A life in transitionI dodged the signs for years you see, kept pushing the thoughts out of my mind. I am sure most people do and have in similar respects, fear is typically the main driver for such a thing...burying who you are deep down inside so that know one ever knows.A life in transition21 hours ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
I buried these thoughts so deep down, that I largely forgot about them for years. Society pressures people to conform, I thought I escaped that mindset they tried to instill in me. Turns out I duped myself into believing that, and I realize that now. I have come to terms with the fact I was "born" a male...but I wish to be female.
I said born because what sex you are and what gender you are, they are two different things and I realize that now. Fact of the matter is, I'm scared what my family will think. I already suffered a huge backlash via a family member last year, when I told said family member about my conversion from Christianity to Asatru.
I am a coward, I fear reprisal yet again. That family member who practically disowned me a
About Me-ShadowHedgie54Mkay,ShadowHedgie here, I'm just writing about myself. Alright,so...About Me-ShadowHedgie5410 hours ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
I like to draw (duh),sing,write,play basketball and guitar.
I play guitar. XD
I hate math. è-é
I'm in Pre-AP math,reading,and language arts.
I have more internet friends then real life friends. o-o
I like Sonic and Dragon Ball Z.
I have freckles,brown hair,blue eyes,and always wear my hair up in a pony tail.
For music,I like Crush 40,Three Days Grace,Skillet,Green Day,and Linkin Park.
I think I'm done here.
When Angels Fly ~ ExcerptDr. Tadman placed his hand on my shoulder in a gesture that told me Eli wasn’t going to make it just as I knew this in my heart. Eli went into PICU twelve days ago with soft tissue in his lungs (normal) and two weeks later, his lung tissue had turned into cardboard-thick tissue fully scarred. It is really impossible to ventilate that much lung tissue damage; and lungs don’t heal. The day long wait to get Eli some platelets flown in from Winter Park was too long and the scarring in his lungs won’t improve. Eli has opened his eyes three times thus far today and each time he looked at me. Each time I told Eli, “I love you” and he nodded his head in agreement. I asked Eli if he was hurting and he shook his head no. I think Eli is trying to protect me yet again – this five year old little boy on a ventilator telling me he didn’t hurt when I knew damn well he had to be hurting. I am the mom – I amWhen Angels Fly ~ Excerpt7 hours ago in Stories & Vignettes More Like This
A life in transition: mannerismsA life in transition: MannerismsA life in transition: mannerisms5 hours ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
*I've decided to record some of my thoughts about certain things while I have "a life in transition", these thoughts won't be in any order. They're just things I'd like to get off my chest, when they come to mind ya know?
You don't think too much or read too much into them, society indoctrinates you into your gender role(s) from birth to death and expect you to adhere to them. When you're younger, you don't know that much nor the way of the world. So how are you supposed to know any different? Typically the teen years is when people are exposed to new ways of things and/or old things they never new about.
Teen years are time of change little by little for most, mass change for some, etc etc. This is typically when people begin to branch out from their ideals, morals, beliefs, etc etc established by their family and/or whatever form of upbringing someone has. A lot of teens realize many things around this time, such as that the come to the co
Loki/Lady Loki symbol picLoki/Lady Loki symbol pic4 hours ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Why the loki/lady loki pic?
Its become the symbol of my transition, loki was seen as male when he was in male form and female while in female form....loki was still loki either way to the gods and goddesses of asgard. His form didn't matter to them, sometimes his antics with form changes aided the gods.
In marvel comics, asgardians were once had their forms destroyed, and were reborn into human beings...much like how Thor's physical self was sealed in a human while his asgardian powers were bound to his hammer mjonir. Loki was beborn into the body of a woman, loki still retained all the powers of loki...but loki's natural state was that of a woman.
Loki is perhaps the transgender/transsexual and pansexual icon of marvel comics now, it doesn't matter what form loki takes...loki will be loki.
The reason I chose a pic of loki/lady loki is because its the most accurate representation of myself during this transition period of how I look vs feel.
It will have to do for now, until I can affo