It Was an Eugene Move...It was impulse.It Was an Eugene Move...4 years ago in Free Verse
Like a moment of truth that I knew, just knew.
Your wide apple eyes just shimmered with tears
And it hurt me more than the pain in my side, than the pain in my slow beating heart.
Why, you ask, did I do it?
Why did I hurt you more than you could bear,
More than you deserved?
Did you not think I cared?
That I was that harsh and bitter?
No, love, you couldn't understand.
I loved you much more than you knew.
So much more that I wanted to see you free,
To free you from a greater pain than you even knew.
Greater than the agony you felt then as I gasped my last breath.
It hurt me more to see you cry, but I knew it was the best I could give you.
I'm not that great with words.
I wanted to give you the world. I wanted you to live, and not just live as if you were alive,
But to experience everything life had to offer you in the most magnificent way possible.
You deserved it. And I thought you deserved better than me.
But I've learned, probably in the hardest way possible, that I