lotus.wake melotus.1 day ago in Free Verse
it doesn't matter
to you or me or him or her or them
or the flowers dying
beneath my window
i'll dream or not,
just rest within the darkness
behind my eyelids
let the spiders crawl across my skin
and cast their webs in the caves
of my collarbones
pool water into my lungs
and build a pond for koi fish
that slither through my throat like serpents
when i try to talk
in my sleep
but mummer only incoherent wisps of dandelion
that evaporate in the rain
thrashing outside the door
leave me like a ship washed up onshore;
graves within my soul
and souls within my veins
ghosts pumping through my heart
put a rose in my hands and let the thorns prick my thumb
i'll bleed until my skin is violet
and the bags beneath my eyes are gray
the walls will hug me years from now
when this room has fallen in
and all my books have flown away
to nest in sparrow beds
they'll save themselves
and the batteries in the clock
.And I wonder.2 days ago in Free Verse
if the daisies
cry when i
hearts, just to make sure
love you never ever
(I will not waste my tears
trying to grow dead plants)
peppermint lover, make my soul shakek opeppermint lover, make my soul shake20 hours ago in Free Verse
Just Another DayTears streamed down her face again.Just Another Day3 days ago in Free Verse
It was just another day
Where he was threatening to leave
And she was begging him to stay.
It's just another day again
With sadness creeping in.
She fights so hard to make things right
But she can never win.
No matter what she seems to do,
It's never really right.
I guess that's what happens
When you cry to sleep at night.
It's just another day
With the voices in her head.
The days keep adding up
So that she's wishing she was dead.
house of windowsmother's counting her bottles againhouse of windows2 days ago in Free Verse
(i'm emptying mine and checking my phone.)
brother's been gone for hours again
(i'd leave but i'm collapsing inside and out.)
friends have left me alone again
(i'm panicking and dizzy someone hold me.)
father knows i've been crying again
(sorry i'm loud but it hurts to live.)
shit, i feel like i'm dying again
(but you know i won't die so you don't really care.)
October ObituariesI am writing to let you know thatOctober Obituaries18 hours ago in Free Verse
your name died on the shred of
my tongue yesterday evening,
suddenly, with the first breeze of
an umber October. and the silk
moths spun out the threads of
their wings, the leaves turned, the
day your face was buried somewhere
deep under the mulch of a maple
cemetery, I saw a honey moon drip
pale in the azure sky, the sun red
read my poems, burned every mention
of your hands or your eyes or your
mouth. I spent a funerary moment,
curled in a furnace of pumpkin bonfires
and hedgehog secrets, they whispered
your name when the clock chimes
carried your coffin into the distance of
a forgotten summer, I can’t recall where
I met you, your hands, your eyes, your
mouth, I have learned to write without
you, and found new life in your absence.
four..four.2 days ago in Free Verse
dear girl with the soaked pearls,
how long has it been since I felt your fingers grace
my temples, clamor for the warmth in my neck?
how long has it been since i've heard you sing with
the voice of a siren, so sad, sad, sad, so beautiful?
how long has it been since i've read your words,
heard you choke on all that water in your lungs?
how long has it been since i left you tear-stained
for the river's laugh, little salt-lined girl?
the boy who said he never liked beautiful things
( but did. )
dear boy with the smudged fingers,
keep your hands out of that filthy coal.
you'll never find a diamond when all you've ever
wanted is a pearl.
hearts aren't as easy to capture as you think.
they're nothing like bir
HeartHere my heart rests in safety,Heart2 days ago in Free Verse
Here my soul finds rest,
I trust you in all things completely,
I need not put it to the test.
Where are you taking me,
Where are we going?
I cannot see,
What it is you are showing.
I tremble in this dark,
My heart is in your hands,
What happened to your burning spark?
I'm falling now,
Did you let go?
What happened to your vow,
That you gave so long ago?
ThanksgivingIt's funny how days like these feel the loneliestThanksgiving2 days ago in Free Verse
I wonder if the legends are true
Does true love exist or is it a big footed myth
Will I find my happiness in you
Or am I destined to wander the depths forever
Cause even Ernie can lose Bert too
Long ago I was told zero and zero make infinity
And the equation is me and you
I Will StayAs I am walking, the raindrops fall upon meI Will Stay1 day ago in Free Verse
And the wind tears at the leaves on the trees
A beautiful chaos swirls around me, a storm
Cold, fierce, and forceful, and yet I am warm.
A fire blazes in my heart, the centre of my being
A wilderness inside me, an abandon so freeing
That no gust or gale could weaken or weary me
Nor stifle the flames inspired by what I see.
Explosions of colour across the billowing of evening clouds
A vivid skyscape of oranges and pinks, aloft on the shroud
Of atmosphere that so thinly covers us, as we make our way
Through the vast darkness... For these wonders I will stay.
I clasped her hand in mine, and heard the slightest whisper
"Kiss me." said she, and so I leaned in and kissed her
Lightning struck behind my eyes, and in this exquisite bliss
Love welled up deep inside me, and nothing was amiss.
My mind reeled, and my eyes opened as if for the first time,
The ecstatic beauty of the cosmos spread before me, sublime
In my lucid perception, awakened by this p
ups and downsups and downsups and downs2 days ago in Free Verse
they use metaphors like
"we are broken bells"
well im not a broken bell
but ive hit low bottom more times than them
i shouldnt have
but ive been deeper down than the bottom of the sea
and it has been pain and loneliness
and misery i can't even describe it properly
im not a pretty, healthy bell either
as ive hit that up more times than anyone else
i shouldnt have
but ive reached higher than the sky
but its cant be called happiness
it's barely touching it
because when im up
its too much
because when im down
its not enough
i cant even call myself a simple "bell"
you see, maybe my existence
doesn't have a good metaphor
maybe my existence is one big
Into the minds of Others - The Creator An Imagination- The Despair of a MonsterInto the minds of Others - The Creator 3 days ago in Free Verse
"If only I wasn't here."
How did you get here?
You wonder if your really living in despair.
It's the same thing everyday for you.
But it brings me joy seeing you and everyone else everyday.
Living your lives happy while am here.
I know you and everyone have problems.
Everyone including you has some kind of worries.
You just want to forget that cruel past.
For yours and everyone's sake who have suffered a life of pain.
I will heal their lives from their despair.
You and everyone can forgot those troubles.
Yet your lives we're once miserable.
But you don't need to worry about that anymore.
Now that you're here you can be happy.
Yet am The Creator who created this world.
A girl who seeking after death.
My soul couldn't go anywhere else.
Even in those days and years.
I've been alone without anyone to be with.
I already fell into despair along time ago.
So I can now keep you and everyone else h
forest fire girlyou are the smoky hazeforest fire girl2 days ago in Free Verse
blocking my view every
new place i go,
getting me drunk and
feeding me bad ideas
dyed lovely with poison
i am addicted to your
lips and your tongue
must have infected
me because i can’t
breathe with these
SkitzacaineI’m subtle like a heart attack.Skitzacaine2 days ago in Free Verse
When I’m on a mission,
I’m as invisible as
an elephant on the subway.
I’m riding high like
I’m snuffing cocaine and
soaring with wings made—
I fall faster than my stocks.
I almost wish I hadn’t wished
for the super dose of power
to turn me into Superinfiniteman.
Wish I hadn’t drank the Kool-Aid and
pumped my thighs full of incrediroids
like all the other ’bots who can’t get
through the day without a pick-me-up.
I thought I wasn’t like them.
Thought I didn’t have to be.
Thought I could finish a dream without
kicking off my socks
and falling out of bed.
But I’m just another mannequin
with a pacemaker.
The Start of Something GoodWho knows how it began,The Start of Something Good3 days ago in Free Verse
Maybe with a smile,
The touch of a hand,
A comforting hug,
That meant so much more.
He offers her his hand,
And she takes it,
If only things could stay like this
Asexual RomanticAsexual.Asexual Romantic2 days ago in Free Verse
Did I forget to mention that?
Oh, wait I couldn’t have.
I just came to that realization.
A few hours ago.
I don't get sexual urges, numb skull.
Yes, the idea of love and romance
Does not entice me.
And a romantic.
eletric heart (PLEASE READ)my feelings pour througheletric heart (PLEASE READ)2 days ago in Free Verse
through the keys and the screen
can you feel them touch you?
I care for you all so much
sometimes so much it hurts.
but my electric heart beats on for you all.
beucase you all need me.
and I need you.
we all need eachother in a way...
some cant express.
but know that this electric heart..
will be there for you.
on the other side of the screen
cheering you on.
caring for you
laughing with you
crying for you
as long as this electric heart beats...
i'll never stop caring.
I'm always here. diligent.
for someone who needs me.
sometimes that's the shooting star
sometimes its the curls
sometimes its the touchy one
sometimes its the pastel cat
sometimes its the glittery one
sometimes its the leafy one
or sometimes its red pokemon whos had a bad day
or the demon hellcat with a firey temper.
or the smiling train coducter
or the red samurai
or the green and black glitch
sometimes its the fallen one
Drowning UnderwaterAll my lifeDrowning Underwater2 days ago in Free Verse
I've lived in this ocean
Deep deep below the depths
Of blue and green
But all my life
I was able to breathe in it
I went about my life like every other fish in the sea
Everything was how it should be
All my life
I would have never expected this to happen
For you to be taken away from me
On that day, by that cause
All my life
I was never worried about this happening to me
This wasn't supposed to happen to me
How could it happen to me
Never in my life
Would I have ever thought
I'd be gasping and wheezing
Fighting for air
Never in my life
Did I think I'd be unable to live in my ocean
That my lungs would grow heavy
That my vision would start to go black
Never in my life
Did I think I would drown underwater
Am I Human?We all make mistakes,Am I Human?1 day ago in Free Verse
But they say it’s only natural.
We all learn from mistakes,
And it helps us improve for the future.
It’s what makes us human.
I’ve made mistakes here and there,
But they said to try harder next time.
I try harder over and over,
And it’s never enough to them.
This is what makes me human?
I thought we all make mistakes,
And learn from them and improve our skills.
But all it seems is that I do only wrong,
And that’s all the world sees in me.
But does that make me human?
I’m rated over my mistakes,
Instead of what I’ve achieved or can do.
I’m trapped in a shadow,
That’s filled with hatred towards myself.
So I’m really not human after all?
I just want to show what I’m made of.
I can learn from my mistakes.
I want to come out of this horrible shadow.
I wish to feel something other than regret.
I want to be human to.
But they refuse to see who I am.
They keep telling me I
ApparitionsYou have apparitions for friends,Apparitions3 days ago in Free Verse
they walk with you in the light,
and easy sun makes for easy conversation.
Laughter bubbles from your mouth,
your smile, bright,
everything is white, blinding.
Since when did everything seem so
Since when was
school a comforting place to you?
the edge of the horizon
draws near, black awaits it,
and fear grips your heart.
But you know that
you'll be fine.
They are your ever-present companions,
even now, they walk beside you.
But perhaps their images
are a bit more transparent than before,
and you find yourself lost in black.
You cannot see a thing.
Your throat constricts,
you're choking on your words,
and you don't hear a single word.
whispers from your lips,
and you realize it.
Not a single person
You know that once you step into
the light, they'll be right by your side again,
you stumble through shadow,
YouI don’t know the specific reasons for my loveYou1 day ago in Free Verse
The fact is, it’s unexplainable, beyond reasoning
When you speak to me, I hear every word
I remember it all, it’s like you talk directly to my soul
Your voice makes me smile, always, it’s simply beautiful
Your laugh is intoxicating, a drug, and I know a smile comes with it
Making you laugh, that joyful sound, is literally my favorite thing to do
You fill me with confidence, you make me brave, you make me feel invincible
You push away the doubts, fears, anxiety, depression, and pain
The most agonizing times of my life have become the most wonderful
Because of you.
You care for me in a way I’ve never seen before
And you let me know how grateful you are when I reach out to help you
I have never felt so purposeful, so successful, so… alive
As when we help eachother make life a happy place
There is a touch of destiny around you
The likes of which I have never found anywhere else
I have looked.