.i have loved.14 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
i have danced
to the music of torture
i can forget the rest
PerspectiveAnd wasn't it tender,Perspective11 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
the way I asked for the moon
to a shooting star,
one silly night.
Wasn't it true
the way I held it
between my fingers
And didn't you smile
thinking how easy,
how easy it felt
that kind of happiness.
Don't tell me
it is impossible now,
go open the window
take the moon for a while.
the suicide hotline was unavailablethere are pill bottles cluttering up my bookcase,the suicide hotline was unavailable22 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
multiplying at such a rate that i begin to wonder
if they've somehow learned to reproduce.
they take up the empty spaces between
Wilde and King, Grimm and Pierce:
(the spaces between my lungs and my heart,
my fingers and my toes, the vertebrae
of my neck and spine; all the gaps
that you left behind when you died.)
it's 9 p.m. and i am finally waking up,
wishing that i could stay unconscious just a
little bit longer, only another ten hours or so,
buried away in my foxhole of a bed trying to
escape the war that's taking place inside my mind.
i thought that if i carried you on my body,
you would always be with me when i needed you.
instead i found that i needed you more and more,
and felt you with me less than ever:
the groundskeeper is getting tired of seeing me.
deficientwe're runningdeficient9 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
out of time, out of breath
and you're my forever
this tongue is forgotten
a set of gunpowder teeth
not fit for waltzing with
(why didn't you know earlier?)
i saw her make the sun
(but never smiling
brighter than herself, sky goddess),
i saw darkness
(call me harbourer,
bringer of night)
in all of its cold
we lifted a veil
i never thought
there'd be glass behind
to trap me and i'm
not shattered but
scattered across the sky
i'm drowning light
Autumn LeavesAutumn Leaves10 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
We only get to be mature
- our most glorious selves -
for the briefest of moments
RecollectLavender paintings blend.Recollect8 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Of lunar, blanketed streams.
Crystal teas withhold.
Ashen, stoneless dreams.
Without WingsI could clearly see the Milky WayWithout Wings9 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Clinging to the night sky
But I was not clinging to this earth,
No in fact I was trying to fly.
historicaseI find myself sayinghistoricase16 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
"it’s okay," a lot
a drunken slurred promise
to stay sober.
there are so many songs
I wish I cast in your
empty direction. I remember
the first time one
pulled a knot out of my throat,
etched it and clad it
on the vacant drum body
of numbness; none of it
was mine to keep.
just like you, or
dad or even my words.
they’re all evanescent lovers and
that no longer
terrifies me. I’m so readily
seduced and climbed onto,
I don’t know how much
of me had been truly
Yes, I Am Speaking of You Beauty.Yes, I Am Speaking of You3 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Not a word
You would use
In your vocabulary?
Do you see
Smiling at you?
Is a word
What will I say to haters?"Go the heck outta my way. You don't deserve anything from me, cause I now hate you for that friggin experience you've left on me."What will I say to haters?13 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Yeah, that's like my way to demostrate I'm NOT a stupid Spongebob freak.
My QuoteThe innocent minds are broken apart and torn down,My Quote17 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
The evil minds are stuck in a state of sadism towards the innocent,
The defiled minds are lost in the process,
The neutral minds are ignorant of the pain that the innocent...
Its simply a cycle of painful repetition.
FailureIs not an option,Failure12 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
I refuse to fail,
If I do fail,
I learn from those failures,
Getting back up,
Stronger than before,
I may have scars from the past,
But those scars show that I lived,
And that I will keep on living,
You can call me a failure,
That won't phase me,
Because I view myself as constantly improving
The Fear/PendulumAs each passing second,The Fear/Pendulum19 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Rushes and slows according to the hour,
I am not filled with relief,
fear breathes itself onto me.
What is beyond these four walls?
What lies ahead of me?
If only we could reverse the meaningless and meaningful,
We could do so much better.
Like knowing what really matters,
Than knowing who he kissed,
Or who she slept with,
Uncertainty would be just fine.
Should I just hope,
everything will fall onto place?
Or, doing that,
Makes me a fool?
Switch back and forth,
For my feet will surely be burned.
Which step to take, whose motion to follow,
All these things makes me go hollow.
So many questions in my head,
I wish they would all be dead.
I'm spun round' and round',
Pushed and shoved into every open door.
Sometimes the cookie-cutter of childhood is alright.
At least it gave me definiteness.
Can someone take my mind,
And cleanse it with answers?
Meanwhile, I'll swing on this pendulum,
Till' I lose grip and fate traps me.
Ohne dichAuch wenn mein Herz weintOhne dich7 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Gedanken im Schmerz betäubt
Bleibe ich doch stets geeint
Obwohl dein Fehlen mich zerstreut
Mein Leben ginge weiter
Viele Ufer noch zu entdecken
Auch ich werde wieder heiter
Der Schmerz wird sich bedecken
Aber ist es denn Leben?
Wenn ich mir mein Verlangen verwehre
Ist es tatsächlich daneben?
Das ich dich so sehr begehre
Wollt ich nicht stets alles geben?
Weil ich dich so sehr verehre
Egal was die Zukunft bringt
Und sei es noch so viel Glück
Ist es doch nur bedingt
Den meine Gedanken kehren stets zurück
Ich könnte auch ohne dich
Doch ich will es nicht.
ForgetForget the tearsForget14 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Forget the pain
Forget the fears
There's nothing to gain
Forget the one's that you thought you knew
Forget the memories that you believe to be true.
Forget the mistakes of your horrible past
Because there's nothing more wrongfully vast.
I want to forget all the tears I've cried
All the reasons to live have gone and died.
This feeling won't last forever, I know
But for now I'll let my weakness show.
Remember the good times you had
Remember how they made you glad.
I'll never forget how they made me feel
But I won't let them see my heart to steal.
Tonight I'll sing myself to sleep
Tomorrow look in the mirror and weep.
But it will be okay
Not everything stays grey.
It Doesn't Appeal To MeI don't want monstrous loveIt Doesn't Appeal To Me8 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
or wicked wishes and moonlight magic;
the romantic side of fatal misanthropy
is a cliche and mindless lie
perpetuated in a boiling
cauldron of youth,
but at least it
How To Be Beautiful (revamped)method 1—How To Be Beautiful (revamped)10 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
It starts with a razor
And it ends with
Your hands feeling broken
Stand there and you can see
The mechanisms powering your core
You only get to die once You might as well make it spectacular
(Tear yourself apart)
Don’t take any medication
Because that way you don’t
(I don’t need this, I don’t need this
[Everybody thinks it was you And you don’t have the courage to tell Them it wasn’t])
And don’t sleep for Days
Not because you can't sleep,
Because you don't want to wake
(Times have changed, Conjurer,
The shapes in your hand do nothing to
Prove your insanity)
Cry because a girl who you
Love is burning her heart
Cry because a boy you
Love is freezing his heart
Cry because you're not
The first choice
In this situation,
But rather the last
Crying makes your Eyes go Dull and
Boys like to pretend
That you are not looking at them.
Crying means the boy who sits n
InsomniaI feel like I should let you knowInsomnia12 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
I've left the past to time.
It's become lost, because your life,
Bereft lessened by all your lies;
And if I did then wish to go
To fail to find my future right...
I have since seen a cresent light
That shines at night a path to show
A way from where I can not dream
In steps that had so long been free
To seek the 'marrow following.
j u x t a p o s eone mississippij u x t a p o s e14 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
trembling rhythm beats
stark upon the fragile pulse
of a riptide, the shaking
bone of a cemetery queen
carved in marble and
frantic oxygen, a body
that is no longer real
you are an altar and i
am a pyre: you grow the
vines, i burn them up and
coil and twist my skin until
i am among the stars, roots
wrapped around the earth
to choke your fucking temple
primal drumbeat of a skin
stitched senseless with
words and drenched in
sky, in ecstasy and hidden
things keep your eyes wide
with the hype i never caught
start a war in your spare time
what a goddamn gorgeous
of a crucifixion.)
Meet AnorexiaLook at the smiling girl in front of youMeet Anorexia18 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
She looks healthy right
She isn’t though. because of who?
Whoever it is it has taken her light
It’s made her skinny
By taking away her fat
Has made her mini
And has made her look like a bat
People wonder and ask questions
Asking “How did this happen”
They give her suggestions
But they can’t help their poor maiden
They learn who took her light and life
Meet Anorexia who gave you grief
Love?Some people say that they know what love feels likeLove?21 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
But you cant truly know what it feels like
Until you've lost the one you love
Until you were dumb enough to take them for granted
Until you stupidly said yes when you got asked out
Until you see them crying
Until you know that you hurt them, but they wont admit it...
Until you realize
That no matter how hard you try
No matter who your with
Your never gonna get over them
You know why?
Because they were the best thing that ever happened in your life...
They tore you away from your ex, and it was the best thing ever
They were your little secret when you were with that ex
You both felt guilty but god....
It was heaven when you were together
And hell when you weren't
And you wished... good god you wished
That they could move to be by your side, hell you even prayed to your 'god' just to get them here
You were banned from talking to them
So you spend your hours at night, when you were suppost to be sleeping, to
castigationi prayed until my lips went numb,castigation22 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
scratched my skin until it bled
but still i have no answers
and i'm terrified, darling, terrified -
you quit me,
left me standing on the precipice
with a cherry pit for a heart
and a bowling ball in my stomach -
(it has a gravitational pull
all its own).
you hung me,
left me strung out on the clothesline
to dry, like yesterday's laundry -
and the crows settled 'twixt my bones
to peck out a heartbeat
to replace the one I could no longer bear.