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Over the past few months, I have seen some scathing attacks by both men and women on feminism become highly popular deviations with thousands of “faves” here on :devart:.
The one thing they all had in common appears to be a significant lack of understanding about what feminism is, and many of the comments supported these misconceptions. In many cases, they were a response to a perceived injustice by a so-called feminist (who probably did not have have a clue about feminism either) hiding behind the term to support said injustice.

"The difficult part in an argument is not to defend one's opinion but rather to know it." - Andre Maurois

I recently tried to explain this to another deviant, as a reply to one of these popular rants, that this is akin to saying that Christianity is all about eradicating Islam, or Islam is based on eradicating Christianity; anyone who makes such a statement is obviously misguided, and does not even understand their own argument. The Oxford Dictionary defines feminism as “The advocacy of women’s rights on the ground of the equality of the sexes,” yet I have heard the term applied to such absurd notions as a defence for murder of a man by a woman, a justification for banning all pornography, and an argument in favour of unisex communes. These are the ones who most of those rants are targeted at, the female chauvinists, and this is pretty much the same as condemning all Catholics as rampant pedophiles. It’s funny, I have yet to see any deviant make that argument, yet the Catholic Church has committed many atrocities in its long and troubled history (Before anyone blasts me for this, I’d like to point out the Tribunal of the Holy Office of the Inquisition, the Knights of St-John, and the practice of buying indulgences from Pope Leo X; and if you really want to upset someone, ask them about Pope Benedict IX) - but I digress. And yes, I am a Catholic.

On more than one occasion, I began to write a scathing response to one of those posts, and checked myself because I felt that I didn't want to attract the kinds of attention that such a discussion is sure to bring. On a recent eleven-hour flight, however, I had time to think about it. I was reminded of the famous quote by Martin Niemöller:
"First they came for the communists, and I did not speak out-
    because I was not a communist;
Then they came for the socialists, and I did not speak out-
    because I was not a socialist;
Then they came for the trade unionists, and I did not speak out-
    because I was not a trade unionist;
Then they came for the Jews, and I did not speak out-
    because I was not a Jew;
Then they came for me--
    and there was no one left to speak out for me.
"
 and realized that I had to say something. I began to formulate a response that would (hopefully) not throw gasoline on the fire, while getting the reader to think beyond the unenlightened rants of Newt Gingrich and Rush Limbaugh. I wanted to make it abundantly clear that feminists are no more (or less) evil than any member of a mainstream political party, or any average member of any of the popular organized religions. But mostly, I wanted to make the point that some readers might actually describe themselves as exactly that which they have previously heaped vitriolic abuse upon. Feminism is not about loud protests and abasing men. Cartoon characters in skimpy costumes have about as much to do with feminism as eating fish on Fridays has to do with Christianity. I am a white, heterosexual adult male who has seen his share of bar fights, and I am a feminist. I believe that a person should not be discriminated against due to their gender, their skin colour or their sexual orientation.
I also believe that everyone has the right to their own opinion. When they chose to impose their opinions upon me however, well, I see that as an open invitation to return the favour; discourse is the key to communication, and without discourse, no one will ever realize that there might be a flaw in their reasoning.

"He who establishes his argument by noise and command shows that his reason is weak." - Michel de Montaigne

So, with apologies to Jeff Foxworthy, I respectfully submit the following:

Twelve signs that you might be a feminist.

Feel free to add your own in the comments below.

:bulletblack: You might be a feminist if you believe that a woman should be allowed to drive an automobile.
:bulletblack: You might be a feminist if you believe that a woman should be allowed to go to school, if she so chooses.
:bulletblack: You might be a feminist if you believe that a woman should be allowed to own her own home, or to get a bank loan without requiring the endorsement of a husband, brother or father.
:bulletblack: You might be a feminist if you believe that a woman should be allowed to marry the person she loves without being stoned to death by her brothers and father.
:bulletblack: You might be a feminist if you believe that a female soldier with eight years of dedicated service to her country should be safe from being raped by her fellow male soldiers in her own barracks.
:bulletblack: You might be a feminist if you believe that two police officers with the same seniority, productivity and the same qualifications should receive the same rate of pay for the same amount of work.
:bulletblack: You might be a feminist if you are uncomfortable with the notion that a man can beat a woman simply because she is his wife, and justify it as freedom of religion.
:bulletblack: You might be a feminist if you disagree that a widow who has no sons must marry one of her brother-in-laws simply because it is her marital obligation to continue the family name.
:bulletblack: You might be a feminist if you support a woman’s right to ask for a divorce after her husband has cheated on her and given her a venereal disease.
:bulletblack: You might be a feminist if you disagree with the practice of a man abandoning his wife and marrying another woman, yet not allowing the woman to date or marry again because her former husband will not grant her a divorce.
:bulletblack: You might be a feminist if you believe that an adolescent girl should not be offered for sex to her father’s house guests (Justified because it is portrayed as a noble act in the bible, see Genesis 19:1-11)
:bulletblack: You might be a feminist if you believe that a woman should be allowed to vote in public elections.

Basically, you are a feminist if you believe that men and women should have all of the same rights.

Of course that’s just my opinion, I could be wrong; but since most of the bullets above are culled straight from the recent news, I seriously doubt it.
Day 15 (July 18th, 2015):

Woke up this morning feeling okay, but I was a little scared. Was my throat still hurting? I gathered my wits and swallowed. And....

My throat didn't hurt anymore!!!!!

I was so happy. I wasn't sick! It was just the gas from yesterday. All was good again. I made my way to the kitchen and had a cup of tea while uploading my Day 14 blog to its social media sites. For breakfast, Uncle Jon decided to try making French Toast for the first time since we had a baguette brought by someone on Chicken Night. I was the Guinea Pig for trying it and while certain pieces were more burned than others, it was overall not bad. A very good first attempt!

After breakfast, Uncle Jon had some errands to run and Ant Astrid had a studio tour in her ceramics studio, so I was left in the house with the animals. I decided not to touch my phone for the day (so I couldn't use data since I've been using too much of it already) and use my iPad instead since it only runs with wifi. I sat in the living room with Ichabod snuggled next to me and watched some Netflix. I actually watched quite a lot of things. Here's what I saw:

1. Beyond the Lights
-This was a movie I've known about for a while. I actually remember getting an email from Backstage Magazine about auditions for the younger version of the main character. (No, I didn't audition. Wasn't the right type, too old, and I can't sing Nina Simone's Blackbird to save me) Anyway, I've wanted to see this movie for a while just out of curiosity. A story about a pop singer who is struggling with her fame and trying to find herself since everything is done for her. The movie overall was quite good. I loved the lead character Noni played by Gugu Mbatha-Raw. And the music was great. I especially loved Blackbird that was sung by the younger and older Noni in different scenes and this one song called Fly Before You Fall which is so beautiful and I have already choreographed this beautiful contemporary dance in my head to this song. I did find myself getting a little bored in scenes where it was the other characters and by the end I was kind of done and was ready to exit out of the movie, but overall, it was nice to finally see it. Thanks Netflix! :) 9/10

2. Violetta Season 1 Episode 1
-I don't think anyone in the United States will know what this show is and that's fine. It is actually a Disney Channel series for Disney Channel Latin America so it is in Spanish with English subtitles. (Although there is an English dub you could use if you really needed it) Violetta is about a girl who moves back to Argentina from Spain and now has to restart her life and make new friends while trying to get by with her family. I started off with the English dub because duh, but ended up switching back to the Spanish dub because it sounded better and it was better just to read the subtitles. (Plus the English dub is awful and annoying and they change the dialogue really horribly) The show isn't bad at all. It's actually pretty cool. Plus it doesn't look or feel like an American Disney Channel show. It isn't over the top, corny, pandering, lame or just plain lazy. In fact, if this show was just a show on any Spanish channel minus the Disney Channel tag, it would fit as a normal teen soap opera. That's what I really like about it. Plus this is Disney Channel regardless of country, so this is a musical show with one of the settings a performing arts high school. But the thing is, the high school looks so freaking cool! Like I want to be there! Plus, the one musical number they had was great because the lyrics were smart and well written and the two girls singing can ACTUALLY SING! Overall, I think I might continue to watch the show. It's pretty great. And musical, so maybe a Broadway Girl Review might come out of it. Who knows? ;) 9.5/10

By this point, Uncle Jon came back with lunch from a health food market called Mother Earth. (Basically Kingston's version of Whole Foods Market) I had a Portabella Mushroom Burger Wrap that was actually vegan! It was Mushrooms and lentils mashed into a paste, lettuce, tomato, sprouts, ketchup, mustard, and veganaise. (Vegan Mayonaise) It was absolutely delicious! And vegan too which made me really happy. After lunch, it was back to Netflix with:

3. Stitch! The Movie
-So folks, did you know that Netflix has all the Lilo and Stitch movies on there! From the first movie, to this one, to Stitch has a Glitch, to the last movie Leroy and Stitch! I knew at some point I wanted to marathon the series, but for now, I wanted to see this movie because it has been so long since I've seen it. It was charming, lovable, and gave me such warm nostalgic fuzzies. I love Lilo and Stitch sooooooo much!!! It is just such a good story and animation. It is one of my most favorite Disney movies. :) 10/10

I decided to stop there for the day and go outside for some fresh air. It was gross out. Sunny and blue skies, but hot at 90 degrees and very muggy. I stayed out for five minutes before I decided to go back in. It was too much. Soon after, Ant Astrid came in and said she sold a ton of mugs and made over $??? from selling them. The next thing we needed to do was go to Phoenicia to the Arts Upstairs for an art gathering along with watching Uncle Jon play with his friend T in their band: T with Cakes. But what was great is that across the street was STS Playhouse so at 7:00, I could just walk across and go to work. Easy as that!

So when we got to Phoenicia, all was good. I carried a bag of grapes while Ant Astrid carried a bottle of wine. I was walking fine, my head held high and a smile on my face.....but I wasn't paying attention. There was a step to step up and I completely missed it, so I ended up pitching forward and landing face first on a boardwalk. Immediately people were asking if I was okay and....

Side note: I have this issue that if I fall down in front of people and they ask "Are You Okay?!" and make a fuss about it, my lizard brain goes into overdrive and I almost freak out, trying to redeem myself which almost always ends up with me running to a corner or someplace and cry in total embarrassment. It stems from some self esteem issues from my childhood and I almost can't control my immediate "run away and cry" response to it. I'm trying my best to change this pattern and right now I just try not to spaz or be clumsy so I don't fall and cause that whole thing.

(And now back to your regularly scheduled blog entry)

....I immediately get up and brushed it off to the best of my ability. I was absolutely mortified and I wanted to run away and cry, but I forced a smile on my face and made jokes about it and trying to change the subject. I saw a dog and turned my focus to it. I talked to people and shook hands with them. Eventually I just closed myself off and just daydreamed. Eventually that feeling of wanting to cry went away and I was okay. I was pretty proud of myself for not freaking out. For carrying on so normally. For making a joke out of it! I was okay....

I got to watch Uncle Jon and T play some songs, meet many of Ant Astrid's friends, and had some food at the Arts Upstairs. There was stuff like crackers and cheese, but there was also two salads from a woman's Vegetarian Kitchen. One salad was tomato, mozzarella cheese, and Basel which was yummy and a pasta and chickpea salad with a peanut Dressing that while good, was spicy! And there was no water or anything non alcoholic around (There was only wine and I can't drink it) so I ended up stuffing gouda cheese in my mouth in an attempt to sooth the burn it my mouth. It did to some level thankfully. I walked around the gallery, taking a look at some of the artwork hanging up and found the room where some of Ant Astrid's mugs where standing. There were also t shirts with pretty designs on display and I got to take one! I'll wear it tomorrow and take a picture. It's really pretty.

Soon I had to head over to the Playhouse for Little Shop. I did a quick pit stop to get something for me to drink and then I was on my way. I got to the theatre in time to watch warmups take place and talk to some of the crew sitting by me. A little while later the house doors opened and people came swarming in. We ended up selling out! Every seat was full! :D

But that's not all. It was one of the best audiences we've had! They were vocal, active, and awake, laughing at every scene! I love to watch shows when the audience is active because it makes the experience more fun! Plus, the actors were really feeling the audience's energy because they rocked it tonight! No problems whatsoever! It was overall, a great night!

After the show, I met up with Ant Astrid and Uncle Jon at the Arts Upstairs and we went home. I immediately put on my pajamas and was about to brush my teeth when Ant Astrid told me to come outside and look at the sky. I hurried over and stepped outside and looked up. There were so many stars outside. But not just a couple, no, it stretched out and lit up the night sky. It was mesmerizing. Ant Astrid said it was the Milky Way and even though so many out were out, it wasn't the biggest it could have been. I didn't care. At home, there are so many trees and lights on that I don't see many stars at night. I'll see a couple and make out the Orion's Belt, but that's about it. Here while there are trees, we're in the middle of nowhere with no lights gleaming and a wide open sky. That's how I was able to see so many stars. It was such an amazing sight. I almost didn't want to go in! But I did because I needed to go to bed and I was barefoot so my feet were getting wet.

So overall today was a pretty good day. Got to chill with Netflix and then hang out in Phoenicia for the evening! Sure there were some "moments", but I got past them and had a strong rest of the day. Can't wait for tomorrow!

<3 Jessica
Day 28 (July 31st, 2015):

Woke up thinking I had slept in this morning, only to check my phone and see that it was only 7:00 am. Ugh. We were all still pretty full from dinner last night so we decided to push off breakfast. After a cup of tea, I chilled out with the Puppy Posse until around 9:30. Ant Astrid was in her studio glazing again, and I remembered that I needed to glaze the rest of my projects as well.

I quickly got dressed and made my way to the studio and immediately got to work. It was fun painting my tiles and mugs, trying new colors and patterns. We were out there for a couple of hours before we got really hungry. We went inside and had a brunch (since it was still a bit early).

We had boxes of leftovers from PeekaMoose last night so I had my left over Pork cold, which was still good. The pickled red cabbage on the other hand, not so much. Ant Astrid also made for herself and me, toast with marmalade and cheese. (A english treat that my mom enjoys and when Ant Astrid found out I never tried it, she was so shocked and declared that I was to try it!) The marmalade was actually a homemade rhubarb ginger marmalade that was really really good and with the extra sharp cheddar cheese, it was extra good. :)

After brunch, it was back out to the studio to finish glazing. It was a long long process, but I can gladly say that almost all of my projects are done! Soon Ant Astrid had to leave. She had to go to the Arts Upstairs for a couple of hours. I decided to stick back at the house to chill and maybe get some things I wanted to do done. The minute I finished glazing, walked into the house, sat on the couch, and said "Doggies!", they all came swarming over to me and planted themselves on me. I felt trapped, but thankfully I had my phone. I texted some people and surfed through YouTube, but eventually I needed to get up and move because I was being suffocated by fur and drool.

In my room, I snacked on a Kind Bar from my care package and saw that on my Facebook, because I am going to be an Admissions Ambassador for Montclair State, I was added to a private group of other Admissions Ambassadors for the school! I got to scroll through the group and accept a ton of friend requests! It got me so excited to start school, and do you know what's even more awesome?! (And I forgot to mention it in Wednesday's post) Because I am going to be in the Ambassador program, I get to move in on campus a week early for training!!!!! I am so excited you have no idea!

It also got me thinking. I've been enjoying writing this blog and telling all of you about my adventures up here. I'm thinking about maybe doing another blog, but this time about college and all the experiences I do there. And maybe, because I am a filmmaker, I can do a video blog, or vlog on YouTube, along with a written blog for DeviantArt and Tumblr. What do you guys think?? Would you want to read (and maybe even see) a blog about college?? Let me know in the comments of all the places I post this blog. (So here, Tumblr, Instagram, Twitter, and/or Facebook)

But suddenly I was getting text messages! Yay! People to talk to! As I texted with some friends and family, I decided to watch some Netflix. Today  was a cartoon day so I watch Sabrina The Animated Series (very nostalgic!), Horseland (very nostalgic too!), and Winx Club which I found out is actually an Italian show originally dubbed in italian and then brought over to the U.S. and dubbed English!!! (Italian's Anime?) I couldn't believe it! (Because I grew up watching the english version and never knowing of its original origin). It definitely changed my thoughts of the show.

Soon it was time to get ready. Ready for what you may ask? Ready for the Full Blue Moon Party! This Full Blue Moon Party was a celebration at a art gallery in Willow, celebrating the Blue Moon that was going to come out tonight and also celebrating the first openly gay women couple in the Catskills who threw these parties back in the 50s and 60s. It was also a costume party so when I went home for the couple of days, I created myself a costume to wear. Here was what I used:

-This rainbow hippie-like skirt I had bought on a vacation to Cape Cod last summer. (And have never worn until today!)
-A loose black and purple tank top created by an artist friend of Ant Astrid.
-A jean vest
-A pink peace sign scarf
-A rainbow headband
-A bunch of necklaces with pendants made by Ant Astrid years and years back.
-The earrings I got from the cast and crew of Little Shop of Horrors at STS Playhouse.
-My flip flops with pink flowers on it.

I called it "Woodstock Chic" and it was actually quite nice. (And I ended up not taking any selfies or pictures of myself in costume. Oops! I'll upload a picture or something soon.)

After a quick brush of the hair and a double check in the mirror, Ant Astrid, Uncle Jon, and I were on our way to the town of Willow where the party was being held.

We got to the party right on time. Everyone there was in a costume, a lot were kooky and out there, others more subdued. One of my biggest fears was looking completely out of place and weird, but that quickly went away. I definitely fit in fine. There were many familiar faces there like Tom and Laura, Barbara, Thunderbear (aka Bill, but that's what everyone calls him!), and more! And because this party took place outside an art gallery, Ant Astrid took me inside to take a look. The art is there was very cool and it was by the two women that we were celebrating tonight! I think my mom, dad, and brother would like it if they went inside too.

After a quick tour around the gallery, there were hot dogs (made by a guy named Nathan in a wiener suit....not kidding), chips and salsa, grapes, vegetables, and lots of watermelon to eat! There was also an open bar, but thankfully there was soda and it was free. Soon as the outside light dimmed, we had an astronomer come up and talk about the history of a blue moon. It was very interesting and I learned some things I didn't know before.

After his talk was when the music began. The first group were two guys that sang parodies. They were quite funny and one of their most memorable songs (to me) was "Don't Let Your Babies Grow Up to be Critics" Well....too late for me and my brother, the movie critics with aspirations of Channel Awesome! (Lol)

After them was this group of musicians, one was on guitar, one was on drums, and one was on cello. They were pretty good, playing tunes like Imagine, Here Comes the Sun, and Blackbird by the Beatles, and I have a soft spot for stringed instruments, but I was getting a bit bored as their set stretched longer and longer.

But thankfully, the next band up was none other than Uncle Jon and his buddy T for their band T and Cakes! They played three songs and then one additional song with Thunderbear! It was great! They all sounded awesome! :)

After their set, it back to the last group for another set! But by then, I was walking and talking to people so I didn't even notice. At the grill, the guys were grilling bacon to go with their hot dogs, but by this time (11:30ish) I was not eating anymore. I sat and talked some more and soon enough it was midnight. It was time to leave! But before we left, there was a campfire where marshmallows were being toasted. Barbara had gone to get me one and left her purse with me so I brought it over and got my marshmallow. Thankfully it wasn't burned black (instant turn off), it was soft and very VERY gooey. I haven't had a marshmallow in eons and that was pretty good. Probably going to skip marshmallows for a long time after that (not my favorite treat), but for tonight, that was good.

By now it was past midnight so we all went back home, but before I could crawl into bed, Ant Astrid told me to come outside. At the party, it was so cloudy that you couldn't see the blue moon everyone was celebrating, but when I went outside and looked up, the moon was clear as day. It was so bright! It illuminated the yard. I had never seen such a bright and big moon because where I live is more city/suburban so there are a lot of lights on, drowning out the moon and stars. This was so so cool. :D

But I was tired, it was way past my bedtime, so I went inside, got out of my costume and into pajamas, brushed my teeth, and went immediately to bed.

Today was a good day! From glazing, chatting, and a Blue Moon Party, today was fun and awesome! Can't wait for tomorrow's adventure!

<3 Jessica

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Connie woke up to a normal week day and started on her usual schedule. She showered, brushed teeth, combed hair, and finished it off with some Magic Star Cereal then headed off to High School. Another worthless, friendless day. But Connie was used to it. She headed on to the temple and met Steven on the beach.
"So how was your day?" Steven wondered
"It was the same as others," Connie thought about the girls with the large hoop earrings and crop tops who always got in trouble because they were against the dress code. Her mouth quivered. She held back tears remembering what they called Steven.
"What's wrong Connie?"
"N-nothing it's fin-"
"You know I can ask Garnet about this! Connie tell me!"
They called him an Alien. Even more, called her one too.
As the lengthy introduction comes to a close, step into the tree to reach the River of the Heavens area. You can save your game at the Origin Mirror before moving north through the area. Follow Issun's instructions to break some pots and wall jump up a ledge before you reach what appears to be a dead-end to the north as the path runs into a body of water.Look to the northeast for a hill you can climb. At the top of the hill, Issun will instruct you to draw the misssing star in the constellation. To do so, simply dot the left end of the line and you'll learn the Rejuvenation brush technique.Move back down to the base of the hill and use your new brush technique to "fix" the stream, filling in a thick path between the island to the north and the bank you're on. You'll create a starry flow that lets you swim to the distant island to continue your trek. Be sure to also get the Astral Pouch from the chest before moving through the next doorway.Continue north along the path in the next area until you reach the Cave of Nagi. Stand in front of the large statue and use the Rejuvination brush technique draw a line where Nagi's blade should be. You'll soon be staring at another incomplete constellation. Fill in the missing dot to the left and the constellation will come to life, giving you the Power Slash brush technique. Follow Issun's advice to test out the technique on a nearby rock, then use the Power Slash to cut down the wooden poles that block your exit to the south.Go south from the cave, back down the path you came from. You'll soon be attacked by a pair of enemy imps. The attack button should be enough to take 'em out, though you can speed up the process by using your Power Slash technique. When they're defeated, continue heading south. There's another identical fight just ahead.You'll eventually leave the River of the Heavens area and appear just in front of the giant Sakuya tree. Use the Power Slash brush technique to chop down the fruit from the tree and restore life to the village.

Lol yes i have started posting walkthroughs of stuff now, so if you dont want your games spoilt i suggest you dont read my journals? XD
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  • Mood: Peaceful
  • Listening to: Oookami- Tamaya's theme
  • Reading: More wolf stuff.
  • Watching: uh nothing atm
  • Playing: Okamix10000
  • Eating: Pasty
  • Drinking: Still smexy fuel
10. I have no pets, nor have I ever had any. Although I do have four brothers and one sister.
9. My biggest pet peeve is when people don't brush their teeth. I don't want to see your ugly teeth and I don't want to smell your disgusting breath. At least have a mint
8. I love it when people make time just for me, especially when they're a busy person.
7. I almost never use emojis. The last one I used was five weeks and two days ago.
6. I am a pro at handheld gaming devices (3ds, ps vita, etc...) But if you make me play a game on a TV I will fail miserably.
5. I am a total Anime fan... No, I am a total Japan fan! I honestly think everything from Japan is better (Music, TV shows, restaurants, comics, etc...)! But that's just my opinion.
4. I don't actually like to read books, but I do like to read comics.
3. My least favorite class is history because I'm more likely to use math in life than history. I also have a boring teacher who always talks about her personal life...
2. I am having a really hard time coming up with interesting things at the moment, sooo......... BAAMMM, I am scared of stages with starring people in the background.
1. I got a scar from a paper cut!!!
"WUT, HOW?" You may ask. Let's just say an angry friend with a Naruto comic... enough said.
Day 40 (August 12th, 2015):
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Day 9: Cape Cod

I did not sleep well last night. Hell I didn't even sleep! Went to bed at a normal time, put on my headphones and listened to music, all that stuff....but minutes after the music ended....my uncle started snoring. Now he has snored the entire Cape Cod vacation, but I would conk out before it got too bad. This night though....I could not fall asleep or stay asleep. I tossed and turned, covered my head with pillows, I even stumbled out of bed and grabbed my swimming earplugs and tried to use those which worked....for only a minute. I was so tempted to throw a pillow or shoe at him, but I was too tired and I didn't want to do that. He's my uncle. I love him you know....but I don't love his snoring. I woke up first at midnight, then 2 am, 4 am, and finally 5:25 am and I was up until Ant Astrid and Uncle Jon rolled out of bed.

By then I was having raging angry thoughts pulsing through my veins and was tearing up every two seconds. I felt awful. I decided I was going to not sit at the table after going downstairs and instead leave the house and go for a long bike ride or walk. I wanted alone time. I got dressed, made my way downstairs, and out the door. I slipped on my sneakers, but didn't want to wake up everyone by opening the garage door to get my bike. It was also very wet out still, so I settled for a walk around the block.

As I walked, I noticed other people walking, or jogging, or walking with their dogs. I wasn't the only one out there and it was nice to have everyone smile and say good morning as I walked by. As I walked, my anger subsided and I brushed away my tears. I just needed to clear my head was all. Once I made it back to the house, I plopped down on the couch in the living room where Pickle and Truffle proceeded to plop themselves on my lap and sleep. Looks like I wasn't going anywhere....

I played around on my phone until the dogs shot off my lap yapping away as Digby and Tucker clomped down the stairs. That meant Chris and Kathleen were awake. I got up and went to the kitchen. By now it was breakfast time, but instead of sitting and waiting, I decided to go and make it. Now all of my breakfasts thus far including the ones in Woodstock have been your typical eggs, toast, pancakes, oatmeal, etc. Today's breakfast was very unorthodox. For breakfast I had my leftovers so....my Lobster Ravioli from The Lobster Pot and my Lobster Mac and Cheese from the Crown and Anchor. I filled my plate, microwaved it until it was warm, and dove in. I got some disapproving glances from John, but I was more gleeful than the cast of Glee. The Ravioli was very good, the Mac and Cheese on the other hand was a little funky. Not rotten or spoiled, just not very good heated up. I ate as much as I could and took pictures because of course.

After breakfast I went to the living room and watched AFV and Brain Games on Netflix with Ashton, Barrett, and Kathleen. I only stayed for a bit though because I found out using my college's calendar all these events going on on campus in September! From Fairs, to seminars, to a Petting Zoo, to a Midnight Cereal Bar, I wrote down everything that didn't conflict into my Sunrise Calendar app. Once I got tired with that, I took a shower and flopped onto my bed, plugging my phone on charge.

As I lied on my bed, I noticed how warm and cozy it was and how the blanket felt really nice and how exhausted I was......

I conked out basically. The next time I woke up, it was 3:00. (It was around 12:30 when I got out of the shower and flopped onto the bed) I felt super refreshed and so much better than before. It made me want to do things and be active again. First I texted with some friends. Hayley and I were trying to set up time to chat. (It got pushed off again) Alison and I chatted about roommate/dorming stuff. After that, I practiced my Duolingo French again, where this time I was acing my lessons unlike the last time I worked on it. Once I was caught up, I watched a couple of YouTube videos and found a musical movie to keep in mind for Broadway Girl Reviews. Once that was done, I needed to get out of my room and breathe the fresh air outside.

I went downstairs and outside, sitting on one of the lawn chairs with my book Don't Let's Go to the Dogs Tonight and my phone still buzzing with texts. At one point Ant Astrid came out and she sat with me. We talked for a while about everything. She told me about Coney, a cat that my parents had until I was born. (He ran away so I never got to know him) She also told me how she got into a fight with Raul Julia (yes THE Raul Julia) after seeing him as Dracula on Broadway many many years ago! There was also advice given about boys, boyfriends, and dating. We chatted until Uncle Jon, Chris, and Ashton came home. Apparently they had went out fishing earlier and after that they went and got tonight's dinner....LOBSTER!!!

We both went inside and I took pictures for this collage. I got to try a oyster for the first time and it was....okay I guess....tasted like snot and fish....and took a bit for me to swallow....yeah I'm not a big fan of oysters. Sorry. After that and telling Uncle Jon how to cook a lobster, (thanks Siri!) Ashton put on a movie in the living took and that movie was Anger Management with Adam Sandler and Jack Nicholson. It was stupid....very stupid. The plot was useless, the characters are dumb, I do not like Adam Sandler, and THEY RUINED I FEEL PRETTY FROM WEST SIDE STORY!!!!! 😤😡 My brother even said (he began texting with me at this time) that the movie was awful when he saw it in his 8th Grade year. Soon dinner was ready and Ashton turned it off.

I put on my lobster bib and was served a full fledged Lobster. It was cooked PERFECTLY and while I did need help from Ant Astrid and Chris, I ate the meat and it was so tasty and chewy and perfect. I even tried a teensy drop of melted butter on a piece but even then I didn't like it. Sorry, I just don't care for butter. After the lobster was eaten, there were also potatoes that were scrumptious. As we were finishing up, a familiar tune came from the living room. The Star Wars theme. I swear, Uncle Jon's face changed the minute he heard it. (It is his favorite movie series) Turns out it wasn't actually Star Wars, it was a Star Wars parody by Family Guy. I gravitated towards the living room and watched it. It was actually pretty funny. Some jokes were a bit crude, but many were funny. Maybe I'll watch another episode one day...not really sure.

After the episode was done, I made my way upstairs and got ready for bed so here we are.

Today I thought was going to be a day from hell, but actually it turned out to be okay. Yes the morning was rough, but once I got to sleep, the evening turned out great with Lobster!!! And as this day comes to a close, I realized that today was my last full day of being in Cape Cod. Tomorrow we leave to go back to New York and this blog becomes Woodstock Adventure again. (I'm not going home just yet. There are still more things to do.) So stayed tuned everyone for tomorrow's final Cape Cod Adventure. :)

<3 Jessica