Frozen DairyI thought it was love,Frozen Dairy6 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
I swear to God I thought it was,
But I was so very wrong,
It was better,
It was roleplaying,
It was new phrases for things I took for granted,
It was excitement for the little things,
It was music,
It was laughing till I cried,
And now I have to wait,
The new chapter might take awhile,
But I will patiently wait to open the book again
What happens on my skype callsCrash: "I'm shoving mots in my mouth."What happens on my skype calls3 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Me: "What are you, Dianite?"
AdolescenceAdolescenceAdolescence3 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
looked into my teenage daughters eyes,
Beautiful, never-ending, brown eyes
With long, black lashes most of us envy.
In delving deeper there seems to be
Soul tears in her eyes, an illusion.
Water film covering and then flowing.
Perfectly formed eye corners running.
She feels her life has been unfairly furled.
She must come to me with her gray world.
I have been in the misty youth abyss
Tears flow today when nothings’ amiss
And continuous laughter tomorrow.
When she finds me at her lowest low
Then we will unravel the knotted twine
Mixed peer pressure, emotions unwind.
My only hope is the life flood waters
Don’t drown the soul light of my daughter
Heather Y. Mayhew
Hold mePleas hold meHold me5 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Hold me tight and say you'll be mine forever
I know the look in your eyes
It's not true it's all a lie
And it hurts
It burns at the very center of my being
As an ache, a cavity or an empty crater at the bottom of my heart
But the tears I cry will suffer in silence
Because your voice carries voice no weight value or worth
I gave you my heart and my word
You broke both
I gave you love yet I received none
I could shout using all the hate in the world
But what would that make me
I said I love
And I still do
The UltimatumAn ultimatum has been given,The Ultimatum48 minutes ago in Free Verse More Like This
To leave with uncertainty and forsake all I've known,
or to stay and lose what I've longed for.
The powers at work, I beg of you to grant me the serenity to push forward,
the fact I ask of your divine intervention reveals my malignant disposition.
Please grant me the peace I need,
deliver me from this madness
Fallen AngelDo you see it?Fallen Angel3 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Do you see the angel above you?
Lost in its' despair
losing its shine
wings will not save it
they too are broken
crashing into the sea
drowning in a sea of sorrow
never-ending despair surrounds her
things aren't always what they seem
A Fallen Angel she is
deeper and deeper she sinks
into the mighty darkness
voices surround her, calling her name
arms embrace her, gripping her limbs
harder and louder they scream and tug
until she can take no more
MoreI wish I could be more for you/I'm just the girlfriend/You say that's all you need me to be/But just being the girlfriend doesn't bring me much satisfaction/Call it being selfish/I need to be more to give me some sort of purpose/Who really gives a shit about the girlfriend title/We live in a world where wives are praised/Aren't I playing the part anyway/I've never been one to push/But I'm starting to grow weary from pretending/No more talks of rings and ideas of proposals/It's all a tease to me/I no longer want to get excited about it/As long as you're not sure if you want to make it a reality/Not as long as you're not ready for me to be moreMore1 hour ago in Free Verse More Like This
The SunThe sun’s just another of many dim lamp postsThe Sun1 hour ago in Free Verse More Like This
I walk past those inhuman or ghoulish ghosts
The ashes of the angelic fallen pollute the air
As I meet face to face with a ghastly stare
My lord, my teacher, my mother, my father
Will I have to dread and suffer further?
Again with the stare, the infernal kind of heaven
No answer, but a riddle was given
“My child of both bold and shrewd,
Feed not yourself with egotistic food.
You do not lack potential and ability you see,
But life will not go on without mercy of its fee.”
How very off, this ghastly thing
Must I explain again about this Hell that it brings?
I am mocked by these monstrous mortal souls
And so I am emptied of my bright joyous bowl
It no longer shines upon the void of my days
Within my caged horrid body it stays
To devour everyone’s light as they speak
To isolate me so that my life will remain bleak
“No child, your happiness is of your own making
It is no other, but your own fault” it says, sco
If I go to Heaven tomorrowIf I go to Heaven tomorrow,If I go to Heaven tomorrow3 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
can I look forward to greeting you there someday?
I couldn’t help but think about it this morning.
Not every day is guaranteed.
Despite good intentions and safety measures,
there’s no fool-proof way to guard your Earthly life.
Will I see you there?
I’m scared if not.
I’ll be safe, happy, and filled with eternal light.
If you go to the alternative…
My heart breaks at the thought of never seeing you again.
I won’t preach.
I won’t force my views.
But know that I love you.
And it’s that love that makes me fear for you.
I’ll be okay, no matter what.
But what about you?
If I go to Heaven tomorrow,
will I be able to embrace you and tell you this?
Words"I love you"Words6 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Words I dreamed of hearing.
The one phrase I had trouble believing.
"I'm proud of you"
Words that I hear constantly
But never really heard.
"I'm unique and one of kind."
The only words I know are true.
Because it's really hard to lie to your
My CreditSometimes, I believe I'm not getting the credit I deserve.My Credit38 minutes ago in Free Verse More Like This
My poetry, my short stories, little written pieces…
I feel like nobody bothers to observe
them, but I think they're quite okay once needed.
Sure, they might not be well,
But surely I can tell,
Whether or not I'm proud,
Of the work that I have done.
Then, I see others receiving credit.
But nobody bothers to ring
Comments, I don't need.
Nor do I want favourites.
All I want is for somebody to read
My work and appreciate it.
People seem to admire my worst,
Just to show that they saw me.
But that's not the limit of my capabilities,
And I don't mean to burst.
And now we're fudged,"
Said a wise man one day.
My inferior stuck,
So now I'm fudged myself.
As I've said before-
pay attention to the door!
Watch it open and close,
Don't keep your nose
Crammed into the same image you see regularly,
Because one day there won't be a bathroom for you to pee.
You'll have to go out;
Forced to pass the
You make me smileYou, make me smile.You make me smile50 minutes ago in Free Verse More Like This
Not one that is faked, or forced.
But a genuine smile.
One that hasn't shown itself upon my face in a very long time.
Somehow I don't know what I did,
to deserve all of this.
But I guess it means I must have done something right.
To have you in my life, and make me smile so much.
It just works.
I would have never guessed you would become a big part of my life.
A real friend, who actually cares.
I wouldn't have even dared to dream of this, yet here I am.
I finally have someone who makes me smile like an idiot.
Who just lifts up my spirits simply by being around.
You may have no idea this is about you, yet I'm so thankful.
For now I have a true friend.
The plastic bagThe plastic bag thatThe plastic bag53 minutes ago in Free Verse More Like This
suffocates my heart
has been etched in burning colours
with the words of my fate.
Entwined in their meaning
The plastic bag that
suffocates my heart
shows me there’s no end
‘til heartbeats cease to echo
through my body, and with it
I suffer eternally in this single tiny point
in our relative four-dimensional coordinate system.
The plastic bag that
suffocates my heart
sucks up, chews up, spits out all my words
that may have sounded good
before being thought of,
and were only being felt;
Before feelings became a meaningless ramble.
The plastic bag that
suffocates my heart
suffocates my mind,
suffocates my muscles,
suffocates my soul.
Breathe into me ‘til you get tired of trying.
TensileThis dock used to be idyllicTensile1 hour ago in Free Verse More Like This
And now stands in the stillness
Of the lake it overlooks, only
Touched by the wind, solely
Purposed to last a single time.
Dilapidated boards once natural
Are painted over, but still tensile.
The ants burrowed through the white
And returned, overgrown overnight.
This is an eyesore to most, but really
I think a beautiful end is congealing,
As flecks of pollen float around
Me in droves without a sound,
Save for the raging wind
That whips ripples, forming gin
From the lifeless waters that hold
A memory warm in a future cold.
KnowledgeI wonder why I thinkKnowledge6 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
when you were nothing to me
in that period of time
but a constant smiling
tone of your voice frozen in that
ever constant lilt of kindness and apology
pasted onto the yearbook photo.
I wonder why
I know nothing of you
when we were sitting side by side
A nervous hatred twisted my heart staying calm and cool
instead of being friendly to you
and for that I am sorry
that we shared the same spotlight
but I never once opened my mouth.
Just the weak child
Afraid of rejection as usual
was simply holding her breath
and hoping to look like an adult
worthy enough to be in your presence
to leave an impression on you
so that you wouldn’t forget me.
That person on the corner of my eye
a few meaningless words
constant pasted face
frozen in simple emotion
that all look so easy to you
so that I can’t see anything inside.
I know why
I think of you.
Frightened, hopeful, curious
to see more
of a person
that reminds me
so much o
I want to love meI want to love me.I want to love me4 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Learning to love myself was never that easy,
but when the music plays
and when the night comes
and the morning rays disappear...
I still hear your voice
and see your smile.
The sun is shining and the sky is blue
on my worse nights
because of you.
(But those are my worst days).
I don’t want to run away from this love I feel anymore.
Do you think I can manage to transform it into my life and be
forever falling, but remain whole through my actions?
I know it doesn’t work that way,
but can it work that way this time?
For I feel like nothing, nothing without you...
BUT YOU WERE NEVER MINE.
And it was you that I look up to, you, you, you.
You’re the one that I want here
and the only one I want near.
Even if not lovingly nor caringly,
friends is not such a terrible thing as some people speak of.
Yet, it was never an option.
My mind transforms you from ideal to ideal.
Friend come near;
embrace me once more tonight -
because the night of nights
need not ever
The Little ThingsAll throughout life we're given the little things.The Little Things7 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
And even though we might care deeply for them at first,
we soon forget.
We forget how much they meant to us.
We forget how we felt the first time we saw them.
Gradually, we even forget how much we love them.
Life doesn't slow down for anyone,
and being swept up with other things is okay.
As long as you take a part of everyday to remember them.
They won't forget you.
Just One Look.Just one look...Just One Look.2 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
I have always wondered what those green eyes would look like staring into mine,
I have cast my looks his way, looking to find out, time after time.
How would the connection feel, electric green, to a sea of blue,
How would they contrast, the feeling would be new.
Without his friends intruding his space,
Without hate, forever on the case.
Please, God, Just one look,
for my memory book,
No, I'm a liar,
Its for my desire.
Ramblings 9And as I tread this lonely passage,Ramblings 94 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Greeting strangers along the way,
I wonder if there's something out there
That shines clarity into each day.
"And if it kills me
That's the way i want to go"
On a journey
Past the way
So many things
I've battled for.
Savages; we're all
A faulty blessing; nonetheless
We carry on.
Always ready to fight,
Endless battles with constant defeat
Is an escape a possibility?
Is everything somehow incomplete?
So confusing, obnoxious, limitless;
As if caught in streaming, endless bliss,
Or bitter, bloody, agonizing lies;
The worst of the world wears the best disguise.
It's always screaming
It might look like nothing's there
No words escaping.
But it's so LOUD all of the time.
Everything is so dramatic
And I know it doesn't make much sense -
Sometimes, I'm still surprised to see myself.
Breathing. Moving. Working. Thinking.
The more I try to open, the more I feel held back.
I haven't had any words for a while;
Halfway through the year,
Life and ReasonDon't look for answer, it is not.Life and Reason8 hours ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
Seek not in others.
Give your life a reason, Give yourself purpose.
Live in love...
It is the way.
The only true way..
FamilyThere once was a family: it was very happy.Family3 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
This family, quite healthy, perhaps as healthy as one could be,
Did share all secrets with each other, and as such had non amongst sister or mother, father or brother.
None too afraid to speak their heart, no matter how delicate the subject, whether science, politics, or art.
Smart, eloquent and well-groomed each member were.
Not pretentious, or posh and quite mindful of any slur.
Each one a philosopher in his or her own rite, all appreciating wisdom and words with strong insight.
As such, each did all but well in any topic formal education brought; Distinctions in abundance hung on a large wall, yet more achievement each one sought.
The motherhood, Mirabella, quite a maternal figure and loving sweetheart one should admit. An ear referred to for understanding and cherishment, ever exhausted of caring she most certainly weren't.
The father, brave as can be, his leadership unmatched by many, and as much did to his relationships commit. For advi
lovelessBeneath your gaze I dont exist my heart beats blood out through my wrist till every drop of need is on the floorloveless1 hour ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
My body aches my spirit breaks what happened to the give and take? When did you close my heart between the doors?
To hold you to have you touch me is that so much to ask for from our rite?
You keep me held away at length the distance sapping all my strength
I cry for us thru cold and loveless nights
To pray for more is lost to me
For i no longer care to be
Ill fade into eternity
Without your lovers kiss your touch on me
Dilemma Of My LifeI feel so down,Dilemma Of My Life3 hours ago in Free Verse More Like This
Yet I don't feel alive.
A mindless soul,
Walking in the abyss of the unknown,
The future blurred,
Left reminiscing the past,
Drowning in the present,
Wishing for a better day,
But my hopes and dreams died,
When the sun set yesterday.
What am I doing?
Where am I heading?
Questions that circle my head,
Doubting my purpose of existence,
Yet deep down,
I know what I'm here for,
I know my future destiny,
I'm unsatisfied knowing what I'm meant to do.
No goals, dreams or hopes,
No wishes, motivation to try,
Everything I consider,
Dragged down by anxiety,
Crushed by my depression,
Torn until the idea is no more,
And once again finding myself,
Stuck in a spiral of unwanted despair.
Two years of therapy hasn't helped,
And two years more wouldn't be any d