love on Her Arms (https://twloha.com/) Foundation. However, a more active organization is the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention (https://www.afsp.org/). I would personally like to bring to everyone's attention that they have several walks throughout the year that raise suicide awareness and money. They are focused on offering educational programs for professionals, educating the public on mood swings and mental disorders, promoting policies that impact both suicide and prevention, and providin
HypothesisDon't try to figure me out, I never asked you to. Don't make a hypothesis about something that'll happen, for I know it never will. So when you get angry when I reveal myself to you,remember it was your fault that you dissected me in the first place. Don't treat me like a science experiment. I've got the only right to tear myself apart because I'm the only person who can put myself together again.Hypothesis6 days ago in Emotional
MaybeMaybe one day we will meetMaybe3 days ago in Emotional
Maybe someday I will see you
Maybe I already have.
Maybe someday we will lock eyes.
Maybe we are on opposite sides of this world.
Or Maybe we are next door neighbors.
Maybe you are already dead
Or bursting with life and passion.
Maybe one day we will be able
To feel one with each other.
Or Maybe just being near you will be enough.
But I will never stop searching.
You are searching for me too.
Second Choice Can't CompareShe's beautiful.Second Choice Can't Compare6 days ago in Emotional
How did I ever believe I could compare in any way? As a friend, a sister, a love interest? As a person? I was stupid to believe you'd be different. It happens with every person we have in common. No one sees me once they see her. Suddenly I just don't matter as much.
And don't get me wrong. I understand. I love her too. I'd choose her too. I'm glad she has you. I'm glad you'd choose her.
I just wish I could be worth something to someone. Instead of always becoming a second choice. If I'm even worth that much...
No coincidencesThere are no coincidences,No coincidences1 week ago in Emotional
that disturb us.
Hello. How are you ?
I’m fine, thank you.
Work. Boredom. Anxiety. Anger. Time passing by. Love. Nostalgia.
Where did my life go ?
Fallaces sunt rerum species
I don’t know why but I’m angry this morning.
But let’s pretend : Hello, how are you ? I’m fine, thank you.
Purification or the
Cleansing of our emotions
so that we could elevate ourselves
and hope that we can be at peace.
The kind of peace that quiets your soul and makes you [insert positive note here]
Work. Boredom. Anxiety. Anger. Time passing by. Love. Nostalgia.
Where did my life go ?
Woke up this morning and wondered :
what have I done with my life ?
Hello. How are you ?
I’m fine, thank you.
There are no coincidence, just truths that disturb us.
asco(?¿Qué es lo que ocurre con la sociedad?asco(?4 days ago in Emotional
¿Desde cuando dejamos de pensar en los demás?
¿Desde cuando nos olvidamos de lo importante?
¿Desde cuando somos individualistas, envidiosos?
Esto es más un comentario o queja,
pero estoy harta de esta sociedad, ¿por qué?
porque estoy harta de ver como la gente es tan ingenua.
Quizás lo que diré sera la vista de jóvenes y niños
pero no simples jóvenes y niños, sino de jóvenes y niños limitados,
limitados físicamente, lo cual les provoca dolor, burlas, bulliyng.
La gente cree que algunas enfermedades son solo para adultos, pero se equivocan
los jóvenes y niños también sufrimos las mismas cosas, incluso peores.
pónganse en el lugar de nosotros, ver como todos pueden correr, jugar, bailar y uno aquí
sentado, observando como lo hacen mientras sufrimos en el interior.
También tenemos ciertos cuidados, pero por esos cuidados nos miran r
NegativityStop fighting it. Stop pushing it out and straining yourself. Feel it. Let it seep into you like syrup. It’s not going away. Feel the negative vibes flow down to your fingertips and your toes. This is a real feeling. Don’t fight it.Negativity6 days ago in Emotional
But don’t let it consume you. Accept that this feeling is a part of you whether you like it or not.
Now do yourself a favor. Go take a shower. Then change into something comfy. Make yourself some tea. Settle into your favorite spot with your computer.
Breathe. This won’t last forever. This isn’t endangering your life. You’ll get through this and be a better person for it. You can do this. You’re strong. People like you. You will always have somebody supportive to help you through these times.
You can’t change the past but you can sure as hell change the future.
To John....Walking down the street, I looked up at the sky. It was black – the darkest black imaginable. No stars, no planes, just black. I still kept on staring. It wasn’t until a few steps later that I saw it. It was a disk, just higher than the middle of the sky – just slightly higher than the line between the horizon and the top of my eyes. And it was white. And it was glowing. It was glowing with such an intensity, one might have thought that it was the sun. Yet, technically, it was the sun. But I find calling the disk the moon more romantic. But that’s not the point.To John.1 week ago in Emotional
The point is, I was walking and staring at the moon. Deep down inside I knew that I wanted something to happen. Something extra ordinary. But it didn’t. I walked farther and in the corner of my eye, I was a sign. Your name was on it.
Well, I saw it. And as soon as I saw it, I was hit with an unexplainable, overwhelming sense of longing. I thought about you. I thought where you could be. Maybe yo
'it.'Viewer 1aAll: you'it.'1 week ago in Emotional
Viewer 1aAll: can
Viewer 1aAll: call me
Viewer 1aAll: ----
Viewer 1aAll: oki
Viewer 1aAll: oki
Viewer 1aAll: whut
Viewer 1aAll: ...
Viewer 1aAll: hut
YouaAll: what pronouns
YouaAll: do you want to be called
Viewer 1aAll: she/her????
YouaAll: he/them for me
Viewer 1aAll: I mean
Viewer 1aAll: ---- is a female name
YouaAll: so is rylee :")
Viewer 1aAll: No it is a multi name for she and he
Viewer 1aAll: Because
Viewer 1aAll: your parents were expecting a she
Viewer 1aAll: they named you that
YouaAll: it's the "feminine" version of riley
Viewer 1aAll: and they couldn't decide of a name for a boy
Viewer 1aAll: so
Viewer 1aAll: they kept it
YouaAll: not biologically male?
Viewer 1aAll: nope
YouaAll: rylee is a name i chose
YouaAll: it isn't my birth name
Viewer 1aAll: It is
Viewer 1aAll: but
Viewer 1aAll: you were born
Viewer 1aAll: a
Dark PrayShe never prays for live another day.Dark Pray1 week ago in Emotional
She always prays for die at night.
My Summer's EndAs the summer season begins to dwindle into the finale days of its course, we tend to look back at fun times with family and friends. We take in the memories of the sweet summer sun beating down on our backs while we hang out with friends and enjoy this little time we have to still be kids. Swimming and checking out girls in their bikinis or actively flirt to try and find that one special gal to spend an unforgettable summer with or the rest of our lives with. The music we jam out to and the crazy arguments we get into, but joke about it afterward and continue on our day. Always trying to have a fun summer adventure to remember for many years to come and to look back on so we can tell our kids about it. Summer is such a great time when we are kids and we don't really understand how time is flying us by. We are still so careless and free and trying not to worry about growing up. I have spent almost 18 years just being a carefree little kid, just having fun and trying to live from day toMy Summer's End5 days ago in Emotional
Afraid to MoveSentences typed and erased countless timesAfraid to Move5 days ago in Emotional
Demons and angels fighting on my shoulders
Impulsivities bubbling through my core
And all these things…
all these winged
things work their physics on me until
I burst forth in awkwardness and sometimes in silence.
Der Gedanke an dichWir reden so oft von Liebe und dergleichen, dass sie fast schon allgegenwärtig bei mir ist. Du bedeutest mir so viel, dass alles was mir vorher wichtig war, auf einmal null und nichtig erscheint.Der Gedanke an dich5 days ago in Emotional
Um so mehr verwundert es mich, wenn wieder einer dieser Tage da ist, an denen ich von dir weg fahre und registriere, dass auf einmal ein Loch in meiner Brust klafft, dass mir auf einmal die Luft zum Atmen fehlt, dass ich nur noch daran denken kann, wie ich möglichst schnell wieder zu dir komme.
Heute ist einer dieser Tage...
Und wie an jedem dieser Tage sehne ich den Tag herbei, an dem wir nicht nur von unserer gemeinsamen Wohnung sprechen. Ich sehne mich danach abends nach Hause zu kommen, dich in meine Arme zu schließen, dich zu küssen und mich neben dir ins Bett zu legen.
Ich sehne mich danach.
Doch momentan bleibt mir nur das Loch in meiner Brust, die Luft, die ich nicht habe und der Gedanke an dich.
How've you been doing all this time?"How've you been doing all this time?How've you been doing all this time?5 days ago in Emotional
Would you ask that to the person you called the love of your life after seven years of not seeing each other?
What would you ask?
What would you say?
I am pretty sure you wouldn't say what you really wanted to say...
"I've always missed you."
"I've never forgotten you."
"I'm sorry for the things I did wrong."
"I was just a child,I never meant to hurt you."
And in the end you would just say:
"How've you been doing all this time?"
That which was, shall no longer be.My fear of that which does not exist beyond death, my utter contempt for the concept of "hope", and my rejection of the concept of "happiness". All of these things are direct contradictions to what most people believe in; what most believe to be true.That which was, shall no longer be.3 days ago in Emotional
Some people believe me to be depressed, or in need of more happiness in my life. Both of those beliefs are quite mistaken, resulting from being incapable of understanding my particular approach to life and living.
I am not happy, but I am not depressed, either. I actively choose to reject any notion of long-term happiness, because happiness is a high-energy emotional state. And like any other emotional "high", bad things happen once you get the inevitable "crash". I still have moments of joy and laughter like anyone else, but my mood will always default to "neutral"; a calm, stable level that is far more practical to manage.
And then there's the concept of "hope". All too often, it gets used as an excuse to simply do nothing,
AloneI feel alone, like a petal without the rest of the flower. Like a bud, without the stem. I feel like a leaf without a branch, and a branch without a tree. I can't describe this loneliness, it feels as though there's an odd number of people in the world, and everyone else is paired up, except for me. I just want to have that warmth, the warmth of someones embrace, the warmth of feeling loved.Alone9 hours ago in Emotional
For now, it feels like I've dived deep, deep below the surface of the water and lost my way in the darkness of the ocean where no light touches. Where the only light, is the light of the glowing fish that swarm. I feel abandoned, lost and forgotten. As though I've been washed ashore on an island away from civilization, alone. Not even an animal lives on this island. For I am alone.
As though I've lost all limbs, I lay on the warm sand bathing in the moonlight. Cold. Forgotten. I forget myself, forget who I am and soon I'm a turtle. A turtle whom hides within the thick shell, unbreakable. Concealing
letters to youdear you,letters to you11 hours ago in Emotional
there was that time at the beach. that's when i knew that whatever decisions i made, i would get back to that feeling. it was the throat-closed, closed fist, 'i would count every damn piece of sand if you asked me to' desperation that i hadn't felt since the last person who fucked me over as well as you did. i was the addict and you were the- 'we'll be fine. together, right?'. right. you knew that next morning what i meant when i said together and that scared you, didn't it? i wasn't saying things in an abstract sense that all your other friends liked, i was babbling 'i love you' and trying not to puke and fuck you for saying it back. there is an equation here: the good times plus my crawling fingers minus the sense of human decency you threw out once you realized i would take on even more monsters equates to the fact that i'm still making poetry about a girl who can't understand the feeling i was taking about in the first place.
remember when we would laugh a
Fool.Little did you know how much I loved you.Fool.14 hours ago in Emotional
Then I awoke from my foolish fantasy and saw what you have done to me.
Bruised up left and right, screamed at, taken controlled of.
You started owning me as if I was your pet animal. Then if I hadn't done what you wanted I knew what I would be getting that night.
Next morning I would have to hide all the truth away with lies.
Going to school, playing dolls was about it.
I had to become plastic and perfect so no one would get hurt or in trouble.
I loved you so much that I would cover your tracks up for you, yet you still didn't find me great enough.
I was never good at understanding what true love was because I've never felt it, so you took advantage of that and threw me around when you wanted.
Then when you actually helped me and said you "loved me" I felt completed, even after the beatings you gave me.
But the day I saw you with someone else was the day I broke.
I felt as if I had given everything up for you. But I wasn't good enough apparentl
IgnoranceHe sat just a few rows ahead of you,minding his own business as he was occupied with his book.You just stared at him,a little dreamily if someone were to point that out,luckily,nobody did.It was like this for the whole week,never got the chance to talk,so all you could do was just glance at what he was doing.He does glance at you every once in a while,probably because he felt your eyes on him,but you would just go back to your class assignment as if nothing had happened.Ignorance15 hours ago in Emotional
After a few seconds,he'd go back to reading his book,and you continue to stare at him some more.You weren't stalking or anything,even if you only had two classes with him,you two are still separated,and you don't know his schedule,so is that really considered stalking?
Suddenly the teacher finally came in the classroom,she was late,of course.Setting her belongings on her desk,she turned on the computer and began to type something.Maybe another assignment?Great....
While typing,she said,"U
Spreading the Word of GOD 111Spreading the Word of GOD 1111 week ago in Emotional
8 And Stephen, full of faith and power, did great wonders and miracles among the people.
9 Then there arose certain of the synagogue, which is called the synagogue of the Libertines, and Cyrenians, and Alexandrians, and of them of Cilicia and of Asia, disputing with Stephen.
10 And they were not able to resist the wisdom and the spirit by which he spake.
11 Then they suborned men, which said, We have heard him speak blasphemous words against Moses, and against God.
12 And they stirred up the people, and the elders, and the scribes, and came upon him, and caught him, and brought him to the council,
13 And set up false witnesses, which said, This man ceaseth not to speak blasphemous words against this holy place, and the law:
14 For we have heard him say, that this Jesus of Nazareth shall destroy this place, and shall change the customs which Moses delivered us.
15 And all that sat in the council, looking stedfastly on him, saw his face as it had been the face of an angel.