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A lot of people have been asking me about Asperger's syndrome and some of my experiences with it and some of the conditions. This is largely because, on the internet at least, I seem to be good at hiding it. Most people I meet here don't know that I have Asperger's syndrome unless I directly tell them. I do have it, but what exactly does it mean? First off all, please don't use this as a way to diagnose yourself. If you think that you have Asperger's syndrome, depression, or any other mental condition please see a licensed psychiatrist. You cannot self-diagnose mental conditions. (Hmmm... I kind of have that symptom sometimes, I MUST have this disorder!) Asperger's syndrome is known as a high-functioning autism, and as such many of the symptoms are similar, and yet, in some ways it's very different.

The most notable symptoms of Asperger's syndrome come from issues with social interaction. Most people seem to notice this because there are a lot of people claiming to be an asshole on the internet because they have asperger's syndrome. Asperger's syndrome does not make you an asshole. What it means is that they have a hard time learning all of the non-verbal parts of social interaction, like body language. Believe it or not, one thing that I cannot do with people I don't know very well (even some people I do) is look them directly in the eye. It locks me into anxiety. I'm able to get around this by looking in the general-eye area when I have to do that, but that's just me. And yes, social anxiety is very common in Asperger's syndrome, although it most likely isn't a direct syndrome. People with Asperger's syndrome tend to stick to themselves in school and such, and the kids who stick to themselves tend to be picked on. It actually would not be easy for them to break out into conversations because it's physically and mentally exhausting. If I've had an extended conversation with a lot of people by the time I get to bed I have a headache and I'm fatigued, almost as if I did a workout.

Asperger's syndrome might not explain why I've been an asshole to someone, but it does explain why lately I've been obsessed with Pokemon. One of the hallmarks of asperger's syndrome is how they react to their hobbies and interests. Once they find something that they like doing, they need to learn everything about it, and can spend days/weeks on that particular thing. Sometimes though, those interests change. Yes, a person with Asperger's syndrome can have their entire life revolve around model planes one month and then 80's sitcoms the next. Even though it often changes, don't knock their passion. It can go up to almost fetish-levels of interest. On the plus side though, they seem to rotate. This isn't the first time that I've personally gotten this into Pokemon. This is kind of a double-edged sword though. These rotating interest can actually make it hard to find a career that they'll be happy with for a sustained period of time. On the other hand, they pick up a lot of knowledge on various activities and may make good writers (the more knowledge you have on fringe subjects, the better). Coincidentally, people with Asperger's Syndrome are very easy to shop for. So yes, if you're wondering why lately I've been obsessed with Pokemon I can legitimately blame it on Asperger's syndrome. The only time this becomes a problem is if I start to derail conversations to talk about my latest interest. You're free to call me out on that if I o it.

The way people with Asperger's syndrome think is a little bit weird. Remember that joke in Family Guy where Quagmire is listening to a radio song in his head? Well, that's actually kind of the way that I think... except instead of songs, it's movies. My memories and thoughts are highly visual, and yes, this has been an absolute blessing in writing my scripts for my reviews. It also leads to highly logical thinking, and I mean Phoenix Wright level of "logic." This is why sometimes I give the weirdest metaphors. This is why they have a hard time socially interacting. Society is not logical. People are no logical. They do unpredictable things, and unpredictability, a place where things cannot be properly accounted for, is a nightmare to someone with Asperger's Syndrome. People with Asperger's Syndrome tend to speak their mind without regards to the feelings of others. This has been a blessing and curse to me, if you've seen well, any of my videos. But on the bright side that kid who says he insulted you because he had asperger's syndrome? You can rest assured knowing that that was his actual opinion and he's not trying to hide it.

One of the best media portrayals of Asperger's syndrome I can even remember is River in To the Moon. There are some spoilers here, so if you haven't played the game, go do that. River wants to tell her husband Johnny of a secret between the two of them, so she keeps making origami rabbits. Johnny has memory problems, so there isn't a way for him to "get it." Most people would think that the easy way out is just for River to tell Johnny the secret, and to most people yeah, it is. To a person with Asperger's syndrome communication is a huge problem. They do these things, almost to the point of speaking in code, and hope for the other person to "get it." This is because this is the easiest way for them do things. They may do a weird action on purpose, hoping that you'll ask for it because they don't know the appropriate time to start a conversation. However, this isn't working because the weird action isn't as weird as they thought, or to think that the action is weird the other person would need significant knowledge of a sub-culture or interest.

This has actually been the most apparent for me, and the one I've had the hardest time dealing with. I fully know what I should say to a person for them to understand what I'm thinking, but at points I almost physically do not have the ability to do so. And oddly enough, it's more hindering with people that I know personally than the ones that I don't. The best thing you can really do is ask them questions to get a conversation started. Just keep in mind that you're going to be the one to constantly keep the conversation going. Also, if they seem annoyed, they probably want to be left alone. And yes, they are likely to keep doing this one thing until someone gets the hint... even if they never do.

Some other things? Extremely sensitive to sensory information. For me, it's specifically touch and taste. I cannot wear a tie or turtleneck, or it legitimately feels like someone is choking me. I find ketchup too spicy (I know that it's more tangy; the taste of the vinegar in it registers similar to spicy in my mind). So yeah, I cannot eat even foods that most people don't consider spicy because it's too intense for me. There are also foods that I don't like solely based on the texture, like onions. The texture of receipts legitimately grosses me out. You know that feeling you get when you're about to pick up dog shit? Imagine a slightly less intense version of it when I'm about to pick up a receipt. And sleeping? Not if it isn't silent and completely dark. I can focus on a mundane task for a lot longer than most people. I'm able to do extremely tedious work for hours on end.

Keep in mind that how severe someone has Asperger's Syndrome does vary from person to person, and some people may have more than one condition, or they may have personal quirks that are just them and not any specific mental condition. It's also not an excuse for being an asshole. I don't even think that it's an explanation really. But yeah, for those of you asking, that's what having Asperger's Syndrome is like.

Oh my! Floppy Giveaway

Sun Jan 25, 2015, 3:14 PM
I totally forgot I was going to start a giveaway today!! LOL OMG terrible.Emoji30 

Starter Floppys by StarMassacreRadio Star Floppy by StarMassacreAppleJack Teddy Style by StarMassacreFloppy Size by StarMassacre

Floppy Gallery…

TO ENTER!Emoji04 

Just make a journal and link it. I will assign everyone a number and then raffle a number. Hurray!
Winner will be chosen on SUNDAY, FEBRUARY 1st!
Yes, I will ship international! Join, My faraway friends!

Okay, Time to go finish up Trades! I am going to Post bomb those in bulk as well!

Btw, Want to make your own floppy? I use TEACUPLION's Pattern!…

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  • Drinking: Wine
I did this not too long ago but I figure I would do another one. I'm giving away 4 free one month memberships to the people who have supported my work on here. All you do is fave this journal which is your way of entering and I use a random number tool to pick the winners. You must be in my watchers list. Yes, I welcome new watchers to participate. Thanks everyone!

Feel free to make a journal to help advertise!

Winners will be announced February 17. Good luck everyone!
They de-activated.
Im sorry for all of you whom cried for her and her family, its terrible.
*Cancer doesnt work like that
  -she said she was bald from cancer, no thats chemo and it takes months of treatments and pain to do it. Your weak, sick, its killing your body.
  - you cant get cancer surgery, theres surgery to remove tumors but not "cancer surgery"
  -6 days to live, a doctor would NEVER tell a patient that. They would say "Days, weeks, months"
  -"Twins" that had different birthdays by months, exact same art.

It was the same person, trying to get pitty watches. Sorry everyone.
Its a hoax everyone.

The "twin" is the same person just getting attention from you all. Taking the publicity from her "dead" sibling.

Enjoy being upset, they are playing everyone. Its disgusting.

A user I believe is faking a death to cancer. I honestly dont trust people on the internet, let alone if theres a push to get "1000 watchers"
That leads me to believe, that with no real details, is a person who is using cancer to get attention.
It offends me because a majority of my family I have personally known, have died from cancer starting when I turned 9 and lost my dad.
Please read the whole thing.

iArtsyPonies posted a journal with, I quote-
Title: My Last Words
Hey guys,IT ME
okay sorry this is not a journal for joking around,
So,as you know yesterday I had a cancer surgery,It didn't worked out so great,i only have 5-6 days to live,
This is really hard to me to say but,
I'm dying,i will die soon,there is no more hope for me and I'm really sorry.
But enough of that,
i wanted to thank you for your; Kindness,you were always cheering me up when i was down,remember that time when my mom and dad divorced? I was literally crying the whole time,but you,you guys,i can't even oh my god
your Generosity,
you guys always made me gifts in my favorites i have loads of gifts that mean the world to me,you guys put your heart into the gifts you make me,and I am thankful.
your Loyalty,
you're always here for me,my father may not be here with me,but i don't need him,i have you guys!

let's hear it one last time my TWINKLES 
Find the journal here: My last wordsHey guys,IT ME
okay sorry this is not a journal for joking around,
So,as you know yesterday I had a cancer surgery,It didn't worked out so great,i only have 5-6 days to live,
This is really hard to me to say but,
I'm dying,i will die soon,there is no more hope for me and I'm really sorry.
But enough of that,
i wanted to thank you for your; Kindness,you were always cheering me up when i was down,remember that time when my mom and dad divorced? I was literally crying the whole time,but you,you guys,i can't even oh my god
your Generosity,
you guys always made me gifts in my favorites i have loads of gifts that mean the world to me,you guys put your heart into the gifts you make me,and I am thankful.
your Loyalty,
you're always here for me,my father may not be here with me,but i don't need him,i have you guys!

Now their "sister" posted today:
Rest In Peace Rebecca
February 12 1998 - January 25 2015
We're Gonna Miss You

~ Kate (Beca's Sister)

Journal: RIP Rebecca HendsonRest In Peace Rebecca
February 12 1998 - January 25 2015
We're Gonna Miss You
~ Kate (Beca's Sister)

With a date posted, I looked up this person for the sake of finding and obituary.
when I google "Rebecca Hendson 1998" there is nothing for her obituary. When I googled my father and his date of birth, right away obituary. (Im not posting name because its too much personal information given away, about my brother, mother and such)

If anyone finds something authentic please link me, but from what I see this is complete bullshit and asking for attention and it physically sickens me.
PLEASE spread this journal.

This journal here says the birthday above isnt even the real one:
thank you Goldynwolf 
i know that its on february 12th but that's twinkle's birthday today's my real B-Day 
1.Some Points Higher than 1000
2.Drawing f twinkle will be nice
chao chao gotta go shopping nowww!!!!

Oh look, the names dont even match.

Just curious... by Rainjay-xx

I was told these are her other accounts, so those of you who wish can stalk for activity:
i-SunnyScars ("Sisters" account)
TwinklePony-Bases (Base account)
Starbust-Sprinkle (backup account)
  • Listening to: Dog growls

7k Giveaway art raffle!!!

Journal Entry: Tue Jan 27, 2015, 4:06 AM
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Current Entry Count: 79
Goal Entry Count: 300
I'll be updating this journal often, so if you don't want to see all the updates, you can temporarily unwatch my journals until the giveaway is over.

Yoooo! I just hit 7k watchers, which is absolutely phenomenal!! Emoji26 Thank you all so so so much! 
I want to give back as a 'thank you' for all the support you guys have given me ;//v//; So I'm hosting an art raffle where two people will win a halfbody from me!
Miku [WITH SPEEDPAINT VIDEO] by aoiitsukiUnconn Prize - WITH SPEEDPAINT VIDEO by aoiitsukiSS 2014 - potatoes by aoiitsuki

The winners will also get a speedpaint video of their picture posted on my YouTube channel. 

To join, you must be watching me, I want to give back to my watchers! Add this journal to your favorites then post a journal (or a poll if you want) about this giveaway, then comment below with a link to your journal Emoji29 

I will choose the winners via random number generator on February 5th, 2015

Thank you all so much, and good luck!! Neko Emoji-28 (Yay sho happy) [V2] 

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Back from the dead. 

I've kinda disappeared for a bit, and wanted to write a little journal why I've left Facebook, Twitter and kind of my online persona. If you care to read, down below you will find my reasons. I hope you're well, and will try to post more art soon. Feel free to discuss below your opinions on the matter, and I'll try to reply. My answer goes far beyond "I've just been busy!" and maybe you too will connect with how I've felt:


The other day I received an email from a fellow follower of my work, asking the question of why I left Facebook. Not that everyone should know my daily activities, but if you haven't noticed, a couple of months ago  I had deleted my FB in order to focus on my property LMS, as it's shaping up for film, and the next book in the series, LMS: Welcome to America

Now before I continue, this is strictly my opinion. I know people like to get angry online, so if you disagree with it, you have every right to. I am, in no way, forcing this onto you. I'm simply answering a question I've received a handful of times now. 

I left Facebook for multiple reasons. But mostly due to a common feeling I had been facing every time I logged into that death-trap of a site. I'll only state the points that really stood out from the others. (Sorry selfie-addicts, you're not making the cut!)  

Let's start with the News Feed. Time after time, I found myself scrolling through more negativity than positive statuses. Whether it was through tragic incidents around the world, bashing of others, or the arm-chair critics who were constantly bringing down others for enjoying a specific film, song or videogame. If not even directed at the specific person, it was the passive-aggressive and cynical nature of those comments that began to even make me feel like an asshole--finding myself slowly influenced into the same downward-spiral.

Was saying such things going to improve those films, video-games, or others? Was calling out designs I didn't like going to enhance my view of my own art, or in any way better my imagination? Frankly, it began to make me feel like a piece of shit.

Working on movies, and now being a part of my own with LMS, I've come to realize how much time and effort goes into these properties. The blood, sweat and tears that not only the creators must bring to the table (and trust me, it's more than you could imagine), but the amount the crew brings as well. You may sit there, comfortably and insult the film because you don't enjoy a specific aspect of it. But in all reality, you really don't know what that team went through to put that together until you've been through the very process.

I had come to realize that I was only absorbing the animosity others were sprouting  and soon began to reflect their own opinions onto myself. See, my friend once brought up an valuable angle I had never really thought about before:

"When you read someone's negative comment, you're transcribing it in your voice, in your own head. For example, say someone writes a status about a bad day or an unfortunate event. While support should obviously be given, by reading their negativity, you're now putting yourself into that person's perspective--and to add onto that, bringing up harsh feelings or memories possibly as well." 

I found myself becoming weaker, agreeing with comments that I may had not actually believed in. Not only that, but I began disliking certain people just for their opinions, when in all reality, they had every right to speak their mind. While I may sound like I'm contradicting my point, and with no way to solve such an issue, instead I decided to walk from that perspective entirely. Everyone has issues, some worse than others. But you can't fix, or sway, but instead, only lead by example.

I wasn't out of the worm-hole yet. Then there was the Critical Internal Voices. Not that I have any mental illnesses (well...), but I'll come out and say that believe it or not, at times I can be incredibly insecure with my own progress and career-status. It's not due to not enough followers, or Likes or Favs (those don't mean squat to the outside world, other than personal assurance), but more to the point of: Am I doing enough with what I have?

I'm lucky enough to have some incredibly inspiring and talented art-friends; a lot whom I assume most of you guys follow or look up to. Artists such as Maciej Kuciara, Anthony Jones, John Sweeney, Alex Konstad, Robert Chew, Ash Thorp, Jason Scheier, Raf Grassetti, Wes Burt, Jana Schirmer, Karla Ortiz, 
Dominic Qwek and dozens more who constantly blazed through work and absolutely killed it on the battlefield we call the business.  

Day after day I'd log in to see these guys just absolutely slaying it with new piece after new piece. Was I jealous? Oh hell yes I was and still am! With that level of skill thrown at once, how could I not be? But was I jealous to the point of disliking or resenting them? Not in the slightest, but instead, I began to find myself envious of their ability to constantly inspire and build, while I sat here questioning my slowly-crawling career.

Which brings LMS (Last Man Standing) to the table. A lot of people believe LMS was handed on a silver platter, but it truly wasn't. Thousands of dollars from my own (and my business partner) pocket have been taken and put into this property to build it into what it is today. But after seven years of pushing, and pushing, I began to ask myself: am I doing this right? 

See, I haven't ever worked full-time at a studio, and while I have dabbled in freelance on some awesome properties, I decided to take another route. From what I've heard, some people felt I was trying to toot my own horn, but in all reality, it was due to the fact that I was brainwashed one day by my amazing business partner, Stephan. I always wanted to work for Weta, ILM, Pixar, Marvel, or DC, and about eight years ago, I found myself counting change, without a pot to piss in. After begging him to find me work, he offered the insane-idea of those studios possibly working for me one day if I were to create my own property instead. I called bullshit, but then one day decided to take a leap of faith and gave (a bloody) birth to LMS: Killbook of a Bounty Hunter

That decision changed my life and offered open doors to directors, studios and creative forces I'd never imagine to work alongside or with. It became one of the most humbling, blessed and fun rides I've ever had the pleasure of being part of. However, there was an expensive cost no money could solve, only perseverance and patience.

But it's not as easy as it may sound. I wasn't handed what LMS is today on a silver platter, and I was fit with a gold crown and throne. What they don't see is that I had to build this the property from the ground up, by myself (art-wise, Stephan guided me like a true scholar through the business angle), with not a cent towards the project--all done on my own dime. 

What I would never be able to prepare myself was that it would take up to seven years to get to the point of success the property LMS is at now.  I'm not talking maybe a month of stress here or there, I'm talking all 365 days of anxiety, stress, back-aches, weight-loss, headaches and lack of money for seven, long, long years.

During those slumps  (Hollywood takes time, it's not overnight, that's for sure), I found myself not drawing. Not creating. Instead, only judging myself by my peers' standards and constantly growing more fearful of my image. 

Why are they so successful, and I'm still fighting to get my property up and running?Why cant I work for any of these studios? And don't get me wrong, I wasn't wishing them ill-will in the slightest! I want nothing but the best for these artists, as they all deserve it, and even more.

But you see, the Why's weren't directed at them, but only at me. I found myself comparing apples and oranges, when really I was trying to be a piece of toast (best analogy I had, sorry). I hadn't come to discover what I was doing, as this had become one big learning curve for me; pitching an IP on my own. That didn't stop the voices however, as they continued to ring, questioning if I was truly the artist or creator I promised everyone to be. And it hurt, big time.

Then I woke up one day. I decided to delete FB without a real goodbye and Twitter as well (Twitter sucks, I'm sorry). I no longer had anything to say. I didn't want to promise, only to wait months for another update. I didn't want to act like I was living the Mark Whalberg life of Entourage, when really I was deciding "Can I pay my apartment this month?" I had realized I needed to get my shit together, on point, and accomplish what I set out to build. So I left social media behind.

The sad truth is, I don't think I'll ever be back, and I'm very proud of my stance on that. It's opened my eyes, allowed me a sense of freedom and man, I've painted at least 65-85 LMS (some finished, other's blocked in. Man, parentheses overload!) images in that time-frame since leaving.

Not only that, I began to dig deep into my own mind and drop-kick those insecurities out the window. I was no longer distracted, jaded by cynical comments, comparing myself to others and could now focus on what I wanted to build. 

To the LMS fans and followers, I have a massive (if you've read or own the Killbook, that's just the tip of the iceberg) story to tell you. If you know anything about the series, that little revenge story that some critics have called cliche is not the ACTUAL story. And to those critics, you fit the very bill the book was aimed at, so thank you for proving my point. There is much, much more and I cannot wait to show you what Gabriel and his world have to offer in the near future, both in book and film.

To those wondering about the LMS film, I'll just say this: we're close. It's all talk for now, as I can't say much due to deals being put in place, so take it with a grain of salt. But if these next few weeks pan out the way I see them, be prepared to welcome the new anti-hero.

Ending this, I'm not ordering or even advising anyone to leave Facebook. It's a wonderful site filled with some of the most generous, loving and caring people I've ever been lucky enough to call friends or fans (I hate that title, you guys are all homies to me). 

I've met the love of my life and my pure inspiration on it (we're now a year and still going strong!), been introduced to, helped by, and inspired by some of the coolest guys and gals out there, artists or not--and you see, that's what the site should truly be about.

Enough with the cliques, enough with the downgrading, and for the love of Gabe, just inspire the younger or those around you looking up to what you're able to do for a living. Build, create, and speak your message through your own art or story-telling. We're all in this game together, not to go against each other. If the world and society hasn't already shown you that, then I don't know what will.

For updates, feel free to subscribe to this blog or follow me on Instagram (DanLuVisiArt), as I still do lurk on there. But until my big LMS announcement I have brewing, it's time to shut up and stand by the book of text I just wrote above.

Much love, thank you for reading, and I wish you all the best of luck with your current and future endeavors.




Journal Entry: Sun Jan 25, 2015, 1:58 PM
Holitaas :D

Wuaa, llegue a los +2000 watchers y estoy super feliz ;3; por lo que decidí hacer un sorteo por esto XD

Bueno; es la primera vez que hago uno así que espero que todo salga bien jaja

El premio será un pixel como este:

Pixel meo by Pandi-Mar
Así con todas las boludeces que me pidan; puede tener plantas; banquitos; rejitas o cualquier cosa que esté a mi alcance ;--;
Solo será de un personaje y solo habrá un ganador/a Por motivo de tiempo </3

Bueno; para participar es bastante fácil:
•Tienes que darle fav a este journal; utilizaré esos número para el sorteo.
•Tenerme de watch
•Si quieren; pueden promocionar el journal; eso me ayudaría mucho ♥

El sorteo se llevará a cabo el día miércoles 28 de este mes y el premio lo estaría entregando el viernes o sábado aproximadamente
Para elegir al ganador; utilizaré RANDOM.ORG 

Bueno; eso es todo; espero que participen ♥

Chatoo :3

CSS and graphics by Pandi-Mar

I’ve harped on about this before and I’m going to do it again…..and again and again…..until people stop doing it.

I do not fave pictures that have watermarks right across them.

This isn’t me being monumentally arrogant and thinking that I alone faving a piece of work bestows upon it some kind of greatness. This is just me having an artistic eye.
If you’ve slaved to create the most astounding piece of work to have ever graced the galleries of deviantart, something that puts all your peers to shame and will remain a benchmark that others aim to match for years to come…..and then across the middle of it you decide to slap a watermark that you spent 5 minutes farting out: you just f**ked up your artwork. You have added something that detracts from my enjoyment of the piece and I’m not going to fave it.

There are a number of brilliant artists out there who I’m on the verge of unfollowing, simply because it irks me so much to see a tacky watermark (or worse, the default DA skidmark) ruining what would otherwise be a beautiful image.
Trying out a Raffle as Thanks for all your support ! 
I dont think I've ever done one for you guys before >//q//< so I'm pretty excited.
plus it would be a huge help if you guys help spread the word <3

There will only be one winner this first time :iconhnnghplz:



Sukibelle3 Copy by deathALICEVani3 Copy by deathALICEPREEEEEE copy by deathALICE


1. You have to favorite this journal.
2. You must share this journal and link it in the comments below.

Jan. 27th 2015
Feb. 14th 2015

winner will be chosen by RANDOM.ORG



:star: SPECIAL OFFER :star:

During the start of the RAFFLE and until the end, I will be offering 1 free sketch (simple colored) to go along with your chibi order!
this offer runs from Jan 27th - Feb. 14th

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So get one fast before the offer ends on Feb. 14th 2015
If you are interested, please check here <3
Chibi Commissions (Open/Waiting List Available)Thank you for all your support! 
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