Trying to Hold onTrying to hold on.Trying to Hold on1 day ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Trying to hold on when buttons don't go in button holes like my dreams don't fit. My soul is not the right shape, not the right color and will never fit.
They say "try to hold on" when my dreams are hours of choking nightmares and broken glass, of things that already happened but didn't have the balls to finish me off.
Trying to me is knowing my passion is warped with my disease, not just a cover... a lie here to make a fool of me, when I know it's unloveable.
Try to hold on when a phone is just a mechanism of voices. Voices of all the people I have let down. People I have loved, people trying to force themselves to love me, struggling and pretending to understand with small smiles and sullen eyes.
Trying to hold on are my hands running raw in the bathroom sink because no matter how many times I wash them they are never EVER clean!
Trying to hold on is me wanting to eat but stopping at the door because I'm too afraid of what hidden