The lost billOpened its jawsThe lost bill9 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
and no air came in or out.
Little by little,
all you can hear
are the yawns of your arteries
and her harping about how she needs
money to pay
what the hell happened to all that I gave you
There is heavy something
behind my face
between the ears
every bill is the same damn thing
the cashier laughs
and my brain is still swimmimng underwater
in a silent pool
she berates you for not being responsible with your money
as she opens your wallet
sucks on more bills
and off goes another chance of surviving to the last week of the month
keeps on nagging
even as she buys an impossible caffeinated drink
with what could-and should-
your bus fares for the next week.
It's Because of HerShe says she'll take the computer-It's Because of Her19 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
That's not why I act like this.
She says she'll keep me from my friends-
They're not why I act like this.
She says she'll make me wish for my old life back-
That's not going to make me stop acting like this.
She just doesn't get it.
I act this way because I loathe her,
Down to my very core.
I act this way because she screams at me,
Poisoning my thoughts.
I act this way because I sometimes care about her,
Which I always regret.
I act this way because of HER,
Not the things she threatens to take away.
Those things she threatens to take from me
Are the things that keep me sane.
Without my friends I love,
I wouldn't be here.
Without this computer and the internet,
I'd be crazy by now.
Without all of this,
I'd be dead by now.
But she doesn't know that.
Because she thinks people that self-harm,
That people who think about self-harm,
And because of the time she DID once suspect something,
And she said she