vogue is full of contusions it's fashion weekvogue is full of contusions21 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
an d it smells
a n d lust, of fur coats,
swe e/at, and dust.
silence and tongues
like a coffin
and th r oats
and hurdle puddles of your past
and give them to please
let me soak it in my abdomen
and thrust against my hips
until knees buckle
and we crumble together
i am failing
you are lying
but we are fucking
or maybe fucking dying
or tucking crying
in the holster of these paper cuts
tell us who we gotta be
or gonna see
in the afterlife of
backseat suicide notemy eyes have been leaking an awful lot lately.backseat suicide note7 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
it's not emotion seeping from those cracks, however.
there's a hurricane brewing inside my ribs.
i choke as the waves crash through the tissues of
my lungs, sputtering just as they tickle my heart.
the deadly waters have poured into my throat and roar
even higher. soon there aren't any thoughts; just the ocean's hungry wrath.
i succumb to its anger as my mind grows murky.
those tears aren't drops of sadness; i'm drowning inside myself.
Broken Dreams"Go ahead, dream big," they liked to tell you.Broken Dreams6 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
"Send your hopes up to the sky."
They told you that whatever you believed in,
Those happy thoughts in the back of your brain,
It could all be true if only you believed.
That's all they said you needed to do, right?
To believe it was possible?
Sure, there were also mentions of hard work,
Mentions of putting in effort.
But every time, you were told to believe.
And you believed with all your heart.
Your dreams were larger than the earth itself
Stretching and growing far out of ordinary grasp.
And you worked hard too.
You wanted that dream more than anything.
You longed for the happy future it offered.
But there's a problem with large dreams.
You see, the bigger your dreams are,
And the more time and effort you invest in them,
The more it hurts when it all comes crashing down.
from my windowsillmom saw a cardinal in the snowfrom my windowsill10 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
i missed it
it's red wings vibrant
against the blank background.
i saw my hands drenched in blood
mom missed it
it's droplets vibrant
hanging from my pale skin.
my mind becomes opaque, sometimes
watching people and colors and lights blurrily
unable to make anything clear
i'm on the clean side of a foggy window
i keep trying to wipe away the condensation
so i can see the people on the other side
but it doesn't do any good
and i just can't bear to wait until morning
when the sun will probably clear everything up
when the moisture will lift
because i'm afraid that my
windows might actually be broken
--after all, there's been a few rocks thrown at them this past year
but maybe that's okay, because
stained and etched glass is gorgeous
even if the light filtered through it
is a different color from everyone else's
because we are a universe of different perspectives
and seeing different colors is w
Low TideThese thoughts and feelings fill my head,Low Tide11 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
simple things but left unsaid.
It's a never ending wave,
all these things I crave.
Overtakes me and drags me out to sea,
I swim for the shoreline, swim for the surface,
to try and break free,
but this under tow has a hold of me.
It is a crushing wave, these thoughts.
it drags me and pull me down,
I can't help it, you see.
I'm afraid I have to drown.
But then air fills my lungs,
and the waters recede,
saved by low tide,
I'm finally freed.
AbstractThe words that you saidAbstract22 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Splattered like crimson raindrops
Across a damaged canvas
No paintbrush has been invented yet
That can fully capture
Every stroke of pain
In its agonizingly minute details
Those double-edged swords
Never really suited my palate
But they did fill your own palette
To the brim
Angry colors mixed together
In frightening hues
The same colors
That adorn my flesh
The bruises forever seared
Into the very skin
That you pretended to love
A time I'll never forgetI looked into the cold face of death,A time I'll never forget13 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
As I heard about your last breath.
I remember the cold windy day like no other.
The news was given to me by my mother.
Even after three years I remember it word for word.
It can never be unheard.
The funeral seems like it was yesterday.
I remember the dark hearse that took you away.
I wrote a you letter about the games we used play.
I wish I could forget,
Or at least get a grip.
I'm tired of this,
But it is what it is.
Why did you have to leave?
It should've been me.
Now I'm left here to grieve.
Why did this have to be?
I've counted everyday since you've passed.
The years have flown by so fast.
How much longer will I last?
Why can't I just forget the past?
I can't go on living this way.
I know it may sound cliche.
But I can't take another day,
Of thinking about the cold casket in which you decay.
I need to expect that you're long gone.
I wish I could just move on.
Most Especially to All the DoctorsThe more pain my body experiences,Most Especially to All the Doctors12 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
The more stubborn I become.
With each passing day that I am limited,
by what my body refuses to do,
The more I fucking hate you all
for not taking any of this seriously.
saturday is comingspacious places and faces that fadedsaturday is coming19 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
a carress of incoherence in a spotlight of vanity
kiss the blue mouth of my addiction
and wish away all the nightmares one last time
your inked patches are beginning to blur
and your sinking eyes are a summer memory
but you left deathly something i cant escape
and why should i fight when the feeling is perfection
though the aftermath is feuled by black deception
you didnt stop what started when you could
so neither will i
Save Me From MyselfSometime we haveSave Me From Myself14 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
feelings deep inside
which are too strong
They can't be hold
in this shell,
because this shell
is made of thin
Our feelings are strong
and they want to show themselves.
We're breaking apart.
Save me from myself,
when my shell
Save me from myself
when I am about
to destroy my
MasterpiecesWe decorateMasterpieces5 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Space with art,
And we decorate
Time with music.
The paint onto
And magnetic fields attract
The notes to
Our bleak existence
By what we create.
Bird GirlShe calls me at 11:53pmBird Girl17 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
lips deep grey, maybe, but
certainly shaking, and
if I remember nothing of this
I will not forget her fear
that we are storms raging;
pretty women with bullet eyes
and breaking bones bandaged in
soft lit pastel skin;
fierce birds, each of us
a rib-caged land-mine,
and that we, with our ever-hungry fingers
pick men with open eyes and achingly
long lashes, men with calloused palms
that swoop our bodies like crows, that
eat us up and up
and that we
This Empty TimeWhat will I do to fill thisThis Empty Time20 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Deep and abiding darkness?
This time is calm, sedate
I lie back; sit and wait.
This night I while away
In neither joy nor dismay
As the minutes stroll by,
Past my thoughts and I.
The hours stretch out before me
Long and slow, and yet all I see
Is a hurried blur, my busy fingers
Tapping away, but a coldness lingers.
I've exhausted the well of incandescent ire
Which once fueled the immortal, raging fire
That burns within my tenuous being, and dire
Now is the need for warmth; a spark of desire.
Emptied now of immediate anger and pain, adrift
Upon a sea of muddled emotions, from which I sift
The scarce few that may still resonate within me,
In the hope that I might do instead of merely be!
What must I do to fill this empty time?
Which immeasurable mountain must I climb?
For to do nothing, to sit idle, to simply be
Is no way to act when one desires to be free!
SuicideForgive me,Suicide1 hour ago in Free Verse More Like This
I was imperfect.
I was the lie.
I was not honest.
For I am sorrow.
I'm not worth it.
There's no tomorrow.
Why didn't anyone listen?
Why didn't anyone see?
I am just a mirror
of what's to be!
I am empty.
I am gone!
I am nothingness.
I'm a fraud!
So please forgive me...
because I'm needy...
and you don't need me:
you need no one.
UGHAGGRESSIVE FEARFUL DESIRE CHOKES ME LIKE A HANGMAN'S ROPEUGH8 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
CAN'T LOOK AT YOU
CAN'T TAKE MY EYES OFF YOU
WHAT THE HELL DO I DO
Depression Everything is bad sometimes. I hate this world sometimes. I wish I could just leave most of the time. I........I feel depressed. I know that none of you would have guessed it, but I am sometimes. Sometimes it comes out as rage, and when I'm all out of that, it turns into soul destroying sadness. I.......I want to listen to my own advice that I give to others.....but I cant. I'm such a hypocrite.........I tell others to keep their heads up and to struggle on and never give up..........even though I almost did once. I almost left forever......but something stopped me. Something told me to keep going, to keep living, even though I didn't want to.........Depression6 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
My Lonely EchoCrawling… trying to escape from itMy Lonely Echo10 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
The earth vibrates under my feet
The tremendous sound of the pieces crashing onto the dirt
I hear the sound repeating endlessly
Running… shards of them are lying everywhere
I can feel them smashing into thinner parts with every attempt to get out
The wind rushes so fast…
Carrying the weaves of noise from them falling apart
Breathless… the air starts to get to thick
The twang of an abrupt breathing
And the lungs working hard so they will keep him alive
The terrifying sound of a rhythmless heart
And they break… they shatter… they crash
Splinters are being shoot all around…
No part of them remains uncrushed
And they lie on the floor
The earth is full of them, colorful bits of thick glass
And the tears fall, while the pain takes all over and kicks everything else out
And the screams, helpless, hopeless…
Moans filling the silence with sadness and loneliness
And the sounds repeat themselves over and over again
Without YouWithout you I'd be in pain.Without You18 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Without you I'd go insane.
Without you I'd cut again.
Without you my blood would rain.
UsedIts happened again,Used7 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Used and left,
Nothing more then that,
Say is that all it was,
Its not nice to play with people,
To bring them up high,
Smash them back down,
It hurts you know,
Light a candle,
For all those who hurt you,
Light a torch,
To burn them with,
The used and abused,
Will rise one day,
Take back what's rightfully theirs,
You will regret what you did.
Bittersweet Irony.How ironicBittersweet Irony.5 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
that my favorite
belong to you
that mirror me
looks an awful lot
that I blame him for
I, by now,
or am myself
however you take it
that our little
World War III
and made me
and left me
but also useful skills
of not me
I am not yours, I am mineDon't tell me I am weakI am not yours, I am mine14 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
I am stronger than you'll ever be
Don't tell me I wasn't enough
I was gave you everything you asked for
it's your fault if you return the gift
Don't tell me you care
when you clearly gave up long ago
don't tell me lies
I can see that you like her
Don't tell me we can still be friends
when you are driving me away
Don't tell me its my fault
when you did this!
You told me I was worthless,
weak, uncaring, fragile, pathetic,
unforgiving, unwilling to listen,
don't call me fucking shit
and say I used you
don't call me your Mother
and, you can't do this anymore
because I am not yours to own
I am my own person
and I deserve better than you.
TimeTime is of the essenceTime2 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
time is all I've got.
Alone it must be done
Don't interfere. No, none.
1987It was far back in 1987.19878 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Time for that yearly celebration.
Cake and soda, enough for everyone to share.
Laughter, play time, eat without a care.
You’ll soon see it’s true,
When you spot them soon.
At night they’ll differ,
At night they’ll bicker,
And rip you up, all together.
Pieces of you scatter the floor.
Check those camera’s cause they’ll be at the door.
Freddy roams the pizzeria,
And Chica can’t wait to eat you.
Bonnie is roaring in laugher,
And Foxy will be chasing after.
Your soul is what they’re searching for,
And soon consume your mortal form.
The will seek salvation,
And pure redemption.
They want their story to be told,
They’ll seek the barrier full of mold.
They become you subtle distractions,
As they seek pure satisfaction.
Mechanical jaws will close upon you,
As their glowing red eyes see through you.
They can never forget,
The day they have met,
The purple man who took their lives,
With his soulless case and dead, bla