Shades Of GrayHe drownsShades Of Gray3 weeks ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
in visceral shades of gray,
in illustriously craved walls
with four defined ridges
allowing him only
a window to his soul...
a window without bars,
and yet it offers no escape
for it only allows
the gray to flood through.
He cannot swim,
the color allows him no such pleasantry
and instead he must sit,
in what little color he can find
as they slowly choke him
and as he dies
he screams repentant cries
and begs for salvation
with tears in his eyes
but his tears
only dye his skin as gray
as the filth which drowns him.
Delusion becomes meDelusion becomes meDelusion becomes me1 month ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
it echoes with the listless duty
of confining me
within the horrid tyranny
of my own fiction.
There will be no coup
no revolution nor rebellion
no cries for reality
nor exuberance of freedom
only the echoes of duty.
The monotonous drown of forgeries,
atrocities, and apologies,
the dying screams
of impoverished souls
of fancy and fantasy,
the rapacious shouts
of fallacious joy over
the births of new yet
lovely children of fate and belief,
more loudly the gunfire
these shouts are meant to cloud
horribly loud in themselves
though they quiet some of the screams,
and finally the repetition
of my own whispers
,my own words,
repeating the implication
and imagery of every sound
as is my duty.
My duty to know
every tragedy and eve
The picture on the pedestalThe picture on the pedestalThe picture on the pedestal1 week ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
"Its so beautiful"
they always say
the picture of us
as we fell
so very far astray,
sometimes I wonder
what they see
if we look so far away
somewhere where "Its so beautiful"
could always be used
You've Gone Far EnoughHow many times have you tried, just to put me down,You've Gone Far Enough5 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
The last time I remember, I was underground.
And even then I rose up, just to challenge the greats.
You might be thinking that your wins are all a part of your fate;
But it's not!
You're a little puppet in the game,
And when you try to take me out, you'll be feeling the strain!
I will be breathing down your neck and it's offense;
No nonsense. I am the Word of Chen, execution commence!
And now you're feeling the pressure, I'll make you suffer;
Your words try to cut me, but you're bleeding your brother!
You don't recognize that I'm the one who paved your way;
And now you're crying, sweating bullets, while you kneel and pray-
I don't find you. You're scared! Your soul is bared,
The only thing that makes us different is the fact that I cared!
But it don't matter now boy! You can laugh and smile,
Because the only thing left is to burn you in a Word of Chen style.
- Chennie, 21st October 2014
XVIII (Melting Brain)XVIII (Melting Brain)XVIII (Melting Brain)1 month ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
18 days left till 18.
and i feel x plus something
equals the sum of adulthood.
and i’m missing the formula
to add that math up
so i subtract myself from it
in hopes of finding the answer.
damn it to hell, i missed a step.
so i make it a fraction
and hope that divides a prime number.
but that only multiplies the anxiety
because i know that doesn’t come out real.
and i can’t separate myself from reality
because what you add on one side
you must do to the other
when the variable isn’t known.
(and basically, you can be imaginative
but you have to make it a reality
or it’s just an idea
and ideas don’t get you paid
and realities eat money
like hungry hippos
but democrats are donkeys
and republicans are elephants.)
and no matter how many moments
i try to make into a solvable problem
the issue only comes out as x.
so let’s put it into a science.
i was born on the 19th of october,
Indie Wraps Around My EarsIndie Wraps Around My EarsIndie Wraps Around My Ears1 month ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
i like indie rap because it’s art
trapped under a stigma of astigmatism
which is probably why my favorite rappers
wear art frame glasses to see miss
and conception. or somethin’.
i like indie rap because i see myself
in the dudes who weren’t popular enough
to make it into the main’s ear,
soundwaves, or bloodstream
but those other weirdos
wearing sweater vests
with a gold cross linked round necks,
bow ties and nine fifty fitteds.
i like indie rap because i can whisper
broken assonance confused for direct rhymes
and snort lines and hide behind bars
and listen to prison songs
without ending up under the jail.
i like indie rap because i can repeat words
and look cool so words slice through eyes
like swords through irises
because i swore that i’d write
what sounds right and how i’d want
even if you don’t understand how i pen.
so even if my pupil can't pin
down these tones, rhythm, and space
we know tones sigh l
I Used To Have A ReasonI used to have a reason to do what I do,I Used To Have A Reason6 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Now it is just a habit I am trying to get through,
Meaningless motions, without emotions,
Trying to keep a clean conscience.
Embracing the darkness in the dim light,
I do not think I will sleep another night,
It is 4 AM, and there is no meaning,
To feel what I used to be feeling.
The pen slides through snow white paper,
It cuts it in two like a sharp saber,
But what is the point of doing this all
If It feels empty just like this Fall?
To fill the void I leave to fate,
There is no love, there is no hate
For times have changed.
two loversi. she is a sea witch , reading thetwo lovers1 week ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
storms like faces and shrouding
their relationship in
secrets , delicious –
appearing apathetic ,
they slide together in public :
congenial companions .
ii. but static (s)mothers ,
friends ask too many questions and
run away together .
iii. he is a wordsmith .
carving , curling ,
is too mean ,
tasting his words like
he tastes her lips ,
gently guiding ,
opening their full po(e)tential
and blithely revealing .
he won't hurt her .
she loves him .
iv. flying colors ,
in the dark they
sail together ,
succumb to each other ,
blessed provocations of
v. and love each other ,
you examples of
I Love You Is a Reprise (At Least Repeat It)I Love You Is a Reprise (At Least Repeat It)I Love You Is a Reprise (At Least Repeat It)1 month ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
basic rights are not given
and even breathing takes effort
like a surgeon cutting a patient open
and conducting invasive incisions
and i must stay patient
so my heart doesn’t dance
to a broken rhythm.
focus on breathing,
let oxygen enter in
hell, i’m terrified.
but i must breathe,
air, live, stay here,
through my nose
and exhale through
just stay grounded.
i love you is a reprise,
music to my ears
when i hear it from you
so at least repeat it to me
like a broken record.
because i’d rather hold tremors
to my chest, than have my heart
give out to being torn in half.
and i much rather entertain the thought
of such a cliche than experience
this for a second time.
i don’t need comforting
but i’m tired of my pillow
holding all of my secrets
like a little boy holds his
imaginary friend in highest esteem.
because like tha
Relief. Relief, oh sweet reliefRelief.1 month ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Miles and miles away
Now, like a nice warm bed
It floods me like the Nile,
Nourishing the irrigation of my veins;
Oh relief, tears of joy
And I will only be honest in this once -
I feared you had left already,
And I had not known you well enough
To understand this.
Today, I am happy
IEC 5009IEC 5009IEC 50091 month ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
red ring circuit cut, circa unknown
variable change to the power
of the broken infinity symbol-
ic(e) like jewelry, freeze up,
and choke on the chain.
Hermes' Wings Need to be ShinedI'm replacing my eyes so I can stare at the ceilingHermes' Wings Need to be Shined1 month ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
and watch as the cars' shadows run past
my window; I'm sick of this bed. I'm tired of this sickness.
I'm tired of being called diseased like I'll get you sick,
stay away from me.
You never left. You never left me alone.
I want to be alone, away from you who sends me endless messages
a day saying how I've done you wrong and caused you so much stress
that I've depressed you, and yet you still come to me with your
"baby, I need you"s; and I can't lie,
I've stretched myself far enough "baby", what you need
is to find someone else who will be your mother
because I'm done "baby"ing you.
I will not rock your cradle, or your world, or
your rocking chair when you get old 'cause god knows
I'm ailing from that motion and I'm just waiting 'till
I'm kneeling before toilet water because I've been struck with sea sickness.
Maybe I brought you good, but god damn it this
this is no good for me to be tied up by your threats of suicide;
pens like knitting needles and life's loose endsFor Sirenpens like knitting needles and life's loose ends2 weeks ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
a cackling - ahem , crackling -
fire glows , warming the room .
i see faces in it , covens of angels
[ not innocent as they seem ]
and your breath a rhapsody .
i see you through the cracked-by-memories
windowpane , fragments dancing
through the heavy rain .
trees whisper at your approach ,
the earth sighs against your legs ,
eager for another song .
the door slides open ,
granting you entrance .
someone pulls out a seat , a
rusty-brown leather armchair .
a piano sits at the corner of the room , and
the cat occupying it mews and paws
the crisp air floating in behind you .
on it are music notes –
piano , legato ,
you sweep into the room , dressed
as elegantly as your flashing eyes and
otherworldly smiles would suggest .
you begin to play ,
and the world
gasps and grins as
you tickle the delighted
ears of everyone around you .
the song is slow , carrying payphone
memories and faux - coated clouds ,
too sleepy to bring snow .
the song h
QuartzI am your enigmaQuartz1 month ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I am all that you despise
I am all that you adore
And I never leave your side
I consume the world around you
I am every step you take
I hover just below you
And make your heart ache
I am everywhere and nowhere
I am alive and I am dead
I’m in your head and in your heart
The monster under your bed
I am the caresses you crave
And the kisses you desire
I am the love you deserve
The attention you serve
So I’m not so pure and clear
And I don’t have a golden sheen
My cheeks aren’t sweetly rosy
My purple grace is not mien
My skin’s not milky or sublime
I’m not even shiny gray
I am just a fragile crystal
Almost black from decay
Kimi ni todokeAs I was talking to the clouds I realizedKimi ni todoke2 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
We're under the same sky, but even so
It doesn't feel right yet to call this "closeness"
Within the vast feebleness of the horizon
Between my endless inquiring projections
Raises the moon, as ever tireless, silver goddess
Since you and I both are looking into
The same lucent iris, I leave it to her hands
To deliver this, my nocturnal message
My quill screeches in tune with my breathing
Transforming my thoughts into inked consequences
With informal beginning and clumsy first paragraph
But with dictionaries and poetry nearby
I still can't find the words to properly say "hi"
So between the H and the I the moon somewhen went away
Leaving room for the sun to shine unhindered
And probe over my shoulder, only to retreat scared
Of the frowning purple from under my eyes
Material ContraptionWe all live in a contraptionMaterial Contraption2 weeks ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
It's made of materials
That we spoil ourselves with
It's not free
This city is soulless
Nothing like the true nature of animals
Move in a line
Which forms the shape of lies
This machine is stuck in reverse
There is no evolution
That would have time to fix it all
So it gives us sickness
It's too heavy
It won't last
Sinking into a sea of trash
We try to escape to the stars
The latch is rusted shut
How will you get away?
We fight for
What we live for
It's a bad dream about being stuck
Spinning a wheel sideways; never getting anywhere
As long as you're striving
Why would you
Stop spinning the wheel?
All I could sayIs take careAll I could say1 month ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
No harm will be wish upon you
No hatred thrown at you
I will not run after you like I used to
I will not explain myself anymore
I told you enough
So take care
letters on leaving.i wrote my first suicide letter in 10th grade.letters on leaving.1 week ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
they told me it didn't count if you felt like dying
unless you had it down on paper
like a vetoed birth certificate.
i've rewritten it enough times since
to realize i could never leave with a proper goodbye.
goodbye is too heavy a word for paper to hold
and i was never brave enough for the kind of courage it takes to tell them
why they weren't enough to keep me here.
but i'm finally learning a different kind of bravery-
the kind it takes to
i learned to wear death
like rope burn my junior year
my senior year we became friends
but i finally stopped cutting the insides of wrists
when i finally realized death never arrives on time,
i started smoking when i turned 18
to speed his arrival
because somedays, 15 less earth rotations around the sun sounds like a blessing.
2 years later I'm still learning to let the self destructive habits go
I stopped smoking again
threw the knife away and closed the toilet lid.
Hate to see you hurtFeelings stronger than everHate to see you hurt2 weeks ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Wondering thoughts of confessing
Bittersweet music played
Why am I doing this?
You are not him
You never would hurt a soul
I know I can trust you
Why am I beginning to show bitterness?
I hate to shoot pain at you
You are special to me
The only person I want to be with
But I'm shooting pain so far
I stopped being me
I'm so sorry
Gone Goes The GondolaGone Goes The GondolaGone Goes The Gondola3 weeks ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
i row in a fucked up gondola
with holes in the base of it
and dollars gone like there
were craters in my pocket
because i’m drowning
in the you boat,
in this regatta defeat.
burning the edge of bucks
like i was preparing venison steaks.
in a venetian lagoon the stakes
rising like adriatic sea
salt poured into your eye,
after they’ve been ripped
from their sockets.
saltwater kisses my cheeks
as if i’ve swam
in the strait of malacca.
stuck in waterlogged lockers
where the waves have bullied me
into submission, submerged
in this oceanic obituary.
how do they even dareI can’t seehow do they even dare2 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Why they say
They are so goddamn scarred.
“I look like a model.
But nobody sees the duct tape heart behind my beauty”
What does your otherness have to do
With your defaults.
Oh, so you are slaves to your appearance?
Tell that someone who is too tall.
Too heavy. Too. Fucking. Small.
Or just born as plain and ugly.
Tell that someone who wasn’t accepted by
Our oh-so-social society because of his looks.
And then explain to me
That you didn’t feel stupid.
You’re not pretty.
You’re just ignorant.
Just a DreamA week after he turn twenty threeJust a Dream3 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
My fairy tale story had ended
The temporarily fantasy was over
He was perfect
Loved ones approved of him
I thought he was it
I never doubted him
No more tears
No more hiding
No more lies
But all was suddenly taken away from me
He stopped being there
No given reason
I shrugged it off easy
My mind said let it go
But my heart says suspicious
He then didn't come
How could this happened?
What did I do?
I said too much?
Did he not believe in us anymore?
He's not coming home
This can't be happening to me
For this is just a dream