he saved me, but he killed me.he saved me1 day ago in Free Verse More Like This
i. first light- i met you in a crimson forest.
it was a rose garden summer, and out of a black mercedes
you walked out, your five year old eyes greener than
you reached up to pluck a rose from its stem, and offered it to me.
"what's your name?"
daddy told me that i couldn't tell strangers my real name.
I looked at the rose in my hand.
you smiled, you were a seastorm of now long-gone innocence.
i didn't understand
but I knew.
ii. i forgot about you for
1562 days, 11 hours, and 22 minutes,
my name, but i didn't recognize you
until i saw your eyes.
iii. my father fell and didn't stand back up again.
i screamed, and you carried me home.
iv. i didn't talk for a week.
i stared at the gray of the sky. it was the color of my father's eyes.
you sat next to me in the pouring rain,
God's PaintbrushI've learned that God's paintbrush is incredibly flawed,God's Paintbrush15 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
with lashes picked at, and bristles torn nearly off.
I don't think everybody likes what God paints,
because we're always trying to smear it away.
We cut off a few pounds, or cut up some skin,
when we soil the paper, we throw it in the trash bin.
I think His paper has been sauntered with tears,
or blood, and vulgar language from our peers.
Like others have taken His brush and dipped it in oil,
and have painted themselves, in a way that's soiled.
I knew that God's paintbrush was incredibly flawed,
but that doesn't mean that we should change it at all.
“Beauty is in the eye of the beholder,” they say,
perhaps it would be better to keep it that way.
I'm incredibly certain that God makes no mistake,
I think that we do, when we try to be fake.
When we take His art into our own hands,
and when we ruin the strokes that He carefully commands.
I don't really think that God wants us to be perfect,
if so, then He wouldn't take th
i think of bones encased in goldcall me sisyphus; my wristsi think of bones encased in gold6 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
grip napalm nations & i am
parasympathetic. i speak
in cigarettes, more stippled
spinal cord than american
romanticist. sanguinary, pocked,
my pleural cavities leak
prozac pills & -
oh, this body has never
belonged to me.
leave your apology beneath the pillowdarling starling ileave your apology beneath the pillow21 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
cleaned up while you were
gone, swept your
sins into a little
neat pile over there in
the corner i know you didn't want
to mourn her, your
spurned daughter you
scorn her, you forger, you
i hung the
up on the wall and oh
what a gorgeous display of
rabid infidelity insecurity
there's no remedy but what a
desire a glorious spire a
of vengeance in remembrance here
we tumble elastic
and honey coated i
hush my dear your misdemeanours
are talking sweet
talking oh the beat
of a heart, it looks like hope
was not invited
Say that to my face, c'monScreaming, ear splitting shrieks,Say that to my face, c'mon22 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
seconds of panic before realisation;
Just another argument,
but they don't think,
doesn't occur that it is I
who pays for the fallout:
inability to sleep,
clammy hands and shaking fingers,
dry mouth and limp tongue,
years of fear bottled
into a moment on repeat;
The scratched record of overtensioned muscle
straining against flight,
desperation to escape,
pleading for a ceasefire, an end
of voices ringing off magnolia walls
as gunfire in a concrete cell
ricochet, deafen, chip away
piece by piece,
blunt nails grazing raw skin,
a bloodied canvas too close for comfort,
Clean the entrails from your boots
and watch invisible stains glow
under forensic blacklight,
another confiscation for impound
under scrutiny of incompetent courts,
crooked judges with lice ridden wigs
growing fat on bribery and contaminated cookies
from mildewed, grimy jars,
hands down trousers in erotic gluttony,
A fistful of hair, of lust,
Catch MeI would tear down my wall,Catch Me20 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
All so I could fall,
Into a ocean of tears,
Swarming with my fears.
I can't turn away,
I've been anticipating this day.
Because now I'm at the edge of a cliff,
But my body is so stiff.
Is fear holding me back?
Is it courage that I lack?
Or is it just you,
The one who can see through?
Are you going to be the one,
Who will make the pain gone?
And would catch me before I fell,
To my own personal hell?
You can heal every wound,
So I am no longer forever doomed.
You were the one who set me free,
And the only one to catch me.
The Phoenix is a LieI am not a phoenix.The Phoenix is a Lie21 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
If you burn me down
I won't rise from the ashes
fresh and smiling
wiser and forgiving.
I am like a tree.
Try to set me ablaze
and I will smolder
for endless days
and my leaves will fall like tears
before I wither
a skeleton still standing
and the only thing to rise
will be a new me
scarred, and by the fire
I am now twisted.
Be mine. Marry me. Be mine forever.Be mine,Be mine. Marry me. Be mine forever.19 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
and I’ll make sure to kiss your nose instead of your lips when the sun rises,
and to wear your clothes as the kitchen is flooding
with our laughter.
Make me yours,
and I’ll listen to every word coming from your mouth,
hold you when things get hard,
and embrace you when you make me laugh.
and we’ll slow dance to that love song
from day to dawn,
breathing in each other’s exhales
and painting I love you on each other.
and we’ll grow older with each other,
making stories and memories that only you and I will know.
Let’s be each other’s
Past and future.
Now and always.
The Better Part of MeYou were the better part of meThe Better Part of Me14 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
A star in this heartbroken sea
My stolen destiny
I look to the sky for ease
But find only pipe dreams
Remnants of your memory
They sing in chorus
"If you forget me,
If you forget me,
I'll be here waiting,
If you forget me..."
Eyes ShutFragile is their natureEyes Shut14 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Built to die
Mocked by morrow
And permitted by fate
Cursed nor fortuned may hide
All equally wilt
But humanity is blind
And filled with fantasy
So I will play my part
Humor their foolish paradise
For little do they know
I am death
America x Navy!Reader --- HomeAmerica x Navy!Reader --- Home15 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
People chatter away in anxiousness
Waiting for loved ones to come home safely
I too stand here watching in helplessness
Anticipating for the great navy
The ship finally arrives at the dock
Heros reuniting with family
Through the crowd I see you and our eyes lock
Body and minds synchronized naturally
In one motion, I have you in my arms
Uncontrolled sobs wracking inside of me
These long years I've failed to keep you from harm
Instead you were fighting out at sea
However, you no longer have to roam
I am here for you forever at home
He was her Angel and she was his DemonHe was the angel, dropped away from heaven out of jealousyHe was her Angel and she was his Demon1 day ago in Free Verse More Like This
Walked around rejected, beaten, and bleeding
Grabbed a blade and cut his angel skin
But little did he know someone was there in the world to heal him
She was not like the other angels he met
But she was already in a relationship
He though he was only able to be friends then
But it turned out the two she dated shattered her soul
The battered angel soothed her and healed her scars
But unfortunately, his powers were limited at her broken heart
Eventually her scars were fully healed
But the angel himself was still in tears
And while they were in complete opposite
He refused to let that get in between
The angel finally said "I love you."
But was scared she would say "Fuck you."
But instead, the demon said "I do too."
And every time he was sad or began to cry
She snuggled him and whispered "Shh.. It's alright."
Both of the lovers were hurt by life
But they both tried to hang on tight
No matter what struggles they went through
Not aloneI want to quit, to end this game.Not alone2 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
But what would I have left to gain?
If I left this world in passing, would roses pile up high?
Though I know I won’t be missed in passing, I know it’s not my time to go.
I may be ugly, but I’m beautiful.
I may be stupid, but I’m smart.
I may feel useless, but I’m wonderful.
I just wish I felt those things.
When I look in the mirror I long to smile, and feel really pretty.
Yet I only see a lying shell.
I’m cold and hopeless, and I wish to leave.
But a kind hearted soul has beckoned me
And asked me to stay, and asked me to smile.
I try day by day to get through this way.
I know now I’m not alone.
Because the greatest thing I have come to learn,
Is I am not alone.
The Man Who Stood Ten Stories TallI wish I could love as passionate as you areThe Man Who Stood Ten Stories Tall16 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
That my breath would freeze as a storm or steam
instead of slipping into your throat
I wish that I could be a rose
and that you'd know where to hold me
the space between my thorns and soft would glow
I am human, I am human, I am human
.They hold such hatred for me,.19 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
My actions damned me;
A crimson gaze
From beyond the grave.
MockeryPortrays mere darkness within your heart.Mockery12 hours ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Monster...Monster...19 hours ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
His little whispers,
"Love me, love me
That's all I ask for
Love me, love me."
He battered his tiny fists to feel something
Wondered what it's like to touch and feel something
How should I feel?
Creatures lie here
Looking through the window
That night he caged her
Bruised and broke her
He struggled closer
Then he stole him
Violet wrists and then his ankles
Then he slowly saw their nightmares were his dreams
How should I feel?
Creatures lie here
Looking through the windows
Hear their voices
I'm a glass child,
I am Hannah's regrets
How should I feel?
Turn the sheets down
Murder ears with pillow lace
There's bath tubs
Full of glow flies
Bathe in kerosene
Their words tattooed in his veins!
Mind TriggerThere are things I wish I could say.Mind Trigger18 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I dwell on them, each and every day.
They upset, and trigger me,
Spiraling down into anxiety.
They make me wish I were dead,
There's no escaping,
The thoughts I dread.
It's a constant battle,
With the monsters in my head.
My worries are likely untrue,
But at the first sign of possibility,
I see a darker side of you.
I turn into a psychopath,
Fits of crying, and days of wrath.
Seeing such signs is sickening,
And the air I breathe begins thickening.
I can not help,
What invades my brain.
It often causes guilt and shame.
It isn't something, I'd likely tell.
That may make my life, a living hell.
I wish these thoughts,
Would go away,
And the true of them,
Would learn to stay.
I wish I could say,
That I'm okay,
But I'm not.
childhood was an ignorant timei used to think the world was perfectchildhood was an ignorant time4 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
i used to think that my parents
were not the type to fight
was not the type to cry myself to sleep
i used to think i was beautiful
and maybe i was at one point
but everyone else
certainly doesn't think i am
(i don't think i am)
i used to think that
people never lie
but it seems to me now
that's it's all they ever do
SirenThe siren's song.Siren4 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Sinking beneath the waters.
I don't mind.
My love drips from her lips.
The light is overrated anyway.
Outcast Nimbus - Blue Bird CollaborationOutcast Nimbus - Blue Bird Collaboration9 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Orchards of feathery foliage tints the dark night
where winged creatures love and dream, long after twilight
with quiet, little white larks sleeping in their hearts
jewelled skies break... the universe ends… the universe starts
shaking the gleaming blue galaxies from its silken skins
the sound of silence, behind eyelashes invades and wins
weaving porcelain soul-birds out from the rain
they look like solitary river pearls... so sad,
replacing the infinite tears... so mad...
The brilliant cloak drops off losing its heavenly feathers
regardless of torments or other forsaken weathers
revealing a hand pointing to nowhere, pleading to no one...
so alone... so very inhumanly alone...
bringer of the winter and the wind
poems are crystallized beneath my shifted wing
like the sorrows behind the crows
following me as shadows.
My Nimbus stays
my brighter side and
my shadowed side
which is more or less human
is never revealed,
IgnoredI am ignoredIgnored13 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Only when alone
And need to talk
But nobody answers their phone.
I am ignored
When I need people
To protect me from my thoughts
That only contain evil.
I am ignored
When I love someone
To only get told
That our friendship is done.
I am ignored
When there is nothing
To do in my life
Except to be bored.
I am ignored
Just a plain fact.
But why you may ask?
I'm still trying to figure out that..
By your sideThe sadness in your eyes is oldBy your side14 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Days, months and years have sank them into gloom
A joyous thing such as love baffles
For the past has shown you that's a dark fable
Filled with jilt, neglect and abuse
But I won't leave you to suffer within
So, patiently I wait
Always by your side