EloquenceOften I don't realize the effect of my words. Until I can't take them back...Eloquence4 days ago in Emotional
A storyA story1 week ago in Emotional
I believed in every word that you said to me, I believed in all the times you said "I love you" I foolishly thought that you did love me but I guess I was wrong, how could anyone love me? When I didn't love myself?
But you can't blame me for not loving myself, cause I bet if you were told for so many years that your face will never look normal again and that there is no treatment for what is happening to you but the only reason there isn't one is because they didn't know what was going on with your skin. Why it was reacting this way or how could it get this bad so quickly.
There are so many struggles and fights a person can go through in life and usually they'll have someone by their side helping them but then you get the people who don't have someone who is fully there. Sure physically they are standing right beside you but emotionally they aren't and you're left to try and deal emotionally with all these struggles and fights which slowly eat away at you on t
Ten YearsToday marks ten years since my great Uncle Don passed away. He died from cancer. In the last six months of his life, he was still working. He ended up collapsing upstairs in his home and was taken to hospital. He was pretty out of it for the last couple of days of his life. I was fifteen. We had an argument the previous year that was silly and my fault. I never got to apologise before he died. He lived in Sydney and myself in Adelaide.Ten Years1 day ago in Emotional
He did not get to find out that his favourite NRL team won the premiership for the year. He died about 1:08 in the morning. I actually got to see him in the upper floor of his home. By that, I mean his ghost. He looked sad. I also saw his ghost on the his funeral. I even saw him right there in the crematorium. He was crying near his coffin.
I ended up having horrible nightmares after his funeral. I had nightmares that he stumbled out from behind the curtain, half flesh and half skeleton while on fire, his arms outstretched towards me and him raspily, ask
For you, whoever you are:For you: It doesn’t matter if you’re a girl or a boy, if you’re a kid or a teen or an adult neither an old person; this is for you, although you don’t know me, this doesn’t matter either. I know life can be hard, I know it can hurts sometimes, that it can makes us falls again and again, that sometimes you only want to shout, cry, just take a break of your own existence. I know it, although if you see me probably you say “You’re too young to say these things”, yes I’m young, but also I’m strong, and life is the same to all of us. So stay strong. Draw your own way. Sing it. Write it. Create it in any way. Stand up after you fall. And if life is telling you “You can’t do anything” prove that it is wrong! Sometimes it’s hard… but it’s your life! And you should live it! And if you watch it with another eyes, if you search the happiness in the good moments instead of the no-bad moments, you’For you, whoever you are:4 days ago in Emotional
I . a m . a . s t r a n g e . p e r s o nThings I do...I . a m . a . s t r a n g e . p e r s o n1 week ago in Emotional
[another random journal by (dramatic) me *sigh*
you can ignore this if you want]
These are a few texts that explains a little about me as a person
Enjoy or something!
I'm a strange person.
I believe in surtain things, some people laugh at.
...I believe in dragons. Real dragons.
...I believe in ghosts. Not those who haunt houses. More like spirit-ghosts.
...I belive that there's other planets with simmular lives to ours
...I belive that; when you ride a bicykle and listen to fast music, it feels like you're going slower
...I belive that; when you ride a bicykle and listen to slow music, it feels like you're going faster
...I belive that; if I think hard enough, I could grow wings.
...I belive that; if I think careful enough, I could grow a tail.
...I don't belive in miracles.
...I don't belive in power.
...I belive in magic.
...I can't stop biting things
...I am convinced that I'm a non-human
When you say...
This is a declaration of loveThis is a declaration of love to people who know one simply shouldn't go to the cinema without having pop corn.This is a declaration of love4 days ago in Emotional
This is a declaration of love to people who arrive on a subway platform, see the train there about to leave, and choose to wait for the next one instead of running to get in.
This is a declaration of love to people who softly smile at me and go "Yeah, you say you're gonna do that tomorrow, but you'll probably procrastinate again, right?".
...Well, not ALL people who tell me that. Only those who say it clearly acknowledging that they'd do the same in my situation.
This is a declaration of love to people who have to fill in their resumes and don't find anything to put in because presumably they haven't done anything remarkable.
This is a declaration of love to people who hear words reminding them of a song and start singing said song right away.
This is a declaration of love to people who eat a small spoonful of dough before putting the cookies in the oven.
This is a declaratio
Blog: Entry 6 - I'm Sooo loved!!!Hello, thought I would give you an update on my life lol, well it's kinda gotten even better since last time. I've found someone, she likes me as much as I like her, umm don't know how far or long it will last, love seeing the view count continuing to rise above 500+. If you want to ask or even roleplay with me, send me a note or a message on my page and I'll get back to you when ever I log in. Just had a few things to deal with offline.. but I'm never going to leave much love!!Blog: Entry 6 - I'm Sooo loved!!!1 week ago in Emotional
The Danger of Making an All Too Perfect CharacterThe Danger of Making an All Too Perfect Character2 days ago in Emotional
Don't you understand?
How can I explain this to you?
It may seem unreal, and ridiculous, and fantasy, and delusional
but it is far worse than that.
He came off, at first, as a wistful idea. A simple, villainous
thing that served a purely antagonistic role in piece of literature.
He was an ominous mystery and Abraham was my main focus.
But now it's come so far--too far??
He takes a step and my stance wavers.
His voice vibrates and I'm on my knees.
He hovers, inches from behind, and the scar--tender, soft, impressionable--
aches with a palatable sting.
He's left a mark. He's done his job. He's grown bigger than the sky
but has remained at my eye-level to keep me nervous. The red from his
eyes is so sharp that he stays strong in my memory. Every instant the
shadows appear, he is there. I thought I owned the authority, I'm sure
I still do, but I'm far from being in control.
He is the dragon in the darkness.
The undertone of muted agony.
The raw source of
Carpe diem?Jeden Tag warte ich darauf, dass mir jemand sagt: Du darfst sein, wie du bist.Carpe diem?3 days ago in Emotional
Nicht irgendjemand, nein, jemand mit Autorität. Dem die Leute glauben, die mich irgendwie anders haben wollen. Der mein Schutzschild ist, dessen Dekret für alle bindend ist und sagt, dass ich einfach ich sein darf.
Jemand mit Autorität, dem ich glaube, dass ich nicht anders sein muss. Der in meine Augen sieht und mir unmissverständlich und glaubhaft sagt, dass er das weiß. Der mein Schutzschild ist auch gegen meine Selbstzweifel.
Denn wenn ich dann scheitern würde, dann wäre es ja seine Schuld. Denn er hätte schließlich behauptet, dass genau das, was ich bin, das Richtige ist. Es wären nicht meine Gedanken gewesen, und nicht meine Verantwortung...
Und jeden Tag warte ich darauf, dass ich den Mut habe, selbst so zu denken.
GraveI lay inside my graveGrave5 days ago in Emotional
And bleed the love I gave
I've won it all
But the heart I've tried to save
Can you make it beat again?
And with the love I gave you
Can you erase my pain?
And will you always be next to me
Covering my grave from the pouring rain?
Darling I love you
And love can be insane
So even though you killed me once
I'll always die again
For it's my sweetest pain
To burn in your love's flame
And now I'm underground again
But hear me, I'm calling your name
Screaming for someone to save me
From the nightmare I became.
When It Rains...For when it rains…When It Rains...2 days ago in Emotional
Hold onto me when it does,
Look to the skies above,
And think, look there..I am?
When it rains, it pours,
Drowning out my pain,
Hold onto me when it stops,
I’ll finally be free to cry,
When it rains, it makes…
Washes all over everything,
Drowning out the hurt…
Reliving all the shame,
When will it stop?
From just holding up?
I’m scared of what the…
The thunder does…
Strikes me right inside my head,
Fear the lightning will take…
When it stops..please hold on?
Fragile RainFor the longest time, I hibernated,Fragile Rain3 days ago in Emotional
In a cave of my own self-doubt,
But now I'm I've come to lie in a meadow
And fragile rain reflects the starlight,
See I'm woken up from a slumber,
Now I rush into the fray of forsight...
Mother Nature is an ally to me. I would sit among the dandilions within her rich lap and listen to her soft rustling. Each dandlilion seed had a story for me, and the bees spread the gossip gleefully. These were just the fairytales she would tell me.
Once she told me a story about my soul. She said that an angel walked by my side, and though I never saw a person, I knew that she was right.
You see... when I was asleep I ignored him... I could never bring myself to look into my lover's heart. But when I take off my blinfold that covered my mind's eye, I felt his wings wrap around my own wounded heart.
My love was always spying on my pride... he's always by my side. Glass tears easily crack... tears so sentimental... but they are for him, and he's always been gen
,Tap!,4 days ago in Emotional
Those were the sounds resonating in the room, those from a poor mechanical pencil being madly tapped with over the desk. I knew these kinds of tics could reveal a certain amount of stress in the person having them but that wasn't the reason. The stress was there actually- it was always there, panic could even be felt but this action had a way simpler meaning.
Ticking me off.
- What the hell are you doing?
And it actually worked.
I was right next of them, my arm around their neck, just like a caring brother would hold his younger sibling. Just. Like. This sweet appearance was just a facade. If I could have broken their neck with this arm...I swear I would have done it. To be honest, I even wondered if, although I was telling myself it was useless, I wasn't even trying to strangle them. Just to see, if I could stop their breath and get rid of them. But from the noises of suffocation I could hear, I was far to have gotten rid of them and they were still
AutumnOtoñoAutumn1 week ago in Emotional
By Yumiko Matsumoto
Las hojas de los arboles comienzan a caer, cubriendo las calles de la ciudad con un manto marrón sin que nadie les dé mayor importancia. La gente camina sobre ellas, provocando crujidos a su paso, y algún que otro niño juega entre risas con los montones acumulados en el parque.
Desde una cafetería cercana, una joven observa la imagen sin verla, sumida en sus pensamientos. Entre sus manos sujeta un café que se enfría poco a poco sin que ella se dé cuenta, hasta que alguien se acerca a ella y la saca de sus pensamientos poniendo su mano sobre su hombro.
La chica se sobresalta y gira su rostro para ver de quien se trata, y al reconocerlo no puede evitar que se le escape una sonrisa. El recién llegado le sonríe de vuelta y se sienta a su lado.
Pregunta lanzando una mirada al café que ella coge entre sus manos, la cual se encoge de hombros y sonr
Futuristic Wishes "Imagine if all of us went to the same college. We're destined to be together (the group)"Futuristic Wishes 1 week ago in Emotional
"Haha the stars aligned for us and the group"
"I wouldn't mind having to spend the rest of my life with you"
"We could stargaze on the roof till the sun comes up"
"Dude that would be life"
Moon Journal #1Hey, so this is just a moon journal that I will be doing when I can. This is a creative writing assignment for one of my classes at school, and I thought I'd bring it to deviantart. The writing style can be in prose, poetry, or in any way I want it to be, and I can write about anything, as long as it somehow includes the moon. Generally this journal will be bad writing, it will be unpolished etc. So just a warning.Moon Journal #11 day ago in Emotional
In the sky,
God looks down upon us with one eye.
He watches everything below him.
He watches as children grow weary and drowsy.
He watches as fathers return back home to hug their wives.
He watches as couples kiss under the stars.
But he also watches...
People being killed in the alleyways of streets.
The crying and mourning of children and teens.
The frustration and loathing of adults cussing out anything they can cuss at.
God... What a sad job you have... To watch everything at once.. How do you not go insane?
Is that why you have
ruinasSiento que llego tarde, tan tarde... Me avisaste me digiste que te gustaban otro tipo de mujeres, las pijas, yo sin poder creermelo perpleja de que alguien quisiera el mundo que yo rechacé todo lo que había descartado por estar mal, tu estabas queriendolo orgullosa te dige que no me importaba, ya que estaba atada de pies y manos, tenia otra relacion con otro hombre, alguien quien parecia apoyarme y causaste gran impacto en mi. Ningun hombre me había hablado de sus gustos de sus deseos, ningun chico guapo he visto para entender que siente con una chica, todo lo que yo tengo son patrones establecidos cosas que oyes a los adultos hablar, de que los hombres solo piensan en el fisico de una mujer, cosa que cambiaste de parecer y te fuiste por este camino sin contar que yo tambien podría ser hermosa si estuviera contigo, no me dejaría perder, no puedo concentrarme en nada mas que pensar en que me advertiste de todo, y no te hice caso, porque no te entendi, no estabaruinas3 days ago in Emotional
On Being DemiI gotta say, most days I really hate being demi, because dating is so fucking hard when you're demi. Most of the guys I've tried going out with aren't willing to wait a little longer so I can get to know them, and that sucks. Especially when I explain to some that being demi means I don't put out unless I'm emotionally invested in someone. Like I literally can't feel physically attracted unless I feel emotionally invested first. Usually it's taken wrong and I end up just getting tired of trying to explain or trying to fend off advances of 'well I can make you want it' type shit, or 'I can fix that'. And at that point, when I don't want to explain anymore, I'm instantly not interested anymore, even if it started out that I was really interested, it's just completely gone.On Being Demi3 days ago in Emotional
There are times when I honestly think, 'Why the fuck can't I just be normal? Is there something wrong with me?' I hate that my sexuality is trivialized, and that people can't accept that it's not going to change. I hat
Tension. A peace of me.I rarely tell this to people. In fact, I don’t think I ever explained it in a way that will really convey it.Tension. A peace of me.3 days ago in Emotional
My muscles have a tendency to get stuck; to tighten and forget to let go, to shorten and stiff.
When that tension builds up in places like my chest or abdomen – a strange thing happens;
physical tension is converted to emotional one.
It feels like my very essence – everything I am feeling – becomes tainted, pressured and suffocated by tension; and not the good exhilarating type.
I write this because for the life of me I couldn’t figure out why, in the midst of being in love like I never knew love could be – I feel like running and screaming; and not the good exhilarating type.
You see, I’m living with this thing for seven years, ever since I was sixteen – you get used to things, you learn how to live with them and sometimes, for a breath of a moment you forget they exist – the pills that fill your head with fog help w
I really need help getting rid of nightmaresNightmares;I really need help getting rid of nightmares3 days ago in Emotional
I can't remember what they are fully, I know that they involve one of my friends and bad situation where we either never talk again, he hates me, he vanishes.. Stuff like that.
Reasons and background;
I have been so paranoid over this one person and I need it to stop, now. This has been going on since his awful ex joined the site we talk on. I seriously hate that guy for how he's treated my friend, and ever after that I've been stressing out over everything involving my friend. Hell. Even stuff that DOESN'T involve my friend, that I'm scared might involve him. Nor am I trusting him. Or really being a good friend to him. I keep thinging if we try and stop talking things might be good, but I know he'll just go and talk to the guy that cheated and hurt him so much again..
I am so, so tired of loosing sleep. I just want to sleep. I want to sleep through ONE night without waking up crying.
RevengeRevenge. A probable but mysterious way of looking at others. Not out of jealousy or bitter love. When both sides are equal, or when you just go way too far. The whole center of revenge is based on our state of mind, personality, heresy, and of course, the choices we make in life. Our lives seem unfair. But in reality it's equal, every single choice we make will be equal with our opposite, whether your broke and have no money, or your rich, famous, and have the whole time in the world. Our lives are on a balance scale and on the other side is death. And when we die, we take revenge on death. So the point of all this is that our lives, go back and forth, cause and effect, life and death, Revenge and Forgiveness.Revenge4 days ago in Emotional
Stand By MeI wanted friends like the ones in Stand By Me. I wanted friends who would always be there. I wanted someone that really understood me and who stuck by me through wind or rain or sunshine, no matter what. I wanted a best friend that could be closer than a sibling. Somebody that cares about me even if I screw up or do something wrong or make a fool of myself and who can be there to tell me I'm a good person and I'm going to go places and that I'm better than that. Somebody that believes in me as much as I believe in them. Somebody that tells me when I did a good job. Somebody that could compete with me but still be a good sport about it whether they won or lost. I wanted a person I could trust with anything. Somebody that would forgive me unconditionally even if they were mad at me for a while, we'd be able to forgive each other no matter what. Somebody that will do their best not to lie to me and not to screw me over and if they do,Stand By Me5 days ago in Emotional
Thank you!I'm so proud of my high school. This past week we celebrated spirit week.Thank you!1 week ago in Emotional
The chosen project
Our goal was $210,000
We just got the results today at our rescheduled home football game.
We raised over our goal.
We raised $225,165.77 for project hope.
For those who don't know, my 17 year old brother is autistic, part of project Hope
Being a part of that is the best thing in the world.
I'm proud to be a Wade Hampton General
Go Generals, thank you for your dedication and support to such a close to home cause.