Disappearing Piece By PieceClosed doors.Disappearing Piece By Piece17 hours ago in Free Verse
Memories in scars.
Tears that fall unheeded,
and wishes from afar.
Disappear, oh Disappear.
Voices in my head,
I cannot entertain you.
I cannot end up dead.
You know that I won't stay forever,
so you up the Pain.
I still don't understand you,
though I know what you seek to gain.
You cannot have my body,
it's under my control...
and though you whittle away the pieces,
and I'm no longer whole...
I'm stronger than you think me,
stronger than I know.
Damn you Shadows!
I do not want to go!
I want to stay,
I want to see!
Please, oh please...
Just A GirlShe just a broken girl thatJust A Girl9 hours ago in Free Verse
pours her secrets into the night
in the form of melodies and
the fire that burns so bright.
She's just a naive girl that
writes random heartbreaking art and
tries to keep her heart from
She's just a girl that
tries so hard to survive in the world
filled with two-faced people and
endless inner wars that keep on burning..
Soldier BoyEyes of a killer,Soldier Boy12 hours ago in Free Verse
body of a child;
finger on the
trigger ready to
start the bloodbath
come Hell's hailstone
or Heaven's hatred.
(there is no God here.)
Jagged wired cutting
palms, cutting human
through him. Shuddering
trembles wrack the earth,
dirt staining his uniform
that is nothing like the
back home used to
parade around him. He
war was only
It's still a game,
but now he's just
a piece to be lost
instead of a player.
There is no pride
here, no King and
(for many there is
no tomorrow either.)
He raises his gun,
pulls the trigger and
somewhere in front of
him a body of another
boy falls into the dust.
(and still men march to war
for no reason at all)
heart stringsit seems every time i retire to bedheart strings11 hours ago in Free Verse
another crescendo starts up in my head
with oh so many insignificant things
the world does pull at my heart strings
always out of time does life perform
on my heart it's such a terrible storm
the perfect anthem to end it all to
a lullaby with which to say adieu
these songs of thoughts so bad
would be enough to send me mad
if not for the relief you bring
how in my heart your love always does sing
always does sing
always does sing
promise me"how much do you love me?"promise me21 hours ago in Free Verse
"i love you more than the stars,
more than the sand, more than the
water of a man
quenched, parched from desert storms
drenched in the sweat of
one thousand egyptian slaves—
i'm a slave to your heart, and i love you
more than i love dreams and
watching falling leaves on a fall evening,
we're a team and i love you more
than i love my mother,
i love you more than any other i had
ever waited for, that's how much
i love you."
"how much do you love me?"
"i love you more than life itself,
i love you like the sun loves its planets,
or how the planets follow the sun
wherever she goes.
i love you more than i love the stars
in your eyes because i love you."
"how much do you love me?"
"i love you more than anyone else,
unlike anyone else, that's why you're still here
but can you please stop asking how
much because one day i'll run out of words."
"how much do you love me?"
"i love you so much,
"how much do you love me?"
Gdybym teraz umarlaGdybym teraz umarła,Gdybym teraz umarla17 hours ago in Free Verse
Nic byś nie poczuł.
Nie przeszedłby Cię dreszcz,
Nie straciłbyś tchu,
Nie zabolałoby Cię w piersi.
Choć ja to wszystko czułam,
AnxietyShe doesn't sleepAnxiety23 hours ago in Free Verse
She doesn't eat
The fear runs deep
Her nausea she can't beat
Her chest runs tight
She's ready to fight
Invisible things..quite a feat
She's tough, she's clever
You would know if you met her
But her demons would make you retreat
At war with oneself
While still pushing forward
Is something you can't put on a shelf
She knows who she is
She knows what she can be
Is a part of me
Still I LiveHateful eyesStill I Live5 hours ago in Free Verse
are watching me
from a distance
waiting to see me bleed.
I can feel perverse
lips tasting me
while my knees
in my mind,
where I cannot go,
and lead where
I will not follow,
I see you there
with my hair.
I will take your
pain and make
it mine, it won't hold
me back, but
a voice to fight.
You are standing
in the shadows
of my soul
wanting to take
I feel your salt
in my wounds,
and I should
and I should
but I refuse
to be your grief.
Though I still
hear your call
in the distance
like a memory
in my bones
you would break,
I won't be destroyed
my heart still beats
strong, and others
now live in the space
you would command
CherishedI'm so weak.Cherished20 hours ago in Free Verse
My mind is a tumbling drain
of wet, dripping water.
I'm such an outcast.
I am not strong.
I stumble at the thought
of words and actions...
of coming to terms with my life.
I am not who you think I am.
You can call me anything you want to
and you can debase me and ridicule me,
think whatever you like.
I am not you.
I am so...tired.
Tired of waiting for rays to come...
of light shining on me
or soft darkness comforting
this body that cannot endure.
I am beaten and spent
of things that have no foundation
and I continue to be undermined
by things I cannot see.
Am I undermining me?
You can think whatever you like to.
Your eyes are not mine.
Your ears are not mine.
And when my love is gone,
who shall find...
The one I cherished for so long?
Unwrapping the PastI sit there like any other yearUnwrapping the Past8 hours ago in Free Verse
At any moment she will be here
I will run to her arms and grasp her
To see a hint of that shiny gold wrapper
My aunt will be here! My aunt will be here!
So I waited
One minute, an hour, a day
She never came
My mom picks me up the next day
I look at mom seeing the ice crystals in her eyes
Just about to melt with the most sorrow in her cries
To young to know what was happening
They say she has past
And I'm the one to find out last
To hard to understand in my little head
Everything has just gone really really bad
At such a young age what was I supposed to do
Everything seemed just so so blue
And as I grew
I most definitely knew
She was really gone
But it's been so long
Suddenly my tears are barreling through that wall
All my memories seem just to small
The only thing I remember and know
Are the chocolate gold coins she would give to me and show
Everything else faded with time
For what I can remember if I'm only the age of nine
I sit the
TaintedThis toxic feeling,Tainted21 hours ago in Free Verse
it continues to burn
within my soul.
My ears turn to flame
as needles pierce my heart.
Eyes turn to rock
and lungs get crushed.
Deadly poison and woes
leak out of my mouth,
too late to stop.
I want to be rid of this,
but I don't know how.
The pain keeps coming
and infects those around me.
I feel tainted
and sapped of energy
again and again.
screamthere is a time of nightscream20 hours ago in Free Verse
not quite dark
not quite light
that's when i start to dream
all life disappears
i start to scream
i dream of him and what he's done
his shadow envelopes me
i cannot run
he catches up, grabs my throat
screams and shouts
my stomach starts to bloat
i try to run, try not to cry
hand over my mouth
i slowly die
I'll Wait ForeverForest of letters,I'll Wait Forever1 day ago in Free Verse
Sealed with tears.
I miss you.
my first You were my first, yes.my first 12 hours ago in Free Verse
In the morning I open my eyes and realize
that dreams of my first being my Only
are not to come true,
for the man that I gave my heart to
turned it into pulp with his hands.
I knew I had to leave the warmth of the bed
when all I could feel were cool tears raining down my cheeks
and the very man who wiped them away and pulled me close to him,
was the very man who caused them.
The bed used to feel warm, safe.
But even in your arms,
My Only, my first,
I dreamed of the worst.
Fearing that this day would come,
the day I would wake up alone
the man I thought I knew.
NightNightNight21 hours ago in Free Verse
The sun sets
As I close my eyes
The world ends
As night begins
The nightmares come
You’re here again
But you rip my heart
And leave me broken
My eyes open
I’m here once more
There’s no sign of life
But my heart is sore
It’s still dark outside
When I get up to look
The sky cries
As do my eyes
There’s nothing I can change
Every reason to let go
You aren’t here
And I just feel so low
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Do you feel so damn lonely too?There are thousands, no, millions of people who suffer under depression, further more who hate themselfes so much that they hurt themselfes....and not at least hundrets of people - many people- who committ suicide. Every fourty seconds in this world. That says a study. And that is why I thought it would be “normal“ to think that way and in the end to even handle like I did...Do you feel so damn lonely too?6 hours ago in Free Verse
But now there is a person who crossed my way and „stellt sich in meinen Weg“. He shatters my delusion, what got me and cut m down...and this one person, who meant so much for me, but even yet smashes my whole life at the same time. This one and only person said I should crawl out of this nightmarelike dreamworld what made me think that it´s normal to be anorexic and suicidal..BUT I wont stop hoping that I´ll make it thru this...A couple of years ago I couldn´t even think about living till now, but hey I did lived that long and I will live even longer, I can take a deep
Blank WorldCan ears bleed from lack of sound?Blank World5 hours ago in Free Verse
No deaf ears can be turned around.
Can eyes burst from lack of light?
No blind eyes can stop this fight.
Can lungs burn from lack of air?
No more lungs are there to tear.
Can people die from lack of life?
No amount of that can heal this strife.
In need of help or attention whore?
It just won't stop there's always more!
Truly in love or afraid to be alone?
I should stab myself with broken bone.
Headaches for water or migraine of stress?
It just builds up, no time to rest.
Crying alone or never cry?
I just can't bring myself to die.
You can cry for help, but no one hears,
No sound has given them bloody ears.
You can wave them down, but none will stop,
No light has made their eyes pop.
You can listen close, but you will tire,
No air has made their lungs catch fire.
You reach out to them, but feel a knife,
Because of all this, you took your life.
What If What If I could actually make you all happy.What If1 day ago in Free Verse
What If I was the girl you wanted me to be.
What If I had someone who could hug me everyday when you slap me or make me feel like shit.
What If I could be happy.
What If you saw how much what you say hurts me.
What If you saw life in my eyes.
What If you could feel how broken inside I am.
What If one day I was just gone...
Would you even give a shit?
What If one day you saw me bleeding to death?
Would you try to save me?
If my blood stained the floors.
What if you could see how much I hate myself thanks to you?
Maybe then you will know my pain!
memories and bitterness You, the one who took my innocencememories and bitterness 22 hours ago in Free Verse
I hope you're out there drowning in guilt
I hope you know that you've lost it all.
No, I wasn't perfect
But I was way too much for you
I could have been stronger
but I'm not as weak as you
I hope our paths will someday meet
So I can savor your misery
When the feeling hitsOh it all chalked up to this.When the feeling hits6 hours ago in Free Verse
A leak in the ceiling,
A slap on the wrist.
And it never acted out.
Always stayed calm
even when you shout.
It held you tightly in place
Kept a warmth in your belly
a smile on your face,
But remember that leak in the ceiling.
Your floors rotting out.
And the smell of the dead
is really very stout.
Love you've got a problem
not a slight inconvenience
An addiction to substance
You'll soon need some credence.
FarI miss the way things use to be easy,Far21 hours ago in Free Verse
when the tears didnt fall so easily,
And I knew how to breathe without thinking about it.
I miss the way you use to be close enough for me to touch,
Now we're so much closer but you're so much farther away.
How did we become like this?
DeathwishI'm not afraid of darknessDeathwish9 hours ago in Free Verse
facing any danger
like a deathwish
No matter what challenge
that life has to offer
and whoever come to take me down
I'll never back down
I'll do anything for you
and everything for nothing
I'll handle all harship
and any torture alike
even if it kills me
for the pain that I endure
from not being accepted by you
has always been more painful
Into Infinitywe took a walk under the moonInto Infinity19 hours ago in Free Verse
under the watchful eye
of Artemis' suitor.
we walked on stone tightropes
as stars covered the earth
in their gentle, pallid glow.
dangling by frozen threads,
she and I gazed up into infinity.
she showed me how to live.
A look InsideWhy is everything so dark and coldA look Inside14 hours ago in Free Verse
This feeling, it grows very old
My eyes are sore and growing weak
This depression has hit a new peak
My mind has gone far and aways
It's so tired of these dark days
So many have tried to step inside
For the answers they try to find
But the answers aren't there anymore
As my face falls to the floor
I just don't want it anymore
Tired of feeling so sore
Everything just seems so bleak
It's all becoming just another week
I just can't seem to hide
All the pain I feel Inside
My world is tearing apart
That's why my mind just departs
But it my own personal fault
And now I feel I've become default
I'm just a shell bound for hell
Everything is grim like deaths bell
But is the sound just a tease
Oh god please put my mind at ease
Will I every find that sense of peace
Have I given my soul up for lease
Take it, it's of no use to me
All around me it's a disastrophy
Please someone set me free
I can't stand all that is me
But I'm the prisoner here
Long gone is the fear