Mind TriggerThere are things I wish I could say.Mind Trigger18 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I dwell on them, each and every day.
They upset, and trigger me,
Spiraling down into anxiety.
They make me wish I were dead,
There's no escaping,
The thoughts I dread.
It's a constant battle,
With the monsters in my head.
My worries are likely untrue,
But at the first sign of possibility,
I see a darker side of you.
I turn into a psychopath,
Fits of crying, and days of wrath.
Seeing such signs is sickening,
And the air I breathe begins thickening.
I can not help,
What invades my brain.
It often causes guilt and shame.
It isn't something, I'd likely tell.
That may make my life, a living hell.
I wish these thoughts,
Would go away,
And the true of them,
Would learn to stay.
I wish I could say,
That I'm okay,
But I'm not.
PleaseRelease me from this pain,Please6 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Please heal my broken heart.
Please free these chains,
That are ripping me apart.
Take me away from the dark,
Please illuminate my path.
Please just give me a spark,
So I may again feel your wrath.
Give me life or give me death,
Please remove me from the middle.
Please put me to my place of rest,
So that I may sleep just a little.
Rank LostDownfall, rank lost, further to the front lines.Rank Lost6 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
A line out, the wrong word, I pay the fines.
My friends have been taken by the war hound,
alas peace and love are yet to be found.
A hand stretched out, a last hope in lost vain.
Foes and Allies I give a loving smite,
For creating a holy putrid fight.
Pensamientos lugubres bajo la luna llenaPensamientos lugubres bajo la luna llena19 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Mi pensamiento se detiene, se paran las horas en este crudo reloj,
Se acercan sentimientos de pena, desolación y muerte a mi puerta,
Los miro, los abrazo penetran en mi existencia, sin saberlo otra vez,
Caigo en ese vacío, podrido y tétrico lleno de obscuridad y sufrimiento,
Siento mis pesadas cargas abrazar mi karma, mi destino esta cumplido,
He sentido partir mi luz de a poco, mi pasión se va apagando,
Creo que solo soy una muñeca, un títere de esta cruda existencia,
Pienso mil veces en mi realidad. Solo la acojo, la tomo como mía y,
Me dejo caer, y si viera otra realidad no la tomaría,
La abandonaría y mi realidad la defendería,
Porque sé que el amarte, no fue en vano,
Valió lo vivido y valdrá lo esperado.
BreakI'm probably a little hit or missBreak22 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
every thing I write's a little sad
all of it is pretty bad
just me being sad bout stuff with dad
like being alone
like be scared
feeling so fake
terrified I'll break
PointlessIt's coldPointless22 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
and that's all pointless
feeling like my own sorrow
is an ointment
I put it on as a cloak
just to stunt my ailment
if this was my test
I'm confident I failed it
Breaking DownI'm mentally breaking downBreaking Down17 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
And no one is around
All I'm wearing is a frown
My scream, a silent sound
I stab and cut and bleed
And basically give up
My hatred bearing but a seed
My head's not shutting up
I hear the voices in my ears
And I try to drown them out
These voices, no one hears
Filling my heart with doubt
So I'm plugging in my headphones
To drown the world in noise
Don't leave me here all alone
My heart, my head destroys
I've mentally gone insane
And there's no coming back
No one knows my name
And all I see is black
Cold Connection BreakSilence has taken over usCold Connection Break22 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Our words weren't strong enough
And inside our hearts it starts to snow
We can hold eachother close
The cold won't disappear
Even if we wish
Or shed some tears
I can't change you
You can't change me
We couldn't be happy
Silence has taken over us
The glass in between
It never shattered
We hurt anyways
And the cold water
Flows down our hands
We never had control
Silence has taken over us
You were nothing but a statue
Passive and gone
Hopeless looks and shady tears
And now the frozen water
Reaches our shoulders
But silence has taken over us
The liquid fills our lungs
Our voices get lost
The connection broke
And there we are on different shores
With the silence and some quiet whispers
Black AutumnThe leaves fall to the ground, torn apart with holesBlack Autumn2 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Mist makes it hard to see
The solid ground freezes
It's the perfect time, 'cause everything dissloves
There, where we just stood, doesn't matter anymore, it doesn't exist no longer
Let the wind carry my thoughts away
Like all the countless leaves, with faded colors
I don't want them anymore
Let the mist draw the world in a different way
Maybe, then we won't see eachother at all anymore
Let the cold make my hands get numb and unfeeling
To get rid of any temptation
It's a shady time
Candles are the only light, to keep us from losing the way completely
Let us drown, what once was there
Somewhere in black waters
And just forget about it
In time snow will coat it and alleviate the wounds
Mein schwarzer Herbst
Die Blätter fallen zu Boden, kaputt und zerrissen
Nebel erschwert die Sicht
Und der Untergrund gefriert
Es ist die perfekte Zeit, denn alles löst sich auf
Rash DecisionI found the letter I wrote you, years ago.Rash Decision7 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I can't believe, how I let my heart show...
Dropped my built up barriers and walls...
Set myself up, for the hardest of falls...
Exposed my secrets, to your ridicule.
I was a damned, insane, romantic fool.
I'll toss my hasty words, into the fire.
Let them burn, like my burnt out desire.
You always threw water on my flames...
And thwarted all my amorous aims.
Now, so much wasted time has passed...
The distance between us is vast.
In a feat, that wasn't miniscule...
I broke every carefully crafted rule,
I had set, for myself to follow...
So I wouldn't be forced to swallow,
The bitter pill, of your laughter...
And be dubbed a clown, thereafter.
How could I ever have revealed...
Parts of me, I completely concealed?
You didn't care...you only scoffed...
Nervously cleared your throat, and coughed.
I desire to forget there was a day,
I recklessly gave my soul away.
© Mary Elizabeth Balderrama
regretful dream,trapped in time,blind in hatredI'm afraid one day I'll wake up.regretful dream,trapped in time,blind in hatred15 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
and I'll be falling with none to catch me,
cause I would have dug this hole,
and now I can't get out.
I'm afraid that,I'll be trapped.
And never get a chance.
Miss the little things in life,
never getting to smile.
I'm afraid I'll never finish my mission.
That I'll be so caught up in blindness,
that I won't see whats in front of me
SimplicityLife isn't like fairy tales,Simplicity19 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Just something full of what was never meant to be,
Missed opportunities and being too late,
Unrequited feelings being replaced with hate.
Lies and deception, promises are no longer bound,
The person you thought they were, nothing like the one you found,
Everything has obstacles even the most simplest of things,
New revelations.... just new pains it will bring.
Seeds planted in your mind, from which paranoia will grow.
Things you hope aren't true, but they are... you know.
You stay with futile fights and struggles that you know you'll never win,
Still you think they will make you stronger if you never give in.
But the fact still remains that you will fall and lose,
Ever more a damaged soul, just an extra added bruise.
LLike a lingering perfume,L22 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
with a fragrance of mistaken identity.
Like a lucid dream,
where nothing is ever quite what it should be.
Like a lascivious whisper,
which promises to keep you together completely.
Like a lying whore,
who stabs you in the back so discreetly.
When the devil hates you((@MyCrappyPoetry //doesn't follow a pattern, each stanza has it's own, (((well, stanza's 1 and 3 do but stanza 2 doesn't, so whatever))), r&r please))When the devil hates you43 minutes ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
You know you're screwed when the devil hates you
You're stuck drifting around after death,
Eternal Damnation, I deserve a longer sentence
For nor hell nor heaven is there entrance
And people shame you for penance
Hello World, I'm your menace
Crazy and Insane, It's not like I can feel pain
Blue and Green planet, yet I'm the biggest rotting stain
Counting the moments, sensing your presence
And when the world ends I'll exact my vengeance
Lost ButterfliesWhen you were goneLost Butterflies3 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Thought you were gone for good
Didn’t think you would
Never thought you should
Come back to me
Now that you’re home
A place to call your own
I feel so alone
You were the guy
That gave me butterflies
Now I don’t understand why
Why my heart begins to cry
It’s like my heart said goodbye
But, my heart still denies
What’s right in front of my eyes
wipRelationships are easy, Love is hard...wip10 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Romance is a dance between partners, or made a worldly affair to share, whatever way wandered with whims, wishes, woes, wants...
The Lost One - By ZacBucklinHe searches for someone, he cannot findThe Lost One - By ZacBucklin12 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
He calls out a name, he cannot find.
Walking alone, intent on his search
He hears a voice, he cannot find.
He turns to look behind, but sees nothing
This mysterious lingering voice, he cannot find.
From out of nowhere, his quarry appears
He sees the one, he cannot find.
They stare at each other, in total silence
He has found the one, he cannot find.
Not AnymoreI'm really not happy, not down to my core, not all the time, not anymore.Not Anymore16 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Tears run down my face in streams,
reflecting my blackened soul.
I'm caught in guilt while my heart silently screams.
I look at my beloved and he looks at me, and we realize that we are each other's broken promises and unfulfilled dreams.
I am not the same as I was before and I never will be, not anymore.
der schlaefer im talzwischen den lilien liegt er,der schlaefer im tal18 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
im kuehlen gras und schlaeft
soldat, ein junge noch
der im sonnenschein
durch die blumen kroch
zum schwerte gefuehrt
zum kampf verdammt
im kuehlen gras liegt er
und aus zwei loechern fließt sein blut
(frei nach "der schlaefer im tal" / arthur rimbaud ... ich habe dieses gedicht vor langer langer zeit gelesen, ich kann mich nicht wirklich erinnern . . .)
hold me downhold me back, hold mehold me down19 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
down. i'm drowning in a sea
of muddled regrets.
dying lightsometimes i want todying light19 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
bid farewell to all the pain.
my heart is heavy
with the grief of things--
the past, too remembered and
black with dying light.
Christmas wishesW ten świąteczny czas:Christmas wishes22 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Niech każda chwila będzie przepełniona radością,
abyś w gronie rodzinnym poczuł się otoczony miłością
i niech nowy rok przyniesie same piękne wspomnienia,
życzę Ci zdrowia, szczęścia i marzeń spełnienia.