SwallowSweet red ladies… all clustered up into the confines of this poor lonely bottle. One by one falling out to pour on dirty fingers and tongues. Now setting the evening sky on fire, lost and bewildered they are to now be swallowed up by mournful pride. Throwing away these reckless souls, a smile to them, but not the other. Pulling back desires into tomorrow, sliding and pushing forth that euphoria. Giving voice madness however with this concoction, still feeling foreign…Will you swallow?Swallow2 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
Hell's Club.Yesterday’s massacre night,Hell's Club.3 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
Bullets with roles they collide,
Terror soothes their rabid lust,
Continue the bloodfest they must.
The owner would call out your name,
Tomorrow the house got burned down,
Your corps in the club now a friend,
Clapping of claws as they rend.
Today my name stained the halls,
Locked myself out of the town,
Faceless grins were sent to invite,
I will be joining tonight.
Each day the club would expand,
Filled up to the brim every time,
We are all part of that list,
Approved with the owner’s fist.
Next week my time came again,
They caught me and I stood in line,
My life was kept by one rule,
No entrance when the club is full.
This Lonely GameThey said it was a game, they didThis Lonely Game4 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
They said they’d search for me, they did
They sent me into these woods, they did
To walk this path alone, they did
But these things aren’t trees
Tall, but made of flesh and bone
Like the ones who chased me ‘way
Onto this dreary path, alone
Though I’m not alone
I’ve got a friend
Not made of wood or stone
No piece of flesh, at any end
Always, he shows his grin
Not a joyous smile
But one full of sin
He’s had it all this while
He taught me many tricks
To scream and shout
To throw with words and knives and bricks
And search for those who cast me out
You see, he’s not just any friend
He’s been with me this entire game
And In the end
He and I
Are one and the same
Into the UnknownThe dark will always be for me.Into the Unknown11 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
The darkness will never betray me.
The dark understands and comforts me
It will never attack me
The dark is full of mystery,
taking away things from history.
and because of all of this together,
the dark is what terrifies me.
Showing ColorsIt was walking a long the edge,Showing Colors12 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
it vowed a single pledge.
As a chameleon I have to change around
even to the slightest sound
we need to adapt to our new surroundings
even at the hardest groundings.
It knew it was in the presence of snake
whom joked around about
how the lizard always stressed
Showing every color,
if chameleon didn't like what it sees.
The chameleon was angry at snake for mocking it,
and turned bright emerald green
showing snake exactly what it
A Lonesome World Sullen days do bestow him with headlights;A Lonesome World 15 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
Fooling his ways on his visions behalf,
Excluded, like a half hearted penguin
Included with a soaring breeze like pain.
Weakening all recognition of glee,
Deluded is his strength like an osprey
Forsaken of fish and his wings of flight
Secluding him thusly of his high reign.
Just as a koi fumbles on earth's dry soil,
Slowly suffocating, gasping for home.
Sullen skies do only shine on him now
Just as our moon's dazzling gleam ends toils.
Expeditiously! He falls alone
Without his earth dwelling friend he once knew
KellertuerDie Tür zurück in die DunkelheitKellertuer18 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
lauert ächzend im Gebälk
wartet gierend auf mein Geleit
hinunter in die grausig' Welt.
Ich wage nicht den Blick zu heben,
gehe weiter, Schritt um Schritt.
Weiter, in ein fast fremdes Leben
doch die Tür geht stetig mit.
Ich bin geflohen vor den Ketten,
die heut noch auf mich wartend klirren.
Die - darauf könnt' ich wetten-
meine Gedanken noch verwirren.
Jeder Schritt in dieser Welt
kann alle Karten neu vergeben
und was mir heute noch gefällt,
kann Morgen mich zur Flucht bewegen.
Ich sollt die Feste feiern wie sie fallen,
doch manchmal bin ich mir selbst fremd
in meinen auserwählten Hallen
in denen niemand mich erkennt.
Bin der Besucher aus dem Keller,
der ewigliche Praktikant,
der glaubte diese Welt sei heller-
doch keine Erleuchtung darin fand.
What Did I Do Wrong?What did I do wrong,What Did I Do Wrong?18 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
For you to not see?
As we talked along,
Through times of both grief and glee?
I waited years for perfection,
For the flawless, most opportune moment;
But time has shown its absolution,
For the day of our meeting is still in postponement.
Why do I hang on your every word,
As I wait for days for your next phrase?
And every time I try to step into your world,
You skip over that line as if it were covered by haze.
A decade ago I was young and afraid,
Too scared of being known as impractical and misguided;
But now I have faith as thick as a blade,
That God Himself has graciously provided.
So, what have I done wrong,
For you not to see?
‘Tis not me, but God, Who has strung this along;
As the time has not yet come for you and me to be.
Interpersonal Politics~No one knows how I got Depression.Interpersonal Politics~19 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
It could be from the divorce of my parents
when I was five years old and the fact that I am the oldest,
so I had to grow up and be the mother. Dad couldn’t do hair.
Being an adult when I couldn’t spell it was like
trying to paint the Mona Lisa with a toothbrush. I was
parading around with the big people, wearing their masks,
speaking their language (sometimes better than they could),
and watching every step I took to avoid any toes. I was at
a party and I told my best friend how I learned to read people,
how I learned what words to say and which to save. She said that
normal people go in like wrecking balls. She couldn’t believe
that I was going about my life like it was normal.
What matters mostWater falling everywhere,What matters most20 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
The taste of salt on my lips,
I lie here awake all night
Cars light my wall in strips
Silent sobs wracking my body
As his breathing becomes my rock
Cascading back down into reality
Bringing me down from my fears
Anxiety claws into my throat,
Sealing shut the airways
Away from it all I float
As panic takes over
I fear for more than my livelihood
If I fail...
It won't just be me
That takes the fall
Green, vast, controlling
The question hangs in the air
I need more than consoling
For constantly my fears return
Questions left unanswered...
How will I make a living?
How can I make a living?
It keeps me up...
More often than I'd like to admit.
His breathing clams me
Even though I've woken
I bite back a desperate plea
My mind is numb
But one look at him
Reminds me that I'm not alone
Things are not that grim
Because our love
Is what matters most.
What is love?What is love?What is love?21 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
Is it a lie we tell ourselves,
to clean our sexual urges?
Or is it something we created?
Is it fake?
What is love?
Are we searching for
A part of ourselves?
Or are we seeking to control?
Are we looking to be controlled?
What is love?
Is it a bone-crushing attraction?
Is it enlightening admiration?
Do we just want to be with someone,
who is better than us?
What is love?
Is it sacrificing everything,
In hopes they will noitice you?
Is it desparation?
Is it stooping too low?
What is love?
Is it settling for medicre,
When you really wanted spectacular?
Is it just an arrangment,
So we may have offspring?
What is love?
Is it a feeling?
Or just not wanting to be alone?
Two Years Ago TodayTwo years ago today, the hallways were full of students mourning the loss of a friend.Two Years Ago Today1 day ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
Through the resounding sobs of hundreds, the unsettling silence besieged my head.
Those who knew him, and those who did not
They were all focused on one single thought:
Why would a smart, quiet boy with so much potential
Result to this violent end, leaving only a shell.
Two years ago today, after the announcement was made,
There were counselors brought in to help deal with the pain.
Because when he left, his pain didn't end
It was given to us, for us to mend
Now all I wonder is where are they now?
There are no counselors, no mourners. The tears have dried out.
Two years ago today was when he disappeared
But today is still unbearable, because no one remembered.
I hear laughter in this hallways, there's no pain or loss.
Except for those who remember, and hate those who forgot
I'm Burnin' For YouStrike the wheel and sparks flash.I'm Burnin' For You1 day ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
The pain, memory rehashed.
I see the flame flickering,
I want to feel the sting.
The beloved pain of the fire.
I want it, my one desire.
I hold the flame under my flesh
I start to smell the burning scent.
I remove my arm to reveal a mark.
Black circle of pain stains your arm,
As a hole forms into my heart.
I want to feel the pain
Cause I can't feel anything else.
Envy hurtsGreen could fly,Envy hurts1 day ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
And so could Red.
But Red flew higher,
Green wanted to get ahead.
Red soared on,
A sweet smile on her face,
But Green hit the ground,
And thought it her place,
Green's heart turned Black,
Whenever she saw Red.
She tried to fight it,
for she was her friend.
Green went away,
She could take it no more.
She locked herself in,
Behind a Blue door.
Green wallowed in pity,
All she did was cry.
And Green stayed on the ground,
She'd forgotten how to fly.
How to Escape the DarkYou take all the darknessHow to Escape the Dark2 days ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
And pack it away.
Hope it stays in the box
And doesn’t come out another day.
You come out of your hiding place
And try the out the world.
Rip away from the silence
And instead of always being furled.
You stay focused on the present
And not any of the past.
Concentrate on all the good
And know not everything is unsurpassed.
You see only the positives
And look at the water glass as half full.
Take everything in ugly in life
And make it more than beautiful.
You conceal all your sadness
And put on a big smile.
Put aside all your problems
And just forget for awhile.
You think “So what?”
And “What happens if I do this?”
Follow all these tips
And they claim you will make it out
Of the dark abyss.
ConfusedLately I've been getting confusedConfused2 days ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
between the colors of red and blue
Rain drops and
The new dawn and
like living into and dead
d u s tthe cosmos align and cry lullabies ind u s t2 days ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
the milky way when you exhale your wish to the stars
and he slept through your winter eclipse
dreamless, choking on the dust of your comet trails
yet he mourns the threat of your bitter evanescence, solar flares wreathing in the ghost of your memory,
his qualm the moon tide that crashed against the cliffs of mother earth's enigma in agonizing brevity.
I'm Too ScaredI’m sorry that we never talk,I'm Too Scared2 days ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
I’m sorry, I never message you,
I’m too scared,
and this is something I rue.
I want to talk to you, I really do,
but I’m to scared to message you,
I can’t one day and then the next,
I’m scared you’ll be mad at me, I just know it’s true.
I see your updates, some of them sad, others not,
But by the time I see them it’s too late,
I don’t get the chance to congratulate you or try to make you feel better,
and if I hit send I’m scared of what might await.
I think of you as my friend and I love you so much,
but I never message you, I’m to scared,
I wish I could but after all this time has past,
you must hate me, I’m just too socially impaired.
Ruthless WomanShe marches into a man's heartRuthless Woman2 days ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
and burns it down to ash.
Sharp dagger her voice is
pierces thru soul
her tone has no remorse in it.
No pride left, no cries
alone in deranging silence
my spirit desperately tries
to step on the memory
of her laughter
even though there's no life after.
PaddlingFeeling adrift on a sea that I don't understandPaddling2 days ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
Feeling the blood pushing through in the palms of my hands
As I paddle away from the shore
From the ones who could only say “More,”
I was lost in their company, here
Alone I'll be found.
Feeling along in the dark, my old tools left behind me
Reeling a line to the place where I left years ago.
As I paddle against the high wind,
Crash of waves, where did I begin?
Alone in the meantime, soon
My old homeland abound.
Feeling the warmth on my skin, the sun always rises
Healing the Earth and the sand that my feet touch upon
As I paddle up on the new bank
My heart lifted, when once it had sank
Could have given up searching for land
And I could have drowned.
Feeling the air in my lungs, and the winds that caress me
Stealing my worries away to the clouds and the sky.
As I paddled, I worried for safety
But the struggle and doubt it did take me
To the new and old place that I now see
When I look around.
Call Of the Invisible VoicePlease pick up, hear my voiceCall Of the Invisible Voice2 days ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
I never really had a choice
Hear it ring, from the cup
I can't believe that you hung up
Blank PageWhat to write? Not a clueBlank Page2 days ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
I've sealed the pages up with glue
What to read? I don't know
These blank pages aren't for show
What to do? Who can tell?
I hid the words beyond a shell
Can you see? This you lack
The blank pages are looking back
XXXVI. Yesand that nightXXXVI. Yes2 days ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
you gave me the time of my life
just for a moment
i was wanted, desired, even.
miracles. are they real?
everyone said you'd say yes.
XXXV. NewMy love (or so I thought you were before)XXXV. New2 days ago in Traditional Fixed Forms
I'm sorry, I just can't say this has passed-
Were we meant to grow into something more?
Were you to be the one I'd kiss at last?
For I would give the world to hold your hand
The universe to hold you in my arms
Why Buddha frowns now, I don't understand
You laughed as you seduced me with your charms
Thought I you were the start of something great
Thought I you'd be the one to love me back
Thought I that you'd reverse my horrid fate
But, for having bad luck, I have a knack.
And now that it appears we might be through
I guess it's time to search for someone new.