When the Sun RisesI miss the way you used to be.When the Sun Rises2 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
I miss the way you'd smile at me.
How the joy would make the corners of your eyes crinkle.
You'd laugh softly.
Shaking your head,
I miss that.
How real it sounded.
I listened to you now,
And that old little light melody of laughter is no where to be found.
You still laugh
But your smile doesn't quite reach your eyes.
I don't think I've ever met someone with such sad,
As you look upon yourself
And you can't help but despise what you see.
You used to walk,
With your head held high.
You don't anymore
You keep them glued to the floor.
Scared to acknowledge your train wreck of a life
That lays before you.
I still think you're beautiful though.
Even if you're growing faint
Like a sunset,
Falling into the darkness of the night.
With each slowly fading ray of light.
You're still perfect, and make people stop and stare in awe.
But just like the sun sets.
And you get pulled under into the dark of the night.
When all of your light is gone
I Am Only a MarionetteI am only a marionetteI Am Only a Marionette1 day ago in Free Verse More Like This
Dancing on a string
Forced to entertain the masses
For joy I'm meant to bring.
I am only a puppet,
A plaything to be shown.
I can't escape the mass's will
Or make decisions of my own.
I am just an instrument
Forced to bend to standards.
I cannot rise and free myself
Against society's banners.
I am only a marionette,
Made for other's sake,
Made to do as others wish
Until the day I break.
remember,when i was your lioness andremember,3 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
we ruled the world with
scattered light and
after all this time, i
still stay up late thinking of you,
pinching myself awake to keep the image of you in my head
until i hear you sing me to sleep.
we all have our demons, i was always yours.
waking up with bruises on my arms in an empty bed,
the devil inside of me whispers that it's not over yet, and
he pumps turbulence from my carved open heart into my saltwater blood
i feel every half-healed scar split op
en to bleed yet again.
wanting you is wanting the safety of the stars
when i'm already in free fall (into the grave).
my siren, i was born to die but you loved me into a phoenix.
Sing, Laugh, DanceSing like there's no tomorrow.Sing, Laugh, Dance2 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
Laugh like the world is whole.
Dance like your floating on air.
Love like you'll never see them again.
Kiss her like she's slipping away.
Hug him like you're unable to let go.
Make a promise like you intend to keep it.
Smile as if the sun was shining.
.Dear heart,.2 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
please stop falling
because one of these days
no one will be there
to catch y(our) fall.
ConfessionI am afraid that I am quite smitten by you.Confession20 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Whenever I think of you,
my heart skips a beat.
Every time I read a note or poem written by you,
every time we communicate,
I am full of giddiness and joy,
I want to be near you always.
I want to talk with you for hours,
even if it's nothing important.
I long for your embrace,
but fear I might not be who or what you are expecting.
I want to see you.
It's hard to imagine a life with you right now,
a life where we see each other every day.
There is one thing of which I am sure though,
and that is I don't want to imagine a world without you in it.
Without you in my life.
I crave contact with you,
might even be super clingy and needy.
That doesn't change the fact that I admire you,
admire your inner light.
Your support and loyalty help keep me going.
I'm not exactly sure if I love you in the same way you love me,
but I respect and value you,
holding your friendship dear.
I really want to say I love you...but...
Until we meet face to face and I ca
UntitledYou may have widened the chasm between us...Untitled2 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
You may have caused me to throw up my walls of silence...
You may have stabbed me with your words...
But they did not fall upon deaf ears.
From your words as twisted as the knots in my mind,
You brought me anger.
From your neglect of the glass heart that beats before you.
You brought me depression.
But neither could have caused the fear that has gripped my hold of reality.
Whether or not I tread between anxiety or paranoia.
But despite these fears,
Despite wanting to escape myself,
Despite horrid contemplations,
Despite being broken...
I now realize, that you have opened the door into something truly beautiful.
Battery AcidYou said my kisses were electricBattery Acid13 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
I have battery acid
In my veins
(there is no blood)
It will explain why I feel
So alive sometimes
and being alive makes me
and I know
and I hope
That I will
(just wait for it)
2am poetry (you're always the subject line)I wish that you were still here by my side2am poetry (you're always the subject line)3 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
instead of nestled in between the lines of my 2am poetry
because you deserve a better home than that
your name sits fervently on my lips
because I hope that with a whisper of those 5 little letters
that I can pull you from within the inscriptions on my
tree trunk ribs like a magician
pulling a rabbit from his silken hat.
I want to feel your words breathing down my neck
and your hands pressed against my quivering spine
as I stand at the edge of indecision--
you made me fear the fight rather than the fall
and now I'm addicted to the
the feeling of your wind beneath my wings.
we were an odd couple of misfits but we fit together:
you as the harmony and I the melody of a song no one else heard;
too many times I spent playing our soundtrack on repeat
as I danced across my room spinning &&
humming in the cold shadows of my lonely nights.
I wish that you were still here by my side
instead of nestled in between the lines of my 2am poetry
because I dese
the last poem i write about my depressioni want you to know that it took me yearsthe last poem i write about my depression2 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
to figure out the worst part. cause, sure, there’s
so many bad parts, there’s so many moments
when dragging air through your mouth feels
like letting in all the water. your body becomes
your own battlefield, your mind—the most
ruthless enemy. it does not cut corners.
it will not spare you. it will leave
no summer-tinted memory untouched.
every exit sign looks like a suggestion.
if you ask someone if they are happy they will say yes
but they will not look you in the eyes.
you will never learn how to feel permanent.
you will drink grape juice and try to remember how it felt
to be holy. you will not think of yourself as wholly,
you are not complete. something vital is missing.
some dark monster has been feasting on you
when you lay down for sleep.
these are bad moments. these are scars that mar your skin
like tattoos that have too much meaning, like a map
of all the dirt roads you’ve walked down.
some days i can
friday. you're delirious like the sun, furious burning from your heart with passionfriday. 2 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
through your red
lips, i found a lone red hair [lost in the blonde] and the urge to pull was too strong,
it's been so long since i gave up on hurting myself that i have withdrawal symptoms
from you. tell me what to do
you say stab and i'll ask how hard?
and which of your knives to use
some would call it abuse but i find it easier to appreciate
frailty when the wounds are free
and the blood is running rivers
really, i should punch my fears [rather than kick old habits]
but they leave me unconscious on the ground like death,
to appreciate living.
Small HandsI think back to better timesSmall Hands1 day ago in Free Verse More Like This
I remember the things you said
Oh how I loved it
But these small hands of mine you once called cute
Are just as fragile as my heart
And both are freezing,
Falling off in numb little pieces
The long nails on my fingertips,
Their claw-like points glistening,
Turned from orange to black
But these small hands of mine you once called cute
Are now numbing
Because there’s no one to grasp them
No one to hold them like you held me
I want someone to think of them just as you did
What a silly thing to wish.
The Goldfish Caught in the FilterOur brains naturally have a filter behind the frontal lobeThe Goldfish Caught in the Filter2 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
To keep our thoughts in balance,
Thoughts are chosen to be said aloud,
Others are chosen to be kept within the mind.
But I was born without said filter
So I had to build my own,
But instead I ended up building a brick wall.
Growing and developing through the impulses I had
None of which I could control,
No thoughts were balanced,
All were said aloud without any decision.
Day after day I heard their laughs,
Heard their harsh words,
Sitting alone on the unforgiving floor,
So I can be told I have a faulty brain.
Taking their threads and needles,
I sewed my mouth shut,
Creating my own bricks
And thus I created my unbreakable filter,
So silence can rain down on my skin,
But now I don't know how to undo the stitching,
Or let any thoughts pass through just sometimes...
NumbSometimes I feel fake,Numb1 day ago in Free Verse More Like This
But not like a plastic doll.
A different kind of fake,
Where I don't feel at all.
I feel so small
Beside the others with me.
They look down, laugh,
And smile with glee.
They don't have the shame and harm that I have to carry every day.
They love themselves
And smile real smiles.
They can even live
A real life that's worth while,
But what happens to the person who tries?
They try too hard
And get left to die.
Always yousnow in my shoe,Always you2 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
thinking of you
candid is easily digestible, mostly detestablei am the stray haircandid is easily digestible, mostly detestable2 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
i pull out of my head
when i run my hand
through my kinks.
(and magically believe
that i am going bald.)
that thing that people
really don't enjoy
because it gives off
the perception that they
are not good enough.
or something deep like that.
The Cloud Effect Every cloud... speaks too loud...The Cloud Effect13 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
in their incomparable voice, like no other sound
faraway this piece of ground,
as a riddle... never fated to be found.
Here, I stand... and hear...
as all forsaken, alone and forgotten
just a handful of golden sand
dust misplaced, lost in no man's land.
A thousand silences bring
your scent back to me
as the oriental wind passes caressing
the sassafras and the oleanders flowers against my skin.
A thousand whispers sing
your movement almost kisses me
as the night silk becomes a wing, touching.
the unwritten words and the chirping birds, my only sin.
A thousand cries sting
your tears are my own as they fall upon me
as the acid rain that is nothing more... than my irreversible pain
Oh, this is a game of memories masked in poems... imposs
Revive the WorldI'm back in the gameRevive the World2 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
But I'm not quite the same.
Though I'm not seeking fame,
You'll remember my name.
You'll remember my fight
To resurrect the light
That once burned so bright.
I'm returning your sight.
I'll chase out the pain
That drove many insane
And made the world profane
And some decisions inane.
The horrors I'll break
For humanity's sake.
The good I will take,
A renewed world I will make,
For I've seen the lies
And the final goodbyes,
The hopeless tries
And the bodies fly.
Over the years
And the weeping of tears,
The conquering of fears
As horror nears,
It takes one who fought back
In the hateful attack
To renew what we lack
And bring happiness back.
So come one come all
And recover from the fall.
Remove all the gall
And let's revive the world's all.
just for mei saw you look at mejust for me2 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
your head upside-down.
first thing i noticed
was your one hell of a blue ocean
that i drown in so much
PuppetA puppet dancing on tattered stringsPuppet15 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Falls as its ventriloquist takes their scissors
And cuts the doll's life away.
The MirrorYou are ready to judge meThe Mirror4 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
for what I am,
without even knowing
who I am
You are doing everything
you blame me for
without even realizing it yourself
And all this injustice
in the name of justice
Take a look in the mirror.
Don't Lie To MeDon't lie to me, you foolDon't Lie To Me8 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
I already know you're lying
And slowly breaking inside.
There's no need on hiding it.
Even if you hid it deep iniside,
I would see it at the end.
Nobody told you life was easy,
Something beautiful or even fair
No. Life is not like that at all.
No one is going to tell you
That life is really difficult,
Sad and incredibly painful.
We all have those dark days
When you want to do nothing
And life seems impossible.
Some people hurt themselves,
Others can't stop crying and
A few just hide in the darkness.
But you and I know the truth,
That there's a little light at the end
Which will take us safe to shore.
So, my advice is: Keep trying and
Keep living like there's no tomorrow,
Because you'll fall, but you'll get up again.
It doesn't matter what your wings are made ofDon’tIt doesn't matter what your wings are made of1 day ago in Free Verse More Like This
girls, and like the
Estonia or the
Titanic, I’ll sink
in your survivalist's
but since when
have you cared
for what fears or loves
your eyes are
But I fall asleep
all naked and chaotic
but a Pity-gatherer
in the way
that I die, and let
me just give in
to your white desire
(because what else
am I good for?);
quickly: ice pools
in my lungs
like glacial deposits
of Baltic salt.
So capsize my
alibies, and me
in a tadpole tide
of one monarch-
with a fear to burn.
RelentlessWhy won’t it leave?Relentless3 days ago in Free Verse More Like This
The parasite attached to my mind,
The accursed sleep thief,
Why won’t it see the signs?
I lay here at night,
Trying to kill it,
Yet it survives,
No matter how much I will it.
Get out of my head,
You unrelenting leech!
I want you dead!
Leave me, I beseech!
I try to forget about you,
Yet you will not go.
We both want you to,
You’ve made your choice known,
But you’re still here, through and through.
I can think about you no longer,
You who wants me not,
I need to be stronger,
So I can end the onslaught.