Doomed loveDoomed loveDoomed love4 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
She saw him in the hallway.
He always passes by her in the hallway.
She thought she wasn't good enough.
He thought he wasn't her type.
She was smart.
He was the quarterback.
She didn't like her smile.
He loved her smile.
She loved his laugh.
He thought ever one was annoyed by it.
She was beautiful.
He was handsome.
She was scared of being rejected.
He was afraid she would leave him.
She loves him.
He loves her.
It was a doomed love.
I wrote some things for you.I have notebooks full, not of your name, but of your likeness,I wrote some things for you.5 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your face hidden behind blue lines and white lies,
Between memories I pretend to be true,
And hopes I pretend to be false.
In love with the lies I told myself,
In love with the script I wrote for you.
In love, in love, in love.
Is this love?
I wish I could say you broke my heart. The ending of a million books. Stolen normalcy.
You did not play your role,
So I played them all.
How opaque are these blue lines
And white lies
When all faces are mine?
I want toI want to kiss a boy who tastes like ripe, sweet berries melting in your mouth, the juice dripping down your chin; you can’t be bothered by the stickiness of your skin, because he is the cool river on a hot summer’s day, running over sticks and rocks and smoothing the earth.I want to6 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
I want to kiss a boy who finds peace in the shadows, who embraces the mere whispers of sunlight through damp green leaves - he is a forest, a slumbering giant dreaming of distant lands.
I want to kiss a boy who understands the meaning of heartache, who knows the cracks in his heart could never fit in the crevices of your own but places the two stones side by side along the ground anyway. You are separate, but you are whole. Two birds, one stone.
I want to kiss a boy who knows what I mean when I tell him that I am not afraid of death. No - I am afraid of oblivion and the possibility that a thousand years from now the earth might dissolve into dust and I would not know. Ashes to ashes, dust to dust.
HeartYou can go through life withoutHeart6 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
a second thought, without considering that
your words have the ability to cut like knives,
and I can let you.
I can pretend my heart’s not torn
at the edges, like a jacket that’s never
been worn, a fledgling that’s never
had need to leave the nest.
But I’m sick of tearing myself apart to fill your crevices,
too tired to let your lack of filter
pierce me as if I’m the enemy, as if you need
to insult my existence and turn attacking others into
a form of survival.
I will feel angry.
Refusal to forget is not
a weakness, is not something to be
I will gouge into my skin, rip into my heart
and eat it whole so that you won't
be able to anymore.
I will burn myself to ash and crawl out of my skin
like a monster born in the darkest
recesses of terror
because there is nothing left to fear
You say im sorryYou say “I’m sorry,” like those two simple little words could staunch theYou say im sorry6 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
tide of blood that’s streaming out from my back because for several moments you completely
forgot the meaning of the word “human” and believed it was alright
to try and carve a hole in my soul that’s as big as the first time someone shoved you into the dirt and pinned your head
to the ground.
An apology is like a band-aid on a severed limb.
Fuck you and your apologies because they don’t mean shit.
The first timeThe first time you explained the meaning of the word petrichor, you told meThe first time6 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
you were a pluviophile, and that the two
were not synonymous. You said
that loving rain was not the same as
loving the sound of droplets shattering fragile
leaves, how loving a person in their entirety is not
the same as being in love with how they make you feel.
The first time I told you I loved you, it was raining
outside and you only looked out the window,
and told me,
“Rain is beautiful, and ephemeral,” and I don’t think you understood
how I could never look at the rain because
for me, you are eternity, you are the waves crashing
along the ocean shore, the mountains
reaching for that open space of blue, the
galaxies swirling forever and ever in darkness.
You’re always writing, always immersed in yellowed
pages and blank spaces and maybe you’d love yourself
more if you’d stop believing that
we’re all just ideas waiting to be discovered,
Number one rule dont lieYour favorite quote that you’d alwaysNumber one rule dont lie6 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
repeat was how “numbers don’t lie,” and I don’t know if you realized but
you always had the most tortured expression on your face
when you said it, like having the words
come out of your mouth in that order,
saying that specific combination of words that had a
one in a million, one in a billion chance of being
permuted in that way made you want to dig your nails
into your own skin and tear.
You stopped living like an artist long ago, you told me, and
then said that you’d wanted to be a mathematician
for the longest time, but I couldn’t find it in me
to believe you because
you always ducked your head when you said it, and
your eyes turned deep blue, like ocean
depths that were never meant to be discovered.
I guess I’ve always been a little dense, because
I never understood why you repeated
that phrase so often, why you always said that I am
soft, porcelain skin and you are rawhide,
that you meant no ha
You came in asYou came into my life so much so likeYou came in as6 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
a hurricane not because of the destruction you
wrought but because
you are a tidal pool of life-sustaining energy
and I am a bamboo shoot,
perhaps not strong but in love with
Cuts cannot wound me, I do not fear
your greatness will destroy me, only allow me to grow
into two, twice
as magnificent, twice
In the best way possible, you birthed me
to the possibility of true love, to
the possibility of soulmates, of finding someone
who complements you
in the best way possible because they make you feel
unconditionally cared for.
You are the earth, and I am your moon,
and some might say that it’s me orbiting
you, and perhaps
in physics terms it is, but only
that it is us orbiting each other.
You give life, and death.
I give waves, and desire.
But we can only eclipse
AccismusParting with you feels like a love interventionAccismus6 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm not good at lying, so my truth is that, that was never my intention
I say the utmost, wrong things to reject you the satisfaction of my sadness
Though, in reality, I don't reveal myself to you, my earnest love, and it's driving me to madness
My mind rolls in opportunity to decide any and every decision
My heart and soul feigns for you though I desire the opposition
Expressing my true self has surmounted each round of tough
I continue to wrap myself around you as you drain me each ounce of love
I'm attempting my absolute best to regulate my feelings with acceptance that you and I are only friends
Fearing, my dear, you're the only one who will brutally bring that to an end
Take meYou gaze at me with eyes so open it seems they’re trying to drink me inTake me7 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
You gaze at me like I’m something holy
And it’s funny because I always thought you were the ethereal one
A fallen angel, whenever you gave the wrong answer
Nothing short of a deity
When you held me and lit me up like Apollo in his blazon chariot
But now, God, how I want to be a god for you
I’ve got to keep you worshiping so I feel worthy
I don’t know what I did to make you look at me like that
Maybe it’s the way an alcoholic stares at a drink
Maybe we aren’t so good for each other
I haven’t slept well in months
But you keep on sinning and I keep on saving your soul
4/1000 - QuestionsAugust 20104/1000 - Questions8 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
A round of groans
Echoed through the classroom
As our English teacher
Explained our year-long project to us.
She began by asking,
"Who here enjoys reading?"
When no one replied right away,
I noticed a tiny movement
Coming from your direction.
Simultaneously ducking your head
And raising your hand,
You were the only one
Brave enough to admit it.
You looked around timidly
As most of the class turned
To watch you answer the question,
"What do you enjoy reading?"
You mumbled the word "fiction,"
And looked at me.
When I gave you a smile,
You returned it.
Our teacher asked,
And I raised my hand too.
You and I.I'm sorry but I love you.You and I.11 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
I love the way you run your hands through your short hair.
I love the way you put you head in your hands when you get overwhelmed.
I love your smile
and the way your eyes sparkle.
I love your dumb hoodie
and your fucking foo fighters shirt.
I love how gentle your hands felt on my cheek
and how broad your shoulders were.
I love how you call me beautiful
and I love how I believe you for once in my god forsaken life.
You asked me why I found it difficult to write positive poetry and this is me telling you that it's because I struggle to find the right amount of words to describe how you make my stomach sink like never before.
You make the moon look dull and constellations play games in your eyes as they moved and shone as you looked off into a different direction.
I put my head against your chest and felt your breath hitch and I thought your heart stopped, but when it beat inside your chest I could have swore I heard my name.
That's all what I could live off for
Black LightningI love you like black lightning,Black Lightning13 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
unseen darkly but electric.
A mystery, phenomenon,
white fire dancing on my skin.
I push my way through thunder,
unraveling static from the clouds,
to strike the earth with passion, crackling and alive.
But you only see in color, don't you?
and feel the thick wind on your lips.
If you looked in shadows and in dreams,
you might find me lurking there,
a crown of black electrons
wrapped around my brow.
I love you like dark matter,
heavy wrapped in hypotheses;
But just because you don't see it,
doesn't mean that it's not there.
Missing youIf you catch me staringMissing you1 day ago in Free Verse More Like This
Pretend not to notice
Let me feel independent
Don't help me be stupid
Don't look at me like that
Put your eyes away
cover up your muscles
Don't stand like that
I don't want to miss you
3/1000 - LearningAugust 20103/1000 - Learning1 day ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm older than you
By 25 days.
We both have birthdays
In your favorite season:
Both of our eyes
Are your favorite color:
Are your favorite shade.
You hold a grudge
But not against jewelry.
You wear a gold cross
Around your neck
But you hide it
In your shirt
And in your hair
That you wear down
Do you hold a grudge
Against hair ties, too?
I'll ask that tomorrow;
We got in trouble
For talking too much today.
Alice in my WonderlandMistress of mal-realityAlice in my Wonderland1 day ago in Free Verse More Like This
Come indulge me with your poison.
Pour the tonic down my throat
Until I'm drowning in your sin.
I am transported by delusion.
My mind is all but sane.
But sanity's a key component
To keep out of this game.
I might call this delusion divine.
The world might call it grandeur,
But all I can think of when I'm thinking
Is how you are my cure.
For every ailment binding,
For every cough and labored breath,
My made-up lady will keep me grinding
Every second until death.
SoundsWhen your hands are over ivoriesSounds1 day ago in Free Verse More Like This
it becomes something that is beyond my comprehension
the delicate quivering of your hands over string
I can almost se the sounds
swirling and curling up around in the air and into each other
but something even more amazing
is the way you say my name
Ever time you laugh,
it convinces m that
you've been holding it in all your life
and you just realized that everything is going to be okay
To be the reason for that
To be loved ya hateful person
all of the luck on earth
has condensed onto me
The sound of you breathing
the feeling of your atmosphere
makes everything in a moment 1000 times more beautiful
Your very heartbeat
makes me realize
it is you
who I'd run to the ends of the earth for
The Idea Of YouI thought I had fallen in love with youThe Idea Of You2 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
A seamless, rose tinted image of perfection
But I had'nt
It was more the idea of you
the idea of you and me
At times the idea engulfed and suffocated me
Into a joyful haze
but you are not seamless and the reality of you is grey
You hurt me and throw me without caution
You're reckless with yourself and reckless with me
But I cant help but see you
2/1000 - In Your SeatAugust 20102/1000 - In Your Seat3 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
I sat in your seat on purpose
So that I could see
What you would do.
On that second day of school,
You walked in,
Your head down
As you read.
Only when you got to me
Did you notice me,
And after you jumped in surprise,
You opened up a tiny bit more
During that first class with me,
But I didn't learn
Anything more about you,
So you didn't learn
Anything more about me.
I know it's only the second time
We've spoken to each other,
But I think
You can make for a better friend
Than anyone else
In that English class.
I'll ask you
Something more about yourself.
Or maybe tomorrow
I'll just sit
In your seat again.
YouYou were like a song only I could hearYou3 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
Invisible to the world
Replaying over and over and over
On my lips.
And when the doors are closed we are invisible
And when the doors are open we are walking on water
And when the doors are torn down by a crowd of thousands
We are snowflakes.
Guitar strings and wet hair
There are spider webs in the corners of the ceiling
And venom on the windowsills
And now we are purple
Losing air and floating toy boats down the river
We used to drink from
Take the Kinmout StraightThatsa Bee.U.Tee full garTake the Kinmout Straight3 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
nin da pas sing stranger masheeenz
get out ov the ghoul groove
one tail feather short of the full flying nurse shark morgue
airy rud der mista kludda
pixie suck kupps on vampix wize switchin
ama gonna spin your singin voice out
in2 a fox pick pain gauge...................ouch!!!
voodoo doll in shape
ov auto moe beel
Okay. Go. All right. All right. Go.
putton on the hairy ray dee oh
buzzcocks trax back up
I hate fast cars I hat fast cars
in at end dance
One And Only Girl For MeOne And Only Girl For MeOne And Only Girl For Me3 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
She has the cheat sheet to my heart.
I've been in love from the start
And if she loves me back
It will be till death do us part.
She's taken my heart apart
She's so incredibly smart
So incredibly beautiful
I hope with everything that my love for her is mutual.
I feel as if i have known her all my life.
Because we are the same.
So highly compatible
I feel my love is completely rational
Because my love is for the one and only girl for me.
ughi have so many feelingsugh3 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
rushing around my body
nothing, nothing has felt
just quite like this
a delicate concoction
my greatest hopes and dreams
it's been so long
and i can't help but wonder
i've been okay
things have been okay
but i let myself think
and you wandered back
things are okay
things have been okay
but somehow they aren't
i'm allowing myself the luxury
i have denied for so long
and with myself
i'm so frustrated
i've been okay
but i know for sure
this will never leave me:
i want you,
and only you,
for ever and ever.
Heart AcheI am fineHeart Ache3 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
I have no one
No one to care
No one to help
No one to love
I shouldn't feel this way
I should be happy and giddy
I feel like everyone is on the other side of the glass
Hurt is the only thing i feel
Love is what i need
I have so many amazing friends but five stand out
Not to say others haven't helped but these people stand out
They make me smile when i am sad
They show me what life is like through happy eyes
They keep me alive and safe
I truly love them all
I wish they understood why i hated my self
Why i don't see the beauty they see
All i see is Ugly
Ugly is a harsh word
But it defines me
My personality sucks
I look terrible
Yet they see me as this fun-loving girl
Beautiful inside and out
They make me feel pretty and special
They make me happy
They love me and i them
I am happy to have them in my life
This is to them
Thank you, and i love you
I truly thank you for showing m