Stay insaneShe wipes the mud off of her face, and flashes a quick grinStay insane4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics
Her jeans are tight and faded, make up's smeared across her skin
Her eye brows need some plucking, her nails are dull and plain
She talks so fast that people sometimes think that she's insane
She tried the Gothic movement, and she couldn't get it right
The dark colors bleached her skin, turned her a sickly white
She tried to play the rock star, the preppy, and the geek
But every fad she tried to match was dead within a week
She looks into the mirror, and wonders what I see
She sees a cloud of imperfection, dreaming of what else she could be
I see her stretch her cheek out, pull her nose off to the side
Then look into the mirror, making herself go cross eyed
She doesn't know I hear her giggle while she mocks the vanity
She doesn't know I watch her glow when she walks in all sweaty
With dirty streaks on her forehead, tangled weeds up in her hair
She never really believes me when I say that I don't care
She doesn't c
Rise AboveI can feel the bitter sting of another day spent wasted dwelling on what has gone,Rise Above4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics
Teased and tormented by the tragedies that seem to linger on too long,
I look out into the shadows left behind me,
Stare into the darkness and see the demons yet to find me,
And cry out to the sky, why did it all go so very wrong?
I stare into a candles flickering flame and dream of prayers and ancient spells,
Cursing, begging, pleading to unseen spirits to deliver me from my hell,
My eyes are trapped inside the dancing shadows,
Instead of focusing on the flames ebbs and flows,
The haunting doubts linger on, the fears I just can't seem to quell.
Every kiss comes with the bitter sting of knowing it will end,
Someday we all feel betrayed by our closest friends,
We can cry about it, let the tear drops burn our eyes,
Lay ourselves on sacred down and lay prone until we die.
Late in the night I reach out in the darkness just to find there's no one there
I feel the sadness fill my every cell and swear tha
The World I KnowHello. I'm Ebahr. I live in a corner of dA somewhere between the coffee pot and the restroom doors. It's a quiet little corner, very little every happens there. So I was surprised when a poem I uploaded led to a handful of conversations in comments, and a cluster of private conversation in messengers and RL. The poem was called Stay insane http://ebahr.deviantart.com/art/Stay-insane-210541933 and the conversations it led into were about self perception and views of what is beautiful in the world through everyday eyes.The World I Know4 years ago in Art Features
The conversations kept me thinking. I love glam shots, fav'ed many of them myself. But there's so much beauty in this world in the normal, everyday existence of human beings being human. So I posted a journal article suggesting a feature such as this. And I kept thinking about it.
Then I grabbed my coffee cup, crawled out of my little corner, and here I am- bringing you what I've seen lately as some great images of the world I know. Enjoy.
Break MeI said you won't get inside me,Break Me4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics
You have a better chance of seeing Jesus in his underwear,
I said you're not gonna take me,
Cause do I really look like someone who cares?
I said you should leave now,
Cause there nothing left that you haven't already said,
I said you should go now,
Cause you'll never get a look inside my head
I said what don't you understand?
Why would you want to put your heart on the line?
I said I'm not your kind of man,
The loving, sensitivity kind
And you said that you'll be right here,
Cause someday I'm gonna see the light,
Claimed that you'll wait right there,
When I finally give up the fight,
You said you'll wait an eternity,
For my crippled heart to atone,
Do you really think you'll
I'm another heart made of stone.
I said that it won't happen,
You can wait around till you're old and grey,
I said it will never happen,
You're just wasting all of these days,
I said you should give up,
I'm not worth all this trouble you're going through,
I said why won't y
In meI am not ashamed of the person I became,In me4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics
The mistakes I've made define me,
Change any moment and I'm not the same,
It took a thousand wasted tears to refine me
I'm not ashamed of the times I've wasted,
Every minute that fell short in a day,
Every drop of blood I've tasted,
Every time I stood there right in the way
And I'm not ashamed of my foolishness
You can call me stupid all you need
But It won't calm my restlessness
Or stop the trickles that I bleed
No I'm not ashamed of anything I am,
Not ashamed of anything I used to be,
I'm not ashamed of anything I said,
I'm only ashamed that I never truly believed..
I'm not ashamed to lie in good faith,
Or to play the villainous part,
I'll force a smile if I need to save face,
Not ashamed of a broken heart,
And let me tell you something, I'm not ashamed to lie,
I'm not afraid of darkness, and not afraid to die,
I'm not afraid of being alone, not afraid to be,
I'm only afraid of one thing, that you might see
..the real me
I can give you all the
SenselessI can hear you breath soft and warm against my hair,Senseless4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics
The quiet sigh left to linger in the thick air
A warm silence that envelopes us, holds against our skin
The lack of speaking, the silent conversations there within
I can feel your touch pressed against the back of my chest,
The steady rhythm that rises and falls with every breath,
And I can feel you right there, right here with me
The soft of your skin, the heat of your body
I can taste the air that surrounds you everyday,
A sweetened thickness that I have always craved
The taste that stains the tip of my tongue,
Flavoring my words with songs we've never sung
I can smell the delicate scent of your new perfume,
A mix of flowers just hanging in the room,
A hint of coffee left there on your breath,
The touch of rose water you dripped between your breasts,
Every part of me, every part of you,
My senses tell me what I never knew,
I can smell the soft warm scent of Irish Spring,
Mingled with a a little hint of lilac,
And every sense is tel
Tragic ComedyStop me if you've heard this one, I'll try and make you smile,Tragic Comedy4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics
Maybe my sarcastic sense of humor will keep you smirking for a while,
Perhaps I'll just be silly, and stay like that today,
Tossing out some stupid jokes before I run away,
A rope walked in a bar, and is told "We don't serve your kind",
So he walked out of the door and made his top unwind,
Tied himself into a bow, walked in and took a seat,
Waved his tossled head towards the same barkeep,
The bartender walked up to him, and said "I've seen you before,
Aren't you the rope I just tossed out that door?"
The rope shook his head, the tassel spinning around a lot
And replied in steady voice "Nope, I'm a frayed knot."
You get the joke there don't you? The little play on words?
It's old and it's too simple, a little bit absurd
But it achieves my goal here, what I need to do,
Blur the definitions of what I say to you
What did the farmer say when he lost his plow?
"Where's my plow?" Did you get that joke now?
Ask me anything, I'll ha
Why I'm An AlienI've never seen a dog that didn't understand every other dogs intent,Why I'm An Alien4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics
Never seen birds that didn't know what each other meant.
Cat and mice somehow know how to communicate with their kind,
Told by some ancient wisdom, a primal instinct stored inside
Then I look around me and realize I simply do not understand
These confusing evolved apes we live with that call themselves human.
They'll revel in the darkest fantasy and erotic lustful dreams,
Then when it's mentioned in the light, they'll cry that it's obscene.
Many will claim they are consumed with love then mate with another
Betraying the trust of someone else just for the sake of one more lover.
Some will betray the sacred trust and blood bonds of family,
Then cry at a strangers funeral, mourning someone they'll never need.
Others will talk in riddles to hide the meaning of what they say,
Double talking everything so they can speak while giving nothing away.
Some will surround themselves with as many people as the
I Want Your LlamasI'm a spectator on the sidelines, watching all the newsI Want Your Llamas4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics
Keeping track of the differing of individual views
It very entertaining, a full cyber-society
Separated into categories, spread out before me.
Heading to photography, looking for inspiration now
Some visual queue that I can turn into words somehow
Flipping back to literature, caught on every word
Horror, sex, and some comedy that borders on absurd
Perhaps the digital art section will have just what I need
Some fantasy image that will appeal to me
Spark the thoughts inside my head and a story comes to life
Perhaps a poetic epic, filled with blood and strife.
But then I got distracted, in the Mature Content zones
Always so inviting when I'm sitting here alone.
I force myself to click away, and view photo manips instead
I know I must write something, get the words out of my head
It's just so easy to wander off, and wonder what is going on
In the public galleries filled with emoticons
I shouldn't be so distracted, I'm supposed to be w
Insomnia -AcrosticSleepless nights and the cold endless daysInsomnia -Acrostic4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics
Linger restless in my mind
Interrupting what should be the sweetest dreams
Peace and calm denied
Perhaps the nightmares are warning me
Interventions from my hell
Nudging me towards other things
Guidance to my tale
I can't continue on this way
Nor can I find a way to rest
Tomorrow holds no solace now,
Only endless tiredness
Damn the break of sunrise
And the rising of the day
Return the darkness to me
Keep the dreams away
Nocturnal voices crone to me,
Every haunted lullaby
So they echo in twisted chords
Sleep and rests denied
Her voice accuses me endlessly
Every sin constantly revealed
Laughing, mocking, taunting me
Proporting my fate is sealed
Morpheus I beg of you
Enough of this torturing
Send me passage to your realms
And let me slip beneath the wings
Vow to me no more endless night
Emerge me from my shame,
Mired dreams and tired eyes,
Every nights the same
Dish pan handsThe sight, it quickly sickens me,Dish pan hands4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics
makes my wicked stomach turn,
mayonnaise left on the plate,
She said when will you ever learn?
It's not that hard a concept,
Just rinse the dishes when you're done,
She bitched about it endlessly,
Now we're washing for no one,
It's echo's in the memories,
From another place and time,
From before I was alone,
Words lost on my mind.
I remember thinking she was mad,
It's nothing, I used to say
And instead of just doing it,
I stayed set in my ways.
Now I feel the dish water,
So hot it scolds my skin,
I scrub away the memories,
like it would wash away my sins.
My mind slips slowly back,
To a terminal demise,
When I thought what was my life,
died before my eyes,
Stubborn pride and dish pan hands,
It's what I'm left with now,
As the water fills on upward,
I'm forgetting it somehow.
My mind is slowly drifting,
To a different time and place,
When I swore I had everything,
The flaws I wouldn't face,
I told her I just didn't care,
I said it's nothing t
Goldfish EulogySo it's been about a month now since it all began,Goldfish Eulogy4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics
when this deranged goldfish of mine caught my attention
By taking his own life in the most dramatic way,
And I left him on the floor, where's he's sitting to this day.
It's not really looking pretty, and I should skip this part
But at least I'm determined to finish what I start,
I can barely recognize him now, and some parts just aren't there
I looked all over for them, but can't find them anywhere.
Most of his scales have fallen off, some have turned to dust
And what used to be his eyes, well they more like a crust
I think I can still see one, it's shriveled up and almost out of sight
It's either one of his eyes balls, or a stray dust mite.
My sister saw him yesterday, and wanted to throw the remains away,
But I threw a total fit, demanding that there is where he'll stay,
I claim it is muse, and without him I can not write.
She finally stormed away from it, sickened by the sight.
Myself, I find it fascinating, I see a skull
Make you cryI can hear your laughter ringing long into the night,Make you cry4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics
Your smile haunts me everyday, radiating light
Nothing ever goes wrong and your futures looking bright,
I want to make you cry.
I've seen your naked body shimmering in sweat,
Seen you in the morning when you ain't had coffee yet,
Your make up on the pillow mixed with no regret,
I want to make you cry
Everything is perfect, the bacon's nice and crisp,
And nothing could improve on days that start like this,
Muscles sore and aching, it shows us we're alive
But there's something eating at me, something deep inside
I can see your bright eyes shining a million miles away,
Taste the Chapstick on your lips as we head out for the day,
And I can hear quite clearly every word you say,
But I want to make you cry
I still smell your perfume on me, lingering somewhere
Mingled with the soft scent left over from your hair,
It's killing me because I am so aware
I want to make you cry
We're coasting through the hours, and gliding through the days
Random and SloppyI'm really not sure why I'm here right now,Random and Sloppy4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics
I really don't have much left to share,
Sometimes I think I'm just too random,
To even really care,
It's not like I'm being social,
Or chatting with close friends,
I'm just tossing words in the air,
And watching them up-end
I don't know what my purpose is,
Not sure where I belong,
I'm not a literary genius,
Can't write stories or love songs.
Maybe I should alliterate,
if I knew what that words means,
Supply a slant to separate,
some stale monotony,
Perhaps provide happy consonance,
If it made any sense,
Check the meter one more time,
And comprehend an anapest.
And still somehow it's empty,
Just letters from my mind,
Spending times relearning,
How words should be defined,
So I don't know what I'm doing here,
Except writing to please me,
Creating something like myself
Random and sloppy,
MentalI'm feelingMental4 years ago in Free Verse
Not losing my mind.
Lost within it.
Say a prayerLooking out over steady water, looking for another future,Say a prayer4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics
I never knew it would come around again,
How'd it get so cold, I'm too young to be this old,
Let me raise my voice on a haunted wind
Watch the clouds rolling in, a storm that never ends
I swore tomorrow would be different
Well tomorrows here today, everything's exactly the same
And yet another day is spent
Live your life like there's nothing left,
look at the sky with brand new eyes,
If you keep seeing things the same old way,
You'll be trapped in the same old lies,
Send a prayer for the lonely daughter,
Send a prayer to the broken son,
You can scrub your sins away in the holy water,
But when the night is over and another day is done,
If you just keep doing what yesterday dictates,
You'll only have the same old pain,
the same love and hates,
So send a prayer to your holy heaven,
Send a prayer to the keeper of your hell,
And when you're done whispering your words,
Raise your voice and say a prayer for yours
Refugee trapped in the nowEvery time I look around, I wonder how I'm still sitting here,Refugee trapped in the now4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics
I've wandered the face of this earth, always going nowhere,
All these years behind me and I still I don't quite know,
Why I'm still alive and where I'm supposed to go,
I think back to the earliest of my childhood memories,
Sticking a fork in an electric socket and my mother scolding me,
A little bit older and getting hit hard by a careless driver,
While cleaning up the blood, my grandfather saying I'm a survivor
I remember falling off the roof of where we used to live,
hitting the ground so hard they thought I broke my ribs,
Getting back up again and running down the the street to play,
I should have been dead by now in so many different ways.
I remember penicillin making my face blow up like a balloon,
My throat closing down on itself and blackness taking over the room,
I remember the pain and burning when they brought me back again,
The light so intense that everything else was just consumed,
I remember when a simple head
Under the Floorboards-AcrosticScript written in shaking handsUnder the Floorboards-Acrostic4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics
Hold the only answers to the lies
Eternal secrets written down
Hidden away from prying eyes
One old spiral notebook
Lines forged in blood and tears
Descriptions of every single moment
Secrets no one hears
The moment she betrayed my trust
Her indiscretion and my rage
Engulfing every syllable
Burned into every page
One simple little notebook
One secret that I've held in me
Kept hidden within this old house
The spiders only company
Only words written on lined paper to remind me of what I've done
Holding secret memories that I must hide from everyone
Each and every night I walk across them a dozen times,
Right there beneath the floor boards, the record of my mind
Chaotic calmness consumes me
Her memory lingers on,
Even though she's disappeared,
She's never really gone
The moment she betrayed me,
That was the moment I wrote about
Her lying, cheating, hateful ways
Every insecurity and doubt
Put down in into that journal
Reminders of what should never be
Mammon's Riches 7DS-1(Greed)Mammon's Riches 7DS-14 years ago in Songs & Lyrics
Come here for just a moment child, listen to what I have to say,
Why should they have everything while you work like a slave?
Look at them, it's such a disgusting sight I see,
Don't you ever ask why it's them not me?
You deserve the very best in life, you deserve to be on top,
You earned the right to rise through the roof, you should never stop,
Why settle for a little when you should have a lot,
You should be the one enjoying everything they've got.
It's only natural to want to have a little more,
Something better then what you had before,
And if they get in your way, push them down
There's not enough to go around
So do what ever it takes, get down on your knees,
I will give you everything if you worship me.
Little lambs of solid gold, fans lined up across the street,
You should have it all, there is no need to be discreet.
You need a different lover, right here every night
You need to define what is wrong and right,
Those that have have the power, they make all the rul
No Welcome Back?Mourning by the grave those tears were never meant for me,No Welcome Back?4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics
An empty box is all that's laid in the ground for my memory,
They never found my body 'though they searched for ..what?.. a year,
Even you went to check on me, but some how I disappeared.
I cursed you with my final breath and swore I'd get you back,
I'd be your karma and your death, I'll stain your soul to black
You thought you got off scot free and dead men tell no tales
Your one mistake was choosing me, the plan destined to fail.
You thought that I was gone for good, such a silly way of thinking,
I've done what you said I never could, tell me when will it sink in?
Constant cravings fill my mind with a hunger for human flesh,
Not the wasted corpses next to mine, I like my produce fresh.
So light the candle, set the plate, Invite the reaper in,
I feel the hours growing late, it's time for dinner to begin,
Call the demons home tonight with the promise of a feast,
A sickle for a carving knife, I'll take a side of beast