HopelessHopeless, I am hopeless;Hopeless19 hours ago in Free Verse
cast into shadows.
I'm tired, I'm worn.
My emotions are stone;
cold and unfeeling.
My heart is heavy.
I can barely breathe;
all will to live is gone.
It's too much;
too much to keep on breathing.
I lower my face in shame;
I've made mistakes.
My hope has fled;
there is no light;
I've let my hope fail.
My soul feels crushed,
every thing is burying me,
by the weight of this world.
I know I need to lift up my eyes
Here at your side whenever you fall
But I'm too weak.
In the dead of night whenever you call.
Life just won't let up.
Please don't fight these hands that are holding you.
I know that you can give me rest.
My hands are holding you.
So I cry out with all that I have left.
Cause I, I love you.
Let me see redemption win.
I want you to know.
Let me know the struggle ends
I love you, and I'll never let you go.
Hopeful, I am hopeful;
for in the dead of night God
I Am HereSee my faceI Am Here15 hours ago in Songs & Lyrics
Use your senses
When life feels like
It's all senseless
Feel my scars
My loves relentless
When I embrace
You put up fences
escape your sorrows
Down Your fears
Leave your troubles
Through the years
I am here
I am here
Let my love
Take you captive
Use my breath
It's yours, have it
Escape the prison
That your trapt in
You're not alone
Fight your demons
Grab your sword
Pick up arms
I am Lord
The Room With The UniverseWhen I was a child you spoke of a roomThe Room With The Universe7 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
Where the universe sat on a throne
And the stars and the planets and asteroid bands
Were etched into windows and stone
And the floor was composed of the gods we had known
In eons that long since had passed
Where you wrapped me in starstuff adorned with a cloud
And said love would be there if I asked
So I scattered the seeds that you'd left in my hand
But they sprung up as iron bars
And no one can see these children who bleed
Through the God who created their scars
We collected the blood in the buckets that once
Had washed our babies clean
And we danced what was left of the children we loved
To the place where you murdered our Queen
And we watered the ground with the people that you
Sacrificed for a barren dream
And you watched mothers cry from your chair in the sky
While your ivory tower gleamed
When I was a child you spoke of a room
Where the universe sat on a throne
But nobody said it was built on the dead
Or carved out of human bone
To Be With You: IIThis heart that yearned for years to reach and touchTo Be With You: II14 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
A soul whom it could intimately know
Was restless, and its eyes became its crutch.
These lonely times, it claimed, moved much too slow;
The hope that once burned brightly with each beat
Now felt too distant and invisible,
And so it sought to kindle its own heat
With scraps too finite, sinful, pitiful.
But in this barren wasteland rolled a storm
That rained down healing on the drought-cracked place.
There came a gust both comforting and warm;
I felt its hand caress my tear-stained face.
And I beheld with eyes a little dryer
That face for whom is all my deep desire.
Snow fall of illnessSlowly dying alone is a dream of mine when I get old.Snow fall of illness5 hours ago in Songs & Lyrics
Having my lover be gone and I am still here.
Love is love.
It is like the snow fall fast and stays for a while.
But if your life is cut short what you do?
Walking a path that no one wants to hear.
You are dying and you don't have long to live.
my will has no even been a though.
Coughing up like a storm in a middle of winter.
Am I the only one who will not live past 25?
I feel fine like no one has control over me.
Everyday I get a bit worse and worse.
I am like my shoe getting all torn.
I can't even walk without a sharp pain in my hip.
If this is how I am going then I will fall like a snowflake and dream of a better ending.
Fading away in a medical bed because I would not talk about how I would like to end my life.
A life held just by a mechanical micanitry.
Oh why did I stall? Now I can no longer talk watching the snow fall.
I want to be burn yet they are putting chemicals in my body to keeping for decomposing.
My coffin is open and
yetyetyet4 hours ago in Free Verse
i was a criminal.
i was a virgin prostitute,
painted red, neck and hand
feet black, eyes dim,
my brain was a whirlwind
hypocrite | coward | banker
fell apart in my own hand,
like ice in a hotspring.
slug | coney | swine
drowning in the tears
a well i digged myself.
my song's lyrics
didn't make any sense.
i threw it all away and didn't know it
and somehow i didn't notice.
a place of bleach and tar
by and by
this equation has one solution
flunked my test
to my cancer.
ate my puke
triangle, triangle, square
Today for TomorrowTomorrow, I doubt if I can wake up early,Today for Tomorrow12 hours ago in Free Verse
And I doubt if my feet can walk steadily,
Because my body feels so heavy,
Needed to be carry,
Oh, my mood felt so lazy,
Tomorrow, everybody will be busy,
And I'm here, stand alone and lonely,
As if I wear a cloak of invisibility.
Today is the day,
Now is the time,
And I plan myriad of varieties of strategy,
Because of the anxiety of mine,
Afraid as if tomorrow I will do something imbecile.
All I need is a duty,
To make me feel more responsibility,
Please, I need any!
For tomorrow I don't have any choice,
All I have to do is,
Come to the place they picked to assemble,
And "Make tomorrow feels better at least!"
I'm saying to myself....
*Ridiculously By Me.
Feb 8What does a soul feel?Feb 81 day ago in Free Verse
Does it understand emotions
Or just—feel them?
Can a soul describe why it feels?
Does a soul feel anything at all?
Perhaps when our bodies fail
We will then understand
Prayer to Thoth Thrice GreatI love You.Prayer to Thoth Thrice Great21 hours ago in Free Verse
Forgive me, that I cannot pray enough.
Even if I collected together all the words
That people say mindlessly, sending praises to false gods,
Even then we would not have enough words
To sing glory to your benevolence and your goodness
And your Wisdom and Omniscience,
And thank You for all your gifts to this world.
You are worthy of many thousands
Of praises and glorifications,
But my true offering to you,
As the God of Truth,
Is this broken and humbled heart...
Accept my prayer,
Accept my humility,
Accept my broken heart,
Forgive me, that I'm not diligent enough
In service for You...
Let me forever and always
Serve you with zeal,
Serve you in Ma’at,
Let me not make mistakes
In understanding your Truth;
Let me become as the caduceus in your hands,
And fulfill your will and orders
In this world,
Speak the words of Ma’at
And glorify you,
Be a witness of Truth,
Which is manifested through You,
And love You with my whole heart,
Giving You all my love and more, all tha
His Great DarknessHe crawled from the depths of whence he came, up from the dark place that no mortal man shall ever wish to trend. He brought forth the darkness that resides within his very being, chilling the earth and those upon it with his treacherous, dark power, making the weak lose faith from the very thought of him. He brought forth suffering and pain that mortal man was unable to comprehend. His carnage was an evil and unimaginable event that brought many great heroes and savior to their knees. His destruction was insuppressible, matching the power of the creator and shattering the very existence of everything man has made. When he destroyed everything, he receded back to the dissolute abyss, waiting for the day when he is needed to eliminate the sin once more.His Great Darkness22 hours ago in Free Verse